[Shadow] @shadowsden97 - Tumblr Blog

How are you supposed to just get up and go to school and go to work and come home and make dinner and fold the laundry and not want to kill yourself the whole fucking time.

emotionaleating

pls don’t flirt with me i want to be nonchalant so bad but i unfortunately crave connection so intensely that i will give you my entire soul and forgive you over and over until i’ve lost myself completely and feel like i’m drowning

ufocomeandgetmeplease-deactivat

I hate seeing other people my age starting into life while all I think about is it’s end..

emotionaleating

when someone doesn’t wanna tell me what i did wrong and suddenly i’m 8 years old wondering what i did to make my mom mad again

ttrust-no-one

Tumblr is not a social media, it's an online psych ward.

loullipopx

My Pokémon ❤️💙

bpdohwhatajoy

werewolveswithdiaries

thoughts that are constantly lingering my mind due to my BPD:

“i will never be loveable enough” it’s the constant doubt that you have been born broken, that no matter how much you put in the effort, you will never be worthy of love. and people will prove it to you, over and over again

“if they cared about me, only a bit, i wouldn’t have turned out this way” it’s the bitter, soul-crushing realisation that other people’s actions made you the way you are. if they have cared for and protected you, you would have been exempt from a disease which constantly feels like having 4th degree burns

“go away!… i beg, you don t leave me” regretting your impulsive reactions, how you’re pushing people away in the blink of an eye. how sometimes is no turning back and they’re gone forever because they cannot deal with your volatile and intense emotions anymore

“i have ruined my body due to bad things that were not my fault “ regretting the ways you cope in order to survive unimaginable terrific and traumatic situations. sometimes it is so hard to spare some compassion for yourself but other times, you’re filled with so, so much anger that tears form in your eyes and you just mumbled to yourself how you did not deserve any of it

“who even am I?” not having a clue in the world of who you are must be such a disheartening experience. constantly wondering who you are at core, but never reaching far enough for an answer

“they will change this time, I can feel it” giving a second and third and too many chances to people who have proven nothing else but failing you over and over again. yet being mistreated feels lighter than the debilitating loneliness

ashen--nightmares

i knew i wasnt supposed to live past 18

commonzinnia

currently feeling loved. time to think, time to be fearful

ufocomeandgetmeplease-deactivat

I was never supposed to make it this far

trixeclipse

Geralt sketches from screenshots ⚔️✨

whitepeopletwitter

debkorvelus

I feel sorry for the old man, but it was stealing. There is no apparently about it. Water is not free, it’s not a right to have it, and people pay must pay for it. If a government gives a thing to you like utilities, its still not free because they take it from somewhere else, like in taxes.