Missing Something

Nothing is ever perfect... It's always missing something. Can you find the beauty in that?

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Song of the Day: The Vespers - Winter

A couple sat in front of me It just made me more lonely He was laughing on her I was looking for the cure I stood up to move away Find a different seat on the train How to escape from you, I don't know what to do

You said you would follow me if I went amiss But how could I guess it’d be like this? You said you would hold me close and never let go But how could I know it’d feel so cold It feels so cold But I am warmer now that I'm alone The porter had your golden hair I did my best not to stare There was a boy with eyes of green But it was you I was seeing The frosty window was a pattern of lace Made me think of your freckled face Oh, this I cannot live How I wish I didn't care You said you would follow me if I went amiss But how could I guess it’d be like this You said you would hold me close and never let go But how could I know it’d feel so cold It feels so cold But I am warmer now that I'm alone All my love I gave it to you But I promise I don't miss you All I’ve got is nothing now But I promise I don't miss you A couple sat in front of me It just made me more lonely It feels so cold, but I am warmer now That I'm alone.

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Song of the Day: Modest Mouse - Lampshades on Fire

Mmm buh, buh, buh, buh, buh, buh, buh-duh-dah Duh, duh, duh, duh, duh, duh, duh-duh-dah

We're all goin', we're all goin'

Well, the lampshade's on fire when the lights go out The room lit up and we ran about Well, this is what I really call a party now Packed up our cars, moved to the next town

Well, the lampshades's on fire when the lights go out This is what I really call a party now Well, fear makes us really, really run around This one's done so where to now?

Our eyes light up, we have no shame at all Well you all know what I'm talking' about Shaved off my eyebrows when I fall to the ground So I can't look surprised right now

Pack up again, head to the next place Where we'll make the same mistakes Burn it up, or just chop it down Ah, this one's done so where to now?

Buh, buh, buh, buh, buh, buh, buh-duh-dah Duh, duh, duh, duh, duh, duh, duh-duh-dah

We're all goin', we're all goin'

Well, the lampshade's on fire when the lights go out This is what I really call a party now Well, fear makes us really, really run around Ah, this one's done so where to now?


Our eyes light up, we have no shame at all Well, you all know what I'm talkin' about The room lights up, well, we're still dancing around We're havin' fun, havin' some for now

Pack up again, head to the next place Where we'll make the same mistakes Open one up and let it fall to the ground Pile out the door when it all runs out

Buh, buh, buh, buh, buh, buh, buh-duh-dah Duh, duh, duh, duh, duh, duh, duh-duh-dah

We're all goin', we're all goin'

We have spines in our bones We'll eat your food, we'll throw stones
 Oh, this is how it's always gone And this is how it's goin' to go

Well, we're the human race We're goin' to party out of this place And then move on

Tough love

We'll kill you off and then make a clone Yeah, we got spines, yeah, we have bones This is how it's always gone And this is how it's goin' to go

As our feelings are getting hurt Ah, we want you to do the work Our ass looks great inside these jeans Well, we all just don't wanna' clean

Oh, this is how it's always been And this is how it's goin' to be So, you just move on

The air's on fire so we're movin' on Better find another one 'cause this one's done Waitin' for the magic when the scientists glow To push, push, push, push, pull us up

Spend some time to float in outer space Find another planet, make the same mistakes Our mind's all shattered when we climb aboard Hopin' for the scientists to find another door

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Song of the Day: Portugal. The Man - Sea of Air

It's came the day we found a sea of air When we went back nothing was there It towered so tall it nearly left the ground Still when we looked nothing was found There was nothing up there no, no nothing at all Nothing but space nothing but ground All the things I want and the things I need When there's nothing but stars looking back at me But I'll be brave I'll be brave I'll be brave When the timing comes around I'll be brave yeah I'll be brave Just let me go now Let me go now We've got the whole world hanging there In our little sea of air We've got the whole world hanging there In our little sea of air We've got the whole world just hanging now We've got no seed of doubt We've got the whole world hanging there When you talk to god about suicide When you never hear back I hope you're still alive And the part of you that never cared Well you can leave it here in the sea of air But I'll be brave I'll be brave I'll be brave When the timing comes around I'll be brave yeah I'll be brave Just let me go now Let me go now We've got the whole world hanging there In our little sea of air We've got the whole world hanging there In our little sea of air We've got the whole world just hanging now We've got no seed of doubt We've got the whole world hanging there In our little In our little sea of air In our little In our little sea of air We've got the whole world just hanging there In our little sea of air We've got the whole world hanging theeeere In our little sea of air [x6]

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Song of the Day: Tom Odell - Heal

Take my mind and take my pain Like an empty bottle takes the rain And heal. Take my past and take my sins Like an empty sail takes the wind And heal. And tell me some things last And tell me some things last Take my heart and take my hand Like an ocean takes the dirty sands And heal Take my mind and take my pain Like an empty bottle takes the rain And heal And tell me some things last And tell me some things last

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Song of the Day: Zoe Keating - Optimist

No lyrics in this one. :)

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Song of the Day: Of Monsters and Men - Crystals

Lost in skies of powdered gold Caught in clouds of silver ropes Showered by the empty hopes As I tumble down, falling fast to the ground I know I'll wither so peel away the bark Because nothing grows when it is dark In spite of all my fears, I can see it all so clear I see it all so clear Cover your crystal eyes And feel the tones that tremble down your spine Cover your crystal eyes And let your colours bleed and blend with mine Making waves in pitch black sand Feel the salt dance on my hands Raw and charcoal coloured thighs feel so cold And my skin feels so paper-thin I know I'll wither so peel away the bark Because nothing grows when it is dark In spite of all my fears, I can see it all so clear I see it all so clear Cover your crystal eyes And feel the tones that tremble down your spine Cover your crystal eyes And let your colours bleed and blend with mine But I'm okay in see-through skin I forgive what is within Because I'm in this house I'm in this home All my time Cover your crystal eyes And feel the tones that tremble down your spine Cover your crystal eyes And let your colours bleed and blend with mine

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Song of the Day: Primal Scream - Walking with the Beast

Violence in the air Damage everywhere Murder in my dreams Waking up to screams I just can't explain The way I feel inside Hits me like a train Eating me alive

Walking with the beast Walking with the beast You can't get no peace Walking with the beast You can't get no peace You can't get no peace Walking with the beast

There goes another man His future in his hands Doesn't know he's going down He's still laughing as he drowns His pain is his disease Hurts him every time he breathes Hates himself and everyone He's sucking on a loaded gun

Walking with the beast Walking with the beast You can't get no peace Walking with the beast You can't get no peace You can't get no peace Walking with the beast

[amortizing]

'That’s the problem with drinking,' I thought, as I poured myself a drink. 'If something bad happens, you drink in an attempt to forget; if something good happens, you drink in order to celebrate; and if nothing happens, you drink to make something happen.'

Charles Bukowski (via amortizing)

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How are you? How's everything going?

Thank you for asking kind Anon :)

I am alive. Gma is doing well, thanks to everyone who wished her well.

I have to have some skin cancer removed soon. It’s on my toe and groinal area lol, so it had to be outsourced to a plastic surgeon. Urk.

I retain my sense of humor, even as I mentally crumble and attempt to rebuild.

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Song of the Day: Roo Panes - Land of the Living

Where did they go That which I cherish and that I wrestle Don't want to be like the dust that settles This empire of nothing I find that I'm king of all these empty holes That are ruled by my own flaws But you can't be an old fire If you are burning with a new flame So remember that, you are never a forgotten name Cause I know a land called the land of the living It's the world beyond those curtains where we learned to play I hear the voices of my childhood singing It's the world beyond those doorways where we used to play Cause every moment Is a chance to define what you want to become You're not a slave to things you've done Be brave and be bold, Be childish and old it's the same old story Every life needs a hope of glory. But you can't be an old fire If you’re burning with a new flame So remember that, you are never a forgotten name. Cause I know a land called the land of the living It's the world beyond those curtains where we learned to play I hear the voices of my childhood singing It's the world beyond those doorways where we used to play. I was born to be free, you were born to free me I was born to be free, you were born to free me I was born to be free, you were born to free me I was born to be free, you were born to free me. Cause I know a land called the land of the living It's the world beyond those curtains where we learned to play I hear the voices of my childhood singing It's the world beyond those doorways where we used to play I know a land called the land of the living It's the world beyond those curtains where we learned to play Oh we'll go back, we'll go back to the beginning And well pick up on the trails of forgotten ways.

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Song of the Day: Roo Panes - Silver Moon

Down by the waters Where I once dreamed Beneath the silver moon There you’ll find me 

My heart a pilgrim My mind a slave Oh my eyes can’t stand to see the light of day ‘cause life is lost without love, wouldn’t you say?

I wish you’d follow Me to my peace Lend me your hands I’ll bring you from your knees

My love is faithful Your love is true And I know the silver moon will shine for you Oh I know the silver moon will shine for you

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Song of the Day: Amber Run - I Found

I'll use you as a warning sign That if you talk enough sense then you'll lose your mind I'll use you as a focal point So I don't lose sight of what I want I've moved further than I thought I could But I miss you more than I thought I would I'll use you as a warning sign That if you talk enough sense then you'll lose your mind

I found love where it wasn't supposed to be Right in front of me Talk some sense to me I found love where it wasn't supposed to be Right in front of me Talk some sense to me

I'll use you as a makeshift gauge Of how much to give and how much to take I'll use you as a warning sign That if you talk enough sense then you'll lose your mind

I found love where it wasn't supposed to be Right in front of me Talk some sense to me I found love where it wasn't supposed to be Right in front of me Talk some sense to me

I found love where it wasn't supposed to be Right in front of me Talk some sense to me I found love where it wasn't supposed to be Right in front of me Talk some sense to me

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Song of the Day: Hozier - Sedated

Just a little rush, babe To feel dizzy, to derail the mind of me Just a little hush, babe Our veins are busy but my heart's in atrophy Any way to distract and sedate Adding shadows to the walls of the cave You and I nursing on a poison that never stung Our teeth and lungs are lined with the scum of it Somewhere for this, death and guns We are deaf, we are numb Free and young and we can feel none of it Something isn't right, babe I keep catching little words but the meaning's thin I'm somewhere outside my life, babe I keep scratching but somehow I can't get in So we're slaves to any semblance of touch Lord we should quit but we love it too much Sedated we're nursing on a poison that never stung Our teeth and lungs are lined with the scum of it Somewhere for this, death and guns We are deaf, we are numb Free and young and we can feel none of it Darlin', don't you, stand there watching, won't you Come and save me from it Darlin', don't you, join in, you're supposed to Drag me away from it Any way to distract and sedate Adding shadows to the walls of the cave You and I nursing on a poison that never stung Our teeth and lungs are lined with the scum of it Somewhere for this, death and guns We are deaf, we are numb Free and young and we can feel none of it Sedated we're nursing on a poison that never stung Our teeth and lungs are lined with the scum of it Somewhere for this, death and guns We are deaf, we are numb Free and young and we can feel none of it

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Song of the Day: X Ambassadors - Unsteady

Hold, hold on, hold onto me 'Cause I'm a little unsteady A little unsteady Hold, hold on, hold onto me 'Cause I'm a little unsteady A little unsteady Mama, come here Approach, appear Daddy, I'm alone 'Cause this house don't feel like home If you love me, don't let go If you love me, don't let go Hold, hold on, hold onto me 'Cause I'm a little unsteady A little unsteady Hold, hold on, hold onto me 'Cause I'm a little unsteady A little unsteady Mother, I know That you're tired of being alone Dad, I know you're trying To fight when you feel like flying But if you love me, don't let go If you love me, don't let go Hold, hold on, hold onto me 'Cause I'm a little unsteady A little unsteady Hold, hold on, hold onto me 'Cause I'm a little unsteady A little unsteady Hold, hold on, hold onto me 'Cause I'm a little unsteady A little unsteady

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Song of the Day: George Ezra - Coat of Armour

Is it time that you move on Collect your bags from the doorstep I'll take them on, I'll take the noise There's no way back, 'cause your back gone Is it not clear where it all went wrong I can't purify, can't make it right Is she letting you down again Is she letting you down We'll drive slower, 'round the corner Hoping all this will change I'm your brother, your coat of armour Hoping all this will change You worked it down, all long ago Lay your arms on the doorstep I feel the tension, I feel the worst Is she letting you down again Is she letting you down Is she letting you down again Is she letting you down We'll drive slower, 'round the corner Hoping all this will change I'm your brother, your coat of armour Hoping all this will change Is she letting you down again Is she letting you down Is she letting you down again Is she letting you down We'll drive slower, 'round the corner Hoping all this will change I'm your brother, your coat of armour Hoping all this will change We'll drive slower, 'round the corner Hoping all this will change I'm your brother, your coat of armour Hoping all this will change I'm your brother, your coat of armour

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Song of the Day: Amber Run - Chamber

It's the leaves in autumn, And the bird in flight, It's the world you're seeing in the dead of the night, It's north on your compass, And the wind in your sails, Or the forward movement when all else fails. Oh it's the empty chamber of a loaded gun, It's the finish line of a race half run, Oh it's the breath to a candle who's flame won't burn, And if it's all of these things, Why wouldn't you want it, That much, At all. (Chamber) It's the snow in winter, And the lion's roar, Or the moves you're making when you're hungry for more, Oh it's the smell of your best friend and the time it takes, To know for sure if your heart can break. Oh it's the empty chamber of a loaded gun, It's the finish line of a race half run, Oh it's the breath to a candle who's flame won't burn, And if it's all of these things, Why wouldn't you want it, That much, At all. (Chamber)(Chamber) (Chamber)(Chamber) Oh it's the empty chamber of a loaded gun, It's the finish line of a race half run, It's the breath to a candle who's flame won't burn, And if it's all of these things, Why wouldn't you want it, That much, At all

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Song of the Day: Hozier - Arsonist’s Lullaby

[Humming] When I was a child, I heard voices... Some would sing and some would scream You soon find you have few choices... I learned the voices died with me When I was a child, I'd sit for hours Staring into open flame Something in it had a power, Could barely tear my eyes away All you have is your fire... And the place you need to reach - Don't you ever tame your demons But always keep 'em on a leash [Humming] When I was 16, my senses fooled me Thought gasoline was on my clothes I knew that something would always rule me... I knew the scent was mine alone All you have is your fire And the place you need to reach Don't you ever tame your demons But always keep 'em on a leash When I was a man I thought it ended When I knew love's perfect ache But my peace has always depended On all the ashes in my wake All you have is your fire, And the place you need to reach Don't you ever tame your demons, But always keep 'em on a leash...