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little late to the party but soul flowers is a year old and it makes me emotional 😭💕

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something taking shape over here 🫣

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i have a new idea for autistic shane who will sometimes get very overwhelmed and just go silent and needs quiet and ilya is always prepared to be his husbands safe haven, no matter when or where he needs him

it happens after a bad game and shane has that look about him so ilya just calls “sunshine” and pulls him between his legs and goes “headphone time?” and shane is a little resistant bc they are in front of team and the coach still needs to talk with them but ilya reassures him like “just until coach yes?” and shane gives in and just sits between ilya’s thighs on the floor while ilya gets his headphones and him being all gentle like “do you want touch or just sit there?” and shane nonverbally grabs his wrist just to hold it against his neck (the only place his skin is available for touch) and ilya just hums to let him know it’s okay before settling his headphones on him

one of their teammates thinks they are doing something risqué but ilya is like “sometimes too loud, too bright for my shane” bc god forbid anyone make his husband feel bad for needing to be quiet for a little bit

and they all can’t help but notice how shane just melts into ilya’s hold and lets his husband care for him. and when the coach comes in, ilya gently pulls the headphones away while making placating sounds and just easily shifts shane so his back is to him and they watch as ilya drapes his weight over shane’s back. they think that it will upset him having ilya’s body on him but shane looks so relieved at the weight that he can actually sit through the coach’s talk without melting down.

but it’s a ticking time bomb and ilya desperately needs to get his husband home so he can care for him further

this idea has been rattling around in my dreams, meaning im going to HAVE to write it

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back to the hollanov vampire au (i wrote a sentence 😵‍💫)

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i'm almost done chapter eleven

would you guys like chapter five tonight??? 🫣🫣🫣🫣

[sitkowskiryan]

sent my friend a snippet of the current chapter i’m writing

keep in mind they have been held against their will to learn the rexwalker lore 😂

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bringing the angst to you

[sitkowskiryan]

back to the vampire hollanov fic

i feel like i lost the ability to write sex scenes omg i like lost my mind 😭 but i got a lot more written than i have in the last few weeks so there is that! finally into the drama points so hopefully i write a little faster!

please enjoy this snippet!

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have i finished chapter 11? nope

am i writing chapter 12? yep! 😁

doing the thing where you write the scene you want to in hopes it will inspire you to finish the other parts - aka exactly how i wrote 80k before the first chapter 😭 i really want to have the next chapter for you guys (apparently the 6th of every month is for soul flowers to some readers 😂)

maybe in doing this i’ll figure out how the hell we get there from chapter 11 😭

[sitkowskiryan]

i haven’t updated you guys in awhile and i just re-read this part and thought you guys may like it! i won’t tell you which chapter it’s from though 😚

i’m slowly making my way through chapter 11

writing anakin with other jedi is difficult and i don’t know why? it’s just so much easier with the vode or with rex and ahsoka idk 🤷‍♀️ you guys may also not like my portrayal of the council and obiwan in later chapters and you know what it’s okay! there are plenty of fics where obiwan saves the day, let’s have him be the bad guy for once!

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back again with vampire hollanov

ilya is gonna combust if he finds one more injury on shane

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i know the heated rivalry fandom is strict but can i talk about age regression little shane au for a second???

like he wakes up small(ish) and he tries his best to be big because its not one of their designated days for it. but it isn't really working and he is struggling with it quietly bc ilya did not wake up in a good mood and he does not want to upset him more by telling him that his husband actually needs his caregiver.

so shane is pretty decent at hiding it at practice, maybe he smiles and cheers a little bit more than he usually would but all of the centaurs are eating it up bc holly is actually being playful at practice!! and it is all fine and well, except ilya's mood has not gotten better and it is getting worse when he cannot manage to get down the new trick he has been working on

it all comes to head when shane realizes he has to go to the bathroom and seeks out ilya like he's supposed to when he is small. only to be met with "just fucking go hollander!" in an angered hiss. ilya never speaks to small shane like this and now (the easy practice having only made him sink further in his headspace) not able to tell the difference between his caregiver and husband, shane just mumbles a small "ok" and skates off before he cries in front of everyone.

only small shane is not the best at navigating and he cannot find the bathroom, leading to him having an accident in the hallway and being discovered by luca and bood. he never wanted the team to find out about his headspace, but the circumstances were taken out of his hands but everyone is so nice about it and mad at ilya for upsetting shane

wyatt has the be the one to pull ilya off the ice and he is still pissy until wyatt twists his fist into ilya jersey and tugs him off the ice and is like "what did you say to upset holly?" and has to explain to ilya how they found him and ilya is RACING to the locker room where luca of all people is blocking him from getting to the showers bc "shane didn't say he wanted to see you or not"

and its ilya trying desperately to hide shane's secret, meanwhile bood is in the shower cleaning him up and telling him how brave he is while shane sucks his thumb and cries. he hears ilya and he gets this scared yet needy look on his face bc he is a little scared of being yelled at again but this is his illy and he wants comfort

and just the angst of the situation and shane being so sad but still wanting to be held by ilya who is kicking himself for not realizing his husband needed him and being upset over stupid things

i know this isnt everyone's cup of tea but it is actually eating away at my brain

[hearteyes-wheeler]

Rest in peace ❌ Rest in pieces ✅

[thefingerfuckingfemalefury]

I like the implication that Caesar gets re-murdered each time

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everyone make sure you leave out the milk and cookies and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife and knife tonight 🥰

[xalatath]

I'm high looking at street cat wiki. Thus is too much for me

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jeaneil omegaverse au where alpha! neil is nathaniel and he is the butcher apprentice and he gets sent to evermore on business for kengo. he comes when the ravens are practicing and his attention gets stuck on omega! jean moreau. he had never been allowed to focus on exy as a child but there is some memorizing about watching him play that it takes ichirou physically pulling him away so they can go to their meeting.

cut to them leaving then run into the ravens three (riko, kevin, and jean) and while ichirou is freaking out about running into his brother, nathaniel can only focus on the scent coming from jean. no omega has ever gotten his attention like this before, he is actually known for never letting biology rule him. but jeans smells so fucking good and the omega seems to like his as well.

so nathaniel starts to court the omega, wanting to be all proper about it and jean accepts his courting <3 and its all going great until nathaniel goes to the court again and jean has a bruise on his face. he demands tetsuji to pull jean to the locker room so he can talk with him (nathaniel outranks tetsuji in this structure ofc) and he is like "who the fuck touched you?" and jean doesn't want to admit to it but nathaniel is incensed and will not let it go and he just gets out "r-riko!"

nathaniel just goes dead silent and nods his head. "do not worry about it, he will never put his hands on you again" and he goes to ichirou and is like "your second son harmed my omega and i will kill him if he does it again" don't take this au so seriously fr, i know nathaniel is just a pawn in the moriyama crime syndicate but i feel like he would have proved himself invaluable and is ichirou's right hand bc he is not as tempered as his father. so like irchirou takes it seriously

it's also nathaniel bringing him to a fancy event and jean being shy at first but out right baring his fangs at anyone who touches his alpha and nathaniel is just beaming wide at his protective omega <3333

i have no idea where this idea came from since it has been years since i have had aftg brain rot but i keep thinking about jeaneil and mattneil today

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