"Everyone thinks the life of an addict is so crazy and glamorous. Like how drugs are portrayed in the movies. You picture junkies running through the streets robbing people you picture gun shots, sex and money. You imagine crazy adventures and running from the cops like the movie Spring Beakers. Truth is, addicts lives are nothing like how they appear to be in hollywood. Drug addiction is pathetic. Youāll still be an addict after the two hour movie comes to an end and everyone leaves the theater.Ā
Thereās a hidden reality to the drug world that people donāt seem to understand. Everyday thereās a new dilemma. How will you get enough money to get your next fix? Will your dealer have enough to get you high? Drugs engulf your everyday thought. Finding drugs, finding money, doing drugs, coming down, feeling regretful, going up, loving drugs and hating drugs, hating yourself, being too high to hate anything, finding a place to do drugs, making shitty friends, losing friends, getting sober, relapsing, losing your family, dead friends and finding more money all over again.
It appears so thrilling in the beginning. But after watching the same few scenes, year after year it becomes your least favorite movie. Youāll look around and realize the theater is empty because all of your friends moved to different movies years ago. Youāre alone. Junkie bonds and junkie friends never last long. Theyāre almost as unreliable as the drugs theyāre doing. If you look in the mirror and canāt love yourself, how could you possibly love anyone else? ....
Wouldnāt it be lovely if our lives were like the drug movies? That there was in fact a happy ending. If our lives were a drug movie, the nightmare would end as soon as the credits started rolling. You could get up out of your seat and leave the theater and live your own life. You could leave the theater and chose a different film to watch. If life were a drug movie, I wouldnāt have an aching hole in my chest. Too bad rock bottom only plays one channel and my remote is broken indefinitely. "
you are kidding me, right?
i am supposed to say something after THAT?
she's covered it i think
brave gal!b brave!














