An on Fire Moron With a 1000° Knife

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[sixty-silver-wishes]

happy pride month to the fuck tree I guess

[tearlessrain]

having anxiety is like being given permanent unwanted custody of a halter arabian. like okay buddy is it panic time again. cool you probably need more exercise and an apple and then maybe you'll calm down.

[tearlessrain]

taking my stupid walks for my stupid mental health with my stupid hypervigilant brain horse

[tearlessrain]

thoroughly enjoying the notes on this post because it's equal parts people with anxiety going "yeah that's what it's like" and people with arabians going "yeah that's what they're like"

[animentality]

[genderkoolaid]

we need more stories about high femme prom queen types who become weird faggy guys. you haven't seen Behaviors until you've seen a repressed closeted tboy holding on to socially acceptable heterosexual femininity by the skin of his teeth

[thatflutefaggot456]

Me before I came out, when I did pageants and modeling.

Me after I came out, cut off my hair, bought comfortable clothes, and decided to actually wear my glasses because fuck contacts.

[crematedequally]

This was me the day of my junior prom. The dress weighed around 20 lbs, was the first one I tried on, and my makeup was done by someone who still thought brown lip liner looked good on white people. I spent the entire day being photographed and generally hating how I looked and wishing I could figure out why, when everything was technically perfect.

And this was me about eleven years later- two weeks after I started T in the first photo, and at around 5 months on T in the second. Much happier, married to the love of my life, and finally looking like myself!

[sisceal]

Such girl, very wow (pro ballet, modeling, and my first wedding)

Came out in 2016, here's nine years of transformation (in reverse order, sorry)

Turns out I'm neither a Normal Guy nor a woman, but a much weirder type of faggy masc thing.

And that's pretty great.

[antisocial-transfag]

In my lifestyle lolita egg era. Somehow getting to dress like a princess gave me the will to get up in the morning

1 year and 5 months on T

[romanticfatale]

[hauntedchronicler]

granted being a big ol goth doesn't really fit the bill of "socially acceptable heterosexual femininity" but i was HYPER feminine when i was closeted, especially in the years between when i FIRST tried to come out (age 16 - around the time of those first photos) and when i actually made the jump (age 19 - about a year after the last photo)

you can tell in that second to last photo i literally got a tattoo that said "MAD GIRL" which was an exercise in many things, including abstract self-harm, a visual reminder that i had given up on myself, and wildly underestimating the number of dudes who would misread it as BAD GIRL and take that as a cue to say gross shit to me while i was at work

anyway never kill yourself

[toyourliking]

haha yeah 🫣

consciously dipped my toes into the gender fuckery pool at around 15/16 but I was pentecostal at the time and well. took them out real quick

i tried very very hard to be “femme” for a LONG time but during covid lockdowns I didn’t have to perform for anyone and I slowly started to let it all go and now I’m a silly little man 😌

[mj-theskywitch]

ahem

these are about 10 years apart, 7 years on t and 5 years post op. it gets better guys

[catboywarehouse]

what 10 years away from a label that didnt fit and 1.5 years of T does to a mf

[planet4546b]

im currently completely losing it about the great stalacpipe organ. are you fucking kidding me they made an organ out of a CAVE???? IT TAKES UP THREE ACRES??? i legit am about to lose it

[planet4546b]

this is a comment left on a recording of moonlight sonata played on an organ that is literally made out of a cave and its making me so emotional its not even funny

[image id: a youtube comment that reads ‘wonderful…and the moon has never shone there…’ end id.]

[marlynnofmany]

All that and no pictures??

According to Wikipedia, it works by hidden rubber mallets on the naturally-musical stalactites that tourguides have been knocking on for over a century. The guy who made the organ may have gotten the idea when his son whacked his head on a stalactite.

Here’s a video. It is hauntingly beautiful.

[spirit-pyrite]

In case anyone is looking, here’s the link to the video op mentions.

https://youtu.be/HsKUUn29tSs

[kura-soma]

Oh. It’s the instrument Organ. Not organ like… a lung or kidneys.

Of course I knew that and was in no way worried after the first post. Nope.

[si1v3rpho3n1x]

I, too, thought the biological type

[cobaltspartan]

fascinated by jeff the killer tbh. everyone in that creepypasta has generic white usamerican names (jeff, keith, barbara, billy, etc.) except for jeff the killer's doe eyed little brother liu. why is he liu. is liu chinese? it's okay if he's chinese. is jeff also chinese? has jeff the killer been chinese this whole time? am I a bad person?

[ashubii]

This is why I have TikTok

[that-androgynous-lightweaver]

i hate that androgyny and masculinity are so intertwined. if you look like a girl and you're enby, you're forced to dress masc. if you look like a guy and you're enby, you're not allowed to dress fem. no matter what, you have to follow this bullshit set of rules that no one can actually explain to you, but you will feel ashamed if you ever break them. you must walk a line that is so blurry no one else notices it exists. and there will always be times you fall.

this, too, is misogyny. being masculine is considered the default - appearing feminine makes you a girl, but appearing masculine can mean basically anything else. so how do you fight it? walk away from that line. wear whatever you want. move however you want. don't train your voice to fit some stupid binary unless it will make you happy. don't bind your chest unless it makes you more comfortable. don't take estrogen unless it will help you love your body.

there is no right way to be trans. there is no right way to be nonbinary. and there is no right way to be cis. there is only YOUR way.

[guelwaar]

clinical medicine is simple, basically the way it works is 99.999% of doctors don't know anything at all, so they only treat the 10–15 most common problems in their specialty. this might sound bad, but actually it's better, because 99.999% of patients don't have any complex medical problems anyway, which we know because they've never been diagnosed with anything except the 10–15 most common problems in the relevant specialty, because in order to be evaluated for something else they would have to be referred to one of the 0.001% of doctors who occasionally know something about some other condition, but they can't get that referral because they obviously don't need it because they've only been diagnosed with simple problems that the other 99.999% of doctors evaluate. so as U can see it's really about ensuring every patient gets the best possible care.

[wheelie-sick]

sometimes people experiencing psychosis and/or mania will come up to you on the street and talk in confusing or upsetting ways. your job is to either have a regular human-to-human conversation with that person or politely leave. your job is not to call 911. do not call 911. you might kill that person if you call 911.

[wheelie-sick]

I don't even have the energy to screenshot and respond to your tags- what the actual fuck is wrong with you? "the cops are scared and rightfully so" "mental health calls are the scariest for cops" OH so this isn't about the safety of psychotic & manic people this is about piggy feelings?

and no, actually, this is not USA specific and no, actually, people from other countries should not ignore this post. police violence and sanism weren't invented in the US and they are certainly not unique to here. if you (or anyone) thinks that this bullshit doesn't happen elsewhere then you are not listening.

[illyadolatry]

just like. for the crowd.

here's the sexual content guidelines saying nudity is ok

here's the bit from the termination email telling you you can make a new account as long as it doesn't break the same rule

here's the guidelines for what counts as explicit (not mature, aka grounds for content deletion)

here's the section telling us that you will always be able to respond to content getting flagged as explicit (lie)

here's the section where it says you will be notified when your accunt gets terminated, and that the appeals are reviewed by humans (both lies)

and by the way, posting a single thing against ToS isn't supposed to be grounds for deletion,

[kairithemang0-fm]

Reblog if you're transmasc, support trans men, or want a chocolate chip cookie

[foodffs]

[foodffs]

I just found a picture of her almost 4 years ago when I picked her up from the shelter. Four months old, skinny, sick, with poor fur, and freshly castrated (shelter took care of that - I wouldn’t do it that early).

They told me ‘Oh you’ll be very happy with her, she doesn’t play or anything, just lays around.’

What? A cat? No, not a cat - a kitten?

I worked from home for three weeks until she got better. Carrying to the litter, feeding her, giving medication, grooming… She seemed she wouldn’t grow to ‘normal’ cat size, she was that sick.

But as the time went by, she got better. And the ‘kitty that doesn’t play’ part? Of course, she didn’t care about that *then*, she was fucking miserable in that shelter.

You all know what comes next, my laziness to get these pictures in a collage.

[foodffs]

We moved a few months ago, so this little bastard now has twice the space than before. Yes, she still has a hard time getting accustomed to the new environment and a pretty much love-hate relationship with my future husband, but we’ll get there. I’m very proud of her for not trying to escape to our previous place (although she was crying the first whole night). Happy 6th birthday, my love!

[foodffs]

Time to go to school! (Happy 7th birthday)

[foodffs]

8 🥰

[foodffs]

9🎉

[foodffs]

Oops, a bit late with the 10th birthday, here we go 🥰

[foodffs]

12

[roycohn]

something i've noticed that has become really annoying in the past 10 years or so is this fad of what i've been calling, for lack of a better word, "structural whataboutism." it's that thing where, when faced with a concrete, resolvable problem in your community, your answer is to blame it on a vast, unsolvable issue of structural inequality and then throw up your hands. "there's trash all over the ground in this corner of the park" becomes "well, that's where MEN OF COLOR congregate after their 12-HOUR GRAVEYARD SHIFTS and i'm not going to support a CARCERAL SOLUTION to a CAPITALISTIC PROBLEM. WE NEED TO ELIMINATE POVERTY AND THE SUBJUGATION OF THE WORKING CLASS" and it's like okay but sis. someone still has to go pick up the trash. we don't need a carceral solution, we need more trash cans. you're not going to eliminate poverty and the subjugation of the working class and even if ya did, there would still be trash on the ground. how any of this passes for radicalism within their peer groups i simply don't understand. it's radical laziness more than anything else

[figtreeandvine]

I was on a canoe trip once with a river biologist who worked for the county. After we found and removed a car tire, she started talking about the annual river cleanup her department organized. From a water quality or ecological standpoint, removing shopping carts, car tires, and other macro trash from the river really wasn't that important, she said. The real threat to the river was industrial and agricultural runoff.

"But!" she said:

People who see a clean, trash-free river are more likely support laws to curb more harmful "systemic" forms of pollution. People who participate in river cleanups take pride in their work--their river!--and become evangelists for protecting it.

Immediate action leads to systemic awareness, which leads to systemic change.

[writing-with-olive]

Literally this.

Saying "there's no point in doing something small until the big thing is fixed" is literally just the Glorious Revolution Rapture story all over again, and it's not helpful.

[tall]

[penny-anna]

endlessly frustrating that whenever anyone is like 'i wish i could complain about X without people trying to give me unsolicited advice' swarms of people are always like 'clearly you have not heard *my* unsolicited advice!' and it's always like yes I have. Didn't help.

[anarchistmemedistro]

[isuggestrevolution]

i suggest using that powerful tool