blossom

a work in progress | 19

[stolen-ferrari]

[sleeplesslyserene]

uncer[tain(t)]

can you feel my skin? it’s gone

cold.

the clock is ticking, i wonder

what time it is -

or where time has gone.

i t ’ s g o n e .

tired eyes and shaky knees;

recently it occurred to me that

maybe alice didn’t get lost

after all.

y.g.v.

6/9/19

[lifeofaliceai]

[thegoodvybe]

“Some people just shine a bit brighter than others and it’s got nothing to do with what they look like.”

— James Dawson, Say Her Name (via thegoodvybe)

[earthling555]

but i’m so angry

[sleeplesslyserene]

I haven’t been uploading any of my poetry from the past 5/6 months, my b

[sleeplesslyserene]

confusion.

feeling sad after months of happiness feels so weird, so foreign. it’s hard to think this has lived in my mind before; i hope this visit is short and dismal, exactly as it should be.

y.g.v.

6/8/18

[hirxeth]

Stand By Me (1986) dir. Rob Reiner

[sleeplesslyserene]

repeat.

3:30am.

everyday i tell myself

the same thing,

over and over.

“i don’t care!!”

and yet

here i am,

listening to the

same hidden

secret —

over and over

and over

and ove

nd ov

n o

.

y.g.v.

6/10/18

[sleeplesslyserene]

Friday

3:41pm.

glitching and

cr

ack

ed,

like my laptop screen.

flashes of static and noise

fill these gray skies

from time to time.

what does it all mean?

better yet, why does

this feel

like a dream?

no more expectations or

easy relations,

words fill the air -

indistinct

are these

quiet conversations.

y.g.v.

[sleeplesslyserene]

ouch.

it’s just...

the way i feel can never

be put into words.

the way i feel

towards him,

her,

them,

e v e r y o n e ! ,

has changed

exponentially.

i’ve never been more apprehensive

about what lies

ahead of

me.

my love

can only

stretch so far

before snapping.

i just can’t help

recanting.

i suppose...

i’m sorry.

y.g.v.

5/23/18

[yantekerlek]

[nhodesign-deactivated20160511]

[lovelysuggestions]

i just want someone whos gonna treat me right. i want someone who won’t take advantage of my big heart and caring soul. i want someone who won’t make me regret seeing the best in people, or giving second chances. i want someone who won’t flip between loving me and hating me. i want someone who loves me like they should.

[absinthundblut]

[aurol]

i think i accidentally break my own heart a lot

[sleeplesslyserene]

beauty

I have the power. I am the sun after an endless night. I am the thunder that follows the lightning. I am the stars in the sky, I am the earth below my feet. To feel everything at once can be a curse, but the blessing with such a curse is to learn to understand. I have the power to understand and to learn, and I have the power to take my next step and put my foot down where I wish. I have the power.

1:06am, 4/22/18