nobody pays attn to this acc anymore mostly bc everyone probably isnt on tumblr but yeah im sick of this unhealthy jealous thats holding me back from creating what i want,, the fear that what i do will just be seen as nothing special because someone already had the same idea. like it makes me not want to do this stuff in my freetime even tho i rly rly have passion for it. i need to be better than this and i have to work on it, but it isnt a priority rn just bc of classwork and getting a job and getting my life really started. i continue to self-sabotage but i have no room to focus on fixing myself... idk random vent heehee hoohoo


















