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hi loves, welcome to my blog this is so exciting. I hope you enjoy my work. as you can see this is a smut only blog so mdni ! may contain some sfw..maybe
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Gentle Breeze 10 -- Proposal
by s-uwu-kuna
pairing: sanemi shinazugawa x fem! reader
category: slow burn, romance, smut, angst, so much fluff
warnings: explicit content mdni, nicknames (baby, sugar), cunnilingus, sanemi is down bad for you, special guest tengen uzui is back, unwanted kiss, panicking, lots of panicking, some wholesome family time
word count: 7k
author's note: sanemi is a munch: confirmed
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Your eyes went wide as Sanemi flipped your apron over his head, and tugged your pants and underwear down, pooling them at your ankles.
“Wait—wait!!” you panicked, “Sanemi, I’m so sweaty after working…”
“I know. You smell so fucking good…” He spread your thighs with glee, and his breath hitched at the sight of you…
His sudden silence had you nervous…until…you felt him kiss your inner thigh~! You never thought about having his lips linger there, but his hot tongue proved to be enlightening... “O-Ohh, Sanemi…”
“You’re so pretty under here, too…it’s not fair…” he mumbled on your skin while he gently pressed his thumb to your clit. The shop lights were dim under the cover of your apron, but he could see everything he needed to…
With slow fingers, he parted your labia, and continued to kiss and suck on your thighs, watching as you started to clench and cream for him. He inhaled your scent deeply, and his pupils were quickly blown. “Fuck…” Sanemi’s mouth was watering… He wanted to watch you cum once, just like this…
You whimpered and shifted your hips, starting to blush in anticipation. “You’re not just gonna stare, are you?” Self-consciousness was starting to eat at you, the way you wish he would…
“I’m just takin’ my time…” Another wet kiss on your other thigh, then he whispered a gentle command, “Be patient for me, Sugar…” He sucked your thigh fat and started to sink his teeth in, just like he had been fantasizing since he first saw you working in this very spot.
He let out a groan at the taste of your sweat, and your softness giving under his canines. He caressed your outer leg with his free hand, so appreciative for this opportunity to indulge…
You arched into his touch as his thumb circled your clit faster. “Please, ’Nemi…” You were so frustrated… You kicked your pants and underwear off of your feet and rested your calves on his back. You simply had to sit there, and take what he gave you~!
Your slick started to drip down between your ass cheeks, and he rewarded you with his finger. He was shocked at how quickly you took it!! He couldn’t see your face, but based on your whimpering, it was undeniable how turned on he had you…
He felt pride blooming in his chest. “Wanna cum, baby?”
“Yes, please!!”
He laughed into your thigh, eyes bugging out at how drenched his hand was becoming. “So polite now~!” he teased, “You were bein’ such a brat five minutes ago… What happened?”
“Sanemi!!!”
“Ahh, there she is…”
Before you could protest further, he curled his finger inside you and quickly pulled you to the edge of orgasm. He missed your face dearly, but he reveled in the way your puffy little pussy clenched on his finger…in how your moaning turned breathy…in how you needed him…
“So fuckin’ pretty baby, cum for me.” He flexed his wrist and sped up his hand, the motion to send you to ecstasy now engrained in his muscle memory. “Come on…”
!!
“Ahhh~! F-Fuck!! Yesssss~!!!” you whined.
Music to his ears, and a feast for his eyes… You creamed all over his hand, giving him all the sweetness he could ever desire. Not waiting for you to come down, he slid his finger out——and immediately replaced it with his tongue.
You bit down on your lip to stifle your squeal~!
Sanemi started to devour you!!! And you were so good to him… Your thighs clamped down on his head like a vice, and the voice between his ears was loud: “This is it—this is how I die, and I accept it!! Take me now, Gods!!!”
“‘Nemi~~! Gods, Yesss…’Nemi~~there!!”
He groaned at your nectar gushing on his tongue. It was better eating you up…directly from the source… He flicked his tongue on your clit until you stopped trembling. As your thighs relaxed, he hiked them onto his shoulders and slowed down again, cleaning you up with leisure. You might have finished, but Sanemi wasn’t done…
Hypnotized by your lower lips, he kept kissing them, shovin' his tongue inside your cunt and swirlin' it around your honeyed walls… Suckin' on your clit to make you clench more out... He couldn’t stop growling and groaning at your flavor…
That first orgasm was for you, but the next two would be for him...
“Oh Gods… Sanemi, your mouth…!!!" you gasped, "Mmmh~!”
He scooped your ass up in his palms, and pressed his face into you, keeping you anchored to that crate so he could eat you up…
You’d cum twice more on his tongue before he felt like his ears were warmed enough by your thighs~!
…
It was twenty minutes later into the night, when he finally flipped your apron back off of his head, when Sanemi realized—he was in deep trouble.
That fucked-out look on your face… You had been tangling your hands in your hair and biting on your lips… You were in ecstasy--but exhausted.
…
He'd have to come in early tomorrow and handle the crates by himself…
With how tempting you were, and how hard his cock was—it took everything decent in him to get you to your house after that.
He did, as always. Safe and sound.
But…
He really wanted to carry you and sprint back to his place instead...so he could eat you all night, until you both passed out…
…in the comfort of his bed…
…and wake up to you in the morning, and do it again…
…and again…
—
After jerking off to that fantasy the second he crossed the threshold of his bedroom, Sanemi accepted reality.
He needed help, again.
He had seen—and tasted—the gates of heaven, and couldn’t stand being locked out anymore.
…
Sanemi took a quick bath, then settled in at his dining table with a paper and calligraphy brush, unable to sleep. He whistled out the open window for his crow, Sorai, to come to him.
Sanemi read aloud as he wrote, “For…Brother…Uzui…SOS…Need…to…talk…Meet…at…Tea…House…sunset…tomorrow.” He signed his name nicely, just like you taught him. Sorai flapped his wings proudly at Sanemi’s writing, and confirmed the note’s destination.
Then, he sent Sorai off into the night, looking at the moon and longing for you.
…
Damn it.
It wasn’t long before his cock was hard again…
“I was shocked when I got your crow. That was the first letter I’ve received from you—maybe ever? And with an SOS??“ Tengen asked, eyes wide at how fast Sanemi was eating.
Tengen had ordered a mochi spread after he saw how hot and bothered Sanemi was upon arriving at the Tea House. He was now stress-eating the matcha mochi.
“What the fuck is up?” Tengen took a sip of his tea, bemusedly taking in Sanemi’s not-so-flashy work uniform, with flour dusted along the collar. He didn’t even go change after his shift at the bakery.
Sanemi finished a heavy swallow of the cooling green ice cream, then took a deep breath. “I—“ Sanemi couldn’t believe he was about to say it…
“I tasted her.”
Tengen spat out his drink, nearly choking. Oh no. “Like, with your fingers? Or…” Tengen stuck his tongue out and flicked it suggestively.
Sanemi huffed. “Both.”
Tengen earnestly took in Sanemi‘s appearance, now. His eyes were wired. His cheeks were flushed. He was done for.
“And…how do you feel now?”
A vein in Sanemi’s neck bulged as he remembered how deliciously you gushed on his tongue…how your plush thighs trembled against his ears…squeezing his head to keep him there…
“…Still hungry…” he said, “Starving…”
“Oh, my brother…” Tengen winced. “You torture yourself…”
Sanemi couldn’t get your voice out of his head!!! “‘Nemi~~! Gods, Yesss…’Nemi~~there!!”
!!!
Sanemi groaned and hid his face in his hand, leaning over the table. His knee was bouncing, making his body quake. He was a fiend for you!!! “I can’t stop… I’ve been beatin’ my dick like three times every night… Tengen, what do I do?” he asked, desperately.
“How badly do you want her?”
“More than anything.”
“Anything?”
“Anything,” he confirmed. “I don’t wanna wake up without her anymore. I love her…I need her.”
Tengen smiled, and nodded. He looked down at the spread of treats on the silver tray in front of them, and noticed that Sanemi had finished nearly all of the matcha mochi—over everything else. “You should marry her.”
Sanemi’s eyes darted at Tengen from in between his fingers, still hiding. “You think she’d say yes?”
Tengen nodded. “She loves you. She has for awhile, if she’s letting you taste her…”
Sanemi felt his face get hot.
“She would say yes,” Tengen continued, “But are you prepared to ask her?”
Sanemi sat back in his chair and settled his hands in his lap, stroking the back of his own knuckles on his missing fingers, the way you always do. He missed your touch. Less than a day away from you, and still—he ached.
“I think so,” he said.
“Do you know so?” Tengen asked, brow raised in suspicion.
Sanemi panicked.
Marriage?
Where did he even begin??
Sanemi’s father was a terrible husband to his mother. He didn’t have a good model to follow... “I don’t know??” he half-asked.
Tengen snatched the last matcha mochi from the tray, faster than Sanemi could stop him. “If someone took your favorite flavor away forever, could you live with yourself?”
“Give it back…” Sanemi growled.
Tengen laughed and handed it back immediately, the answer being so obvious. “Okay, so we know you need this flavor more than anything. That’s settled. But—“ He gripped the tray containing the rest of the mochi. “Will you accept…never having these other flavors again?”
He held them up tantalizingly in front of Sanemi, making sure to let him smell each flavor individually… Sanemi’s eyes darted between the singular green mochi in between his fingers, and the dozen other colorful flavors on the tray…
Tengen saw the gears turning in his friend’s head and hummed, knowingly. “Infidelity is a very serious matter, Sanemi. You must be strong enough to resist the temptation of everyone who is not your wife,” he lectured, then set the tray back down. “If you are not absolutely certain that you can be a devoted husband, then you must be tested.”
“Tested?” Sanemi didn’t like the mischief brewing on Tengen’s face… “Tested—how?”
—
The new and improved Pleasure District was…too much.
The lights, the sounds...the drunk, bumbling idiots bumping into his shoulders--only to yelp and scurry away at the sight of him...
Too much, for Sanemi.
...
After forcing him to go home, freshen up and change, Tengen dragged him here with a few other ex-Corps members of marrying age—on a mission to determine what it was that Sanemi wanted to do.
Was he ready for marriage?
Tengen would find out before midnight.
“You see these eyes on you? That's what you've been missing out on--never coming here,” he said lowly to Sanemi, smiling and waving to a group of ladies he recognized from his battle here, long ago, basking in it all.
Sanemi never came here—with purpose. He didn't like people, professional pretty ladies included.
Tengen knew that.
"Former Corps are the hottest commodity, now," he kept going anyway, knowing that attention from women was a drug that everyone fell privy to at some point… "Giyuu-san of all people is here often, still trying to find a wife. Poor guy can't get over Shinobu...searches for her in every woman... But that doesn't stop the lovely ladies from trying. He's been on so many dates, he lost count."
Feeling bad for Giyuu, Sanemi huffed. He himself had a fleeting crush on Shinobu’s elder sister, Kanae Kocho, back when he first joined the Corps. But he quickly learned what happens when you let feelings win during a war, and never allowed himself to fall for anyone again until it was over.
Sanemi thought Tengen was insane for getting married back then, but he and his ladies were favored by the Gods... He was lucky. And a fool for coming here…jeopardizing them… "Your wives know you're here?" he asked, gruffly.
"Yes and no. I tell them what they need to know. Besides, everyone here knows my wives. They wouldn't try to seduce me, because my ladies know how to fight," he laughed. "And, I'm not the one who's paying for company tonight--you are."
!?!?!?!!
Like hell, he was!
Before Sanemi could rebuttal and refuse, a woman stopped them all in their tracks.
"Master Uzui! You brought guests with you, please come inside!” She was older…with thick hair-wax and entirely too much makeup on. “We have a private room large enough for your party..." With a finely manicured hand, she beckoned the group of wide-eyed men up her steps.
Sanemi was in good company—many of the other guys had never been here either. Tengen took the lead.
"Ah, Madame Tayuki, lovely to see you," Tengen remarked, waving his entourage over.
"Likewise~! You know, we have the finest Oirans here these days... Are you still hitched?" she asked, tone laced with all types of innuendo...
"Yes, and happily so, but my friend here…is still a bachelor..." With a strong hand, he shoved Sanemi forward, earning a deathly glare back at him...
"This must be the famed Shinazugawa," the madame eyed Sanemi up and down, twirling her closed fan in her hand.
Before Sanemi lost his shit, he turned back to her, and gave a curt bow, "It's nice to meet you, madame. I--uhh... I'm..." He was floundering under her intrusive eye, trying to find the right way to explain that he had a girlfriend...
Madame Tayuki was predictably obvious with her staring at his scars, but her gaze lingered more on his clothing, appraising the deep green dye color and the quality of its stitching...estimating its value... Then eyeing the heavy pouch of silver he had tied to his belt...
"Big. Strong. Perfect." She succinctly concluded, then tapped his shoulder with her fan, and turned on her heel, briskly leading them all into her establishment. "Come, I have some top-shelf ladies for you..."
...
The parlor room was exactly what he expected, frilly, bejeweled and packed with women, their breasts nearly bursting from their bodices... Although it was calmer and quieter than outside, the assault on Sanemi’s nose inside the parlor-room gave him an instant headache. The cacophony of courtesan perfumes was staggering…
The one sat closest to him was clouding him in her haze, and bombarding him with inquiries…
“What do you do for fun?” she tapped her long, sakura-painted nails on the tea-table.
“I—“
“Oooh… Let me guess… You practice fighting!!” She purred, twirling a lock of her hair between her slender fingers, leaning forward to give Sanemi a better look at her goods...
“I uhh…” Sanemi rubbed his neck, glancing off to the side. “I walk around. Sometimes I climb trees...”
“Oh.”
How quickly she was bored.
Sanemi recovered, “I do train often, though. With these guys,” he gestured to some of the other ex-corps members who were enjoying their fill of liquor and sweets with a gaggle of other courtesans.
Many of the ladies kept glancing over at the former Wind Hashira, waiting for their turn to pour him a drink…
He noticed, but was overwhelmed already with the one talking to him!
“You must be pretty tough…” she mused, playfully poking his arm. “I heard you killed a high-ranking demon, just like Master Uzui…” she giggled, glancing over at Tengen—who was pretending not to listen, pouring himself and the guys on either side of him another round. He motioned for another server to come by and add another few bottles to the party’s tab.
“I did, but not by myself,” Sanemi set the record straight, not wanting to inflate the truth. “I had a lot of help. Tengen did, too. We all did…”
“Oh, don’t be modest. You’re a hero. You deserve to be waited on, hand and foot!” She shifted closer, speaking lowly…as if sharing a secret, “I’ll cook, and clean, and rub your feet and do whatever you wanted…”
…
Little did she know, Sanemi was thinking about doing those things for you…
…
“I’m very skilled in making noodles,” she kept going, “I can make soba, ramen, udon, and this rare type from the southwestern islands… I make them nice and tight… Easy to slurp up, too…”
That last quip was clearly loaded, but Sanemi couldn’t focus on whatever she was saying.
While she yapped salaciously about noodles, he was gnawing on his lips…thinking about how—less than twenty-four hours ago—they were wrapped around your clit…and slurpin’ up your cream...
He didn’t want to be here…
He would have rather gone over to yours instead, hopped your gate, found your window…and convinced you to sneak out with him…so you could go at it in the forest with him like you had nothing else to live for…
“Do you want children, Shinazugawa-sama?
!!
“Huh?”
The way she said that honorific…made his skin crawl… She was a stranger, trying to force familiarity…
“We’d have such cute babies, don’t you think? How many do you want? No, wait…how many rooms does your big castle have?” She bat her lashes at Sanemi, wrapping her hand around his bicep and squeezing his muscle for emphasis.
It was at this point he realized—he’d never want that with anyone but you.
Her touch…it wasn’t like yours. It was too…calculated. And Sanemi felt uneasy at being seen as a prize to be won.
Any other man might have been overjoyed to be in his current position.
She was leaning in…wanting to cuddle up to him… This woman was clearly beautiful, smart, charismatic, and eager to settle down with someone successful.
But that someone would not be Sanemi Shinazugawa.
He was too busy thinking of a plan to escape the cloud of her heavy perfume, and get back to your sweet, soft lavender…
Tengen noticed the distress on Sanemi’s face, and beamed a knowing smile.
He’d passed the test.
“I think it’s a bit too soon to be discussing kids!” Tengen laughed, relieving Sanemi of the pressure. “Hell, I have three wives and none of us are ready, yet…”
“That’s too bad,” she cooed. “This one would make a handsome father,” she joked to Tengen, then leaned back into Sanemi and whispered in his ear, “…despite all these scars…”
……….!
Her lips on Sanemi’s scarred-up cheek made him go rigid.
Her lipstick was too sticky…too syrupy…
And worst of all—completely unwanted.
Sanemi stood up, then, rattling the little tea table to the point of making both of their cups tip over. “I-I’m… I—uh…”
He panicked.
Their liquor splashed onto her kimono, and was spilling all over the floor…
“Ahh!” she scurried off of her cushion, away from Sanemi. “Ugh!!! What a brute…” she mumbled under her breath, glaring up at him as she pawed at her stained garment.
Sanemi heard her through the pounding of his heart in his ears... He had half a mind to tell her off for pushing his boundary, but he couldn't lose it in a pleasure house. Word would spread like a forest fire, and if you ever found out…that he was even here…
“Brother, you forgot to feed your dog again, didn’t you?” Tengen exclaimed, glancing around at the guys for them to join in, “Right???”
!
Sanemi didn’t have a dog. But the guys knew that cue…
“Oh yeah, you gotta go…”
“He’s probably starving…”
“Give him extra treats for me!!”
!!!!
“Right. Right. I—“ Sanemi cleared his throat. “This was nice. Thank you for the sake. Sorry, I gotta go…feed the dog…” He pulled out two silver pieces from his pouch, and tossed them onto the table in front of her. “Enjoy your night.” He bowed to her curtly before briskly gunning for the exit, leaving her there with a pout on her face.
She wasn’t alone for long, though. Tengen slyly gestured for one of the guys to cozy up to her, and she was soon being showered in compliments, having her wet kimono fussed over…
Tengen watched with an amused grin as Sanemi hauled his ass as quickly as he could through the front parlor, bumping into a few unsuspecting patrons…then sprinting at full speed the second he made it outside, the force of his wind-technique leaving a handful of disheveled pedestrians in his wake.
Tengen mumbled to himself, “That’s love, alright…”
—
Sanemi hadn’t run that fast since he made you late for work that one time…
…
Two of his attendants found him at his estate’s stream, gulping up water and furiously washing that lipstick from his cheek.
Kinta, the estate laundry expert, piped up first, seeing as Sanemi was interrupting his task-flow and washing sequence. “Master Shinazugawa, what happened?”
“Are you injured?” his physician, Tsuki, chimed in. She had been up late, flirting with Kinta…now annoyed that Sanemi was home and interrupting…
“No, no… I’m fine…”
“What is that on your face?” Tsuki kept going, taking her job seriously, as always. She was a wise old crone, constantly catching Sanemi in his little lies.
“Nothing. Don’t worry.”
The two attendants exchanged a look. “Was it…a lady?” Kinta asked, cautiously. He was older, too, grey enough to know exactly why a man would come home this flustered... "Was it...a pretty lady?"
!!
“It was a…” Sanemi trailed off, then huffed to the sky, just like you do. Of course, the one night Sanemi decided to deviate from his routine, his two most parental attendants decided to be here to catch him… “I was just…” he tried again.
“You smell like a whore-house.” Tsuki said bluntly.
!!!!
“Tsuki-sama, please…” Sanemi groaned, still splashing water on his face.
She sucked her teeth and pointed at him. “You’re the one two-timing that nice girl!!!”
“I’m not two-timin’ her!” Sanemi stood up, and regarded his attendants with both frustration and guilt. “She is the one I want, like I told you before…” He shook the water from his face and hair, then he grit out, “It was…fuckin’…Tengen…”
“Ahh~Ahh~! Don’t blame Master Uzui…” Tsuki chided, “You chose to go to the Pleasure District on your own free will. My real question is: why would you do that, when you have a girlfriend you’ve been head over heels for?”
Kinta gasped.
………
Aside from Tsuki, Sanemi had never officially told his attendants about you...
...But he never was good at being discreet with his emotions. And you make him more emotional than anything.
He took a deep breath. “I went because I had to be sure.”
“About?” Kinta asked, resuming his washing nearby.
Sanemi looked up at the moon, trying to find the words. They were simple, but heavy on his tongue... “I want to ask (Y/n) to marry me.”
!!
Kinta and Tsuki both exchanged another look, and Tsuki suddenly felt ten years younger, clapping and bouncing up and down. Sanemi heard her knees crack, along with Kinta’s chuckling, and tried not to laugh.
The furious blush on his cheeks prevented him from looking their way.
“I just don’t know what I’m doin’…” he kicked a rock into the stream, and threaded his fingers into his damp hair, starting to pace around.
“You have a bride-price ready?” Kinta asked nonchalantly, mercifully not probing into Sanemi’s feelings.
He stopped in his tracks. “Bride-price?”
“Money!!!! You big buffoon…” Tsuki stepped to him and slapped his shoulder. “Offer her family money, and respectfully ask for her hand.”
!!!
That made sense. Prove that he could provide for you.
Sanemi was ready to give you everything… He’d sign his life away if it meant you’d be comin' home with him at the end of the day.
Sanemi turned to Tsuki, asking genuinely, “How much, would ya’ say?”
“What do you think she’s worth?” Kinta inquired over his shoulder.
“Everything,” Sanemi answered honestly, and the two elders laughed so hard, he was concerned for their aging spines.
Tsuki sighed, and pinched his cheek, “Sweet young man...a chest of silver will do. When she moves in, this will all be hers, anyway… Just you watch…” Tsuki pat his shoulder, more gently this time, and sauntered back over to Kinta, observing his work. “Don’t forget that spot on the corner, mister…”
“Yes, ma’am!” Kinta scrubbed with more fervor, wanting to impress. “Don’t forget, Master Shinazugawa, happy wife, happy life!” he chimed.
Tsuki gently tapped at his behind with her toe, biting her nail and giggling.
Sanemi regarded the two with curiosity.
They must have gotten closer in the many hours that he had been spending away from home…
...He’d leave them to it.
“Thank you. Both of you. I’ll go prepare.”
As Sanemi jogged toward his main house, Tsuki hollered out, “I can’t wait for your little Lords and Ladies to be born! I’ll deliver them myself!!!”
Sanemi picked up his pace, bashfully shaking his head. “She’s gotta’ say yes, first!” he shouted back, just before he crossed the threshold of his front door.
…
Between the lingering stress from his earlier outing, and the incoming stress of gearing up to propose to you—Sanemi couldn’t sleep.
He was up all night, raiding his pantry and baking a mess of cookies—for your family. Three tries it took him, to bake the chocolate ones to a standard he thought was good enough for your aunt Kimiko. He had to stop Sorai from trying to eat them as they cooled by his kitchen’s open window…
After they were ready, he wrapped them up, then went to his room to rummage through his money.
He then found two small chests, and packed them neatly with silver pieces, meticulously counting them before securing the lids closed. Barely a dent was made in his stash, and he sighed with relief. He was keen to spoil you.
He packed one chest up to take with him to your house, then set the other one for you aside in his bedroom.
Sanemi would give it to you whenever you moved in.
If…you ever moved in…
—
After scrubbing the Pleasure District haze off of himself in the bath, Sanemi decided to channel his anxieties into something familiar to his body and mind: a stakeout.
All night…Sanemi would wait, perched in the tree across from your house.
Slung over his back was a leather bag full of silver and cookies. He balanced it all on the bendy branch with ease, allowing the breeze to lull him into a relaxed state.
He wasn’t doing anything else—just watching your house, and praying you were sleeping well.
…
Right on cue, twenty minutes before sunrise, you emerged from your gate.
Sanemi had to stop himself from calling out to you.
Fuck, he missed you.
And you looked so perfect, with your chocolate brown uniform crisply pressed, and your hair done-up…
…
After craning his neck around the tree trunk until you were out of sight, he zeroed in on your house again.
He could soon see smoke emanating from the chimney, and he smelled the delicious breakfast your aunt prepared. His stomach was grumbling…but he stifled that, and focused. He had forgotten to eat, but that worked in his favor. He’d vomit from the nerves, otherwise…
Maybe an hour later, he could hear the twins playing in the yard.
He then descended from the tree, and straightened himself out, taking a deep breath. He chose to wear something more conservative today, covering his chest and arms as best as he could. He didn’t want to scare your little cousins…
Five long strides, and he was at the gate.
**Knock knock knock!**
No turning back now…
…!
Haru answered it. The young boy looked up at Sanemi in awe, stars in his eyes.
Sanemi smiled warmly. “Haru, right?”
He nodded, mouth still agape.
“Nice to meet you. I’m Sanemi,” he offered a short bow, chuckling when Haru fully hinged at the hip to show respect.
“N-nice to meet you, Sir…” he said, timidly.
Sanemi crouched down to his level. “Is your mom around? I have an important question for her.”
Haru nodded, then blinked. Not even a second of thought later, he screamed back at the house, “MOM! (Y/N)’S BOYFRIEND IS HERE!!!”
It’s a good thing Sanemi waited until you were far out of sight… Haru had some lungs on him…
“WHAT?!”
That was unmistakably Yumi…
Her stomping followed that shout, and soon enough, Sanemi’s hunch was confirmed as her little hand threw the gate further open. “Wowwwwwwwww Sanemiiiiiiiiii~!~! You’re really real!”
He shifted in his squat to face Yumi. “(Y/n) did a good job with your hair today.”
“Hey…" She grabbed one of her braids, shying away, "How did you know she does my hair?”
“She did yours just like she does hers sometimes.”
“Oh, you really are her boyfriend.”
Sanemi smiled wider. “That’s me. And you must be the famous Yumi.”
“The one and only!!!” She proudly stomped, smiling so big, her tongue poked through her tooth-gap.
“Young lady... That’s no way to greet a guest…”
!!!
At the sound of her mother, Yumi quickly bowed her head, and corrected herself. “Hello, Mr. Sanemi. Nice to meet you.”
Sanemi straightend up properly, too, ready to impress.
“Good morning, ma’am,” he started, deeply bowing the way Haru did, “I have something to—“
**gggrrrrrowwwllll**
…
His fucking stomach.
The twins covered their mouths, trying not to laugh.
Kimiko laughed for them. “Go on...”
Sanemi cleared his throat and stood up tall, shifting his bag on his back. “I have something to discuss with you, if you have some time?”
**gggrrrrrowwwllll**
“Come in and eat. Then we can chat.”
“That would be great. Thank you,” Sanemi smiled.
“YAY!!” Haru leapt up and down behind Sanemi as he crossed the threshold. “MOM CAN I HAVE SECONDS WITH MR. SANEMI???”
“Give the man a minute to settle in, Haru… In fact, go warm the hearth back up. And Yumi, clean the table off for him.”
“Yes, Mom!”
“Yes, Mom!”
A tiny drill sergeant, your aunt was…
Sanemi followed gingerly behind her, finally getting a good look at your dwelling. The paint on the outside was worn, and the wood slats on the engawa were a little rotted. The roof tiles were sun-bleached, but sturdy. Various toys and garden tools were sprawled about the front yard. It was all so charming.
And that rare lavender by your front door…so sweet, a tender caress for the nose…
One big breath, and it calmed Sanemi down. He exhaled and rolled his shoulders out.
This was more his speed.
…
Breakfast went on with pleasant chatter and praise of Kimiko’s food. “This is delicious, ma’am, I see where (Y/n)’s palate comes from," Sanemi remarked after finishing that his last sauce-covered tamago egg.
Kimiko grinned, “She’s the picky one… I learned how to cook better because she was such a fussy baby! I made sure she gained weight, though...”
Sanemi smiled, picturing you as a chunky little thing. “Was she like Haru and Yumi?”
The two were sat beside Sanemi, picking at their second helpings of breakfast and listening to the grown-ups talk.
Kimiko laughed, with a playful bitterness, “Oh no… These two are my little terrors. (Y/n) was a good girl. A diligent student and a softie, never raising her voice or getting into trouble…” Kimiko trailed off. “Thank you, by the way. For saving her from that creep at the bakery. He had been bothering her for so long, and I fear she might have been too polite to him…”
!
“Of course, ma’am. It was no problem. She had no fault in it. In fact…she did fight him back.”
“…Really?” Kimiko asked.
“(Y/n)-san, fighting???” Yumi scoffed. “I don’t believe it…”
“No, it’s true!” Sanemi matched her tone.
“What did she do?” Haru asked, mouth full of yellow egg.
Sanemi looked to Kimiko to see if it was okay to tell this story…
She nodded, proudly.
Sanemi cleared his throat. “Well, when someone touches you without your permission, there’s only one thing to do. Slap ‘em.”
Haru and Yumi gasped. “Really?”
“Yup. Your big cousin was brave, and slapped that guy. I just...made sure he wouldn’t bother her again.”
“It seems like dating a former Hashira has emboldened my sweet-pea.” Kimiko smiled.
Sanemi mirrored her, so tickled by her nickname for you.
“Wait. So if (Y/n) slapped him, what did you do?” Yumi asked, brow arched highly. Her curiosity knew no bounds…
“I…uh…” He checked with Kimiko again. She nodded. “Well,” he continued, raising his hands and demonstrating, “I grabbed his fingers, like this, and broke ‘em.”
!!!
“Whoaaaaa!!!!”
Haru stared at his exposed forearm, then jumped on the opportunity. “Wait, you’re like—a hero!!! You’re a superhero!!!” Haru shouted, eyes bugging as he took in Sanemi’s scars. “When there were demons, did you kill all of them?”
He laughed a little, lowering his hands. “Well, not all of them... If I could’ve, I would’ve. But I had many comrades by my side, and leading the way, long before me. I was lucky to be among them.” He smiled, bitter-sweetly. “And each and every one of them was the strongest, in their own ways...”
His gaze became distant for a moment, but when Yumi reached out to touch where his missing fingers were on his right hand, he came back to the present.
“Yumi!” Kimiko scolded.
Yumi removed her hand shyly when Sanemi looked at her. “Sorry... I didn’t think it was real at first…”
“It’s okay. I get that a lot.” His heart was tender, around your family. They were easy to talk to, just like you. Even Kimiko, now that he’d earned her trust. “She can look. Here,” Sanemi said, then offered his hand for Yumi to inspect.
She glanced at her mom for permission, and when Kimiko gave a short nod, she eagerly took his hand.
Haru rounded Sanemi’s back, coming closer and looking with her, the both of them curiously tracing the fleshy bumps of his knuckles and stitch lines. “Whoaaa…” they said, softly.
“Did it hurt?” Yumi asked.
“Yes, but not anymore. Doctors are miracle-workers…” He wiggled his three remaining fingers, making the twins giggle. “Here, I brought something for you guys, made ’em myself. I can still do a lot with my damaged hand.”
He pulled three packages of cookies out of his bag, checking the labels he wrote on each one. “Butter for Haru, sugar for Yumi…and chocolate for your mom…”
The twins snatched their packages and opened them, ravenous…
“What do you say?”
“Thank you Mr. Sanemi!!” the twins chimed in unison before stuffing their faces with two cookies each, squealing with delight.
Kimiko sighed and took her package from Sanemi, smiling at his humility. He was much more than a brute. He was a kind, thoughtful man—with a lot of discipline. Exactly what her hard-working niece deserved.
“What is your life path, now that the Era of Demons is over?” she inquired.
Sanemi looked back at her, and thought for a long moment. He pictured you at Kimiko’s age, and then even older…grey and wrinkled, smiling at him...
“I have been fighting my entire life. And I was lonely, for most of it. I just want to be with (Y/n), now, for as long as she’ll have me.” Sanemi said, eyes full of hope. He shifted into a kneel, backing away from the table. “And of course, with your permission.” Sanemi prostrated toward Kimiko, touching his head to the floor of your humble living room.
Haru, Yumi and Kimiko all went wide-eyed, shaken that such a powerful man was behaving so respectfully in their tiny home.
Sanemi took a slow, steady breath, and tried to calm his galloping heart down. If Kimiko said ’no’, he was already thinking of desperate plans to convince you to run away with him…
Kimiko felt her eyes misting. She was relieved. So relieved. Sanemi did and said all of the right things. And he was a complete gentleman, just as you said. If he wasn’t absolutely perfect for you, she’d kick him out on his ass even faster than Master Itoshi could...
But he was perfect for you, thank the Gods.
“Sanemi Shinazugawa, you have my blessing. You may have (Y/n)’s hand in marriage.”
Sanemi exhaled and sat up, trying to contain himself. He smiled and excitedly squeezed at his thighs. “Thank you, ma’am. I promise, I will be good to your niece.”
“Call me Kimiko, or Oba-san.”
His face lit up. “Alright, Oba-san.”
“And call me Yumi-chan!!!”
“And call me Haru-kun!!!”
With crumbs on their cheeks, the twins jumped on both of his shoulders, embracing him in a hug. The three of them bumped into the low table on the side of the room, knocking a few big spools of fabric onto the floor, and Kimiko laughed.
Family...
Sanemi had family, once again.
He smiled, and started laughing, too. After the twins calmed down and went back to their cookies, he decided to go through with the rest of his plan. “Oba-san, I have one request for you, and Yumi-chan, and Haru-kun.” He looked at each of them.
“What is it?” Kimiko asked.
“I have an empty guest-house at my estate. It has enough rooms for all three of you, and your sewing business. If you are okay with it, I want you to move in with me. I want to keep (Y/n) close to her family, no matter what.”
“Is there room outside to race?” Haru immediately asked.
Yumi went next, “Yeah and can we play-fight? WAIT—CAN WE PLAY WITH YOUR NICHIRIN?”
“OH GOOD QUESTION, YUMI!! WAIT, SANEMI-SAN CAN WE SWORD FIGHT?? MOM DOESN’T LET US BECAUSE WE HAVE NO ROOM AND SHE DOESN’T WANT US IN THE STREET AND--“
“Stop the yelling, please.”
“Sorry, mom.”
“Sorry, mom.”
“Take your cookies outside.”
“Yes, mom.”
“Yes, mom.”
They scurried away, their precious cookies in-tow. Sanemi held his laugh, and patiently waited for Kimiko’s answer. He’d apologize to her later for inciting a sugar rush… He could start now, with the money.
"Also, Oba-san, this is for you," Sanemi carefully fished his little gilded chest from his bag, and placed it on the table, in between all of their plates. His muscle made it seem lighter than it really was... The wood of the table told the truth, creaking under its gravity...
!!
Kimiko's brow arched high. "What..."
"Let me know if you were expecting more. I intend to give (Y/n) whatever she wants," Sanemi said, dead serious.
Kimiko glanced outside at her kids, then back to the chest, as if it were a bomb about to go off. She leaned forward to lift its heavy lid......!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!
**thunk**!
As soon as she saw silver, she closed it.
That was more money than she'd ever seen in her life...even while handling the warehouse funds... "H-How far is...um..." She took a deep breath, in disbelief, "How far is your estate from the Kimono Warehouse?” she asked, rubbing her temple.
“Not far, a fifteen to twenty minute walk. And I could have a carriage ready for you whenever you need one.”
“A carriage??” Kimiko was shocked! She glanced at the chest of money sitting before her, then back at him, trying to hide her surprise. Just how much wealth did Sanemi have??
“Yes. One or two horses, or more. Whatever you need. And you shouldn’t be hauling your supplies alone anyway. Respectfully,” he said with a grin. He knew she’d say yes upon seeing his estate, but he would sweeten the deal with whatever she wanted or needed. It’s no shocker that she was a workaholic, just like you.
Yumi's sudden shouting reminded Kimiko to breathe. “THESE COOKIES ARE SO GOOD, MOM, SAY YES AND EAT ONE ALREADY!!!” She beamed at the doorway, cheeks stuffed full and crumbs falling onto her yukata, into the grass. Haru was running around behind her, swinging a twig around like a sword and pretending to kill a demon.
“Hmm.” Kimiko finally caved, and opened her package of cookies. The aroma of chocolate made her brows raise with delight. She gingerly took one cookie out and inspected it. Different from the ones you make, but very nicely proportioned… And it was high quality chocolate… She took a small bite, and it melted in her mouth. Her eyes closed, and a wide smile overtook her face. She started to laugh. “This is…very good…” she mused.
Sanemi could tell that it was more than very good, but he’d accept the compliment earnestly, “Good to hear it.”
Kimiko finished the cookie, then got up to clean her hands at the water basin in the kitchen. “I will have to see what this house looks like, of course…But I think—yes.”
The twins heard her through the window, then screamed triumphantly. Kimiko laughed and shook her head, drying her hands and beaming at the sight of her kids so happy. “We will need some time to prepare...”
Sanemi got up, too. “I plan to marry (Y/n), and then travel with her for a little while. That should give you time, and then I’ll be around to help you move everything. You won’t have to worry about a thing—I promise.”
“Oh… Oh, dear…” Kimiko palmed her temple—the reality suddenly hitting her. A wedding? Moving homes? Her first baby…finally starting her own life? Kimiko might not have birthed you, but you were still her first baby!
“I need to get to work on her wedding attire…” she said to herself in a mix of stress and elation, trying not to cry from the latter. She was so excited for you. And she loved making bridal kimonos… Yours would be her greatest creation yet!
She turned back to Sanemi. “Have you planned how to ask her, yet?”
“I have, but there is one more thing I have to do," he said, determined, "I am going to get Master Itoshi’s blessing, next.”
And for the third time, since Sanemi set foot over the gate’s threshold, he surprised Kimiko. When she registered Sanemi’s resolve and confidence, she offered him one more smile. “Well, you better get to it, then, Sanemi-kun.”
He took a breath, gave her one final bow, and left through the front door. The twins tackled him in one more hug, and then he started his walk further into town.
His cheeks were starting to hurt from smiling so much.
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a/n: omg what if master itoshi says no kkkkkk~
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MDNI 18+ 〃 Squirting for the first time ft. Toji
You tell him without meaning to, blurted out between the kisses and his hands palming your tits and the thoughts running rampant through your head as you fumble to explain yourself before he finds out the way everyone else has.
“I’m not always.. reactive,” you admit, cheeks hot, eyes on the rumpled sheets instead of him. “Like, the guys I’ve been with before, um.. it doesn’t always feel like much, for me. Any of it.”
It’s embarrassing. Like you’re apologizing in advance.
Toji just leans back, scar tugging when his lips curl. His gaze pins you in place, all steady and unbothered.
“That so?” He hums, gravelly. “Good thing I’ve got patience.”
Your stomach flips.
Then his hand is between your thighs, big palm cupping you through your panties like he’s claiming your cunt. He strokes over the fabric, slow and heavy, pushing it against your folds and spreading out the damp patch until you’re writhing under the weight of it. And when his fingers finally push the cotton to the side and meet your bare skin, your breath hitches.
Toji smirks without looking up, two languid digits spreading your folds wide. “Not reactive, huh?”
You want to deny it. Stammer out some sort of excuse. But then his thumb grazes your clit – barely any pressure, just a brush – and your hips twitch hard enough that he chuckles. A deep, amused sound, rumbling from his chest.
“Yeah. Sure, baby.”
Toji doesn’t give you the usual fast, frantic rhythm. That feeling of needing to get past the foreplay – which is usually what you hate, but right now, you secretly crave it.
No. Instead, Toji takes his time. He teases. His thick fingers trace up and down your puffy folds, spreading your slick around, pressing just enough to keep you hovering. And every time you rock your hips, searching for more, he eases back. Dragging the sensation out until your thighs are trembling from pent up tension.
When he finally pushes a finger inside, it’s slow. Deliberate. He stretches you out gradually, curiously, curls upward until he finds that spot that makes your breath hitch and your hands fly to his shoulders.
“Ah– Toji, wait–”
“Wait?”
He feigns innocence, but the corner of his mouth lifts. He curls his finger again, pressing against your walls, rubbing over that spot steadily. “Feeling it, aren’t you?”
You nod through a whimper, walls fluttering around him.
Then he adds a second finger, filling you up and stretching you out as he spreads the two apart within your cunt. Working up a rhythm – long, deep strokes, followed by shallow, quick thrusts – keeping you just on the edge. And every time you start to climb up to something, sharp and ascending and desperate, he slows. Grinds the heel of his palm into your clit without quite enough pressure, forcing you to buck against him, whining.
It’s unbearable. Too much and somehow not enough, over and over and over until your body aches with it, every nerve lit.
“Toji, pleeease, I– fuck! I can’t–”
“Yes you can,” he muses, pressing a kiss to your temple like he’s soothing you. With his fingers knuckle deep in your cunt and pistoning in and out. “Hold it in, baby. Don’t cum yet.”
You cry out, tears pricking. From the sharp denial, from how raw and overwhelming and strange it feels to be this sensitive all of a sudden. Every stroke drags lightning through your cunt, makes your stomach flutter like you’re about to break.
And then – without warning – he changes.
His fingers sink in deep and curl, grinding against that spot, relentless, thumb rolling over your clit with enough pressure to have your toes curling.
Your body quivers. And then your legs kick like reflex, a broken cry ripping out as you crash into your high – followed by a sudden rush of wetness, gushing out all messy and uncontrollable, soaking his hand and the sheets beneath you. Your vision whites out, a faint ringing in your ears as the world blurs.
You collapse against him. And he holds you through it, fingers pumping lazily in your spasming cunt, muscled arm wrapped around your waist like you’re something precious.
When you come to, you cling to him. Staring wide-eyed down at the soaked mess beneath you. “I’m sorry, I.. I don’t know what–”
Toji doesn’t let you finish. He’s grinning like a man starved, hair falling in a way that has his expression all hooded and dark, voice hoarse with hunger and an awed sense of adoration.
“That’s you, sweetheart. That’s me making you squirt.”
He pulls his fingers free and watches the slick drip down his wrist before licking the digits clean, groaning low at the taste. Then they’re pressing right back into your cunt, settling in like they belong there.
“First time, huh?”
His smirk sharpens when you offer a dazed little nod.
“Haha. Fucking knew it.”
Your body’s trembling, oversensitive, but he doesn’t stop. Not now that he’s cracked you open.
“Gonna do it again,” he hums against your throat, fingers working you back up with brutal steadiness. “Make you squirt, pretty girl. Gonna keep you right here ‘til you learn how good you can cum for me.”
And you – mind muddled in a post-orgasmic daze, cunt fluttering around every merciless twist and thrust – believe him.
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Chapter 1: Why Him?
Pairing: Johnny Cage x Fem!Reader
Summary: You’re stuck on a mission with your annoying, depraved, immature co-worker…
Word count: 6.3k Warnings/Notices: enemies to lovers, slow burn, named!reader, the events of mk1's story mode have still happened but with a few changes, johnny being annoying, mildish violence, threats of violence (not followed through), reader is rude and mean, a few curse words here and there, flirty johnny, sexual things mentioned but no actual sex is depicted (yet😈)
Next Part / Origins
A/N: i’ve been debating on whether to turn this roleplay i worked on in character.ai a long time ago into an actual fanfiction and my intrigue eventually won me over. this is something that has really developed over these past few months, to the point where i would like to share this to the world. btw this is my first actual fanfiction so if anything is off then bare with. also, i’m not an actual writer, just a chronically online loser that has too much time on their hands lol
An audible groan came from the room as Liu Kang explained the task at hand to everyone present.
There have been strange... borderline supernatural occurrences happening in Outworld as of late. You and Johnny Cage have been chosen to both collect more information on one of these weird happenings, together. You both glare daggers at each other as Liu Kang explains the rest. You were stubborn and Johnny was insufferable, naturally the two of you butted heads. In all seriousness, the two of you never liked each other. You thought Johnny a vapid, arrogant child and he thought you an uptight, boring stick-in-the-mud. He never took anything seriously and you took everything too seriously. Truly, a match made in heaven. Why Liu Kang thought it was a good idea to pair the two of you up for this excursion eluded both of you.
"Really? Her? You couldn't choose someone more up for the task?" Johnny complained, rolling his eyes and not bothering to hide his clear disapproval with your presence in the room.
"Are you serious, Lord Liu Kang? There's no way you think this pompous man-child is up for this mission!" You also complain to Liu Kang, not even attempting to hide the evident disdain in your voice.
"Hey! What's that supposed to mean?!" He's scowling now, crossing his arms across his chest. Despite his own reaction, he really wasn't happy to hear that you also didn't like being paired with him. Think of the Maddy Perez "I was gonna say no but why are you saying no" bit. This man's ego was far too inflated.
"It means that you're an arrogant prat, Cage!” You start to point an accusatory finger across the table, in his direction. "Do you need me to dumb myself down so you can understand me?"
His lips thin to reveal gritted teeth, glaring daggers at you in response. "Oh, I'm the arrogant one? Look in the mirror, princess. You've got a hell of an ego yourself."
You and Johnny subsequently began to argue, both thoroughly unhappy that you both were to be paired together for this mission. Insults and accusations flew across the table as your voices gradually increase in volume. Kenshi, Kung Lao, Raiden and all others present could only roll their eyes, silently hoping that this latest back-and-forth would be over soon. This quarrel would've went on longer, had it not been for Liu Kang's interference.
"Alright, ENOUGH you two!!" The fire god's voice was loud and firm as he interrupted you both. He had enough of the constant arguing, it was time to get you two to work together for once in your lives. "I won't stand for this foolishness any longer!" Liu Kang shouted, his cheeks flushing red as rage took ahold of him.
In an instant, you and Johnny ceased your petty squabble. The God of Fire, your superior, has spoken. Simultaneously, you both hung your heads low in shame, muttering apologies under your breaths as you looked down at your feet.
"This is pathetic. You two are supposed to be Earthrealm's champions. Yet here you are fighting like children!” He shook his head in disapproval, the fact that neither you or Johnny would make eye contact with him had his lips pull into a scowl.
He gave the both of you a look of disappointment, like a parent would their misbehaving children. Sighing, he took a deep breath in and a long exhale out, effectively calming him down and clearing his mind. He didn't like to lose himself like that, but by the Gods the two of you were doing his head in.
"Now... l trust that you two will bring back valuable information, yes?" He spoke again, now in a much calmer voice.
"You have my word, Lord Liu Kang. I will not fail you." You nod your head, now actually looking at your mentor. You sit up straighter in your seat as you address him.
Though, as you pledge your loyalty to Liu Kang, your eyes wander. Out of your peripheral, you aim the filthiest of dirty looks at Johnny, scowling at him as you did so. The mere thought of working alone with this man starts to make your blood pressure rise. If this was some divine form of punishment, then it was effective.
Speaking of, Johnny nodded his head. For as much of a pain in the ass this was, he was not about to fail Liu Kang. He could be an egotistical dick at times, but he did care about Earthrealm... and he especially cared for Liu Kang, the man who changed the arc of his life.
"I'll do my part, don't worry." He responded. But then, under his breath, he muttered: “As much as I hate working with her."
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*
An hour later, you and Johnny were in a dimly lit, out of the way, shady part of Sun Do. He was sat on a curb, occupied with his phone as he endlessly scrolled through social media. You were leaning against a wall, idly checking your nails for any fractures, dirt or indentations. The two of you were waiting for a contact of Liu Kang's to pick you up and take you to the site of one of those mysterious disturbances, the site of your assigned mission.
This contact should be here at any minute. They'd better hurry up, the both of you were bored out of your minds.
Johnny sighed, loudly and dramatically, as he pushed himself off of the curb. Bored and impatient, he planted his hands on his hips and started to tap his foot on the ground, anything to serve his dull mind with some stimulation.
"Come on, come on. Where the hell's that contact?" He groaned, complaining to you like this delay was your fault. "Liu Kang said they'd be here at this specific time."
"Silence. Your voice is like nails on a chalkboard." Your voice was cold and cutting, as always when you had the misfortune of speaking to him. You didn't even bother to look up at him, why should you?
In response, he snorted.
"Oh, come on. My voice isn't that annoying, is it?" He inquired, a playful smirk on his face as he spoke.
He took a couple steps closer to you. You didn't say anything to him, only giving the man a dirty look and shuffling away from him a bit as he planted himself next to you.
"Don't tell me you're afraid of being close to me, princess." He chuckled, putting extra emphasis on the pet name he always used with you. The fact that you had moved away from him only caused his smirk to grow wider. He just looooved to piss you off, he always did, ever since he first met you. The looks you always give him were priceless in his eyes.
In response, you suck your teeth. Johnny's attempt at getting under your skin was working, much to your dismay.
"Piss off, Cage."
He snickered. He leaned in a bit closer, close enough so that your shoulders were nearly touching. He was enjoying the way your nose crinkled up as he invaded your personal space.
"What's the matter, sugar? Do I upset you?"
"Ugh, Liu Kang should’ve paired me with somebody more suitable..." You mutter under your breath, thinking out loud. Out of all your fellow champions, you value this pompous prat the least. To this day, you still never understood why he was chosen to defend Earthrealm, to share the honour of such a duty with you and the rest of the boys. Why? Why him?
"Oh yeah? Like who? Kenshi?" He quipped back, looks like you weren't quiet enough.
Johnny chuckled as he leaned in even closer, his eyes fixed on you and you alone. There was something about seeing you so irritated that amused him. Maybe it was the fact that you were pretty and he liked attractive women, maybe it was the fact that he was a prick and he found your irritation funny. Either way, he wasn’t about to stop any time soon.
You jolt to the side as your shoulders touched, turning to scowl at him.
"What? You think I'm gonna bite?" He laughed. The way you react to his presence and touch made his heart beat faster, like some sort of childish adrenaline rush.
"One step closer and you're losing a finger." You bluntly warn him. You were bluffing, of course. You don’t want to stain your clean uniform with blood.
"Oh yeah?" He snickered again. Being the fool that he is, he leaned in closer, close enough that the two of you were mere inches apart.
"Do it. I've taken worse from stronger people than you."
Your scowl deepened. This bastard truly had a talent for pissing you off. Faster than he could react, you grabbed his left wrist and spun him around, pinning his left arm behind his back as you roughly shove him against the wall behind. He winced as he made contact with the cold brick, he hadn't expected you to be so quick.
You didn't intend to harm him, although you wouldn’t feel particularly guilty if you did so. No, this was all about sending a message. Leaning in so you can whisper in his ear, you issue the strictest of warnings.
"I am not one to be played with. Liu Kang may have paired me with you for this mission but he said nothing about friendly fire. Try me again and you won’t be so lucky."
Johnny felt slightly embarrassed that he'd underestimated you like this, but he didn’t let it show. His annoyance faded when you leaned in and spoke into his ear, the feeling was replaced by surprise. A tingling sensation ran along his spine as the heat of your breath graced the shell of his ear, it all sent a shiver through his body. His small scowl gave way to a grin.
He liked this.
His eyes snapped shut, faint pink started to blossom on his cheeks. His dick started to chub, the crotch area of his uniform felt tighter by the second. His hips started to slightly rut against the wall, just for any sort of release.
"Hahh... this is kinda hot~”
You ignore his painfully in-character response, your hands push his body harder against the wall as frustration starts to overtake you.
"Do you understand, Cage?"
He groaned, his face pressed against the rough wall as you keep him pinned against it. Even as the well-trained martial artist that he is, he still couldn't free himself from your iron grasp. Johnny really couldn't believe that this was turning him on, he almost didn't want your hands to leave his body. He had to bite his lip to prevent an unwanted moan from slipping out.
"Y-yeah… I understand." His breath hitched in his throat as he tried to remain calm, however hard it may be.
"Good." You hummed back, satisfied to hear that your message of intimidation finally got across to him. Now, hopefully you could focus more on the task at hand and less on fending off this sack of hormones.
You release your grasp on the man, stepping back in order to give him some space to peel himself off of the wall. Luckily for Johnny, the alleyway that the two of you were in was dark enough so that you didn’t notice the bulge in his pants. Gods, you would've probably finished him right there and then if your eyes ventured a little more south.
"Now then, dust yourself off. Liu Kang's contact should be here any minute now."
Johnny did what he was told, brushing his hands over his torso with a grunt. He was careful not to draw any attention to his crotch, he tried to play it cool but his mind was anything but calm right now. You had really riled him up, he could feel his heartbeat in his cock thanks to your stint. He took a few deep breaths to calm himself down and regain his composure. He adjusted his pants and spoke up, trying to sound as casual as possible. “Yeah… any minute now…”
For a few minutes, a silence hung in the air. You were staring out at the street and he was awkwardly standing around. Johnny didn't like uncomfortable silences, but he also knew didn't really know what to say. Not right now, at least. He was silently praying for this supposed contact of Liu Kang to arrive already, so he doesn't have to go through this mental torture anymore.
Also, the fact that he couldn't take his eyes off of you in that tight uniform wasn’t helping matters at all. The material hugged all the right places, the metal accents adorning you only accentuated your beauty. He couldn’t keep his eyes off of the curves of your breastplate, as well as two other predictable areas. He was trying his hardest not to glance to the side, but it was getting harder and harder to resist the further the silence went on. And also, because he's Johnny Cage, he has no self-control.
Though, out of your peripheral vision, you managed to catch him looking over at you. Such knowledge made you roll your eyes once more. Without looking at him back, you say:
"What are you staring at, Cage?"
Your harsh tone causes him to flinch, as if he was a child caught with his hand in the cookie jar. He quickly looked away, trying to play it off as him being distracted by something else.
"N-Nothing. Just... waiting." Johnny meekly responded. He could feel his cheeks turning a faint pink, a sliver of embarrassment made its way through his being.
This irritates you a little more than it should’ve. "Well, why don't you-"
Whatever you had to say was cut off by a mysterious cloaked figure making their way down the alley, towards you and Johnny. He was very well built, at nearly 7 feet tall by looks alone. He was draped from head to toe in a thick brown cloak, a hood was covering his face. Intimidating would be the perfect word to describe this man.
This must be Liu Kang's contact.
"Jonathan Carlton? Jade Houzuki?" The figure began to speak, much to the surprise of you and Johnny. His voice was deep and course, it sounded almost... inhuman. The sound coming of of his mouth was as rough as sand and as deep as the seas.
You both were a bit startled, both by this cloaked figure's sudden appearance and how it knew both of your names. Johnny specifically was taken aback by the deep and gravely voice of this stranger. It sounded so unnatural, he didn’t like it. He took a few steps towards you, standing closer than usual. Not in a protective way, though. Quite the opposite, in fact.
"That's us. And you are?" Despite his shock, his usual playful demeanour resurfaces as he responds.
The figure put a fist and an open hand together, the same gesture that Liu Kang always does.
"Greetings. My name is Geras. I am an associate of Lord Liu Kang. I have been tasked to take you to the site of the pyramid. Come, your transportation awaits." He bowed as he spoke, showing that he meant no harm.
Geras began to walk out of the alleyway, his large hand beckoning you both. It was clear that he wished for you and Johnny to follow him.
The both of you give each other a look, a shared expression of confusion. It was clear that you two were uneasy, but… if he was an associate of Liu Kang, then he could be trusted... right?
Johnny sighed, and with a cocky air to his stride, began to follow Geras' footsteps.
"Lead the way, my man."
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*
Geras led the two of you to a horse drawn wooden carriage. Both of you entered the vehicle and sat down on the adjacent seats, patiently waiting to take off.
It was actually rather cozy inside. Four small pink lanterns hung in each corner of the ceiling, staving away the darkness from outside and dimly lighting up the interior. The seats were nice and cushioned, surprisingly so. The door in which you and Johnny entered in sported a little window, perfect for gazing out of.
"Quite a comfy ride we got here, huh?" Johnny said, striking up a conversation with you as the carriage took off. He bounced around a little on the soft cushion of the seat, adjusting himself to sit more comfortably.
The pink light of the lanterns gave the interior a pleasing hue, creating an almost… intimate atmosphere. He was sat on the other side of the carriage, directly across from you. His eyes traveled up and down your body, taking in the sight of you in the low light. Despite the fact that he really didn’t like you as a person, he’d always thought you were attractive.
”Yes... it's rather nice in here." You, just like him, were shifting around in your seat, adjusting yourself in an effort to get comfortable.
Johnny couldn't stop himself from smirking as he continued to "assess" your form. He leaned back against the wall, loudly sighing as he continued to look you up and down.
"You know, I never pegged you for the comfy type. I always just assumed you'd like, I don't know, a really hard chair or something."
You huff lightly at what he has to say. Was he serious?
"Hah, what in the realms do you mean by that?" You look up at him with a raised brow, awaiting an answer.
Johnny chuckled a little as well, a sly look was in his eyes as he explained himself.
"I mean... you seem like the type of person who'd be pretty hardcore about your furniture. I assumed you'd like stuff that was really firm."
You don’t say anything, only rolling your eyes at his remarks before redirecting your attention towards the outside world. This man loved to ramble, and it was more annoying than it was amusing.
"C'mon, don't give me the silent treatment. I know you want to argue back." He teased, sitting up and leaning a little closer to you.
You remained silent, giving Johnny a look of irritation as you slightly lean away from him.
"Aw, are you pouting? That's adorable." He teased, inching a little closer until he was so close that your knees almost touched.
He's so annoying. "Ugh, you’re annoying…”
Johnny laughed, moving even closer to you. There was something so enjoyable about the way you continue to try and keep your distance from him. He liked this kind of attention, even if it was done out of irritation.
"You love it, sugar." He said in a low, nearly sultry tone. He was so close by now that he wouldn't have to raise his voice to a normal volume in order to be heard.
You were pretty quickly growing sick of this man - which, wasn't good for you as you have to spend the next few days with him.
"Geras!" You loudly call out to your new partner, the sudden sound of your voice reverberating around the small confines of the carriage, something that drew a colourful word out of Johnny. "How long 'till we reach the mission site?"
"Jesus, woman. You scared the hell outta me...” He moved away from you, crashing back down into his seat as he started to grumble. He crossed his arms over his chest, sulking like a moody teenager.
Geras, meanwhile, was driving the carriage to the mission site. He was sat outside, coursing the horses along the road as well as keeping a watch out for any bandits or wild animals. That deep voice of his spoke up, muffled through the walls of the carriage.
"Not until sunrise." He was silent for a few seconds before speaking again. "The journey will be long. You two may wish to get some rest."
"S-sunrise?!"
Your eyes widened, the thought of spending a whole night in a tiny, enclosed space with a man you couldn't stand made you audibly groan in displeasure. Feeling defeated, you slump back into your seat, not looking forward to the night ahead.
Johnny couldn't help but grin as he saw the defeated look on your face. You looked so cute when you were pissed off, he loved it. The fact that you made no effort to hide the fact that you hated the idea of being stuck in a small space with him for a whole night made him laugh.
"Oh, don't make that face! I don't mind spending the night alone with you." He teased, winking at you.
"I couldn't think of anything worse..."
Johnny was really enjoying this moment, the idea of spending so much time alone with you actually excited him. This was the first time in... ever that he's had the opportunity to experience such a pleasure. Are you as excited as him~?
"Aw, don't be a stick in the mud. I'm sure this'll be fun! After all, we'll have a lot of time to ourselves..."
You suck your teeth at what Johnny had to say. The way he emphasised that last word made it clear what he was thinking about. You aren’t stupid, you know exactly what his dirty little mouth is implying.
"You're a fucking dog."
Johnny pretended to be hurt by your words, even putting a hand on his heart to dramatically convey his "wounded" state.
"Ohhh, a dog? How dare you, darlin’. You wound me."
He wore an exaggerated pout, although the smirk on his face gave away that he wasn't actually hurt by your remark. He was still getting a kick out of this whole thing. He continues to tease you, his voice dropping and taking on a low, sultry tone.
"You know you don't mean it, sugar~"
This man was really starting to piss you off. Johnny loved to rile you up, and you were too ticked off to realise that all he wanted was a reaction. Slumping against the wall, you start to twirl your long braid around your fingers, fighting to resist the urge to slap the source of your sour mood that sat across from you.
"You know, you look so cute when you're angry." Johnny chuckled, teasingly wagging a finger in your face. He could tell that you want to lash out at him, that's what made this so fun!
His eyes traveled from your face, down and then back up your body, taking in the delicious sight before him. Johnny started to shift around a little in his seat, subtly adjusting his pants as he felt something start to grow down there.
"Whatever..." You laid your body down on the seat below, a slow yawn slipping past your lips. You too shifted around in your seat, now makeshift bed. Though, not for the reasons that Johnny across from you was.
You were so tired, you'd been up all day without a chance for a moments rest. Your exhaustion, and the man across from you in general, left you unable to keep your heavy eyelids open. Geras did say that this journey would be a long one, so why not get some rest?
"I'm going to sleep." You inform Johnny, mentally hoping that he would follow suit and stop fucking pestering you already. "Do not bother me."
Johnny rolled his eyes. He leaned back, resting his arms behind his head as he watched you make yourself comfortable. He was actually fairly tired himself, but he didn't want to let you know that. He really just wanted to keep teasing you, to see that pretty face of yours curl up in disdain.
"Hmph. And what if I do?"
"Then it’ll be your last mistake." You casually threaten him whilst your eyes close. The mental image of Johnny being up all night and having no one to talk to actually made a small smile sprout on your face. How ever would he cope?
"You should rest. We have a long day ahead of us tomorrow."
Johnny, however, laughs at your words, not in the least bit taken aback by your thinly veiled threat. He wasn't stupid, he knew that you would probably hurt him for real if he kept bothering you. Gods know that it wouldn’t be the first time you did, either. But, a part of him was also tempted to stay up all night, just to spite you.
He leaned his head back against the wall, raking his eyes over your body one more time. A yawn escaped him, fatigue was starting to sink its claws into him. Some rest really didn't sound half bad.
"Hmph...fine."
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*
It's now the peak of the night.
The carriage continues its journey toward the location that the disturbance was said to originate from. The interior is now significantly darker, intensified by the late hour. Faint illumination emanated from the four small lanterns that hung in the ceiling corners.
Having long departed Sun Do, the world outside has been submerged in a profound silence, Outworld was plunged in darkness. Along with the distant noises of animals, only the muffled sound of the carriage wheels rolling across the ground disrupted the quiet of the night.
Despite the small and cramped conditions, you’ve made yourself comfortable, you're now fast asleep. Johnny, however, is awake. He was unable to fall unconscious, all the tossing and turning in his seat no longer helped. He was bored out of his mind, there wasn't much else to do besides sit here and wait.
He glanced over at you, a sly smile spread across his face as an idea formed in his head. He knew that he should let you sleep, but the idea of getting under your skin again was simply too tempting to resist. You were so cute when you were pissed off, could you blame him?
"Jaaade… Jaaade… wake up..."
Despite his pestering, you remain fast asleep, lightly storing to add to it. Johnny, however, doesn't give up. He chuckled at your quiet snoring, finding you endearing in this state. A part of him actually wanted to leave you be, but the more he looked at your sleeping face, the more he wanted to bother you.
"Come on, princess… I know you're awake..." He leaned in close. He spoke into your ear, his voice barely above a whisper.
Fortunately for Johnny and unfortunately for you, this did the trick. Waking up, you let out a yawn whilst slowly pushing yourself off of your seat. Your voice was groggy and your speech was slow as you speak to him.
"Joh.... Johnny? Are we... there yet?"
He chuckles at the sight of you waking up, the tired and sleepy look on your face made you look even more adorable in his eyes, if possible.
"No, not yet, darlin'. We've still got a ways to go."
Wait, what? The news that you haven't yet arrived at the mission site caused you to wake up a bit more. If you weren't there, why did Johnny wake you up? Did something happen? Did bandits attack? Is Geras alright?
You dart up, still in a half-awake state but becoming increasingly paranoid. Your voice was rapid as you spoke at Johnny, your mind starting to go a million miles a minute.
"...So why did you wake me up if we aren't there?! Is everything alright? Are we-“
The sound of him laughing cut you off. Your alarmed and paranoid state was so damn funny to him. Seeing you get so worked up over nothing was just too entertaining.
"Calm down, sugar, everything's fine! I was just bored and wanted someone to talk to." He smiled, enjoying the view of you darting up. Your eyes were so wide, you looked like you were ready to pop a vein.
Is he fucking serious? "Are... are you fucking serious?"
Johnny's smile just widened at your outraged response. He loved when you got like this, it meant that he was getting under your beautiful skin.
"I'm dead serious, darlin'. I got bored and thought to myself, let me wake the sleeping beauty up so that I have someone to talk to."
The revelation that he woke you up not because you were being attacked, but because he was merely bored, really pissed you off. This bastard had purposely disturbed your rest no good reason. The panic coursing through your being quickly shifted to anger, bordering on rage.
"You woke me up because you're... bored?!"
Johnny chuckled, he shamelessly enjoyed seeing you like this. The fact that he had the power to drive you up the wall with such a stupid reason was entertaining, to say the least.
"Yep, I'm bored. And I had no one to talk to, aside from Geras outside, and he doesn’t seem like he’s a very good conversation partner..." He smirked, watching you closely.
You were now fully awake. The sudden onslaught of panic and anger had snapped you out of your sleepy state. You were giving Johnny the darkest of glares as you held yourself up off your seat by your arms, a nasty scowl on your lips.
Johnny grinned in contrast, knowing that he had successfully annoyed you again. That death glare aimed solely at him was exactly the response he'd been looking for.
"Aw, don't look at me like that, darlin’! Come on, ain't you bored too?"
"By the Gods..." You take a deep breath in and a long exhale out, pinching the bridge of your nose as you restrain yourself from outright attacking this man there and then.
"Come on, can you blame me? We've been in this cramped ass carriage for hours now. I know you’re also bored.” He chuckled again as he leaned back against his seat, stretching his limbs out slightly.
"Johnny-"
He knew that you were holding back from physically attacking him, and that you were probably thinking of a billion ways to kill him. Johnny knew he was annoying and that he pissed you off, that was the fun in it.
"What's wrong, sugar? Cat got your tongue?" Like the ass that he is, he still continued to push you. He leaned in, his face now mere inches from yours.
Opening your eyes to see Johnny's face inches away from your own wasn't a welcome surprise. Grumbling, you roughly shove him backwards, using his own face to push his body away from you. He crashed back down on his seat with a loud: "Oof!"
After the initial shock of you shoving him wore off, he started to rub his chin and chuckle, the mild sting on his face not really bothering him.
"Damn, you got quite the strong arm, don't you, darlin'?"
"Just go back to sleep, Cage..." You mutter as you lay back down, trying your hardest to fall back asleep.
Johnny sighed, leaned back against the wall of the carriage and propping his feet up on the adjacent seat to him, the spot besides your head. "Well..."
"Do you even have a favourite colour, Jade?"
He looked at you curiously, his eyes on your facial features. As much as he revelled in getting on your nerves, a part of him genuinely wanted to hold a conversation with you.
"...Why do you ask?" You reopened your eyes, your anger gave way to confusion, intrigue.
Johnny shrugged, keeping his eyes on you as you lay there, looking up at him. "I don't know, I'm just curious. Can't a guy have a normal conversation with the woman who's stuck with him for the entire night?"
"Hm..." You lie there, pondering his question. Maybe, just maybe, if you answer him then he’ll leave you alone for the rest of the night.
"...l am rather partial to green."
Johnny smiled in response, this time genuinely. Of course, you would pick the colour that you mostly wore, it made perfect sense.
"Green, huh? Me too." His tone was jovial, but still slightly teasing.
"Is that why you wear it so much? 'Cause you know it suits you?"
You don't say anything, a light scoff escaping you is your response instead.
An awkward silence hung in the air for a bit. Realising that you wouldn't get back to sleep anytime soon, and realising that Johnny wouldn't let up in bothering you talking to you, you sit up and take in a deep breath, sighing slowly as you regain more of yourself.
"You like green, too?"
Johnny was admittedly a little surprised that you’d actually started to talk to him. He was honestly expecting you to dismiss him or refuse to speak, like you always do. Nonetheless, he still answers your question without missing a beat.
"Yeah, I do...guess that's another thing we share in common then, darlin'." He chuckles, his smile never fading. You were a tough nut to crack, but maybe he could get you to loosen up a little more.
"Guess so." A tiny smile appears on your face.
Johnny’s smile widened. For the first time in a long time, you two were starting to have an actual, normal and proper conversation, not just a petty argument. He found himself enjoying this a lot more than he thought he would. He looked you over again. Your tired, yet still rather attractive appearance still intrigued him. He couldn't help but say something.
"You know, you still look cute even when you're sleep deprived."
You chuckle. Johnny's flirting surprisingly makes you laugh instead of getting on your nerves.
And that's when you take a good look at him. The dim pink lighting above actually complemented his features rather well. His cheekbones were well defined, his jawline strong and his smile was bright. Moving downwards, the way his uniform hugged his broad form made a warm feeling make its way through your stomach. Your face softened ever since slightly. As annoying as he was, Johnny is still a very handsome man. Slowly, you were starting to see this.
You start to, ever so slightly, warm up to him. Well, maybe the atmosphere the two of you were in was having some sort of effect on your psyche. Either way, what was commencing was doing so.
"Must you flirt with every single woman you come across?" You tilt your head to the side slightly, a playful look in your narrowing eyes.
"No, I only do it to the beautiful ones." He let out a soft laugh, his face still wore a smile but his voice was much more sultry than before, something very intentional. Though not obvious, he liked how you chuckled at his words. You looked... weirdly beautiful when you smiled, this was such a rare sight to see.
"Like Kitana? I've noticed how you speak to her."
"Oh, Kitana..." He laughed again and craned his neck to look out of the window for a bit. His smile shifted into a sly smirk as he looked back at you. "...Maybe a little." The smirk on his face grew. It sounds almost as if he was thinking about something that he and he alone was aware of.
"And what if Kitana and I were… friends of sorts?"
You chuckle again, somewhat amused by his revelation. The implication of his words didn't elude you, of course he'd be hooking up with somebody in Outworld.
”Then Sindel would have your head."
He shrugged, not at all bothered by that very true fact. "That's a risk I'm willing to take... for Kitana, at least."
Johnny paused for a moment and looked at you again, his smirk widened as he next spoke.
"Jealous, are you?"
You roll your eyes, your usual feelings of Johnny Cage irritation starting to bubble back up again. "Please..."
The smirk on his face grew more sly. In his eyes, you were trying to act unbothered by the whole situation. He believed that deep down, he knew of your true feelings.
"Aw, come on darlin'. Don't lie to me now. I can see it in your eyes. You're jealous that I'm hitting on a gorgeous girl like Kitana." He winked, continuing to tease you.
"Hah, whatever helps you sleep at night." You start to shift in your seat a little. Not because what Johnny was saying was true, which it wasn't, but because you were starting to grow a little uncomfortable.
This just amused Johnny more. In his eyes, you were starting to get flustered. The knowledge that him and the princess were FWB clearly got to you, he thought. It was all a little game to him.
"Aw, don't worry, princess. Your secret's safe with me. I know you're feeling a tad jealous that I'm into Kitana." He leaned in closer to you, his voice just a whisper.
“By the Gods, you're annoying..." Your head falls into your hand, your fingers pressing into your forehead.
Aww, you was trying to cover up the jealously that was inside you, how cute! There's nothing to be ashamed about.
"And you're adorable when you're jealous like this." He leaned forward, even closer to you.
You again push Johnny away from you by his face, but this time noticeably lighter. Wow, he really was making progress! A yawn slips out of you, you go ahead and lay back down in your seat, shifting around a bit in a bid to get comfortable.
“…I’m going back to sleep. You should, too." You look at Johnny one last time before closing your eyes. "And don’t bother me this time."
Johnny couldn't resist rolling his eyes in response to your warning, but that smirk never faded. He leaned back in his seat and placed his arms behind his head. He silently watched you lay down and start to drift back to the dream world. Only the Elder Gods know what his lewd mind was thinking about at that moment.
"Night, darlin'..."
A/N: thank you for reading!! <33
Sevyn Rambles. | minors DNI
prompt: the feeling right before you kiss someone
when you know the tension is there.. and thick. it truly is such an exhilarating feeling. the anticipation you feel, the type that goes all the way into your bones. where you start shaking from nerves, wondering what's about to happen next. and the "forbidden" passionate sex that you crave, chase and long for. the kind you dream about, that you physically can't help but yearn for. it gives me that release i need. sex so intimate.. and yet, still so very distant ~
so.
i guess fanfiction wasn’t a phase….
bakugo NSFW headcannons ¡
dynamite in the sheets
warnings: nsfw. mdni¡ lots of nastiness. possessive/mean bakugo, overstim, nasty talk, lil soft aftercare bc he can’t help it
MASTERLIST
a/n: while i’m writing for the lovely requests i saw btw thank you to everyone that sent requests i promise i saw them all and they were amazing hahaha i wrote this while i was drunk lol enjoy 🤽🏿♀️
-bakugo doesn’t do chill sex. he fucks like he’s training for the olympics. sweaty, rough, swearing the whole time. every thrust feels like he’s trying to prove something.
-if you mouth off?? oh you’re done. you talk shit to him and suddenly your legs are folded back, bed creaking, and he’s right in your face like: “say it again. bet you fuckin’ won’t.”
-he gets off on wrecking you. like actually obsessed with making you cum until you’re crying. it’s not sweet, it’s competitive. “thought you could tap out? nah. you’re takin’ it until i say.”
-his fingers??? literal weapons. he finds your g-spot once and then abuses it like he’s mad at it. he’ll be leaning over you, growling in your ear: “yeah, right there? that’s all mine.”
-he’s nasty about oral. eats pussy like it’s a challenge, not a favor. drags you to the edge of the bed, throws your legs over his shoulders and doesn’t let up until you’re literally sobbing. if you try to squirm away? nah. he pins you down and snarls, “you’re not fuckin’ done ‘til i say.”
-absolutely spits in your mouth. no hesitation, no warning. you make one bratty comment and suddenly his hand’s gripping your jaw, tongue on yours, and he’s muttering “swallow it like the slut you are.” you’ll be dizzy and soaked after.
-lowkey into breeding talk but will never admit it. you moan about how full he’s got you and his whole body stutters, breath ragged. “shut up—fuck—don’t say shit like that.” meanwhile he’s fucking you deeper, grinding it in like he wants to prove it.
-hates when you tease him in public. if you’re being flirty around the others, expect to get railed within an inch of your life the second you’re alone. bent over a sink, teeth in your shoulder, growling, “you think anyone else can handle this attitude? nah. only me.”
-bakugo is SO mean in bed it’s ridiculous. calls you loud, bratty, messy..but his dick twitches every time you moan his name. “shut the fuck up,” while secretly loving that you can’t.
-he’s insanely possessive. if he even catches another guy looking at you, you’re not walking tomorrow. “you’re mine. no one else gets to see you like this.” and then he fucks it into you until you believe him.
-aftercare is so on brand for him. he’ll toss you a towel and be like “jesus christ, you’re needy as hell” … but then he’s pulling you onto his chest, kissing your hair, whispering shit he’d deny if you called him on it.
lmk if u guys want more mha headcannons ;)
Thank you! 😊
So first, are you familiar with any of the following? Yugioh, the Disney movies, the legend of korra, dangan ronpa, akudama drive, my hero academia, hunter x hunter, koe no katachi, samurai jack, dbz, free iwatobi, gurren lagann, mob psycho 100, pokemon, gravity falls, jjk, one piece, jackie chan adventures, voltron, urasawa's pluto, dandadan. I'll base the request on one or two of the shows that you know best.
Also, how many requests can I ask for?
ofc!
oouuu the ones i don’t know are yugioh, akudama drive, koe no katachi, samurai jack, i never watched dbz but i know it ofc, gurren lagann, voltron and urasawas pluto
the rest yesss i’m actually watching the new dandadan szn rn haha
you can ask for few i would say go crazy but it would take a lot of time so realistically id say about 3 is fine w me :)
ps. u didn’t list it but idk if u know mortal combat like the game but i have a johnny cage x reader smut coming on sept. 13 😌
Hi there. I would like to place an nsfw fanfic request please. But first I have some questions I want to ask if that's okay.
Hi love! Yess of course ask away :)
Todoroki x curvy!reader
MASTERLIST
warnings: smut ,body worship,soft dom Todoroki,curvy/chubby reader,established relationship ,praise kink,sweet dirty talk,soft insecurity, smutttt and pet names galore
Request by: @thatoneweirdkidattheplayground
A/n: This request is so yes i’m sorry it took so long to answer it and I love the body love/confidence twist you added. it’s not letting me copy and paste it but i gotchu tho hehe
You’re standing in front of him half-dressed thighs out, chest full and barely contained in your favorite old bra, the band biting into your soft sides a little, the fabric straining against your plush curves. It doesn’t fit… not really. But he’s looking at you like it’s the sexiest thing he’s ever seen.
No, like you are.
His jaw twitches.
“Get on the bed,” he murmurs. “Please.”
You blink. “W-What?”
His voice is calm, but his hands are trembling when they touch your hips again.
“Lie down. Let me see all of you.”
The moment you’re on your back, he’s already crawling up between your thighs like a man starved. Eyes flicking over your body with open awe at the way your tummy softens against your ribcage, the way your thighs part just enough for his hips to fit between them.
“Pretty girl,” he murmurs, brushing his mouth over your inner thigh. “You’re everything.”
Your breath catches. “You’ve barely even touched me, baby—”
“I’ve seen you,” he cuts in gently, nosing against your skin. “That’s all it takes.”
You feel the brush of his lips lower, right where your body’s warmest, softest — and when he groans? You nearly lose it.
“You smell so good,” he mumbles, kissing over your panties, tongue flattening against the fabric. “Sweet thing. Want you dripping down my throat.”
Your legs twitch.
“T-Todoroki—”
He looks up, expression wrecked. Hair a little messy already. Lips flushed.
“Call me Shoto when I’m eating your pussy,” he says, dragging your panties down your thighs. “Please.”
Your stomach flips so hard you forget how to breathe.
The first stroke of his tongue is slow like he’s savoring you. And then another, firmer, deeper until your thighs are trembling around his face and he’s moaning against your cunt like you’re a five-star meal.
Your hands tangle in his hair, voice breathy. “You like it that much, sweet boy?”
He nods against you, groaning. “Obsessed.”
His arms wrap around your thighs, hugging them like they’re his anchor, his home. He’s devouring you like you’re the softest, warmest thing he’s ever had. Like he’s trying to prove something not to you, but to your insecurity.
He wants it gone.
He wants it buried under every kiss he places on your stretch marks, every moan he pulls out of your mouth, every filthy praise he whispers into your pussy.
“Can’t believe you thought this body wasn’t perfect,” he murmurs, licking you open. “Look at how you fall apart for me. Look how good you take me.”
You’re writhing, helpless under the weight of his words and his tongue and his sweet, hungry sounds.
When he slips two fingers inside you, curling just right, his lips wrap around your clit, and you nearly scream.
“S-Shoto—!”
“That’s it, love. Let go for me.”
And when you do, it hits hard thighs clenching, body shuddering, moaning his name like a mantra while he holds you through it.
He doesn’t stop until you’re gasping.
And then he’s pulling back, lips glistening, flushed to hell — and crawling up your body with so much adoration in his eyes, you forget why you were ever insecure in the first place.
“Ready to feel me?” he whispers, brushing your cheek. “Or do you need a second?”
You bite your lip, grinning breathlessly.
“Sweet boy,” you whisper, cupping his face. “I want to feel all of you.”
He groans, forehead pressing to yours.
“Oh, pretty girl,” he murmurs. “I’m gonna make you feel everything.”
Your legs are still trembling when he kisses you again slow, open-mouthed, tasting your orgasm on his tongue like he’s drunk on you.
“You okay?” he murmurs, lips brushing your cheek.
“Better than okay,” you whisper, touching his face. “But I need more.”
“Yeah?” he asks softly, like he needs you to say it.
You nod, breathless. “I want you inside me, Shoto. Want to feel you stretch me out. Want all of you, baby.”
He groans head dipping into the crook of your neck like he’s trying to physically restrain himself.
You feel the heat of him against your thigh, hard and heavy, and when you look down, you gasp softly.
“God, baby…”
He’s thick. Bigger than you remember. And when he looks at you, his voice is shaky.
“You’re sure?” he asks, eyes dark. “You’re soft and warm and so fucking tight, love, I might not last long.”
You bite your lip and pull him closer, voice like a prayer.
“Then don’t. Just give it to me.”
He grabs your thigh with one hand and lines himself up with the other, pressing the blunt head of his cock against your soaked entrance. Your back arches — the pressure already dizzying.
“Fucking hell,” he groans as he pushes in slowly, inch by inch. “You’re so full down here, baby. You’re squeezing me like a vice.”
You whimper, one hand gripping his shoulder, the other in his hair. “You’re big, sweet boy mmnh—fuck, it’s so good”
His lips find your neck, kissing gently as he starts to move, hips rolling slow and deep like he’s trying to memorize how your body takes him.
His hands never stop touching. Palming your thighs. Sliding up your waist. Holding your breast in that too-small bra like it’s the prettiest thing he’s ever seen.
“You feel unreal,” he murmurs, breath hot on your skin. “Every part of you. Want you like this forever. Warm, full, mine.”
You wrap your legs around him tighter, moaning softly as he hits that deep spot again and again.
“Just like that, baby. Mmm—fuck—feels so good inside me. Wanna keep you there.”
He moans, thrusts getting a little harder now, pace still controlled but heavy.
“I can feel you gripping me, pretty girl. Every time I push in. You’re so wet, fuck”
You clench tighter just to tease him, and he chokes out a whimper.
“You’re gonna make me lose it.”
You smile, breathless. “Good. Fill me up, sweet boy.”
And he does.
Thrusts turning rougher, needier, thighs clenching around you as he buries his face in your chest, fucking you through his orgasm with a low, broken moan.
“Gonna come oh fuck, love, you’re taking all of me feels so good”
You feel the heat of it as he pulses inside you, hips grinding against yours, not wanting to let go.
You’re both panting, sweaty and glowing, when you roll him onto his back and straddle his lap.
He blinks up at you, dazed.
“Again?” he murmurs, already getting hard between your thighs.
You smirk, tugging your bra strap off your shoulder slowly.
“Still think it doesn’t fit?”
He groans, hands flying to your hips.
“God, ride me,” he whispers. “Show me every inch of what I’ve been missing.”
your ghost x reader ATE.
since you’re in the COD fandom i was wondering if i could request a soap x reader fanfic 🙏🏻 friends to lovers jealousy trope vibes.
doesn’t need to be smut, but if it can be.. 👀
I SEE THE VISION 🤏🏽 yall ask and you shall receive
Trouble you started/ soap x female reader
MASTERLIST
warnings: friends to lovers, kinda short, jealousy, smut mdni¡
a/n: this took a min for me to post. it’s literally been rotting in my drafts buttt i hope this is good id def make a pt. 2
You didn’t mean to set him off.
It was harmless some casual talk with a guy from 141 during downtime. But you’d touched his arm. Laughed at something that wasn’t even funny. And Johnny saw it.
You could feel his eyes on you for the rest of the night.
Quiet. Watchful. Tense in a way you hadn’t seen before.
Back in your room, it didn’t take long.
You turned to say something maybe to tease him, maybe to cool things down but he was already walking toward you, slow and sure.
“That was cute,” he said, voice low. “Back there with Riley.”
You raised a brow. “Jealous?”
His eyes dropped to your mouth for a second too long.
“You tryin’ to make me?”
You opened your mouth, but he stepped in, close enough that your back hit the edge of the desk.
“Don’t play innocent now,” he muttered, hand bracing the wall beside your head. “You’ve been pushin’ this line for weeks.”
His lips brushed yours just barely. “So here we are.”
The first kiss was slow. Way too slow for the way your heart was pounding. You gripped the front of his shirt, trying to pull him in, but he didn’t budge.
“Relax,” he whispered. “You’re gettin’ what you wanted.”
You hated how smug he sounded.
Made you love it more.
He didn’t tear your clothes off he slid them off. Like he wanted to see every inch, memorize every reaction. Your breath caught when his hands slid down your hips, warm and firm and unshaking.
When he finally touched you, his fingers were slow. Teasing. Testing your patience on purpose.
You moaned, grinding into his hand. “Johnny—”
“Yeah,” he said softly, like he’d been waiting to hear that from you. “Say it again.”
“Johnny.”
“You sound wrecked already.”
When he pushed into you, you swore under your breath, hands scrambling for something to hold on to. He was big, steady, warm against your back as he pulled your hips into him again and again.
No dirty talk, no filthy threats just low, rough breathing and the occasional muttered “fuck” in your ear every time you clenched around him.
Your name sounded different when he said it now. Like a secret, not a joke.
You felt yourself getting close, fingers gripping the edge of the desk hard. He knew. Of course he knew.
“Go on,” he said, barely above a whisper. “Let go.”
And when you did he followed right after, quiet groan pressed into your neck, his hands gripping you like he didn’t want to let go.
When it was over, neither of you moved for a while.
Your head rested back against his shoulder, his arm still around your waist. No jokes. No teasing.
Just that tension, finally broken. That heat, finally let out.
After a few minutes, he said, almost casually:
“Next time you try to make me jealous—don’t.”
You looked over your shoulder at him. “Or what?”
He kissed your neck, slow and deliberate.
“I won’t be this patient.”
Your legs were still shaking when you finally peeled yourself off his chest. He hadn’t let go of your waist the entire time. Not even when your skin started to cool and your pulse steadied.
But now?
Now he was just watching you.
Quiet. Lazier now, but that same heat was simmering in his eyes. Like a wolf who’d eaten but hadn’t had nearly enough.
You brushed your fingers through his hair and smirked. “So that’s what happens when I touch Riley’s arm, huh?”
He narrowed his eyes.
“Careful,” he muttered, voice low. “That was me being patient.”
You couldn’t help it. You leaned back on the desk again shameless and spread your legs just enough for him to look. To see his cum still dripping out of you.
His jaw flexed.
“Jesus fuck,” he whispered. “You tryin’ to kill me?”
You dragged a finger down your chest, brushing past your nipples.
“Just wonderin’ if you’re all talk, MacTavish.”
He moved so fast you barely had time to gasp.
One hand on your throat not squeezing, just holding while the other gripped your hip and pulled you to the edge of the desk. Right back where he had you before.
“Talk?” he growled. “You think that was me proving something?”
You moaned softly when you felt him hard against your thigh again.
“You’re already hard again,” you teased.
He kissed you rough all teeth and tongue and tension then pulled back just enough to murmur:
“‘Cause you’re sittin’ there drippin’ like a fuckin’ meal.”
You gasped when he dragged the head of his cock through your folds, slow, deliberate, letting the tip press to your clit just enough to make you squirm.
“No more warnings, love,” he said darkly. “You wind me up like that again, you take everything I give you. Got it?”
You nodded, but it wasn’t fast enough.
He shoved in.
You choked on a gasp legs flying up around his waist, fingers clawing for the edge of the desk again. The stretch was sharper this time. Faster. Hungrier.
No slow pace now. No warm-up. Just hips slamming into yours like he’d been waiting to remind you who you belonged to.
“You like makin’ me jealous?” he growled into your neck. “That what gets you off, pretty girl?”
You could barely breathe, let alone answer.
“Too fuckin’ bad,” he grunted, grabbing your thigh and pulling it up over his shoulder. “’Cause I don’t share. And you’re gonna feel that.”
You whimpered body shaking, desk rattling beneath you and he grinned through his teeth.
“Already clenching on me. Filthy little thing.”
He reached down, thumb brushing your clit just right, and you cried out.
“That’s it,” he whispered. “Come for me again. Make a mess. Show me who fuckin’ owns this body.”
When you came again, it was loud. Intense. Everything coiled tight and snapping all at once heat flooding your belly, thighs trembling around his waist.
He followed right after you with a loud, breathless moan, spilling inside you for the second time, holding you still while he pulsed inside you.
Breath on your skin. His forehead against your shoulder.
And finally… silence. The good kind. He didn’t let you stand.
Just leaned in, pressing soft kisses to your cheek, your jaw, your chest.
“You alright?” he whispered. “Wasn’t too much?”
You shook your head, dazed but glowing. “That was… perfect.”
He chuckled softly and helped you down, only to scoop you into his arms a second later.
“I was gonna walk—“Don’t care,” he murmured. “You don’t lift a finger after that.”
Back in bed, he cleaned you up with the kind of gentleness that made your heart ache warm towel, soft strokes, forehead kisses every time you sighed.
And when you curled into him, sore and boneless?
His hand slid over your thigh, possessive even in sleep.
“One more thing,” he mumbled, eyes already drifting shut.
“Mm?”
“Next time you flirt with Riley again…”
You smirked. “Yeah?”
He kissed your shoulder. Slow and deliberate.
“I won’t be nearly that gentle.”
Terms of Lease
Johnny (Soap) McTavish x F Reader
Synopsis— After your landlord raised the price on your flat, you’re left scrambling for a last minute roommate. Luckily or unluckily for you, a certain Scotsman with a shady work background seems to be the perfect candidate for a flat-mate.
Word count: 22.3k
Tags— Smut, strangers to friends to lovers, mild violence, slow burn, mild danger, Scottish men with red flags, cannon divergence?
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Modern 2-Bedroom Co-Living Apartment in Manchester City Centre, Price: £1,060/month per room (all bills included).
Description: "Fully furnished ensuite rooms in a contemporary two-bedroom apartment. Shared kitchen and living area. Flexible short stays. No deposit required."
Your fingers hovered over your laptop's keypad, switching between sleek photos of your kitchen in good lighting and the empty spare room across the hall. Everything had been perfectly curated: the listing had gone up, pictures had been taken, and your contact information had been provided.
All that was left was to wait for someone to bite the bait and take the room.
You glanced back over your shoulder to stare at the door to the spare room, a slight grimace settling onto your lips. You hadn’t intended to have a roommate; the whole point of moving to Manchester was to get away from a poor living situation. Not bounce from one to the other.
But alas, private education was not free. Your psychology degree wouldn’t pay for itself, and neither would your apartment. You’d managed to snag a part-time job at the pub down the street to ease some of the financial burden.
However, your landlord had been so kind as to raise the rent. Which brought you here, stuck endlessly re-scrolling your apartment listing, hoping someone would click. There was a sour kind of irony in having fought so hard for your own space, only to be forced into sharing it with a stranger.
You subconsciously gnawed at your bottom lip in worry; what if you didn’t find someone in time? Or worse, what if the person you ended up co-living with turned out to be a psychotic serial killer?
You shivered as your mind dug up endless Reddit threads about roommate horror stories.
Note to self: conduct thorough background checks.
You sighed, your head lulling back against one of the couch cushions. Well, at least if your hypothetical roommate did end up axe-murdering you in your sleep, there was free healthcare to make up for it on the odd chance that you survived.
A small noise chimed from your laptop, interrupting your train of thought. You looked at the screen. A small red dot was attached to the message icon of your contact listing. You clicked on the icon.
Message: “Hi, I’m interested in the available room. Any chance you could provide more details?”
You stared at the text briefly, your fingers hovering motionless over the keys. “Seems normal enough,” You muttered. You glanced at the name of the messenger, “-Okay…Johnny McTavish, let’s see if you’re going to axe murder me in my sleep.”
Message (You): “Of course, I’d be happy to send you more of the details…”
. . . . . ◟੭
In hindsight, was taking the first offer for the spare room an intelligent decision? No, probably not. However, you had worked yourself into an anxious spiral, fearing that this was your one and only shot.
So much for conducting thorough background checks.
Whatever information you did manage to get seemed normal enough, nothing that screamed “roommate from hell.”
You thought back on everything you knew about your soon-to-be housemate. His name was Johnny, he was in his mid-twenties, and he was in Manchester to “sort a few things out, " whatever that meant.
He also had a job; what he did exactly, you didn’t know. The term “security” seemed like a pretty general job description.
But, as a fellow person with trust issues, you couldn’t fault him for being slightly vague. As long as he could pay his half of the rent and co-exist with you like a normal person, you didn’t quite care to learn the nitty-gritty details.
Despite his elusiveness, everything else seemed to check out. So, you went ahead and arranged a date for him to tour the apartment before he officially moved in.
Speaking of, you glanced back at the wall clock. Watching the small hand point to the four mark, as if on cue, you heard someone knock on the door. Your eyebrows furrowed together. Punctual.
You stood up, making your way over to the door and wrapping your hand around the knob to pull it forward.
You weren’t sure what you were expecting, but whatever it was, was miles away from the person standing at your doorstep. He was tall and broad, with large shoulders and pale skin. His hair was brown. It was shaved down at the sides, making the middle portion slightly longer. It was almost like he had decided to shave it into a mohawk and gave up halfway through.
His face was angular, with a strong jaw and soft stubble. His eyes were a shade of pale blue, almost grey, framed by dark eyelashes. And he was dressed in a simple cotton T-shirt and jeans.
By the time your mind caught up with your eyes, he had started to speak. His hand held a small piece of paper the size of a Post-it note with an address scribbled down. “Excuse me—Lass, don’t suppose you’re the one who posted the room ad?”
His voice was thick and deep, shrouded by a heavy Scottish accent. You had to force your jaw shut before you started gaping like a fish.
He gave you a funny look the longer you stood there, his eyes darting from side to side. “Hope I’m not early.” He said, breaking the silence.
You shook your head, regaining the ability to put thoughts into words. “No,” you said, blinking hard. “You’re-uh, on time.”
His face broke into a smile. “Oh, great, then.” He shoved the small paper into the pocket of his jeans. His other hand extended forward. After you realized he was offering a handshake, you extended your own to meet his.
“I’m Johnny,” he said as his hand squeezed yours.
“[Name],” You replied. As you pulled away, your palm tingled. His hand was warm and rough, leaving a lingering spark on your fingertips.
He brushed past you with an easy, practiced gait. Confident. Like he’d walked into a hundred strange rooms before this one. “Nice place,” he said, glancing around. “You decorated it yourself?”
“Yeah. And I clean it myself too. So, shoes off by the door.”
He paused, then gave you a mock salute before toeing off his boots.
You walked back in, shutting the door behind you gently. You folded your arms. “So, Johnny. What brings you to Manchester?”
Of course, you had already asked him that beforehand. However, you figured you had a better chance of getting a narrower answer if you asked him in person.
He smiled, looking back over at you. “Bit of leave. Needed somewhere quiet to crash while I sort a few things.”
Internally, you slumped. The same vague, useless answer he’d given you before.
“You mentioned you work in… security?”
“Something like that.” He walked further into the apartment, making his way over to the kitchen. “Won’t be around much, no late nights. No parties.”
This guy wasn’t letting up.
No matter, you had plenty of time to investigate later. For now, as long as he paid the rent and stayed out of your way, everything would go smoothly. Plus, the whole point of the tour was for both of you to suss each other out and get an idea of who you’d be spending the next few months with.
Johnny wasn’t hard to look at, so you supposed there was a pro there. Maybe a suspiciously attractive Scotsman crashing in your flat wasn’t exactly what you needed, but it wouldn’t hurt.
“Well,” you said, “feel free to look around. Only thing that’s off limits is my room, second door on the right.” You pointed to one of the doors further down the hallway from the kitchen.
Johnny nodded as you spoke, “Yes, ma’am.”
“If you’d like, I can show you where your room is.” You offered, to which he accepted, following closely behind as you pushed the spare room door open.
It wasn’t much to look at, an empty bed-frame, a closet, a window, standard stuff. You glanced back at him, “Sorry, it’s a bit barren at the moment. Hopefully, you weren’t expecting a fully furnished bedroom.”
Johnny shook his head, walking past you to stand in the middle of the empty space. His hands set firmly on his hips as he looked around, “No apologies needed, Lass. Looks exactly like the photo, s’all that matters.
“Though,” he said, looking back at you. “I wouldn’t expect my decorating capabilities to match up to yours. Just to keep expectations low.”
A slight smile grazed your lips, “Noted.”
Johnny looked back at you, brushing off his hands like he had just gotten through with a day's work. “Should do just fine,” he said, “-I can move in as early as Wednesday, no rush though. I’ll give you a bit to think about it.”
You thought about it, chewing on the inside of your lip. That was early, however, Johnny seemed like a nice guy. Who knew when another opportunity for a housemate would arise? Maybe you were rushing into things, but rent was due by the end of the month. And with that subtle push you nodded.
“Wednesday it is.” You said.
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The smell lifted your head from the pillow before you were fully conscious enough to know you’d woken up.
You shifted, hands fisting the thick material of your comforter. It was dim, a warm light flooding through the crack in your door. You bitterly brought your hands up to rub the sleep from your sockets. Your nose wrinkling up with the dismay of being conscious again.
Your scalp ached dully; you reached back to scratch it when you realized you hadn’t taken your hair out from its ponytail the night before.
You grimaced, shifting until you were in an upright position. Apparently, you hadn’t bothered to change into pajamas the night before either, considering you were still clad in your work clothes—black jeans and a matching T-shirt with the pub’s logo placed in the top right corner of the shirt. With the addition of a black apron that reached your hips.
You smelled like a brewery.
An unfortunate side effect of working as a bartender. You let out a deep sigh, rubbing your hand over your neck to work out the tenseness of the muscles.
After a beat, you smelled it again, not beer this time, it was breakfasty, like eggs. As soon as you registered what the smell was, you heard the subtle crackling of oil in a pan with a soft sizzling noise. You paused, had you been sleep-cooking and tucked yourself back into bed somehow? Was that even possible?
Images of a singed black countertop with a large flame hovering over a melting pan flashed before your eyes.
You shot out of bed in a panic.
Throwing open your door, you stumbled your way down the hallway, one hand leaning against the wall to hold yourself up. You were half-expecting to see your kitchen engulfed in flames, but instead, as soon as your eyes adjusted to the influx of light, you saw…skin?
Standing with their back facing you was a man, back on full display with loose grey sweatpants hanging around his hips. Pale skin accompanied defined back muscles and oddly cut brown hair atop his head.
You stood statue still, unsure of what to do. Whoever the person was turned around, most likely alerted by the unseemly amount of noise you had just made running into the kitchen half awake.
Blue eyes met yours. “Mornin’, sorry bout’ the noise, didn’t mean to wake you or anything, Lass.”
Oh.
Right, your mind finally seemed to catch up with the situation. You now have a roommate.
A very shirtless roommate at that.
You swallowed thickly. Last night was Wednesday. You were put on a last-minute shift because your co-worker called in sick. Your boss had called you begging for you to cover it, and due to your lack of backbone, you relented.
You thought back to the message you had sent Johnny:
Message (You): Hey Johnny, so sorry but I have to cover a shift tonight. Feel free to get settled in without me, I left the extra key under the welcome mat. Just let yourself in.
Message: No problem, thanks for the heads-up.
Somehow, the notion that he’d moved into your apartment had completely slipped your mind. You were so swamped last night due to the lack of help that you weren’t entirely surprised that you managed to forget another person was in your own apartment.
“Rough shift?”
You blinked, zoning back into the present moment. “I-uh, yeah, I guess you could say that.”
Now that he was facing you, you had a full view of his shirtless body. If he didn’t look big before, he sure as hell did now. His chest was wide, his abdomen carved from straight stone. It was like looking at one of those raunchy men’s-fitness magazine covers.
You forced yourself to tear your eyes away from his body and back to his face. “Sorry, I‘m just disoriented. Late night.” You said, swallowing thickly.
“No need for apologies, Lass. I get how it is.” Johnny shifted back to grab one of the spatulas sitting on the counter. Grabbing the pan on the stove and flipping the egg inside. “-You want one?” He said, gesturing to the egg.
You opened your mouth to refuse, but before you could, however, your stomach gave you away. A slight gurgling noise belched from your stomach, much to your embarrassment.
“Yes, that would be great. Thank you.” You muttered.
Johnny grinned at you, grabbing a plate from the overhead cupboard to place an egg there. Obviously, he had gotten acquainted with the layout of your kitchen while you were gone.
You gingerly took the plate with another small thanks, standing at the counter adjacent to him. Watching as he cracked the shell of another egg into the sizzling pan.
“You normally cook half-naked?” You mused, trying to fill the silence.
Johnny smiled, shrugging his broad shoulders as the egg cooked. “Sometimes, I can change if you’re uncomfortable.” He said, glancing back at you.
You shook your head, albeit a little too quickly. “Not a problem, just curious.”
Before you could grab a piece of cutlery, he beat you to it. Holding out a fork in your direction, you paused, extending your hand forward to take it. As you grabbed the metal, your fingers brushed against his. His hand was just as warm as you remembered.
Your fingers twitched, jerking back like the contact had burned your skin.
Johnny raised a brow at your skittishness. “You alright there?” He spoke casually.
“Just tired.” You lied, forcing yourself to look down at the plate as you cut your egg in half.
Maybe it was the lack of sleep. Or the surprise. Or the sheer warmth of his palm brushing against yours. Either way, it lingered longer than it should have.
You couldn’t remember the last time you had a man in your flat, nor could you recall the last time someone had cooked you breakfast…or touched you, for that matter.
As startled as you were, it wasn’t an unwelcome interaction. Just…unexpected.
Living alone had made you hyperaware of how foreign touch seemed to be in your life. Maybe that’s why you felt like you were being electrocuted when your fingers brushed.
You took a bite of your egg; “This is good, thank you,” you spoke.
Johnny nodded, “Got to earn my keep somehow.” He said, loading the last of the eggs onto his plate.
He stood parallel to you, plate in hand, as he ate. It was silent for a moment, filled with the sounds of metal cutlery clanking against the ceramic plates.
Johnny was the first to break the silence, “I’ll be out this evening. Probably get back late, but I’ll try my best to keep quiet.”
You looked back at him, curiosity in your stare. “Does this have anything to do with your job in ‘security ?’” You mused.
He didn’t respond for a beat, “Something like that, yeah.”
You ate in silence for the remainder of the morning. You weren’t sure what he was really doing, and he clearly wasn’t about to tell you. But the eggs were good, and for now, that was enough.
. . . . . ◟੭
You had never considered living with someone to be ‘nice.’ It was convenient at the best of times, downright painful at the worst.
Sharing a space with someone meant opening yourself up to a variety of ways your privacy could be violated. You’d promised yourself that after you cut contact with your family, nobody from beyond that point would be able to violate you in the ways they did.
With time, your distrust of people slowly subsided; it ebbed and flowed most days. But when you concluded you needed to find a random roommate, your anxiety returned, almost like it’d never left.
However, the minute Johnny walked in, with his stupid Scottish accent, his odd habits, and elusive work life. Your previous fears seemed to slip away.
And now you could afford to pay your rent on top of university, which was always great.
Somehow, in the span of a few weeks, you and Johnny settled into a shared routine. Three days a week, you would get up for your morning classes to find a coffee already waiting on the kitchen counter.
Johnny was a freakishly early riser.
You would go to your class and come back with lunch, which Johnny was always present for. You’d either eat at the kitchen counter or, more recently, eat while walking around the small park near your complex.
By the time you finished, you usually had enough time to shower or work out before getting ready for your late shift at the pub.
Johnny was home for most of the day; he worked mostly nights. So, you tended to get back to the flat from working around the time he would leave. Each time he left, you had a silent understanding not to ask.
You never brought up his work, the answer was always the same. He would either shut you down immediately or find a way to deflect.
That didn’t stop you from wondering, though, because you did. You watched him like a hawk, gathering small pieces of information to hopefully create a clear image of what exactly he did when he went to work. Unfortunately, you never got far.
You caught small things, his hushed voice on the phone in the late hours of the night, a stack of papers hanging messily off of his dresser, dog tags dangling from his neck, which were almost always hidden in his shirt.
Obviously, he didn’t work your typical 9-5, you were sure of that. However, his odd hours, which left him absent well into the night and into morning, left you grasping at strings, trying to put the pieces together.
You had your theories, sure, but it was just that, a theory. You couldn’t very well spy on him during the night either.
But spending so much time during the day at the apartment apparently gave him countless opportunities to fix the place up.
Johnny proved to be an excellent handyman. Within the first few days, he fixed your leaky kitchen sink—then the creaky floorboard near your room, then the flickering kitchen light, and so on.
You also managed to convince him to teach you Scottish slang like “Eejit” (Idiot), “Blether” (Chatter-box), and your personal favorite: “Yer lookin’ a bit peely wally” (Meaning you’re looking ill).
No matter how often you heard him mutter under his breath in Scott, you couldn’t hold back your snickers. However, apparently saying “it just sounds funny” wasn’t a good enough response when he inquired about the roots of your amusement.
Alas, all things considered, things were going well. It wasn’t perfect harmony, but things were quiet, even domestic.
It was a Friday, and you were scheduled for the late shift at the pub, from 10pm to 2am closing. You mentally prepared yourself to be accosted by swarms of people who were there to get shit-faced while watching football (or soccer, whatever you call it).
Friday was your least favorite shift because it was the busiest, but your boss seemed to enjoy taking part in watching you suffer. So, begrudgingly, you got dressed and put your hair up. Swiping your house keys from off the kitchen table, you announced your departure to the empty room, a habit you’d picked up from living with someone else. Johnny knew your schedule anyway, but it was the polite thing to do.
Just as you feared, the minute you walked into the pub, you were hit with the stench of body odor and brewery. It was a madhouse, with people packed in booths and standing in clusters on the open floor between tables.
The bar was packed, too, with people lining the stools and any open space they could. The TVs turned up to the max on the sports channel.
“Oh, thank god you’re here.”
You turned as someone grabbed ahold of your hand; a middle-aged woman dressed in the same uniform stood in front of you. She had kind eyes with slight bags and medium-length thinning hair pulled back into a claw clip.
“Janet.” You breathed, “What’s going on in here? Did all of Manchester decide to show up?” You spoke, taking in the state of the bar.
She let out an exasperated breath, “Looks like it, doesn’t it? No, just another one of those sports cups.”
You nodded in bewilderment; you knew there was a reason you should’ve been keeping up with British sports games. Maybe then you would’ve had the hindsight to call in sick.
She sighed, “You better get behind that bar, love. Before Arthur quits for good this time.” Pointing at the bartender currently behind the bar, a scowl plastered to his reddish face.
You gently patted her shoulder in sympathy, “He always says that, but he never does.” You said cooley, trying to ease her worries. You pushed her away from the rearing crowds as you went over to relieve Arthur of his duties.
You somehow managed to hold down the fort (more or less) with help from Janet and some of the other staff for the next 4 hours. The crowds had slowly depleted and all that remained was the stragglers.
You looked down at the counter, more specifically at the damage. Some of the syrups would need to be refilled, the trash was practically overflowing, and you didn’t even have the heart to look at the drip tray. Whatever mystery liquid was brewing inside that silicone tray was likely radioactive by now.
An hour till closing, and the minutes couldn’t possibly pass any slower.
You turned around, grabbing the trash and tying the top in a knot. Maybe getting started with clean-up would help the shift pass by quicker.
To say you were tired was an understatement; it was a miracle you were still standing.
However, the trash refusing to come out of the bin didn’t help your case.
You gave it a few sharp tugs, your frustration growing with each failed attempt. You were about to give it another go before you heard one of the stools being pulled out behind your bar.
Taking a deep breath, you tried to compose yourself. You brushed your apron off, turning around with what you hoped was a welcoming smile.
“Don’t suppose you could fashion me a drink, aye, Bonnie?”
You did a double take; you knew that voice. “Johnny, " you breathed. Lo and behold, your Scotsman was sitting on a barstool right before you.
His lips stretched into an amused grin at your surprise. Looking you up and down at your disheveled attire, he raised an eyebrow. “Jeez, I would ask how the shift’s going, but I’m not sure I want to know, " he mused.
You groaned, rubbing your hands over your face. “You have no idea.” You said, exasperated.
You leaned against the bar, shoulders slumped. “It was terrible; the sports cup was on tonight, so everyone and their mother came here to get pissed. I swear it was like a war zone in here; some guy almost puked on me while I was taking out the trash, and another one spilled his pint all over the counter.” You said, gesturing to the bar that you were currently leaning against.
“-Oh, and another one got all up in my face for giving him the wrong beer.” You recalled, making Johnny raise a brow.
“Did he now?” He said.
You nodded, rubbing your temples to soothe the ache that pounded at your head. “Yeah, he had to get dragged off by someone else.”
You let your forehead drop on the table with a soft thunk, not the most sanitary thing to do, but you were too tired to care.
Johnny let out a soft chuckle, patting the top of your head as to convey his sympathies. You looked up to meet his gaze, “What are you doing here? I thought you worked nights?”
He shrugged his shoulders, “Got tonight off.” He said. You nodded, figuring it was a good enough answer in your book.
“Now—uh, bout’ that beer…” He said with an impish smile.
You rolled your eyes, pushing off the counter to stand back up. “Yeah, you’ll get your drink.” You said, grabbing a glass and moving over to the beer tap. You caught one of the handles, putting the glass underneath the tap.
However, Johnny raised his hands to stop you. “Hey, I ain’t even told you which one I wanted.” He said, eyebrows pinched together in offense.
You shot him a look, “You’ll get what I give you.”
He seemed to have received the message, graciously accepting the glass with a smile and a nod. After a sip, he conceded a little, “Thanks, Lass.”
You waved him off, “Don’t mention it, doll face.” You said sarcastically, “-After all, you’re still paying for it.” You spoke as you returned to the trash, grasping the knot and pulling it hard.
By the grace of God, the trash bag was lifted from the bin, and you hoisted it up and onto the floor so you could drag it to the back door. There was already another one sitting against the door that you’d left hours prior, making the job just a bit more annoying.
You pushed the back door open, cold air hitting your face. It was dark. The back alley near the trash bins was poorly lit and smelled of cigarettes and rotting food.
You stood in the doorway for a beat. Then you shut the door.
Now, you liked to think of yourself as a strong, independent woman. But even strong women had their limits. And tonight—cold, tired, and alone behind a bar—it was starting to feel like yours was being tested.
You chewed on your bottom lip. Usually, one of the other bartenders or staff took out the trash. But they’d all left after the rush passed, leaving you to fend for yourself during the closing shift.
“Johnny.” You said, popping back from around the corner. “How about a deal?”
He looked over at you, his pale eyes scanning your face with skepticism. One of his dark brows raised, “Aye, what’s the deal?”
“You don’t have to pay for your drink, but you have to help me take out the trash.” You said, silently praying he would.
“Deal.” He said almost immediately. Standing up from his seat, he walked around to meet you.
You led him down the hallway to the back door, the trash bags sitting idle against the door. You reached down to grab one of them, “I’ll take one, and you can grab the other.”
Before you lifted it, he swatted your hand away. “Bonnie, who do ya’ take me for?” He said, amused. Reaching over and grabbing your trash bag with one hand and grabbing the second bag with his other hand.
He lifted the bags easily, the glass bottles inside clanking together. You looked at him, forcing your eyes to tear away his biceps. Clearing your throat, you pushed the door open, “Show-off.” You said under your breath.
The small rush of cold air hit you again, sending goosebumps pebbling against your skin. But now that someone was with you, your unease faded away into static.
Johnny made quick work of the bags. With you holding the bin's lid open, he easily tossed them into its dark mouth. You sighed, brushing off your hands. “Great, thanks for the help.”
You looked back up to meet his gaze, to which he was already looking your way. You held his stare for a brief moment, unmoving.
He looked good like this (somehow), standing there in the dark. His hair had grown a bit longer, making it look like a real haircut instead of a half-assed mow-hawk. His eyes were a dark shade of blue, almost grey. Small flecks of warm light from the dim streetlamp glassed over his pupils.
Johnny blinked, clearing his throat into his hand. “Aye, happy to help.” He said, walking back to the door and holding it open for you to go through.
You ducked inside, happy to be out of the cold night air. He followed suit, letting the door swing shut behind him. The air had gained a thick tension, one you didn’t understand how or why it was there.
Like a thick fog that lingered between your bodies, it filled your ears with cotton and clung heavily to your tongue like syrup.
Your brows furrowed; you didn’t understand it. He was just looking your way; why did the gesture suddenly feel so much bigger than it actually was?
Johnny seemed to have picked up on your sudden discomfort, bumping his shoulder with yours. “Penny for your thoughts?”
You weren’t exactly sure how to answer, so you shook your head. Chalking it up to your lethargic brain, “Don’t suppose you want to help me with closing now, do you?” You said to him instead.
Your voice holds a sarcastic but underlying hopefulness.
He eyed you, “Depends. What do I get for it?” He said with a wry smile as you walked back into the heart of the bar.
“My everlasting thanks,” You breathed humorously. “…And I’ll buy your next round.”
“You’ve got yourself a deal.” He grinned.
You nodded, eyes catching his for just a moment too long.
It was just a favor. Just a drink. Just a shift.
. . . . . ◟੭
Manchester was a grim scene, thick and heavy rainclouds loomed over rooftops. Shrouding the surrounding area in a dark mask of grey and blue. Soft raindrops hit against your window, progressively growing in size.
You looked up from the sink, hands soaked in steaming hot water mixed with dish soap. Various plates and cutlery sitting in the murky water.
Your small window wasn’t much, but even you could watch the streets pool with shallow puddles.
Johnny sat on the couch a few feet away in the living room area, sprawled in his usual corner, his long legs propped on the coffee table, one arm slung across the backrest. He was watching the telly, though his eyes didn’t really seem to be following what was on. Something old was playing—grainy black-and-white, probably for background noise more than anything else.
You looked back out at the window, taking in the sounds of the rain. You didn’t think much of it, Manchester had storms all the time. You liked the sound of rain, even. It was comforting, in a weird, nostalgic way.
Then the first rumble hit.
It was like someone had beat on a drum from far away, the sound reverberating off your ears and causing you to perk up again.
Another rumble followed a few seconds later, closer this time. The small overhead light above the sink flickered.
You looked up, squinting at the flickering light.
Withdrawing your hands from the sink, you grabbed one of the dish towels and wiped the soap bubbles from your fingers.
You turned over your shoulder and walked into the living room. Glancing at the TV, you threw the dishtowel on the edge of the couch's headrest.
“I think we’re gonna have a storm tonight.” You said, leaning over the edge of the couch slightly.
Johnny looked at you, “Yeah?” He asked.
As if to illustrate your point, another low roar of thunder came over the living room. You glanced back at Johnny, his fingers curling white-knuckled around the armrest. He grimaced, flopping his head back against the couch cushions. “Fuckin’ hate storms,” He breathed.
You raised an eyebrow at his grip strength on the poor couch, shrugging your shoulders. “Shouldn’t be too bad, just a bit of thunder and lightning. They would have sent out a weather alert if it were anything to write home about.”
Johnny gave a long sigh in return; obviously, he wasn’t thrilled about the weather. You opened your mouth to say something else when the overhead lights flickered again, causing you and Johnny to snap your heads up.
After another moment of flickering, Johnny looked back at you, “I hope you have candles.”
You hesitated momentarily, unsure if the single scented candle you kept in your room would do the job if the power went out. “I have a candle.” You replied.
He raised an eyebrow, unimpressed. “A single candle,” he deadpanned. “What a’bout flashlights?”
“That I have,” you said, happy to give him some good news. You quickly returned to the kitchen, digging through a drawer of miscellaneous objects. You fished out a small flashlight, proudly walking back over to Johnny to show him.
“See?” You said, pressing the small button at the bottom of the flashlight. Unfortunately, the light remained out.
You clicked it again…and again…and again, but it failed to illuminate despite your efforts.
You sheepishly looked back at Johnny, who was now pinching the bridge of his nose between his pointer and thumb. “It’s fine, Johny,” you said, waving off his concern. “What are the chances the power will go out anyway?”
Well, the power went out.
Around eight or nine, everything plunged into darkness after a particularly close strike of lighting. Neither you nor Johnny were scheduled to work, so when it did go out, you were halfway through brushing your teeth.
You blinked—still dark. You felt around for the sink, spitting out the last of your toothpaste.
“Johnny?” You called out, pushing the bathroom door open. You could navigate pretty well in the dark since you knew the layout like the back of your hand. But you still felt around the walls and put your arms out blindly as to not run into anything.
The flat remained silent. Your brows furrowing together at his lack of response, “Johnny!” You called out louder, waiting for him to respond.
You listened for his voice, but it stayed quiet like the last time. You frowned, suddenly on edge from the silence.
Your fingers slid along the walls, feeling the slight grittiness of the paint. You didn’t understand why he wasn’t responding. “Johnny, where are you?” you called out, your voice tinged with frustration.
“Johnny, this isn’t funny! Talk to me.” You bit out, growing more frantic with each failed response.
You silently cursed yourself for not getting more batteries for that flashlight. Your voice was loud; there was no chance that he couldn’t hear you. Maybe he was ignoring you? But that wasn’t like him; your mind started to conjure up worst-case scenarios. What if he was hurt? Or passed out? What if he had a seizure and died?
You knew it was silly to overthink, but you couldn’t help it. Your mind proved to be your worst enemy sometimes, and this was one of those times.
Your hand slid over the familiar ridges of a door frame, Johnny’s room! You felt around for the knob, hoping that maybe you’d find him there. You pushed the door open, holding your arms out in front of you like a blind man. Your legs are shaky and slow, trying your best not to accidentally step on something or stub a toe.
“Johnny?” You breathed, voice lower.
You took another step, your arm dripping down to feel for a desk or the bed. Instead, your hand brushed over something warm and sturdy, you felt it flinch. Yelping in surprise, you drew back like an open flame had scorched your hand.
“Fuck!” Came a loud masculine voice.
Ah, so that’s where he was.
You heard something hard hit against wood, cringing when you realized it was probably Johnny. A slight hiss of pain confirmed your speculation, “What’s wrong with you?” He bit out.
You couldn’t see anything, but his voice came lower to the ground, deepening your confusion. “What? What do you mean by ‘what's wrong with me’? I was calling for you because the lights went out, and you didn’t answer me. I got worried and came in here.” You seethed, your heart palpitating from the adrenaline.
“I’m well aware the lights are out, [Name].” He responded, “You can’t just come up out of nowhere and scare me like that.” He said, his voice aggravated.
Your frown deepened. “I called your name, Johnny. Multiple times.” You huffed. “-What are you even doing on the floor?”
There came a beat of silence, “I’m…Y’know, grounding myself.” He said awkwardly.
You paused, “Grounding yourself.” You repeated.
You knew what grounding oneself meant, safely speaking. However, you were unsure if he was literally grounding himself, considering he was sitting on the floor from what you could tell.
You heard him sigh, “Yes, it’s like something you learn in therapy. Something a’bout dealing with stressful situations.”
You didn’t respond for a moment, your mind processing his words. Slowly, you crouched down to meet him on the floor. “You didn’t tell me you were stressed.” You said, hoping you were at least talking in his direction.
“I told you; I don’t like storms.” He responded.
For some reason, you had a feeling it wasn’t just the storm. You pursed your lips together tightly, trying to conjure up something to say. Yet, you were coming up empty-handed, the downpour from outside filling the room's silence.
Even with your knowledge of the human brain and the cookie-cutter steps to comfort someone, you didn’t think he deserved a rehearsed ‘I’m sorry about that; why don’t we dive deeper into the root cause of this fear?’
You sighed, “I’m sorry for scaring you. I didn’t mean to; I was just worried about why you weren’t responding.”
“It’s fine, Bonnie. I shouldn’t have yelled either.”
Another beat of silence followed, and you gently sat down, back pressed against the wooden bed frame. “I don’t want to force you into saying anything you don’t want to…” You started, your voice unsure. “But, if you want to talk about anything, I’d be more than willing to listen.”
“What’s there to talk a’bout?” He said avoidantly.
You tilted your head toward his voice; it was clear as day that he was dancing around whatever was bothering him. However, he seemed to have felt your stare through the darkness.
“I just…get like this sometimes. With loud noises, I’m usually better a’bout keepin’ it under control. S’just with the power going out and all…” He trailed off.
You didn’t need him to finish his sentence to understand. The message he was trying to get across was clear. But he kept going before you could respond.
“Maybe it’s not the noise,” he said after another beat. “It’s the waiting for it. Not knowing when it’s gonna hit.”
You sat there in stillness, the rain and wind outside filling the gaps of silence like static. “Is there anything that helps with it?” You asked slowly.
Johnny considered it for a moment. “Sitting down helps,” he exhaled. “Breathing does, too, the slow kind.” You nodded along with his words.
You inadvertently took a deep breath, breathing in for four seconds and holding it for the same amount of time, then exhaling for another four seconds. You repeated the steps, and the sound of your breath soon matched that of his.
You stayed like that, breathing, letting the seconds pass.
Eventually, the thunder softened to a low murmur, rolling lazily across the sky like a tired lion. The sharp cracks were gone now, distant enough to feel unreal. You weren’t sure how much time had gone by. Ten minutes? An hour?
In that time, Johnny had shifted and was now shoulder to shoulder with you on the floor, backs pressed against the bed frame. You hadn’t said much. You figured he didn’t need the noise.
Eventually, he spoke, voice low. “Didn’t mean to make it your problem.”
You glanced at him; even though the room was shrouded in darkness, you could make out the shape of his face. “It’s not a problem.” He gave you a half-laugh through his nose, not quite convinced.
You bumped your knee against his gently. “I just don’t want you going through it alone. That’s all.”
There was a long pause. Then you felt it—his hand, brushing against yours. Barely touching. A test.
You didn’t pull away. Neither did he.
Instead, he let his fingers hook around yours. Not tightly. Not completely. Just enough.
Just enough to say thank you, without saying a word.
. . . . . ◟੭
The weeks flow on after the thunderstorm without much change. Everything seemed to go back to normal. However, there was a shift in trust. It wasn’t much; barely even noticeable. But you could sense it, sense how the edge was taken off when he spoke to you.
And you held fingers with someone else for the first time in a long time. A small amount of intimacy that held more weight than you wanted it to.
Whatever you felt, you pushed it down. Burying its ugly head like an ashamed child because, in some ways, you knew it was childish.
It was childish to expect so much change from so little and to hope for something more to come out of it.
Because after Johnny “sorted things out,” he would be on his merry way. And you’d be left alone again.
You tapped your mechanical pencil against your temple, staring down at your notebook spread across the kitchen table. Surrounding it was your laptop, open to your lecture notes from the previous day.
Highlighters and sticky notes littered the space around the table, creating a colorful display against the brown surface of the wood.
Your environment was surrounded by material, but your mind was everywhere but what you were supposed to be studying for. You groaned, stabbing the eraser of your pencil harder into your temple.
It wasn’t like you to space out so much, but it had been getting more difficult to focus lately.
You glanced down at your phone, the time flashing at you again, reading 2:34 AM.
After spending so many shifts closing at the pub, you’d acclimated to the nightlife. Maybe you could change your career to that of a vampire. You probably had about another hour till you’d be able to sleep. Which meant forcing yourself to keep studying.
If you weren’t going to sleep, you could at least be doing something productive.
The warm kitchen light spread across the table, illuminating the area in a soft glow. Your phone at half-volume shuffling your study playlist.
Click.
Your face snapped towards the sound of the lock at your front door being opened. The doorknob turned slowly as the door was pushed open.
In stepped Johnny, clad in his jeans and boots with a solid color t-shirt and a thick coat-jacket. His keys dangling from his outstretched hand, and his blue eyes staring at you in confusion.
“You’re still up? Thought you didn’t work tonight.” He said, closing the door behind him.
“I don’t,” you said. “Couldn’t sleep, figured I’d study instead.”
“Ah, gotcha.” He said, toeing off his boots and shuffling off his coat-jacket. He hung it loosely off the coat rack, reaching behind his neck to work out the taut muscles.
His brown hair was slightly messy, no longer a mow-hawk but now a slightly disheveled short style. His sides were still slightly shorter than the middle chunk of his hair, but it looked good. He looked good.
You glanced away, feeling silly for staring at him. Warmth creeping up into your cheeks like the mere image of him set you ablaze.
He came over to where you sat, hovering next to you. He took one look at your note page before walking back over to the kitchen, “I would offer to help, but I can’t understand anything on that page, Lass.” He said humorously.
You sighed, scratching the back of your head. “I guess we’ve got that in common, " you said hopelessly, staring back down at your notes, which were progressively looking more like hieroglyphics than English.
He laughed, pulling a glass from the cupboard and going to the fridge to fill a glass of water. The soft hum of the refrigerator blending in with your music.
Your song ended, transitioning into a softer, more nostalgic melody. It was one of those old-school love songs with an upbeat tone and chorus, even with its slow instrumentals. Johnny drifted back to the dining room where you sat, watching you rub your temples in exhaustion.
He glanced down at your phone on shuffle play. “This what you study to, Bonnie?” he asked, a grin on his face as the cheesy tune played.
You brushed him off, used to his teasing by now. “Helps me think, " you murmured back, too tired to engage. Looking back at your laptop, you winced at the blue light, squinting as best you could so as not to get a headache.
Johnny stayed silent for a beat, looking down at you.
Without warning, he reached out and shut your laptop. Making you blink in confusion, you glanced back at him. “Wha-“
“Dance with me.” He said, cutting you off.
You stared at his face, eyes scanning his features to detect any signs of teasing or a joke. But you couldn’t find a trace of humor in his face. You raised an eyebrow, unsure what to make of his blatant command.
“What? Why?” You said, eyebrows furrowing together.
His face broke out into a boyish grin. Reaching out, he took your hands. “Because this is a good song, Bonnie, " he said smoothly.
The mechanical pencil you had been holding clattered down on the table. You hesitated for a moment, surprised by the contact. But you let him gently pull you up and out of your chair.
He pulled you over to where there was more open space, the song playing in the background.
Johnny guided your right hand until you looped it around his neck, holding your left as his free hand snaked around your torso. He was warm, like every time you had touched him, just like a furnace.
Your palm cupped the back of his neck, fingers brushing against the soft hair near his nape. Your other hand gently held in his, the pads of his fingers rough and calloused. He had the hands of someone who had grit, but the way he held you suggested everything but. His grasp on your hand and your side was light and gentle, like he was holding glass.
You sucked in a hollow breath as you started to sway, shuffling your feet to and fro with the rhythm of the song.
He was close. Like, really close.
Your eyes darted to meet his for a fraction of a second, scared to make eye contact for too long. Looking at him this close made you nervous and uneasy.
You felt stiff, the awkwardness of your movements stemming from your nerves. You breathed a half-laugh through your nose at your clumsiness. “Sorry, I don’t make a smooth dancing partner.” You said lightly.
Johnny’s lip curved up into a small smile, one of amusement and fondness. “S’okay, just relax. I got you.” He said, the raspiness of his voice sending shivers down your spine. His voice was so close to your ear, making it hard to focus on anything but his breath.
You swallowed thickly. Just relax, easy peasy.
You inhaled slowly, taking a deep breath to calm your growing nerves. You didn’t understand how you managed to get worked up so much in the span of a few seconds. But Johnny seemed to have that effect on you.
The music continued softly, letting you focus on something else besides the rising heat in your face. After a few moments, you loosened up enough to be slightly more confident in your swaying abilities.
His hand on your side gently squeezed your torso, the pad of his thumb rubbing circles into the fabric of your shirt.
You slowly managed to look up at him, “This isn’t so bad.” You breathed, “Especially for a first time.” You added on.
One of his dark eyebrows raised, pale blue eyes looking at you quizzically. “You’ve never danced with anyone like this?” He asked, surprised.
You shook your head, shrugging your shoulders lightly. “Guess I never got around to it.”
His smile returned, the boyish smirk that you knew oh so well. “Well, that’s a bloody shame. You’re doin’ just fine.” He said, lightly teasing.
You let out a soft breath, rolling your eyes. “I just-” You stopped yourself, unsure. But after another moment, you continued, “-I guess I just never let anyone get that far. Even the small stuff, y’know? I know it’s a bad habit being so…untrusting, but it’s just been easier to breeze by without letting anyone in. But-uh, it’s nice, dancing—I mean.”
You glanced back at his eyes, holding his stare. Watching the way his eyes softened at your little spiel.
“Yeah, it is nice, isn’t it?” He replied, his voice softer.
You held his gaze, forcing yourself not to tear your eyes away. It was strange; you felt pulled to him like an electric current. Yet simultaneously, you wanted nothing more than to run away and dig yourself into a hole.
You felt your body pulse. When did your heart start to race?
It was beating so loudly you could hear it ringing in your ears, sending warmth blossoming across your cheeks.
Your faces were so close you could see the wisps of his dark eyelashes. You could make out the gentle creases that lingered near his eyes or the soft crook of his nose. Your eyes trailed lower, dipping down to the outline of his lips.
You caught the way he swallowed, his adam's apple bobbing in place. Your gaze flickered up, back to his eyes.
Somewhere along the line, you stopped swaying. However, neither of you seemed to notice.
Both of you seemed to recognize the significance of the moment, the thick tension that had developed between your bodies. It seemed to spark randomly like an open cable wire, waiting for someone to touch it.
Before you could think about anything too thoroughly, though, your lips seemed to connect along the way.
You felt your breath hitch at the contact, his lips warm and smooth. But whatever initial surprise you had faded into the yearning to be even closer.
Your hand slid into his hair, grasping at the brown locks like he’d disappear. You felt him sigh against your lips, pushing deeper.
You let him in, eagerly parting your lips for him. The slow and soft noises of lips moving against each other rang in your ears along with the music. The hand that held your torso slid along your back, pulling you closer to him.
The kiss was sweet but deep. It held so much tension and built-up emotion, you didn’t know where to start, weeks of occupying the same space and subtle contact all to lead up to this.
You felt his stubble brush against your skin, the warmth of his body making you dizzy. He nipped softly at your bottom lip, pulling the skin between his teeth. You whimpered, preening for something, anything.
His other hand let yours go, traveling up your waist to slide under your shirt—
Bzzzr…Bzzzzr
The tell-tale jingle of a call vibrated against his pocket; you broke apart. Startled by the sudden interruption. Standing inches away, breathless and wide-eyed.
You stared at him, snapped back into reality. It felt cold again, and your breath caught in your throat like someone had knocked the wind out of you.
Neither of you moved for a minute, too shocked to do anything but stand there. Then, Johnny cleared his throat, awkwardly reaching into his back pocket to pull out his phone. As he looked at the caller ID, he snapped his face back up at you, his eyes remorseful and guilty.
“Sorry, Bonnie. I’ve got to take this, work call.” He breathed; his voice strained.
He ducked out of the room, stepping out to take the call, leaving you a standing statue. The song slowly faded into the background as it came to its end.
You inhaled, looking around the room, bewildered. Your chest was tight. Your skin still tingled where he'd touched you.
What the hell had you just done?
. . . . . ◟੭
You weren’t sure what was worse, how easily Johnny had kissed you or how easily he seemed to forget it.
The night of the kiss still played fresh in your mind despite how much you willed it to go away. Whatever chances you had of protecting your friendship with him slipped through your fingers like dust the minute your lips touched.
You weren’t sure what you were expecting to happen afterwards, a discussion? A confession? Maybe just a small acknowledgment that it was real and not a vivid dream?
Instead, nothing happened.
The world kept spinning even though yours felt like it was crashing down.
Confronting it wouldn’t have been a problem, but it was the lack thereof that perturbed you. It was like the kiss didn’t matter—like you didn’t matter. And that alone ate at you more than the silence.
The days that followed felt bizarre. You were living with someone else, but at the same time, you’d never felt more alone.
You still woke up to a hot cup of coffee, but there was nobody on the other side of the kitchen counter to greet you or make fun of your bedhead. When you brought home lunch, there wasn’t anybody to tear through the flimsy plastic to-go bags like a hungry bear.
Johnny still acknowledged you when you left for a shift or got back home, but he didn’t look at you. And when he did, it was brief.
Most times, you didn’t even see him; he was gone for long stretches of time that left you questioning if he’d come back. Sometimes, a day or two passed without you seeing him, leaving you alone.
Sometimes, you found yourself waking up to the sound of his footsteps in the late hours, listening to the way his steps creaked against the wooden floorboards. You would watch the front door to his room, silently observing the shadow that passed underneath the door. As if to remind yourself that he was still there, that you didn’t lose him, even if it felt like you did.
But it was the small moments in passing that hurt you the most; you had been carrying your laundry back to your room, walking into the narrow hallway to get to your door. Only for Johnny to be on the other side, just emerging from his own room.
His shoulders tensed as soon as he saw you. His lips pulling into a civil, yet tight, smile.
He nodded at you before twisting his body to the side to brush past you. Yet even with his back pressed against the wall, his chest still brushed against your shoulder as you moved.
The contact was light, obviously accidental, but it made your gut twist sourly. Like the ghost of that night, of his hands on your body could still be felt.
You had also caught him in the kitchen at the crack of dawn, which meant he was already brewing coffee. He had just set your mug on the counter like he always did when you’d marched in.
Already dressed in his work boots and coat you eyed him up and down. “Morning,” you said hesitantly, grabbing the cup, bringing it to your lips, and taking a sip. It was perfect. Like always.
Johnny glanced at you, pouring the scalding black liquid into his thermos. “Mornin',” He replied politely.
You leaned against the counter, arms crossed over your body, silently observing him go about his morning tasks. You needed to say something, to ease the awkwardness that lingered in the air like toxic gas.
You cleared your throat, “You-uh, you’ve been working a lot recently.” You commented, trying to bridge the gap between each other.
Once again, he gave you a sideways glance. “Keeping busy.”
You wanted to ask why, to scream and shout, cry out to him; why was he doing this to you? Why either of you were too scared to address what happened. But you didn’t.
You stayed quiet and watched him leave. Not wanting to be the one to bring up the elephant in the room.
Pride is a bitter thing.
And both of you had let it ruin your friendship or whatever you had going on with him.
You missed it, you missed him, so desperately it hurt.
And you hated yourself for it; you hated how easily you’d slipped down the path of caring for another. And having him retreat like he did was a brutal punch to the gut and a harsh reminder of why you struggled so deeply with letting people in.
You cursed yourself for getting involved with a man who was just supposed to be a roommate. But he wasn’t, not now at least.
You dug through your laundry hamper, fishing out your work uniform. It was around ten past noon, and you’d been placed on the midday shift. You had class the next morning and practically begged your boss not to put you on another late night.
You slipped your shirt past your shoulders, brushing out the slight creases from the fabric. While fixing your hair, you caught your reflection in the standing mirror by your closet. You had slight bags under your eyes and a slight worry line forming on your upper brow.
You frowned; you hadn’t been sleeping well. And the combined anxiety of your classes paired with the shit-show of your co-living situation had taken its toll.
Your hand unconsciously tried smoothing your face. Trying to wipe the frown lines from your skin. You sighed when it proved unsuccessful, glancing back over to your vanity your makeup bag caught your attention. You wore makeup, but it had been a while since you’d really dressed yourself up for a shift.
Checking the time, you realized you still had half an hour until you needed to be at the pub. You peeked back over at your bag, reaching over to unzip the opening.
Look good, feel good, you thought. Maybe switching up your appearance was just what you needed; it couldn’t hurt.
You finished with just enough time to spare. When you caught your reflection in the mirror this time, your lips didn’t settle into a disappointed frown. You stared at yourself for a beat, trying to muster up a realtor-worthy smile.
You looked pretty, even if you didn’t feel your best.
“Get it together.” You muttered, taking one last look at yourself before leaving your room.
You passed Johnny on your way out; he looked like he had just gotten back. Halfway through untying the laces on his boots. He glanced up as you passed, and for a moment, his lips parted like he was going to say something. But they shut just as fast as they’d opened.
You tried not to be disappointed, pursing your lips tightly as you closed the door behind you.
The pub wasn’t overwhelmed with customers, to your relief. Since it was the afternoon shift, most people were still working or doing something more productive than day drinking.
Your eyes caught wind of a familiar black head of hair tied up in a claw clip. “Janet,” you said, perking up.
She glanced over at you at her name being called, her thin lips pulling into a bright smile when she noticed you standing there. “[Name]! You didn’t tell me you were on; you usually only work nights.” She said, a tray of food in her hand.
You made your way over. “I’ve got an early class tomorrow.” You said, watching as she set the tray down.
“Ah, well, that’s nice Mike put you on the afternoon shift,” she said, referring to your employer. “-Good thing, too, you’ve been looking so tired this week.” She said, not in a mean way. More of a worried motherly way. Yet it still had the same effect as a normal insult would, making you deflate a little.
You breathed a half-laugh through your nostrils, “Thanks, Janet.” You said through your teeth.
She crossed her arms, looking you up and down. “You look good, though; did you do something different?” She asked curiously.
You shook your head, not wanting to tell her you had just covered up your tiredness with more foundation. “Just got more sleep, I suppose.” You lied.
After catching up with Janet, you slipped over to the bar counter, beginning your usual routine of making drinks and pouring craft beers for men in their late 50s sitting at the bar watching the television.
For the most part, you didn’t have much to do. So, you spent most of your time either helping Janet when she needed a second hand or slipping beers into the back kitchen for the line cooks in exchange for fries.
But during the last hour of your shift, things started to pick up a bit, by now most 9-5’s had ended. Which meant that everyone came flocking to the club for a pint, of course.
At least you were busy; there was no room to think about what awaited you when you got home.
You saw someone slip into one of the open bar seats, turning your body, and you faced them. “Hi, what can I get for you?”
The man sitting down was tall, at least, you think he was based on his sitting position rising above some of the others around him. Definitely not bad looking either, good facial structure and soft brown eyes.
His eyes scanned the counter, then back up to you. “What do you recommend?” He asked, his arms crossed and resting on the counter in front of him.
“Well, our craft beer is always a safe bet,” you said, turning over to your counter and browsing the collection of ales. “There are also some specialty beers, like our barrel-aged ale. But if that’s not to your fancy, I can always make you something else, like an old-fashioned.”
He sat there for a moment, mulling over his options. “Don’t suppose you could decide for me? You seem like a trustworthy source.” He said, the corners of his lips pulling into a soft smile.
You nodded, “Yeah, I can do that.” You turned to the beer tap, truth be told, you weren’t actually thinking about what this guy would like. Beer was just the easiest thing to make, which saved time. You could already feel other people starting to crowd around the counter.
You slid the pint over to him, “Alright, hope I made a good choice.” You said with a smile, a nice tip in the back of your mind. “Do you want to start a tab?” You asked.
He looked at you, “Yeah…think I’ll stick around.”
Once you opened a tab for the man, you returned to helping other people; however, the same guy seemed to bleed his way through every interaction. You started to make pleasant conversation as you made drinks, nothing inherently new.
Through the conversation, you learned that his name was Thomas, he was in Manchester for work, and he was originally from the States. You bonded with him over the shared experiences of moving to the U.K. and the differences and similarities between the States and Britain.
Overall, he was a nice guy. Maybe he was a little too confident in some respects, but he wasn’t a pain to be around.
“So, what time do you get off?” He asked after maybe thirty minutes of conversation. You raised an eyebrow, glancing back at him.
“Why do you need to know that?” You said back, a tad skeptical.
He smiled, looking up at you with a boyish grin. One that reminded you of Johnny. “Maybe I want to get to know you outside of a pub. Anything wrong with that?” He said, leaning forward on his arms.
You hesitated for a moment, unsure of how to respond. There wasn’t anything wrong with it, so why did it feel like there was? “No, nothing wrong with it.” You agreed, turning to the countertop to busy yourself with cleaning the surface.
“So then, do I get to know when you get off?” He said persistently, looking at you with a hopeful expression.
You glanced back at him, swallowing down the lump in your throat. He was an attractive guy, nice for the most part, and he wanted you. Something that you were lacking at the moment.
Your mind flashed back to Johnny. Your fingers twisted into the cloth of the rag you were using to clean the counter. You thought about the kiss, and then you thought about how he’d left you. A bitter taste bloomed in your mouth the longer you thought about it.
Fuck it, you thought.
You glanced back at the clock, “I get off in fifteen.” You said, turning your face back to meet him.
He smiled, a look of relief washing over his face. “Yeah?” He looked back down at his drink, finishing the last of the liquid. His cheeks were slightly rosy from the alcohol. “Guess that means you can close out my tab.”
You didn’t even make it out of the bar before he was on you. Maybe it was a little bit of both. You couldn’t really process anything.
He had gone with you to clock out; you were in the back hallway near the side door. Somehow, while walking, his hand slid over to your back to lead you out. Which spiraled into your back being pressed against the side wall, his body caging you in with his knee wedged between your legs.
Your hands were looped around his neck while his were on your body. Trailing his fingertips up and down your sides.
It started as slow kissing, but it progressively got more heated the longer you stayed. You could taste the beer on his tongue, the smell of his strong cologne, the sweat of his skin. It felt wrong.
You shut your eyes tight, trying to immerse yourself in the experience, trying to be normal about the fact that you were making out with a stranger you’d met only an hour before in the back hallway of a pub.
You sucked in a breath as his lips detached from yours, his face ducking down to your neck to suckle and kiss at the skin. You bit down on the inside of your cheek, trying to pretend that his wispy hair was slightly darker. That his brown eyes were a shade of light blue. That instead of his hands that were holding you it was Johnny’s.
You could feel yourself choking up. This was a mistake. Kissing a random guy wasn’t getting your mind off of Johnny; in fact, it was amplifying your feelings.
He seemed to have noticed your change in demeanor because he suddenly pulled away. Leaving you panting against the wall, he looked down at you. His cheeks are equally red, and his lips kiss swollen.
“Hey, you okay?” He asked.
You couldn’t look at him; you didn’t want to because you knew Johnny wouldn’t be staring back at you.
You cleared your throat, trying to muster up anything to say. “I-I don’t know.”
Your words lingered in the air, a twisted type of shame washing over you. You felt ashamed that you agreed to this and guilty for potentially leading this guy on. Even if he was a stranger, he didn’t deserve a lie.
You looked back up at him, “I’m sorry.” You breathed, guilty. “-I just can’t.”
A look of confusion crossed his features before morphing into a small amount of understanding. Whatever he was thinking, he didn’t say; instead, he nodded. Clearing his throat and backing off of you.
You managed to get in a soft goodbye coupled with another apology before he left you, standing with your back against the wall. You stared off into space, your hand subconsciously brushing against the area on your neck where he’d kissed you.
You felt like you were going insane, like Johnny had infiltrated every facet of your life without even trying. Just by a kiss you’d been doomed for who knows how long.
You looked back at the door, looking at the small glass square. It was dusk, the suns golden hue fading into a soft blue that cast a slight glow on window.
Maybe if you were lucky Johnny wouldn’t be home when you got back.
You got back to the flat around 7pm, pushing the door open and letting your bag slide off your shoulder and onto the floor. Toeing off your shoes and shrugging off your coat. As you hung up the garment you saw Johnny’s jacket was still hanging on one of the hooks.
So, he was home.
You heard someone walking out from the kitchen, turning your head, you faced Johnny. His keys dangling loosely from his hand. His head turned when he heard you, noticing you at the door. “Sorry, didn’t hear you come in.” He said in acknowledgment.
He turned away like he usually did, but halfway through he turned back. His eyebrows furrowed down his face like he was doing a double take, you stiffened as those blue eyes trailed up your form.
You couldn’t read his face, suddenly uncomfortable by the lack of emotion across his features.
“That a new perfume, Bonnie?” He said, his voice tight and curt.
You paused, caught off-guard by his words. Unsure of what to say for a moment before it clicked. Ah, the cologne. It was strong, no surprise it probably lingered on your clothes and your skin.
You swallowed, “Why, you like it?” You replied, playing it off.
He hummed; jaw clenched. “Not really.”
His face was hard, a silent judgment that left you wanting to hide. You felt exposed, like he knew your shame.
When you didn’t respond, he rolled his shoulders, clearing his throat. “Have a good shift?” He said, his voice betrayed the mundane nature of his question.
You didn’t enjoy the pointed nature of his words, “Yeah, it was good.” You snipped.
His laugh—if you could even call it that—was sharp, a slight exhale through his nostrils. His eyes darting away from you, “Right, looks like it.”
Your lips twisted into a tight frown, instinctively, your hand slid up to your neck. Your fingers brushing over the tender blooming heat of it—the mark you’d let someone else leave. Almost as if you were shielding it from his eyes.
Shame flooded your chest again, molten and ugly.
Your eyebrows creased, pinching at the bridge of your nose. “What’s that supposed to mean?” You snipped.
He looked back at you, as if he didn’t expect you to get cross with him. You saw the muscles in his jaw work slightly, tensing up, “Nothing.” He breathed, shrugging his broad shoulders. “None o’ my business.”
You crossed your arms, heat crawling up your face. “Could’ve fooled me.” You quipped.
His head snapped back at you, something you couldn’t pinpoint flickering behind his pale blue eyes. “You think I give a fuck who you let maul you in a back alley?” He said, his voice cold and cutting.
You flinched like he’d struck you.
Never had he ever spoken to you like that, not once. And it caused something to burn deep inside you like a lit match.
“What the fuck is your problem, Johnny?” You said, throwing your hands up. “You don’t get to do this with me, you don’t get to act all offended and like you care when you can’t care enough to even acknowledge that you kissed me.” You scolded.
His mouth opened, but no words came out.
So, you barreled on, voice cracking despite yourself. "You push and you pull and you flirt and you kiss me like you fucking mean it, and then you act like I’m a goddamn stranger the second it gets real!"
You shoved your hands through your hair, breathing hard.
“[Name],” Came his voice, strained and tight. “I know you’re upset, and you have a right to be mad. But you don’t know everything, I’m-I’m not doing this because I want to, I have my reasons.”
You could’ve screamed at him, “Then tell me!” You snapped back.
You saw him hesitate, “I told you- “
“You didn’t tell me anything. You just show up and expect me to know what you want. To be totally good with all of this,” you said, gesturing to the air around you.
Everything seemed too much and not enough at the same time, like the man in front of you was a lie. You huffed, looking around the room in bewilderment, at his pair of boots that sat on the shoe rack, at his spare coat on the hanger, the small traces of his presence he left in your home.
“I-I don’t understand how I didn’t see it, how I didn’t see you for what you are. I barley even know you. You can tell me your favorite color, but you can’t tell me where you work or why you disappear on me for days at a time?” You fired, digging up anything you could throw at him.
You saw his jaw work again, his hands bawling into tight fists at his side. “Then what, you want me to reveal my whole life to you? Fight off every guy that even looks your way?” He said, voice cut with disbelief.
You shook your head, practically in tears. “No. I want you to stop acting like I’m yours when it suits you, then pretending like I don’t exist when it doesn’t!”
Johnny threw his hands up this time, “You’re not mine, [Name]! You never were.” He snapped, his breath heavy. After another beat, he spoke, his voice slightly calmer this time. “Happy?”
You stood there, staring at him. The white-hot anger fading into a soft dread that pooled in your stomach and burrowed in your throat. It was silent apart from the sounds of your own breathing.
You swallowed thickly, feeling a burn in your throat. “Yes.” You lied.
For a second, one miserable second, something in his expression crumbled. Something small and helpless and so achingly human.
But then it was gone just as fast as it appeared.
"Won’t matter anyway," he said, voice flat. "-Works nearly sorted." He brushed past you to sling the strap of his jacket over his shoulder like it was a coffin he was carrying.
"I’ll be outta your hair soon enough, Bonnie. You’ll get your peace back."
He didn't wait for a response.
Just turned and yanked the door open, the heavy slam echoing through the flat as he left you standing there, blinking hard against the burn in your eyes.
As the dust settled, the full weight of his words seemed to dawn on you. You hiccuped, biting down on your fist as fat tears slid down your cheeks.
As far as you were concerned, your Johnny was gone.
. . . . . ◟੭
You offhandedly glanced back at the clock that hovered over the pub entrance for the fifth time in a few minutes; it seemed to stare back at you with a grin. Taunting at you as if you were a bird trapped in a cage, and these days, it didn’t feel far off from reality.
You had another few minutes before your shift ended, yet your fingers itched to grab your coat and leave.
Casting your line of sight down back to the bar counter, you thrummed your nails against the wood. It was a grim scene, a dead bar that only housed a few people. The television was playing re-runs of an old game show, and the yellow lights cast the bar in an almost sickly glow.
Most of your time now consisted of this, staring at the countertop of an empty bar. After all, it was better than staying in your apartment. But now you were starting to feel like a hamster trapped in the same cage.
The days following your argument with Johnny seemed to bleed together, like you were watching the days play out instead of living them.
You spent long hours slaving away over your laptop, fingers perched over the keys while your eyes scanned columns of text. You spent even longer hours at the pub scrubbing the bar counter and pouring drinks to old timers.
Somehow, though, throwing yourself into your studies and job did little to keep your mind off Johnny. You had gotten what you wanted, or rather, what you thought you wanted—an answer.
But it wasn’t the answer you wanted.
Something small and ugly inside you wanted him to fight for your affection, to run after you even after you’d told him not to. But whatever feelings you had towards him weren’t worth dwelling on, not now.
What remained in the absence of your ‘friendship’ was a cordial silence, one that spoke a thousand words and none at the same time. A harmony that felt like an open wound that wouldn’t close.
You pushed yourself off the counter, reaching behind you to untie yourself from the small black apron that hung around your hips, slipping back into the back kitchen to grab your coat from the hanger near the door.
You shuffled into the garment, grabbing your bag and keys hanging off the nearest hook from where your coat rested. As you pushed past the door to make your way to the exit, you heard someone speak up.
“You on your way?” Came a soft feminine voice.
You looked up to see Janet, who had been put on the closing shift and, therefore, still had a way to go before she could escape, too.
You gave a half smile, stuffing your apron in your bag. “Yeah. Not really any customers to serve, so I thought I’d get out of here.”
She nodded, the soft wrinkles near her eyes creasing. She looked at you with a hint of pity, like she could see how your life was somehow crumbling. You didn’t look back at her, not wanting to watch the sadness cross over her face when she saw how the bags under your eyes had deepened.
You heard her softly hum, “Get some rest, sweetheart.”
You nodded in acknowledgment, responding with a hum of your own. You slipped past her to leave through the front door. As you pushed it open, the bell jingled above your head.
“-And stay safe, it’s late.” She called after you.
The walk back to your apartment was short. However, you still heeded Janet’s words, the cover of darkness seemed to bring out seedy creatures no matter how quickly you managed to get home.
You climbed the up stairwell, walking down the hallway lined by doors until you came to yours. You were on autopilot as you fished for your keys, your eyes dully staring into the abyss.
As you reached out to slide the key into the lock, the door creaked open under the pressure—already unlatched.
You paused.
For a split second you stood still, staring blankly at the door. Huh, that’s odd. You hesitantly peeked your head inside looking around your empty apartment.
It was dark, and silent.
The partially open door obstructed your view of the full kitchen, you swallowed. “Johnny?” You called out into the room, still halfway through the door.
There was no answer, you glanced at the coat hanger at the entrance. His coat wasn’t hanging up which meant he was out. But if he was out, then why was the door open?
You unconsciously chewed on your bottom lip, maybe you were just being paranoid. The most likely scenario was that he just forgot to lock it on his way out.
But the small chance that it was something else moved you to grab your phone, you sheathed it from your pocket. Typing out a message to him.
Message (You): Hey, do you know if you locked the door on your way out?
It was brief, in the case of it being nothing more than an accident you didn’t want to seem panicked.
You stepped inside, flicking the lights on.
You were still weary, but you’d managed to talk yourself out of suspecting the worst like you usually did.
You shrugged off your coat, shutting the door behind you. But as you turned something caught your eye.
The first thing you noticed was that the kitchen cabinets were open, the drawers too. Pulled out with its contents scattered on the countertop as if they’d been rummaged through.
You paused again, eyebrows furrowed half-way down your face. “What the fuck,” you muttered under your breath. Johnny may have been slightly disorganized at times, but you’d never seen him leave your apartment in disarray.
You looked around, pulse beginning to quicken. Maybe he had been in a rush, you thought. But even that didn’t sit right.
Without thinking, you walked down the hall. Turning all the lights on as you went, the doors were open. Thrown ajar to reveal a state of chaos.
You stared at the inside of your room, your closet wide open and clothes thrown about the room. Your dresser, drawers, bookshelf, all rummaged through. You doubled back, running into Johnnys room to find it in much the same state.
You never went into his room; it was an unspoken rule between you that unless you were given permission it was off limits.
However, right now you couldn’t stop yourself.
You felt your heartbeat before you realized it was racing; your blood seemed to run cold at the state of your home. Whatever was in your apartment was searching for something, yet all of your jewelry was still in your room. Your TV sat in it’s proper place in the living room and small amount of cash you kept in your dresser had been untouched.
Were these not items of value? What could anyone possibly be looking for in your apartment if not money or valuables?
Your hand found your phone again before you realized what you were doing. You should’ve been dialing the authorities, but your trembling fingers could only seem to find Johnnys caller ID.
You held your phone to your ear, listening to the ring of the call. With each chime you felt your hands shaking harder, as if you had a sudden cold.
Doubt gnawed at your mind, you knew there was a slim chance of him picking up the call. And even slimmer chance of him being able to fix the situation in any way.
There was another ring before you heard the familiar static rustling of the call being picked up, you felt your breath catch. “Johnny?” You choked out, your voice breathless and trembling.
“[Name],” came his voice, confusion written in his tone. “What’s wrong? You know not to call me when I’m out.”
You swallowed your fear, trying to force the words from your lips. “I know, its—somethings wrong. The door was unlocked when I got home and everything’s a mess. I think someone was here.”
You felt a pause, the static of the phone buzzing in your ear. Then came his voice, sharp and cutting, “Where are you?”
“I-I’m in the house.” You replied.
“Are you hiding somewhere? Do you think there’s anyone still in the house?” He said sharply, his voice borderline panicked.
You blinked, “No I’m-“
“Get in your room and lock the door, I’ll call for help. When you find a place to hide, stay there, I’m coming to get you. Now.”
You stayed frozen for a moment after the call ended, your phone still clutched tightly to your ear like it could somehow anchor you. The line had gone dead, but your heart pounded in your ears loud enough to drown out everything else. You took a shaky breath and backed into your bedroom, locking the door behind you with trembling fingers.
A few minutes passed. Maybe more. It was impossible to tell, time had slowed into something warped and syrupy. Every small sound in the apartment made your skin crawl. The creak of a pipe. The groan of the building. Your own breathing, too loud in the silence.
Then you heard it—footsteps.
Not heavy. Not rushed. Measured. Controlled. You froze again, heart in your throat. The front door creaked open wider, hinges groaning.
“[Name]?” came Johnny’s voice, “It’s me.”
You flung the bedroom door open before you could talk yourself out of it. “Johnny?”
He was already moving toward you, clad in his jacket and work boots. His brown hair slightly tussled and his eyes scanning your face. You caught the way his hand lifted for a moment to cup your cheek, but at the last moment, it hesitated. Trapped in the air.
There was a slight pause between you, one that said too much and not enough at the same time.
As if the look on his face was screaming, belting out the words ‘I still care.’
Instead, what came out was a breathy “Are you hurt?”
You shook your head, swallowing thickly. “No. I-I didn’t touch anything-”
“Good.” He cut you off before you could finish, grabbing your wrist and pulling you toward the door.
You let out a strangled noise of surprise mixed with discomfort; Johnny’s grip was rough. Using the force of his strength to pull you like a rag doll. After your split-second of surprise wore off you tried resisting his grip, “Johnny-!” You huffed, trying to pull away.
You were already through the door, the cold night air nipping at your skin in the hallway. He didn’t look back at you. “We’re not staying here,” he breathed, “Come on.”
You had half a mind to slap him for his behavior, but you were so frazzled you could only let yourself be pulled along like a tugboat. “What about the police? They’ll need us to be at the apartment if we want to find out what’s going on.”
Johnny led you down the stairwell, his hand was cold and clammy. He stayed quiet as he dragged you out of the complex, making your skin tingle with nerves. You furrowed your brow, trying to dig your heels into the concrete to pull him to a stop.
“Johnny, you said you called for help.” You bit at him, your voice trembling. Forcing your body to lean backwards to stop him from moving any forward.
He looked back at you from over his shoulder, staring at your body resisting his pull. You saw something flash in his eyes, guilt? Fear? Hatred?
Johnny turned to face you, his hand leaving your wrist so both of his palms could clasp your shoulders. His fingers were trembling, “Do you trust me?”
You paused, “I-I don’t understand.”
You felt him squeeze your shoulders, his gaze pleading with you. “Do you trust me, Bonnie?”
Against your better judgement you nodded, “Yes.”
With your confirmation, he grabbed your wrist again. Pulling you forward towards the sound of a car engine. But this time, you didn’t pull away, stumbling after him, your mind catching up a beat behind your body.
Johnny pulled you into the passenger seat of a car, its headlights glaring in the night air. You sat down in the leather seat like it was made of stone, your body prickling with nervous tension. He situated himself in the driver’s seat, wasting no time pulling out and onto the road. His hands white knuckling the steering wheel.
You stared out at the road as he drove past the familiar landscape of your neighborhood. Your hands bawled into fists on your lap. You didn’t look at him; you couldn’t, not when he had hauled you into a car with no explanation of why nor where you were headed.
“Johnny,” you said, trying to keep your voice controlled. “-Where are we going?”
Out of your peripheral vision, you saw his hands shift on the wheel. The silence that followed made you want to scream. You wanted to get out of the car, to make him turn you around and drop you right back off at the apartment.
You sucked in a small breath, tears sliding down your cheeks and onto your shirt. You bit down on your cheek, “Johnny, answer me right now. Where are you taking me?” You bit out.
By now, you had turned your head to look at him, watching the way his jaw tightened at the sound of your sobs.
You stared at him, your gaze practically begging him to answer you. You were progressively getting more frustrated the longer the silence was prolonged.
“Say something!” you shouted, voice cracking. “You’ve been keeping secrets, dodging questions, making me feel like I’m crazy and now someone breaks into our apartment, and you’re dragging me god-knows-where, and I still don’t know what the hell is going on!”
His knuckles tightened on the steering wheel.
After a beat, he spoke. “We’re going to a safe house just outside Manchester, it's in Simister. We won’t be there for long; I just wanted to get you somewhere safer as a precaution.”
You blinked, “A precaution for what? We couldn’t have gotten a hotel or something?”
He blew out a small, apologetic, laugh from his nose, glancing at you from the corner of his eyes with a sorry expression. “Not exactly.”
“What do you mean ‘not exactly.’” You said, your eyebrows furrowed.
Johnny sighed, one of his hands reaching behind his neck to rub at his nape. “If whoever broke into the apartment is who I think it is, getting a hotel room wouldn’t do us any good.”
You felt your eyes narrow. Somehow, the more he told you, the less you understood.
“Were you anticipating this?” You asked in disbelief. “-and who would want to break in?”
When he didn’t respond, you found yourself speaking instead, “This has something to do with your job, doesn’t it?”
The silence was louder than any answer that he could have given.
“You have to understand,” he started, his voice heavy with guilt. “I was obligated not to tell you; it was never because I wanted to keep secrets with you or that I didn’t trust you.”
His eyes caught yours in the mirror again, eyebrows pinched together, and his glances quick. “My job, its- its not something I ever wanted you to come into contact with. The less you knew about it, the safer you were.”
You stared at him, unsure how to process what he told you. “So, what? You’re like a part of the mafia or something?” You breathed, half joking.
“British SAS.” He corrected.
You paused, staring blankly in his direction as he looked out at the road.
He spoke again before you could comment: “I operate on a team connected with US and British special forces. A year ago, one of our ops got screwed over, and I had to be put on recovery watch before I could go back. So, instead of sending me back out, they put me here for the time being.”
Johnny kept his grip on the wheel, “-For the past couple of months, I’ve been tracking an arms dealer operating out of Manchester. They’ve got ties to half a dozen paramilitary groups.” He glanced at you, something dark and regretful in his expression. “If someone hit our flat, it’s because of me. Because I live there. Because I live with you.”
Silence fell again, heavy and suffocating. You swallowed hard, blinking rapidly, the tears coming back, hot and fast.
You sniffled, raising your hand to cover your mouth, trying desperately to bite back the spill of a sob. It was so much to take in, knowing that you were in danger, that the man you thought you knew wasn’t who you thought he was.
You turned your head away from him, staring out at the landscape of houses and stores as you passed.
“So, all of this,” you said, defeated. Gesturing to everything around you, “-Was just collateral? Is that what I am to you, Johnny?”
“No.” He snapped, turning his head sharply to give you a brief look.
“You-” a pause. “-You’re the only real thing I’ve had in a long time, Lass.” He breathed.
A silence hung in the air after his statement. You didn’t know what to think; you could barely process what was going on with your own life, let alone his.
You pursed your lips together in a tight line, letting your head fall against the car window. “You should’ve told me,” You whispered.
“I couldn’t.” His voice cracked slightly. “I didn’t want anyone finding you.”
You went silent after that, screwing your eyes shut to will away the tears. The drive grew quieter the closer you got to your destination. Johnny’s hands hadn’t left ten and two; his jaw clenched so tight you thought it might crack. You didn’t speak; afraid your voice would break if you tried.
Eventually, the city lights fell away, swallowed by the dark stretch of country road. Then the car turned off the main path, tires crunching against gravel until you saw a fence, tall and topped with security wire, surrounding what looked like a repurposed farmhouse. A floodlight clicked on as the car pulled up, illuminating the porch and front door.
Johnny got out first. You didn’t move.
It wasn’t until he opened your door and leaned down, voice softer than before, that you even looked at him.
“Come on. You’re safe now.”
His words did little to ease your worry.
You stepped out slowly. The air was cold and sharp, biting through your clothes and waking up all the dread in your stomach. The gravel crunched beneath your shoes, leaving footprints in its wake.
When you reached the porch, Johnny opened the door, letting you inside first. The place was clean but bare—minimal furniture, reinforced windows, no personal touches. It looked like a temporary shelter for someone always expecting to run.
You hovered near the entrance; arms crossed tightly over your chest as he locked the door behind you. For a long moment, neither of you spoke.
Then Johnny exhaled sharply, pulling off his jacket and tossing it across the back of a chair. “I know you’re angry.”
“I am.” You confirmed, your voice hollow. Vocal chords raw from crying.
You saw his jaw flex, his eyes sorrowfully looking down at you. A small worry line furrowed against his brow. “I’m sorry.” He signed, shoulders deflating.
Johnny raised his hand to pinch the bridge of his nose with his pointer and thumb. “I never wanted this to touch you.” His voice cracked, “Everything I did, it was to keep you away from it. I thought I could… separate both lives. Protect you. But I let you down.”
You swallowed hard. “You lied to me.”
“I did,” he said, stepping closer. You almost backed away from him, but you couldn’t. Not when he was looking at you like that, like a man lost. It was so human it made you sick.
You stared up at him, meeting his gaze. You parted your lips to speak, but no words came out, so he spoke instead.
“I cared about you more than I was supposed to. More than I should’ve.” His voice had dropped low now, steady despite the shake in it. “I know I was an asshole for kissing you and an even bigger one for pretending nothing happened. But I couldn’t let myself get attached. I thought if I pushed you away, you’d be safer.”
“Do I look safe to you now, Johnny?” you whispered.
He swallowed, a pained look crossing his features. “No,” he answered.
You huffed, holding yourself tighter. Your nails digging into your arm, tears burning in the back of your eyes for the third time that night. You frowned, brushing at your face angrily. “I can’t believe I let myself get here; I knew you were hiding something, and I still-“ You choked on the rest. “God, I hate you for making me care this much.”
You flinched when you felt something warm brush your cheek. You snapped your head back up to look at him. His hand was trembling, nervous, like you would scorch his skin if he touched you, yet it hovered an inch away from your face, almost cupping your cheek.
You watched his throat bob, eyes darting from your eyes down to your lips. “I never stopped caring,” He said. “Not for a second.”
The was air thick between you, and for a second neither of you moved. His eyes searched yours like he was still looking for permission. When you didn’t stop him, his hand slid to your cheek, his thumb brushing away the fresh tears.
Everything in you wanted to rip away; you were falling into the same trap he had put you in before. But you stopped yourself, your mind at war with itself.
“I’m so sorry, Bonnie.” He whispered. The sincerity of his tone beating you down, “I don’t expect you to forgive me, but I need you to cooperate. Just for a little while.”
You watched him hesitate for a moment, “-I thought I was going to lose you back at the apartment, I can’t do it again.”
You felt yourself crumbling, loosing the will to fight back.
You wanted to ground yourself in him, lost in what you knew you couldn’t have. Self-preservation be damned.
So, you surged forward first.
Your lips crashed into his with weeks of confusion, anger, and heartbreak behind them. You felt his breath hitch, taken aback by your sudden boldness. Like he was stunned you’d still want him. But you did. God help you, you did.
Just as quickly as his stiffness appeared it vanished, replaced by unbridled want.
He cradled one hand on your cheek, the tips of his fingers brushing against your hair. Johnny’s face tilted slightly so he could kiss you deeper, his lips warm and inviting. Despite everything, it felt safe. He felt safe.
You let your lips part, savoring the feeling of his tongue brushing against your upper lip. Your hands slid up his chest, one looping around his neck to pull him forward. It was tactile, the pads of your fingers brushing up against his nape. How his eyelashes tickled against your skin and his nose brushed against yours.
Johnny slid his other hand over your waist, drawing you in. Your body met his; it was warm and firm.
Each time you pulled away for a breath, he drew you back in, searching for your lips like a man starved.
Your fingers curled in his hair, grown out while still being short, fisting the brown locks between your fingers and tugging him closer. He groaned into your mouth, your hips brushing against his with each pull.
You didn’t realize you were moving backwards until your back hit flush against the front door, trapped between the wooden surface and his body. You broke apart for a moment to breathe, your foreheads pressed together.
Your chin tilted upwards, trying to find his lips again.
This time, Johnny pulled back slightly, hesitating to meet your lips. Your brow furrowed, confused to why he wasn’t reciprocating your advances. He met your gaze for a moment, conflicted.
“We shouldn’t,” he breathed. “-Not like this.”
He thumbed over the apple of your cheek as you shook your head. “Johnny, it’s fine.” You said, lips pulled into an impatient frown.
He opened his mouth to respond, before he could you silenced him with another kiss. Forcing him to meet your lips. He groaned into your mouth, your leg shifting in between his thighs to nudge into his crotch.
He was hard, achingly so.
You forced yourself to pull away, “You-“ you sucked in a breath. “-You put me in this situation. The least you could do is try to make up for it.”
He swallowed, pausing for a moment. “Is that what you want me to do, Bonnie? Make it up to you?”
You licked your lips unconsciously, fighting the heat crawling up your face. “Yes.”
You stood there for a beat, watching how his eyes dripped down your face and traveled lower only to flicker back to your line of sight. His hand slowly trailed down your cheek, the pads of his fingers brushing down the side of your neck to tilt your head back against the door.
You shuddered, the molten bloom of blush spreading up your face. You stood statue still as his face dipped into the junction of your neck, lips brushing against the burning skin.
He pressed a slow kiss to your neck, letting his lips linger against your flesh. “I’m sorry,” he murmured, pressing another one lower. “-I’m sorry,” another further down. “I’m sorry,” again, and again.
It was maddening, his breath fanning against the shell of your ear and his lips dragging down your neck. The warmth of his lips and tongue over your flesh felt like trails of molten lava.
You squeezed your eyes shut, trying to keep your breathing even. Your fingers digging into the back of his shirt and his hair.
He slid down your front, lips trailing down from your neck to your collarbone. Large hands mapping out your body as he went. Johnny dipped lower, littering soft kisses down your stomach, dropping his legs to kneel before you like he was worshiping the ground you stood on.
Your body buzzed with anticipation, pliant in his grasp. You almost couldn’t bear to look down, too scared and flustered to see what you had made of him. However, you didn’t need to look down.
Because you could feel it without even looking—his gaze on you.
His stare was blistering, he was sorry, and he wanted you to know it. To feel it. To watch you come undone.
Somewhere along the way, he had snaked his hands up your thighs. Wedging your legs apart until he knelt between them.
“Look at me.”
You tensed, your breath stilled. Blinking hard you forced yourself to tilt your head downwards, meeting his eyes.
Johnny’s lips were parted, cheeks and ears tinged slightly red. His hands squeezed the back of your thighs, “Atta’ girl.” He murmured, voice smooth and thick like syrup. He slid his hands away from your legs, dragging them over the front of your pelvis. Slowly taking his time in popping the button on your jeans and guiding the zipper down.
He slid your pants down, carefully helping you out by moving your legs. After discarding the garment, he directed his attention back to you.
You couldn’t help the slip of a moan as he thumbed a finger over your underwear, rubbing soft circles over your clothed clit. One of your hands grasping at the flat door, trying to curl your fingers on its surface.
His fingers slid down, pressing flat against you as he pressed another kiss to the fabric of your underwear.
You bit down on the inside of your cheek, holding back a whine.
Johnny curled his fingers slightly upwards, pushing the fabric against your entrance. Your breath caught, insides churning with the contact. “You’re wet,” He breathed against you. “-That from me, Lass?”
He glanced up at you, a small, proud, grin stretching his lips.
Without waiting for a response, he hooked a finger under the elastic. Sliding it down your legs before attaching his lips to your cunt.
You gasped, caught off guard. one of your hands gripping his hair, coiling your fingers into the soft brown locks. “Johnny-!” You choked out, shuddering.
He hummed against you, flattening the front of his tongue against your core.
Whatever you said fell on deaf ears, his hands clasped at your thighs to hold you up against the door. Preventing you from moving away. You bucked your hips into his mouth, unable to stop the small involuntary movements.
He groaned, circling his tongue over your clit while one of his hands returned to your soaked pussy. You could barley register that one his hands were moving before you felt the pad of his middle finger dip between your lips, gently prodding at your entrance.
You almost choked, throwing your head back against the door. “Fuck,” you cursed, voice slurring.
Johnny hummed against your cunt, slowly pushing a finger inside you. Curling it backwards until your back arched off the flat door.
He pulled back for a moment, panting. His lips slick and shiny with your juices, eyes slightly glazed over with a blush tinging his ears. “You’re so beautiful, Bonnie. You know that, right?” He groaned, staring up at you as his finger worked your cunt.
You could barley respond, fucked out on just his finger and tongue. “-You want another?” He asked, placing a soft kiss to your clit.
You could only manage a small nod, concentrating all of your strength into staying standing. Yet you couldn’t help the small buckle of your knees the second you felt a second finger dip inside you.
His digits worked you open, stretching your walls until he could easily pump his fingers in and out of you with ease.
“Taste so fuckin’ good, just like I knew you would.” He panted, his breath fanning your skin. He leaned back in, swirling his tongue over the bundle of nerves until you felt your toes curl.
Johnny was groaning as if he was deriving pleasure from eating you out. The front of his tongue flattening against your cunt, greedily slurping. He suckled against your clit, alternating between running his tongue up and down and side to side.
Whatever his tongue and mouth couldn’t reach, his fingers did. Long thick digits sliding in and out with ease, the pads of his fingers brushing against your soaking walls. The muscle of your core constricting around his fingers with each plunge.
You could only moan, trapped between the door and his mouth. His fingers curling inside your walls, leaving you gasping for air. Preening for the tension in your gut to spill over. A part of you wanted to be furious with him for screwing you over and then proceeding to giving you the best head of your life. Yet with the way his tongue worked on you, you couldn’t find it in you to care.
You were approaching your orgasm fast, much faster than you would’ve liked.
“Johnny—Johnny, I’m close. Slow down, please.” You simpered, begging for him to ease up so you could bask in the pleasure a little longer.
However, he had other plans. Doing quite the opposite as to double down, the pace of his fingers increasing in tandem with his mouth on your clit.
You felt the molten coil in your stomach tighten, threatening to snap at any moment. You couldn’t bare it, being stretched open by his fingers mixed with the sensation of his tongue mouthing over you clit. It was too much, too fast, too good.
Then it snapped. Thighs locking around his head as your orgasm spilled over, washing over you like waves against the sand bar. Your cunt fluttering around his fingers and your hands curling in his hair.
There was no moan, no cry, only a silent gasp for air. Your spine arched with your hips rhythmically pushing deeper into his mouth.
He didn’t let up, letting you ride it out until he felt you loosen around him. Leaving you a panting mess, legs reduced to jelly.
Your vision was blurry; you had closed your eyes so tightly you swore you were starting to see colors, patterns, and stars that crossed behind your eyelids.
As he pulled away, Johnny kissed the inside of your thigh.
You took a moment to recover, slowly managing to look back down at him. As the fog of your orgasm cleared, you were left speechless. You had just let Johnny put his mouth on you.
Worse, you didn’t regret it. Not even a little.
Maybe that was what scared you, you could never push him away completely. He somehow managed to always wriggle his way back into your heart, and in this case, your pants. You weren’t over the fact that he had been lying to you, nor how he had scooped you up only to drop you off at a safe house in the middle of nowhere.
However, your initial anger was starting to melt, gradually.
Your lips parted, trying to form the words. “I’m still mad,” is what came out. Your voice unsure, as if you were trying to convince yourself of your words.
Johnny nodded, the small scruff of his stubble brushing against the skin of your thigh. “I know you are.” He replied, blue eyes staring back up at you.
“But I’m willing to keep making up for it.” Johnny said, “-s’long as it takes.”
It was almost sickening how remorseful he looked; how genuine it all was. You wanted him to do something, anything that would even hint that this was all an act to obtain your forgiveness.
But it wasn’t. It was real.
You swallowed, his lips brushing against the inside of your thigh for a second time.
You couldn’t go back know, the damage had already been done. The lies, the kiss, the break in, and now this. Whatever it was, it pushed you further. A recklessness that snaked its way past your rational, if you were going off the deep end, you were going to make it count.
A hand slid down into his hair, your fingers curling into the soft brown locks. Tightening your hold, you slowly pushed his head back, forcing him to look up at you.
“Then keep going,” you said. His eyes scanned your face as you paused. “-Keep making it up to me, Johnny.”
Johnny’s palms spread out over your flesh pulled taut, grasping at you, not rough, but desperate to anchor himself. Then his lips parted, breath heavy. “You still want me to touch you?” He asked, voice low and frayed.
You nodded, holding in a breath. “Yeah, I do.” You confirmed.
With your confirmation, he dropped his head, forehead brushing against your knee. His nose and lips tingled on your skin as he dragged his head up your leg, “You’re killing me, Bonnie.” He said as he drew in a long breath.
Then he began to move again, slowly, with intent. His mouth traced a line up your thigh, higher, lingering like he didn’t want to rush it. Like he wanted to earn every second of it.
“Having you close like this, when I thought I lost the right to touch you?” He murmured into your skin.
His lips found your hips again, then your stomach, and then higher still, warm hands sliding up your sides. When he reached the side of your neck you let your hands snake around his nape, grasping at his broad shoulders.
His chest pressed into yours, your legs pushing up to wrap snugly around his hips. Johnny made quick work of your new position, large hands holding you up by your thighs.
You twisted your face to meet his, noses brushing together as your lips connected. You moaned into his mouth, tasting yourself on his tongue. You were pushing into him, desperate to create friction.
You offhandedly realized that he had stepped backwards off the door, holding you to him as he backtracked into the safe house. Lips still moving against yours.
After a few bumps on different pieces of furniture, he managed to find his way to another door, his back hitting against the wood as he blindly searched for the handle. It was a miracle he didn’t fall backwards as the door swung open on its hinges.
He stumbled in, barely breaking stride as his boots scuffed against the floor. The room was dark, just the faint outline of moonlight bleeding through the shuttered windows.
Johnny kicked the door shut behind him with a solid thud, the sound echoing in the quiet. Then you were falling, not hard, but a tad clumsily onto the mattress behind you. Sheets still cold, the room unfamiliar.
He hovered above you, chest rising and falling fast, like he’d just run a mile. His eyes searched yours again, pupils blown, lips parted. At the same time his hands wasted no time in pushing up your shirt, revealing the bare skin of your torso.
You aided in wiggling out of your top, your bra following shortly after.
Johnnys eyes dragged up and down your form, as if he were carving out the image of you underneath him into his mind. “Fuck me,” he breathed, in awe.
He slid his hands up your sides, cupping your breasts in his palms. The pad of his thumbs brushing over your hardened nipples.
You inhaled, back arching off of the mattress as he pawed and pulled at your chest. Your fingers twisted into the crisp white sheets as Johnny’s head dipped down, his tongue swirling over the hardened bud.
You couldn’t hold back the soft whine that escaped you as he suckled and kissed at your nipples. Taking his time in alternating between your breasts, savoring your flesh like a starved animal.
“I’ve wanted to see you like this,” he said in between kissing your breasts. “-Was a fuckin’ miracle I could keep my hands off you to begin with.”
Your front teeth dug into your bottom lip, holding back a groan at his words. You thought back to your days around the apartment, the subtle touches, the glances your way, wondering if he wanted you just as much as you wanted him. If he too spent his nights with a hand down his pants while the other covered his mouth.
Your pulse quickened.
“I didn’t realize you wanted me so bad.” You said between heavy breaths, almost joking.
Johnny glanced back up at you, blowing air out from his nose in a half-laugh. “Always, baby, always.” He exhaled, pressing one last kiss to the underside of your breast before leaning back to tug off his shirt.
You watched him like a hawk, gaze unwavering as the cotton slid off of his body to reveal the pale skin underneath.
Obviously, you had seen him shirtless countless times. Curtesy of his morning cooking attire (sweatpants and no shirt). But something about this was different, it felt more raw, private.
Your gaze fell from his abdominal muscles down to the V-line peeking out from his jeans, a light happy trail of brown hair snaking down beneath the waistband.
You couldn’t tear your eyes away even if you wanted.
A small grin stretched his lips, “Looks like I’m not the only one.”
You shot him a look, a heat creeping back into your cheeks. “Just take your pants off,” you said impatiently.
He nodded, reaching down to unbutton his trousers. “You’re the boss.”
Johnny made quick work of his pants, sliding them off along with his boxers. Whatever you had expected him to look like down under was almost insulting compared to what he shaped out to be.
He was big, thicker than the average male. Hard, and heavy.
You quickly snapped your eyes back up, flustered from the color in your face. Swallowing the dryness in your throat as discreetly as humanly possible.
He stood at the edge of the bed, an almost imposing figure. With one hand he reached down to pump his cock a few times, the weight of it in his grip made you shift. “You see what you do to me, Bonnie?” He rasped.
His jaw was taunt as he stroked himself, exhaling though clenched teeth. His dark, thick eyebrows knitting together, pinching the skin of his brow.
When you didn’t respond he leaned down, his free hand sliding over your knee to part your legs until he stood in between your bared thighs. You were braced on your elbows, fingers twisting into the sheets.
“Hm?” He said expectantly. “-You want me, Bonnie?”
You jumped as his dick hit your bare pussy, slapping his cock against your clit a few times. Your legs tensed at the contact, blood running thick and hot.
“Yes,” you breathed, sounding much more winded than you would have liked. “-Yes, I want you.”
Johnny groaned, let the tip glide over your soaked cunt with ease. Coating himself in your arousal. His dick was heavy against your entrance, now that you could feel the full weight of it pressed against you.
He gave an experimental, shallow, push. The head of his cock plunging into your cunt with a lewd squelch.
Your head fell back for half a second, gasping for a breath of air like your lungs had been filled with water. “Johnny,” you panted, voice thin and shallow. A hand placed at the side of your head tightened in the sheets, his body caging you in.
“I know.” He hushed, the free hand cradling the back of your neck to push your head forward. Your forehead met his, noses bumping together like a fitted puzzle piece. Your breath tangling somewhere in between.
You inhaled, waiting, adjusting.
After another moment, he pushed his hips forward. Your body was able to accommodate all of him by some miracle. Walls stretched open in such a way that you felt full.
You grabbed the back of his neck, nails digging into his skin. “Oh god-” you exhaled, lips brushing against his as you spoke.
Johnny groaned, voice thick with want. His face dropping into the crook of your neck and collar, heavy breaths fanning onto your skin, burning like hot magma. “So fuckin’ tight, so perfect for me.” He murmured.
It was silent for a moment, save for the heavy panting between you. A brief pause that left you aching for more, desperate for him to do something. A carnal desire for the man inside of you that seared white hot in your blood stream.
You couldn’t bare it, not when he was withholding such pleasure from you.
“Johnny, move. Please, I need you to move.” You simpered, nails dragging down his back.
He grunted, shaping out a soft nod. Leaning back slightly to grab your spread thighs, rough palms squeezing the fleshly underside of your hamstring. Carefully, he maneuvered your legs back, brining your knees up to your ears. Murmuring a gentle ‘that’s it,’ and ‘almost there,’ as you assumed your position.
Johnny held your legs in place as he set your legs over his shoulders, draped over his back like curtains. He drew his cock out of you, leaving just the tip inside. After a moment he sheathed himself back inside, slowly.
You moaned, eyelashes fluttering as your eyes rolled back. He thrust deep into you, again, slowly, but forcefully. Just enough to leave your toes curling and your heels digging into his trapezius. A steady stream of grunts and moans leaving both of you.
He gradually began to speed up the longer he fucked into you, fingers taunt as they dug into your flesh.
Your ears rang with the sound of skin slapping against skin, the air thick and heavy around you. Your hands tangling into his hair, pulling him closer. “So good,” you slurred, drunk off of his cock. “-Feels so good.”
The more you spoke the more vigorous he was, forcing his hips deeper into you, harder, faster. Eager to please.
“Keep talking,” He moaned, vocal cords raw from grunting and moaning. “-I like it when you talk. Sounds so fuckin’ sweet when you’re taking my cock.” He grit out.
If you could blush anymore, you would’ve. You weren’t very experienced at dirty talk but you supposed theres a first time for everything.
You whimpered, trying to form the words through gasps and moans. “You make me feel so good, Johnny. I want you to keep fucking me,” you exhaled, your bottom lip trembling.
He moaned, a confirmation that you were doing at least one thing right. You wanted to please him just as much as he wanted to make you feel good. Desperate for any shred of praise.
You felt the head of his dick press up deep inside you, sending your spine curling like a whip and the soles of your feel arching. “Oh-” You gasped, voice shrouded in a lustful haze. “Do that again, fuck.” You pleaded.
Johnny’s lip curved up, “Yeah?” Angling his hips to thrust back inside at the same area he did before. “-You like when I fuck into you like this?” He exhaled.
Your head fell back into the mattress, small sparks flashing behind your eyelids. Johnny letting out a tortured “Fuck,” as he spurred on. Nails, mouth, teeth, skin, hair, you couldn’t tell where it all began nor where it ended. A blur of lust and so much more, affection, was it? Love?
You couldn’t tell, but it felt like a live wire between you. An exposed cable that sent currents through your veins and left you gasping for air.
“So good to me, Bonnie.” He breathed, “-Dreamt ‘bout you for months, fucking wishing I could have you.”
The mattress caved around your body, molding to the shape of your body. Johnny’s hands leaving a bruising grip on your thighs.
You tried your best to shake your head, forcing your eyes open. “You have me,” You moaned. “-You have me.” You repeated, a broken record. Trying your best not to go too deep into the meaning for your own words, caught up in the moment.
You felt like you’d been reduced to one giant raw, exposed nerve. Molded to the shape of his cock, your limbs dangling in his hold like a sack of flour. The pressure in your stomach climbing, a lull of heat creeping down from your pussy all the way to your toes.
Johnny let one of his hands slide down to your cunt, thumbing over your neglected clit. Without warning he circled over the swollen bud, sending you convulsing.
You gave a sharp cry, the stimulation borderline painful. You never imagined that anything could hurt so good, a taboo sort of pleasure.
Sweat coated your skin, your clit throbbing and your pussy pounding like a heartbeat. It was so good, too good.
It seemed as if Johnny was in the same boat, his rhythmic thrusts had devolved into sloppy, and sporadic. You wanted him to stay inside, you wanted to feel the pulse of his dick when you came.
“Johnny, I’m going to cum.” You gasped, your body pulling taunt.
He nodded, sweat shining on the skin of his temple. “I want you to, I can hold out.” His voice was wrecked, raw, jaw clenched tight.
You seemed to slip out of yourself as you came, like you were floating. A current of euphoria that washed over you, head lulled back while your body strained. The drive of his cock into you combined with the pressure on your clit sent you spiraling.
You couldn’t help the moans leaving you, ears ringing and vision blurred.
You briefly registered him pulling out, his grunts sinking into you before you felt a sharp spurt of liquid somewhere on your stomach.
What followed after was a moment of silence, a bliss that lingered in the air and seemed to cloud the room in a warm glow. You didn’t even realize your eyes had been closed before you felt them open as a hand brushed over your forehead.
You blinked as Johnny brushed the stray baby-hairs from your face, sticking to your skin from sweat.
He gently set your legs off his shoulders, carefully placing them down on the bed. Everything about you felt heavy and sluggish, like your limbs had tuned into cinder blocks. Even so, his touch still managed to tingle your skin.
There was a calmness to it all, a domesticity that felt just as good as it was temporary. You knew of course that sleeping with him wouldn’t magically fix everything, it was still crumbling around you. But he was the safest thing around a place that felt unfamiliar.
You knew he felt it too, the tension setting back in. Responsibility, reality.
“So, what happens now?” you said, cutting through the silence.
There was a pause before he shifted, leaning back. “Well, I was going to clean you up.” He said, voice almost blasé, but you knew there was more to it. “-But I guess we can’t really go back to what things were before, not with the break in and all.”
Getting up, he reached into the bedside table, a box of tissues inside. Taking a few he wiped you down, carefully, guiltily. Tossing them out into the small bin tucked into the corner of the room, picking up his briefs on the way to clothe himself a little.
After, Johnny adjusted his position beside you, the mattress shifting under his weight as he sat down on the side of the bed. His eyes lingered on your face, torso twisted to face you. His eyes trailed down your body, slow, not lustful this time, just taking inventory, like he needed to confirm for himself that you were whole.
“Are you going to answer me for real?” you said quietly.
He stilled. His gaze flicked back to yours, and there was something unreadable in his expression. Guilt, maybe. Or fear.
You propped yourself up on one elbow, the ache in your muscles sharp but not unwelcome. “I mean… with us. After this.” Your voice faltered for a second. “I kind of got the message that we’re supposed to stay here for a day or two until you know for sure who broke in. But I just don’t know where we go after that.”
Johnny dragged a hand over his face, scrubbing at the stubble on his jaw. “I’m not sure if I have the answers you want.” His accent was thicker now, softened in exhaustion. “I’ve got no right to ask for more from you, not after the shite I pulled.”
“But you want to,” you said. It wasn’t a question.
He gave a short laugh, humorless and brittle. “Christ, Bonnie. I never stopped wantin’ to.”
You sat with his words for a moment, deciphering the meaning a hundred different ways. Caught between what you wanted and what you knew what was probably best.
“I still don’t know where I sit with this.” you whispered, “-I can’t exactly just forget what happened, I don’t think I could if I tried. And I’m still mad about the lying.” You spoke.
After a beat, you continued, “-But I also know that you were doing what you thought was best. Even if your best was shitty. I guess I’m just mad because I lost you for a good while there without even knowing why. And now I don’t even know if I’m going to lose you again once this blows over.”
Johnny looked at you, eyebrows creasing. “You’re not something I’ll be able to just move on from either, even if it all does ‘blow over.’” He said, frowning.
There was another beat of silence, this one gentler.
“But I meant what I said earlier. I’ll keep makin’ it up to you.” He reached over, his thumb brushing over the curve of your wrist as it laid on the bed. “Even if it takes the rest of my damn life.”
You turned your head toward him, eyes meeting his. “Don’t make promises like that.”
“I’m not.” His gaze didn’t waver. “It’s not a promise. It’s just the truth.”
You felt his fingers dip into the curve of your palm, running along the indented lines until his fingers tangled between yours. A soft squeeze that said, ‘I’m here.’ You squeezed back, a silent exchange that said so little yet so much.
Flickering your gaze back up to meet his eyes, you pulled on his hand, beckoning him closer. And for whatever reason, he let you. The mattress shifting under his weight once again as he crawled behind you; not hovering, not crowding, just close.
His arm slid beneath your neck, the other tucking around your waist. His touch was warm, not lustful, at least not anymore. It was something quieter. The kind of closeness that only made sense after everything had been said and done.
Johnny exhaled into your shoulder, breath fanning the damp skin there. “If it means anything,” he spoke, voice faint. “-What we had together…it was good. We’re good together.”
His voice was almost a plea, a last-ditch effort to show you he wanted it, he wanted you.
Your throat tightened.
You shifted back against him just a little more, letting your spine curve into his chest. His hand found yours again, fingers fitting into the spaces between yours with the same unconscious ease he had when brewing coffee in your kitchen. Like a habit he didn’t want to break.
“We are good, Johnny.” You agreed, turning slightly, just enough to glance back at him. You hesitated slightly before speaking again, “But I’m scared of waking up tomorrow and pretending this didn’t happen.”
His hand squeezed yours again, drawing you in.
“Then don’t,” he said. “Not this time, not again.”
You were quiet for a beat, then: “…One more chance. You get one more chance, Johnny. And when we figure things out, we do it together, no secrets.”
“No secrets.” He echoed. A promise.
You didn’t say anything after that, you didn’t need to. The room seemed to still too, a peaceful lull in its darkness.
His breathing evened out behind you, steady and slow. You could feel it where his chest pressed against your back, where his lips brushed your shoulder one last time before stilling.
Your eyes stayed open a little while longer, just to make sure he was still there.
And in the hush that followed, with his arms wrapped around you and your hands still laced together, the ache dulled, just a little.
Sleep found you like that. Quiet. Not fixed. But no longer alone.
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The morning settled, soft and muted against the walls, brushing over your skin in pale shades of silver and blue. Somewhere beyond the window, the world stirred.
You blinked awake slowly, the edges of your vision blurred with sleep, the air around you heavy with warmth. It took a moment to remember where you were and why you were there to begin with. Why your body felt weightless and sore all at once.
You unconsciously shifted, stopped by a weight draped over your stomach.
Johnny’s arm was still curled loosely around your waist, his chest rising and falling in a steady rhythm behind you. You shifted again, just enough to turn onto your back, the mattress caving slightly with the movement.
He was asleep. No tension in his brow, no dreams pulling at the corners of his mouth. The way his hand rested over your hip made you ache with a tenderness you didn’t expect.
You studied him for a long moment. The way his dark lashes cast faint shadows over his cheeks. How his hair curled ever so slightly at the nape of his neck. You could almost trick yourself into thinking this was normal. That this was something you’d done before, would do again.
It was almost odd; you didn’t feel the panic you thought you would.
You had expected regret. Or at the very least, that gnawing ache of uncertainty that always crept in when things got too real. You’d braced yourself for it. For the guilt. The fear. The voice in your head that always whispered, this is a mistake.
But it didn’t come.
All you felt was calm. Maybe not certainty—not yet—but something close. A stillness you hadn’t known you’d needed.
You exhaled slowly, letting the breath deflate your chest. Johnny stirred slightly behind you but didn’t wake. His grip around you only tightened, fingers curling softly against your side on instinct.
You let your gaze linger on him a little longer.
There was still so much between you. Things to say, things to fix. But last night hadn’t been about pretending everything was okay. It had been about choosing to stay anyway.
Your fingers drifted toward his, brushing lightly over his knuckles. A warmth dancing across his skin like the embers of dying flame.
You turned slightly, just enough to face him again, your forehead nearly brushing his. His breath was slow and even. Yours followed suit.
Your eyes drifted shut.
And for the first time in what felt like forever—
you let yourself rest.
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Hey wait don’t go!
First off, big thanks to all of you for waiting so long for another story. I know I totally disappeared for a minute, but unfortunately, life is just like that sometimes.
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Hard
Summary: smoking with Jeremy takes a turn <3
Pairing: Jeremy Gilbert x fem!reader
Warnings: 18+ MDNI, weed use, sleep grinding, sexual tension, reader soaking wet from a few lazy ruts, playful biting <3
Word count: 1.1k
Masterlist | Jeremy's Playlist
The two of you were gone.
Not in a dangerous way, just in the way that made everything hilarious for no reason. The TV flickered in front of you, playing some dumb reality show you had started watching ironically but were now deeply invested in. Jeremy was half-sitting, half-sprawled on the bed beside you, a bag of chips balanced precariously on his chest.
“This guy,” you snorted, pointing at the screen, “is the worst liar I’ve ever seen. Look at his face. He’s guilty as hell.”
Jeremy squinted, chewing lazily on a chip. “Nah. He’s just stupid. That’s not guilt, it’s pure, unfiltered dumbassery.”
You gasped dramatically, turning to him. “Dumbassery isn’t a word.”
“Yeah, it is.” He grinned, eyes glassy but playful. “It’s, like, the study of dumbasses. The scientific term.”
You let out a wheezing laugh, shoving at his arm. “Oh my God, shut up.”
He didn’t shut up. If anything, he leaned closer, lowering his voice like he was telling you a secret. “No, but really, if you think about it, I could totally get it added to the dictionary. I’d just have to prove it's a real word by using it enough.”
“Oh, sure. Go ahead and start a petition. ‘Jeremy Gilbert, founder of Dumbassery Studies.’”
Jeremy’s grin widened. “Professor Gilbert, actually.”
You rolled your eyes, but your smile lingered, warmth curling in your chest. You didn’t even realize how close you’d gotten until you turned back toward the TV and your shoulder brushed his. Neither of you moved away.
Instead, the teasing continued. Jeremy stole the last chip out of your hand, and you dramatically declared war. He tickled your side in retaliation, and you nearly choked laughing, swatting him away. Then came the absolutely critical debate on whether or not aliens existed, which spiraled into the logistics of living on Mars and somehow ended with Jeremy proclaiming he would be a “space cowboy” if given the opportunity.
“You would be the worst space cowboy ever,” you said between giggles, wiping a tear from your eye.
Jeremy gasped, hand over his heart in mock offense. “Excuse you? I’d be amazing. Riding space horses, lassoing asteroids. I’d be legendary.”
You snorted. “Name one time you’ve even successfully ridden a regular horse.”
A pause.
“That’s not important,” he declared, flopping dramatically against you with a heavy sigh. “You have no vision.”
His weight pressed into you, warm and solid, and your laughter was muffled against his shoulder. “God, you’re such a dumbass.”
“Professor of Dumbassery Studies, actually,” he mumbled sleepily.
Somewhere between the giggling and the ridiculous arguments, the exhaustion settled in. The warmth of the high mixed with the comfort of the moment, pulling you both under. The TV played on, long forgotten as the heavy haze of sleep crept in.
Jeremy was behind you now, his body pressed along yours in a way that had started casual, comfortable, even. Just two very stoned idiots too lazy to move apart. You mumbled something about stealing the blanket, and he grumbled something back, his voice softer now, drowsier. You hadn’t questioned it at the time, just letting yourself sink into the warmth of him, feeling the steady rise and fall of his chest against your back.
But then, he moves.
At first, it was nothing. Just the slow, even rhythm of his breathing against your back. The weight of an arm slung somewhere near your waist, not quite holding you, but close enough that you could feel the heat of him through your shirt.
And then, in the haze of half-sleep, it happens.
The slow, unconscious roll of his hips.
You freeze.
Maybe, maybe, you imagined it. But then it happens again. The heavy drag of his body against yours, slow and unhurried, like his subconscious is guiding him.
Oh.
A flicker of heat curls low in your stomach, unwanted but undeniable. You tell yourself it’s just a coincidence, a random movement in sleep, but then you feel it, him.
Hard.
The thick, aching press of him against the curve of your ass, straining through the thin layers of clothes separating you.
Your breath stutters, sharp and shaky.
It’s nothing. It’s just accidental.
But then he moves again, slower this time, and you swear you feel him throb against you. A deep, dragging grind that leaves him pressed so perfectly against your body, heat bleeding into you like a brand. His hips roll in a lazy rhythm, mindless but desperate, and every inch of him feels hot, heavy, and needy against you.
Your hands clutch the blanket tighter. Your thighs instinctively squeeze together, the friction sending a rush of heat straight to your core. Your body shivers slightly beneath the weight of him, every muscle locked tight, begging you to either move or melt.
God, it’s too much. Too easy to give in. Too easy to imagine what it would feel like if he weren’t half-asleep if he were awake and pinning you down properly, grinding into you with that same lazy, overwhelming need.
Another soft, helpless whimper escapes before you can stop it, the sound barely audible but earth-shattering in the thick silence of the room.
And that is what does it.
Jeremy stills.
The shift is immediate.
You can feel it, the way his whole body tenses, muscles locking up, breathing shifting from deep and steady to something uneven and ragged. The unmistakable twitch of him against you, the way he holds himself too still like he is painfully aware now of what he’s doing, and what he wants to keep doing.
A long, thick silence stretches between you.
Then, his forehead drops against your shoulder, and you hear it.
A low, choked-off laugh, rough and wrecked.
He grins against your skin, slow and lazy, way too pleased with himself.
"Wait," his voice is a rough scrape in the darkness. "Was I just?"
You don't answer. You can't answer. Your whole body is molten, strung so tight it feels like you'll snap if he so much as breathes wrong.
Jeremy shifts slightly, nudging his hips forward again, deliberate this time, and you feel all of him against you, hard and aching like he's daring you to pretend you didn’t notice.
His voice drops lower, barely a whisper.
“Damn.” Another lazy chuckle, this one dripping smugness. “You feel so good.”
Before you can even think of a response, before you can even breathe, he dips his head lower and bites your shoulder.
Not rough. Not to mark you. Just a lazy, playful scrape of his teeth over your skin, possessive in a way that makes your stomach drop.
Then, with a soft, satisfied exhale, he nuzzles into you and falls right back asleep, leaving you pinned beneath the heat of him, completely wide awake.
Oh, fuck.
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¿Requests?
yall i kinda wanna start writing smuts for anime characterss
send some requests/prompts plss i need some ideass
preferably for: jjk, demon slayer or my hero academia
i usually write x female readers
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