Stuff

this is a mess and im trying to figure it out

[foone]

COMPUTER! Show me... THE BIG ONE.

(based on these two posts, of course)

[konoko]

[snow-and-backpain]

i feel i dont deserve anything good when i am not doing good

why is it when i dont feel good in one area of life i dont want to feel good in any other area of life; that i dont want to allow myself that

if feel bad once -> then must feel bad all the time

[typhlonectes]

[domloco]

[discodeerdiary]

Me getting estradiol

[snow-and-backpain]

its so nice to cuddle with someone

i wish i had someone else to do it with

[snow-and-backpain]

The worst question i ever asked someone was ‘how are you so happy’. I didnt ask in a condensing way or a serious way. I asked in a way… in that sort of light hearted, joking way (like if you saw someone eating something and you jokingly asked ‘how can you eat that’). The look they gave me… they seemed confused why i would ask such a question. As though they found it odd that i found it odd that someone can be so happy. I guess. But my side isnt unusual either

[snow-and-backpain]

yknow, i never thought i'd have trouble with eating

go figure

i gotta do better

[snow-and-backpain]

i have no one

i am once again, struggling and alone

why do i always do this

if im gonna be alone why cant i at least not struggle

im so scared

i dont think i can be happy next semester

i think, i think im gonna have to let myself go there

i dont think i can be happy

i dont think i can have both

[snow-and-backpain]

why is it always the case that one of these days will be our last interaction

i never know how to feel about that

i wish i didn't think of it and that i could keep going ignorantly until years later i realize oh shit, we aint spoken in years .o.

im not sure how to feel about knowing our last interaction was (or will be) our last interaction

[snow-and-backpain]

im scared but what will saying it do

will i find people?

will i sound like a loser?

like someone who doesn't know shit?

theres a mosquito in my room

this is not about the mosquito

[snow-and-backpain]

solo quiero a alguien a quien puedo dicir estoy triste

y me decían está okey, se va a mejorar; sigue con tus cosas

y que estarían (¿que se quedarían?) a lao mío

físicamente.., o en video puede estar okey

me canso de estudiar solo

yo tengo mis compañeros de clase, pero no estamos juntos

¿quienes son? ¿como van? como siguen? ¿entienden mas? ¿tienen mas confianza?

me siento sola

estoy sola en esto

mis profesores, ¿es esto normal?

no peude ser

les hablo

y no me contestan

no les puedo hablar sobre esto; no dicen nada; me hace sentír...

pues,...

y no puedo dicirle a ninguna persona

na mas me miran y queda el silencio

me siento mas sola

esto no puede ser normal

asi que, que me pasa?

ya quiero sacarme de este sentimiento

déjame salir al favor

quiero estar en paz

[snow-and-backpain]

im so nervous

i feel alone, i know im not i know that

but, i have no one

we're doing the same thing but im still doing it alone, i hope they are too

[snow-and-backpain]

hi

i am scared

[konoko]

[hammondb3organcistern-deac]

Like Church by Natalie Diaz, from Postcolonial Love Poem

[zevveli]

I still think that my favorite urban legend/folklore fact is that there are certain areas in New Orleans where you cannot get a taxi late at night not because it isn’t safe, but because taxi companies have had recurring problems of picking up ghosts in those areas who are not aware that they are dead and disappearing from the cab before reaching the destination and therefore stiffing the driver on the fare causing a loss for the company.

[elsajeni]

An occupational hazard of cab driving I had not previously considered

[princessnijireiki]

I love that the nola problem here is not “ghosts in my taxi cab,” but “ghosts are FUCKING BROKE DEAD BASTARDS & I GOT BILLS”

[siderealsandman]

Horror is when ghosts get into cabs and scare drivers Magical realism is when cab companies have to develop policies to prevent ghastly fare-theft

[kc749]

In a book about the tsunami in Japan in 2011, the writer talked about how there was a huge increase in reports of ghostly activity. Apparently in Japan treating ghosts rudely is basically considered the stupidest thing you could possibly do. For months after the tsunami, taxi drivers would pick up a passenger only to have them give an address in one of the devastated areas. The cab driver often looked up halfway to the destination to find their fare had disappeared. Not wanting to be impolite to the person (even if they were dead) they’d drive to the address, open the door to let them out, then drive away.

[qwertyu858]

[officialfist]

Yeah this all checks out

[rottenhusband]

solo quiero abrazar a alguien y sentir que estoy en casa