soleillei

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[withvera]

[kaijuno]

[allsadnshit]

I’m so embarrassed to admit I want things and I’m like damn u silly bitch it’s ok to want it’s ok to be disappointed

[soleillei]

0x1 lovesong

idk i never thought i really experienced loneliness because i always had quite a few good friends and enjoyed my time with all of them but i guess i realized maybe that deep longing and emptiness that i sometimes feel in the background qualifies as loneliness? that even tho im super happy when distracted by people and have fun with friends, at the end of the day reflecting on my life alone in my room i just feel unsatisfied and wish someone understood me wholly and that i was someones first choice. not even in a romantic sense like i wish i had ride or die friends to go through all the stages of life with but it seems that all my friends have better friends and how can i just find a home? i think thats why i love this music video it just expresses all that deep desire. it makes me kind of glad other people can also relate. i used to have best friends, some that i lost to conflict or distance or outgrowing each other, and recently i havent really had a best friend, just many good friends and acquaintances. maybe im just scared of overstepping or getting too close to someone in fear of upsetting them or losing them or something. but surface level friends are tiring, i need someone that knows me and that i CAN fight with but wont lose. someone to do stupid shit with but also have deep talks with. why cant i just be satisfied. maybe ive just been home in the suburbs for too long and need to go back to the bustling college life so i dont have enough time to think so deeply about matters. i dont think i ever really felt this way when i was happily living in the moment but now im overthinking again and long for something better.

[stardustemotions-deactivated202]

‘’ I like ur personality ‘’ thx i have like 4 more

[futuredeadwife]

YOU MUST BREAK THE PATTERN TODAY OR THE LOOP WILL REPEAT TOMORROW

[nolabelspart02s]

TXT :: 0X1=LOVESONG (I Know I Love You) feat. Seori

[bakwaaas]

sorry but if I’m posting a screenshot of a tiktok I’m not going out of my way to credit the user because they steal tumblr posts all the time it’s just reparations

[archystudy]

May 2021 - Sorry for being so inactive! I have moved house and been so caught up in the workload for starting my masters degree! I hope to post a lot more soon and answer all of your messages x

[studylikeathena]

rainy day studying for a linguistics quiz next friday.

[katscottage]

There’s a strange kind of joy in being tired. I mean the type of tired where you’ve worked hard all day and been busy and not had a moment until you finally get into bed at the end of the day and your body just relaxes into the bed.

For so long I was tired, but I was tired from the things I was going through, the things I was having to process and deal with that just took every ounce of my being without giving me any peace.

It’s nice to feel joy in tiredness again.

[foolish-byron]

when i say "romanticise the ordinary" i don't mean "hide all aspects of your life that do not fit under some kind of aesthetic" but rather "strive to find beauty in all the little things because i promise you, happiness can be found everywhere"

[ashstfu]

women can not be blamed for having hundreds of screenshots we’ll never use in our camera roll. it’s the gatherer instinct

[slfcare]

It sounds ironic, but the moment you stop filtering everything you say and do and stay true to yourself instead of trying to fit in and make people like you, you'll see such a shift in your social life. On the one hand you'll see who you clash with, and on the other hand you'll see that people are more likely to approach you because they see how genuine you are, which makes it easier for them to know if they want to be friends with you (or not). The scariest part of being who you are is finding out who won't like you for it, but the best part is finding genuine friendships with people who like you for you, and that's so worth it.

[calellon]

the one (perhaps only) thing i’ll always like about growing older and maturing is the never-ending opportunity to develop and refine your personal taste in pretty much anything. fashion, food, music, literature, art, design, furniture: the older you get, the more knowledge, insight and experience you acquire and it all adds up to a treasure of source material to create a new you from. carve, prune, distill, expand, sculpt, evolve - you can recreate yourself always and aging gracefully is all about endlessly enriching yourself through that recreation.

[metamorphesque]

October is my empire. Terror is part of me. 一 Tamura Ryūichi

1. Alfonsina Storni, 2. Cy Twombly, 3. William Stanley Merwin, 4. Cy Twombly, 5. Virginia Woolf, 6. Jorge Albericio, 7. Gala Mukomolova, 8. Andrei Tarkovsky, 9. Czesław Miłosz, 10. Andrei Tarkovsky, 11. Thomas Wolfe, 12. Andrei Tarkovsky, 13. Louise Glück