such a weird disorder bc sometimes theres weeks, maybe months? where i barely notice that i have it, i might just blink or hum a little, its no problem at all. And then suddenly im in a phase where its actually disabling like its dangerous to walk around because i cant control my eyes and im having vocal tics to the point of pain and shortness of breath. And its so jarring every time
#and for some reason it feels so fucking embarrassing!#not so much in public like im not afraid of people staring at me if they have no manners and have never seen a neurological disorder before#its embarrassing to talk about it? to mention it to people? idk#im not embarrassed by people seeing or hearing my tics#but for some reason the act of describing them and talking about how it feels to have them is the worst
