Sonder Thoughts

An unusual woman who is always wondering. Always wandering.

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My late night insomnia doodles.

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Loving this girl's writing ❤❤❤

So far everything I've read is amazing!

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Moon beams grip

onto my collar bones

to drag me to

nostalgia's tides

leaving me there

to wade away

in memories of you...

- The reasons I can't sleep

Written By: Whitney B.

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CAN NOT WAIT TO SEE THIS BEAUTIFUL SOUL IN JUST A COUPLE MONTHS! I'm probably going to cry.

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" I was always an unusual girl. My mother told me I had a chameleon soul, no moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality. Just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean..." Model: Me Photographer: Barbara Gideon

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“You can’t just sit there and put everybody’s lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can’t. You have to do things. I’m going to do what I want to do. I’m going to be who I really am. And I’m going to figure out what that is. And we could all sit around and wonder and feel bad about each other and blame a lot of people for what they did or didn’t do or what they didn’t know. I don’t know. I guess there could always be someone to blame. It’s just different. Maybe it’s good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there. Because it’s okay to feel things. I was really there. And that was enough to make me feel infinite. I feel infinite…” - Perks of Being a Wallflower Model: Me Photographer: Barbara Gideon

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"Let this be our lesson in love Let this be the way we remember us I don't wanna be cruel or vicious And I ain't asking for forgiveness All I ask is If this is my last night with you Hold me like I'm more than just a friend Give me a memory I can use Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do It matters how this ends Cuz what if I never love again?... " Model: Me Photographer: Barbara Gideon

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This was a shot taken before a shoot I was in tonight ❤❤❤ Stay tuned! Some sneak peaks should be ready tomorrow!

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I gave away

so much love

I never saved

any for myself...

- My Self Destruction

Written By: Whitney

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M.I.A Update

So surprised to see my ramblings still being loved and shared

You're all amazing.

I apologize for my absence lately.

Writing will be posted soon. Life has been a bit insane and I'm currently recovering from cracked ribs, puncture wound on my hand, torn tendon, and lots of bruising.

On top of physical injury I am still emotionally trying to heal.

Thank you all for the continued love and support💖💯💖💯💖💯💖

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"the world itself is the bad dream... " - Sylvia Plath Model: Whitney ( me) Photographer: Barbara Gideon

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During the stillness of night

is when I think of you most.

It's almost as if

the despair of losing you

pierces through the darkness

just to throw itself around me

like a weighted blanket

I can't seem to shake off.

I'm ready to

toss myself

on the fault line

and pray it consumes me.

I'm too exhausted

to do this anymore...

- Whitney

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I won’t apologize for missing you, or because I said that I am, or because I text you first, or again. Everyone spends too much time trying to build walls instead of doors. I don’t want to be apathetic or indifferent, I want to be honest. It’s both a curse and a blessing to feel everything so deeply, but it’s who I am. I’ve stopped being sorry for all my soft. I want you to find your soft. I’ve seen it before. I’ve seen it in the way you used to hold my hand. In the way you kissed my forehead in between the real kisses and the extra long hugs. In the gentle yet hard goodbyes we said each morning. I never wanted to let go or say goodbye out of fear that I would never be able to find you again. You’re gone now but I’m still knocking on the door. I’ll stop begging for you to let me in as long as you promise me one thing. Find yourself. Be in touch with your heart. Reflect on what happened between us. Think hard about it. Don’t ignore it. Don’t run away from it. Not talking about the contents of a closet will not make it empty. Relationships are important. They’re a big deal. Love is a big deal. It changes you. It teaches you things. I want you to learn a lot from this. I know I did and will continue to do so, and I am glad that it was you who taught me. I hope you can say the same for me.

goodbye letters // o.k. (via sweetdreams-and-otherthings)

❤❤❤

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At any given moment you could be gone. Do not waste a single second of this life. This year has been filled with heartbreak and disappointment. It brought me to the edge of insanity and dared me to jump. I planted my feet and forced myself to take a step back. I gazed beyond the chaos and realized I'm in control of my future. If I want happiness I need to fucking go get it. It's as simple and complicated as that. There's gonna be a lot more pain, loss, turmoil, and plot twists ahead of me but my God, there will be so much joy. That makes it worth it. -whitney

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Walk to the edge

of your fear.

Spread your arms.

Let winds of change

catch your hair

& fly to the stars, Darling.

This world is yours for the taking...

- Whitney

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"Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.... " - Stephen King Model: Me Photographer: Barbara Gideon