Journey Through Madness

A blog about Healing from long term abuse PTSD CPTSD Fight mode Mental Health Dissociation from trauma Due to content 18+ it may trigger some Healing is not pretty I will not sugar coat it. Raw and unfiltereded

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My life goals right now are as follows 1. Be happy 😁 2. Travel to new places near and far 🌍 3. Find the perfect Margarita 🍹🧉 4. Smoke weed 🍃 5. Live like there is no tomorrow 🌈 6. Have bomb as sex 💋 7. Be free of drama and bullshit 😌 8. Dance like no one is watching 💃 9. Take a trip or two on shrooms 🍄 10. Love myself as I am 🤓 https://www.instagram.com/p/CPUpkCYFyig/?utm_medium=tumblr

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at Klickitat, Washington https://www.instagram.com/p/CO_32sclVk-/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Waterfalls 🤓 (at Glenwood, Washington) https://www.instagram.com/p/CO_1WCyJ9Uu/?utm_medium=tumblr

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“I'm a self-proclaimed Bitch I'm never going to allow someone to push me and get away with it. The only thing I changed is how I deliver my blow instead of cruel and intimidating I will do it classy and wise. My point will be made and I will walk away. That's that.” ~ Journey Through Madness @spacesnail91 #bitchyquotes #classybitch #complextraumarecovery #cptsd #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #donttestme #fightmode #healingjourney #strongwomen #womanpower https://www.instagram.com/p/COnbTPfFj8Q/?igshid=12a90w8b0hcuy

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“I understand lashing out at someone when you are hurting because I am guilty of it as well but it's not okay from anyone.” ~ Journey Through Madness @spacesnail91 #anger #pain #complexptsd #abusechangespeople #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #dissociation #dissociativeidentitydisorder #mentalhealth #ptsd #cptsd #traumarecovery #fightmode #fear https://www.instagram.com/p/COnaWful4SV/?igshid=34z5a0d9xmzd

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“She didn't understand why the world was so cruel so she accepted the pain and learned to be okay in the midst of madness.” ~ Journey Through Madness @spacesnail91 #cptsdhealing #ptsd #complextraumarecovery #childhoodsexualabuse #childabuse #rapesurvivor #abusesurvivor #healing #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bipolar #mentalhealthawareness #itsokaynottobeokay #dissociativeidentitydisorder #traumadissociation https://www.instagram.com/p/COnZc_2lrXX/?igshid=wjnqdag4vo7n

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Moose is back #moose #wildlife https://www.instagram.com/p/COMZNhlJuPq/?igshid=1samh3xv2h6w9

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Not the best video but I saw a moose so cool https://www.instagram.com/p/COJPs3HpvYf/?igshid=18r0bpx3xnoly

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Caught bass with fishing buddy #fishing #bass #relaxing #dinnertime https://www.instagram.com/p/CN1I5z2Ffwp/?igshid=1b9dhvpg4brm4

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How many broken bones, bloody noses, cruel words, and unwanted painful sexual encounters did it take to make her stop crying to accept this is her role? A lot she learned a long time ago, that vulnerability was dangerous that safety is an illusion. She learned to take the pain, and at times her anger boils over when reminded of the same things that broke her; she will spit vile words and become combative unless you are brutalizing her in certain ways, she will go quiet and let you do your worst and obey every command. ~ Journey Through Madness @spacesnail91 #broken #abusechangespeople #abusesurvivor #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #rapesurvivor #prostitution #humantrafficking #mentalhealth #ptsd #complexptsd #complextraumarecovery #writer #writetoheal #blogger #cptsdhealing #childhoodtraumasurvivor #childhoodabusesurvivor #childsexualabuse #rapeawareness #ruinedchildhood https://www.instagram.com/p/CNlBauxFtag/?igshid=jh3gd2rx40sj

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I'm in a dark place, I have part of me saying I'm not worth it you know your place in this world go back and the other part saying you are changing you are loved and safe it will be hard but keep going one day the struggle will not be as painful and dark. Oh, how I long for the day I can be struggling and know it won't last. ~ Journey Through Madness @spacesnail91 #complextraumarecovery #complextrauma #cptsd #ptsd #mentalhealth #flashbacks #mentalbreakdown #nervousbreakdown #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociation #abuse #childabusesurvivors #childsexualabusesurvivor #rapesurvivor #prostitution #healingjourney #healingtrauma #borderlinepersonalitydisorder https://www.instagram.com/p/CNk7DAPlTRw/?igshid=kiboi7wheuvq

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To the people who meet me and want to be in my life, there are a few things you should know I'm a very loving, caring person who is fun to be around. I can be a great person, but I struggle a lot. Some days I can't even get out of bed. I cry a lot have frequent nightmares. I need constant reassurance; I don't know how to show my love at times. You may say something, and I won't know how to take it. my darkness comes out when I'm afraid or hurt, and you will look at me differently because you will experience my rage a part of me. I'm working hard to get rid of it. I have periods of not wanting to live and the need to make bad choices. You may question my care and love because of how I come off, but it's there. Before you come into my life, I want you to know my past traumas are dark and have altered my mind and body. So you can make an informed choice and are not blindsided by my issues. I beg of you to consider this before making a connection with me because it will hurt to lose anyone else I care about in my life, yet I would understand if people left, and it can be painful at times for you to be in mine. I'm healing but have a long way to go. I won't be offended if you head this warning and run. ~ Journey Through Madness @spacesnail91 #complexptsd #cptsd #mentalillness #mentalhealth #imnotokay #mentalillnessisnotachoice #ptsd #abusechangespeople #fightmode #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #personalitydisorder #childsexualabusesurvivor #rapesurvivor #abusivemother #absentfathers #ruinedchildhood #traumadissociation #dissociativeidentitydisorder #fear #trustissues #mentalbreakdown https://www.instagram.com/p/CNk4jk5lvwH/?igshid=1rfnvjcunjn1j

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My horse Maria and I 🤓🐴 https://www.instagram.com/p/CNOc_ZOlTZz/?igshid=1jimaqnjcj304

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"I remained silent about my true pain and fear; instead, I Fought and screamed till my hands bled and my throat was raw." ~ Journey Through Madness @spacesnail91 #complexptsd #abusesurvivor #fightmode #healingtrauma #ptsd #dissociation #ChildAbuse #rapesurvivor #mentalhealthmatters #longtermabuse #traumasurvivor #sexualabuse #humantrafficking #prostitution #abusechangesyou #dissociativeidentitydisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #traumadissociation #healingjourney #mentalillness #mentalhealth #writetoheal #blogger https://www.instagram.com/p/CNKzHLrnLzX/?igshid=1kmp0gu3i2j42

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"My mind was broken, but my soul was untouched." ~ Journey Through Madness @spacesnail91 #abusesurvivor #traumarecovery #mentalhealth #ptsd #complexptsd #cptsd #childsexualabusesurvivor #childhoodabusesurvivor #traumahealing #rapesurvivor #prostitution #abusechangespeople #longtermabuse #dissociation #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #dissociativeidentitydisorder #anxietyawareness #troubledteenindustry #humantrafficking https://www.instagram.com/p/CNKy1Fync6c/?igshid=10b9jm7qefa7h

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You fight a battle most can not even begin to comprehend Don't expect them to understand It's your war to fight Keep growing Heal the pain of the past for your future is bright. ~ Journey Through Madness @spacesnail91 #cptsdhealing #childhoodtraumasurvivor #mentalhealth #healingjourney #ptsd #dissociation #depressionawareness #abusesurvivor #rapesurvivor #rapevictim #longtermabuse #childhoodsexualabusesurvivor #prostitutionsurvivor #abusechangespeople #substanceabuse #selfharm #innerchildhealing #struggle https://www.instagram.com/p/CNEgE-MHuyc/?igshid=5qfnm0kmu7ob

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“When the abuse ends And healing begins A whole new kind of pain emerges The true feelings come out You can't hide it anymore.” ~ Journey Through Madness @spacesnail91 #healingjourney #healingtrauma #healingtheinnerchild #traumahealing #abusesurvivor #ptsd #complexptsd #mentalhealthmatters #dissociation #childabuse #rapesurvivor #itsokaynottobeokay #abusechangespeople https://www.instagram.com/p/CNBrqylnUdk/?igshid=lrflfeks1r7p