sparkle system ☆

sparkle system ☆

[sparklesys-moved]

hi !! we’re the sparkle system !! traumagenic system of 7 :]

he/it/they collectively 

we alternate between we/us and i/me depending on the context 

the body is a minor

main: @wilburzgutz

we don’t tag swearing or caps !!

more info here (pronouns, relative ages, etc) !!

tagging stuff !!

#🌙  jasper post — posts when jasper is fronting

#🌟 tom post — posts when tom is fronting

#🌼 clem post — posts when clem is fronting 

#💥 wilbur post — posts when wilbur is fronting

#🍄 g post — posts when grian is fronting

#🐋 ajax post — posts when ajax is fronting

#🪶 diluc post — posts when diluc is fronting

#??? post  — posts when the fronter is unclear/co-con

#syscourse — any and all system/plurality discourse we discuss (mainly for blacklist)

#comms — asks!

@/swarmcore @/blackmetalbaphomet @/sysboxes

[griancraft]

Wait systems reblog if you are 5’6 and a grian fictive or have a grian fictive

[screenshotsofdespair]

[chaos-in-one]

Friendly reminder that someone having 'endos dni' on a post doesn't make them anti endo or a "sysmed"

There's many reasons someone might put that such as

-They're talking about a traumagenic specific experience

- They want to find other systems with a similar experience to theirs as a traumagenic system

- They don't feel safe in most pro endo spaces due to past harassment or misinformation they see spread in those spaces

- The post is meant to be for traumagenic systems specifically

And more!

[circulars-reasoning]

Just as a reminder for everyone:

You DO NOT need to have trauma to be diagnosed with DID.

You DO need trauma to have DID.

The DSM-V does not require you to have trauma to be diagnosed, but the disorder itself comes from trauma. The reason it does not have trauma listed as a requirement for diagnosis is because DID is a covert disorder which is quite literally designed to hide your trauma from you. It is designed to protect you from the trauma you could not face as a child. That is how DID works.

Those of you out there who rely on the diagnostic criteria to determine if systems can form without trauma are inherently relying on medicalizing systems and doing so in a way that is literally not supported by medical specialists. The DSM is not a cookbook explaining how disorders form or how each disorder presents itself. It is the baseline that can help to diagnose serious problems.

If you rely on the diagnostic criteria of DID to determine if DID is trauma based or not, you are saying one of two things to me:

You believe you must fit the diagnostic criteria to have DID, and you must follow that diagnostic criteria to the letter to have DID (this is not how the DSM works).

You believe that DID can form without trauma (a belief that was started by Freud of all people, with his iatrogenic theory, and the False Memory Foundation's ableist rhetoric).

You are telling me, a system who struggles on a daily basis to recall their trauma, that it is possible for me to just have trauma responses as a symptom of my complex dissociative disorder... without the trauma.

Stop boiling my disorder down to a diagnostic list.

[catgirlapologist]

isn't it insane though how schizophrenic people are viewed as violent and dangerous by the majority of society when in reality schizophrenic people are nearly 14 times more likely to be on the receiving end of violence than to be the perpetrators...

[catgirlapologist]

schizophrenic person: makes a post trying to raise awareness about the disproportionate abuse and harmful stereotypes schizophrenic people face

yall: "yeah im not gonna reblog this they used the word ins*ne which is so problematic ://"

[truth-spatter]

What the fuck happens that changes these stats to such a massive degree?

[catgirlapologist]

1) schizophrenia hardly ever causes people to be violent so schizophrenic people aren’t more likely to be violent than anyone else

2) schizophrenic people’s autonomy is often taken away from them because of their schizophrenia. because the authorities and mental healthcare providers often automatically assume schizophrenic people to be violent, they’re more likely to immediately react to schizophrenic people's symptoms with violence, without even knowing for sure said schizophrenic person was going to be violent. all of this causes schizophrenic people to be more likely of being victims of violence and abuse. schizophrenic people also have a harder time getting out of abusive households because of the risk of their autonomy being taken away. if a schizophrenic person’s relative or partner is abusive, often the schizophrenic person has no way out of the situation, both because our disconnect from reality can result in us being easier to manipulate, and because the system is built in a way that it takes away our autonomy because of our condition.

[catgirlapologist]

also schizophrenic people and psychotic people in general, please do a lot of research before picking a provider for your own sake, and if they try to treat your psychosis in a way that you think is harmful then don’t hesitate to switch providers. your safety and wellbeing should be a priority over everything else.

[catgirlapologist]

can y'all please reblog this version instead

[sparklesys-moved]

mymom just woke me up from a nap because “thats not whag adults do” and she fucking wonders why i haven’t told her i love her since i was eleven

[avpdwisp]

i developed npd to cope with avpd and now i just have both instead of balancing, fucking rediculous

[circular-bircular]

I’m a DID system who didn’t remember any trauma from when I was a child. The earliest traumatic event I could list off was when I was 13-15, or MAYBE when I was 11 (if that even counted as traumatic) (it did).

I still don’t remember much. So how did I know I was a DID system?

Literally everything else.

I had blackouts, and I could say “I had a blackout after X happened,” X being something that triggered me

I had gaps in my memory that I could vaguely remember. I knew I’d gone to class, but only after thinking hard and using the evidence around me (“I had to have gone, I have new papers dated today”)

I was clearly distressed by these things

And of course, the alters

You don’t need to know your trauma to know you’re traumatized.

[recoverycore]

Take time to mourn, but don't forget that you deserve happiness

[ieategosforbrekfast-deactivated]

When self dxed systems get fakeclaimed, the argument you see most often is "DID is a disorder that's really hard to live with and you only talk about the good parts." And this has always fucking baffled me because the struggles of being a system are often incredibly personal and aren't exactly something you bring up in casual conversation.

Like yes it is incredibly hard wake up and have to figure out who and where I am every single day. It's hard to have a bunch of people living in my head who never shut up. It's hard to look in the mirror and never feel like I know the person looking back at me. It's hard to be completely unable to access 90% of my memories. It's hard to never know what day it is or when things happened. It's hard to be constantly dissociating and still trying to live your life like a normal person. It's all hard and scary and isolating.

But why the fuck would I say any of that in any context to someone who I am not incredibly close to? Why would I talk about those things with someone who isn't very familiar with who I am as a person?

[nasobek]

[my-brain-is-hatching]

When you miss an alter who hasn't fronted in a while:

[notabled-noodle]

normal vs disordered: paranoia edition

normal: being jumpy late at night, or when you’ve just been watching something scary

not normal: feeling like something or someone is after you (which can be triggered by a horror movie, but exists independently of the movie)

normal: not trusting strangers, especially if you live in a big city

not normal: being convinced that strangers, friends, or family are going to hurt you, or that people are ganging up on you

normal: only confiding in your closest friends or relatives, and having things you wouldn’t tell most people

not normal: thinking that confiding in anyone will give them ammunition to use against you, and that it’s not safe to share your thoughts and feelings with others

normal: acting more cautious after hearing a police siren or seeing a police officer

not normal: hearing police sirens (or hallucinating sirens) and thinking that they’re going to come after you, and feeling a need to hide and protect yourself

normal: finding it hard to go to sleep after seeing a horror movie out of fear of having nightmares

not normal: not wanting to go to sleep, leave your house, or eat food someone else prepared for you (for example), because you feel that people have a conspiracy against you

paranoia can be a result of any number of disorders or situations. there’s a fine line between paranoia and a trauma response, and the two can definitely blur into each other. if you think you’re experiencing paranoia, please try to seek help if possible

[cluster-b-culture-is]

cluster b culture is being tired of having fp’s and your fp’s usually being abusive as hell and using their status to Inflict Ailments so over the course of like a year and a half u force urself to form the fp bond with your cat and now youre impervious to everything including god but u know that if ur cat died you would literally have to immediately be taken to grippy sock hell or else youre just gonna follow suit but at least im his fp too <3

[cluster-b-culture-is]

npd culture is relating to literally any MARINA song ever

[cluster-b-culture-is]

Cluster b culture is wanting everyone to shut the fuck up because everyone is so goddamn annoying