@mvsicinthedvrk sent: ♫ + (18) for ruyi and feng yu. (COULD HAVE BEEN ME the struts)
"by the way, where are we going?" ruyi asks belatedly. she's only just realizes that she started to follow feng yu's lead without question. even her inquiry was out of curiosity rather than an inherent need to make a plan of action for every a situation. it's different, but exciting. and she knows it's all thanks to her brief time as a knight that her previous tight grip on control seamlessly loosened. the mental confines that had her on constant alert disappears for just a moment, and she, for once, experiences what it's like to be relaxed and at peace. she's likely among the few in this city who found the short-lived transformation to be liberating. formerly resigned with the belief that she’d go out in a blaze of glory; that it was the only trajectory for a person like her. but what a waste of blood and sweat and suffering that would be— and for whose benefit? not hers, that's for sure. now she wants to taste love and pain, feel pride and shame, and to live better days. she never wants to look back and say it could have been her.


















