sawyer

18 he him dyke. 🫶🫶

[spntism]

intro post wahoo.

sawyer. 18. he/him dyke.

deangirl on a spiritual level.

how was my user not taken. obviously im now the #1 autistic supernatural fan.

original posts tagged #sawyerposting. writing tagged with #my words.

[vesperscas]

"for 2024 i will expand my interests."

thinks about castiel. thinks about castiel. thinks about castiel. thinks about castiel. thinks about castiel. thinks about castiel. thinks about castiel. thinks about castiel. thinks abou

[tothewheel]

never there - CAKE

hi have like half an edit that i'll never finish

[katherinehoughtoncastle47]

[arcanespillo-deactivated2025080]

Fatherhood-Trick, Shane Neilson x SPN

[mailboxwithaletterinside]

Ethel Cain, "Sun Bleached Flies" // Supernatural, 2005-2020.

[suncaptor]

supernatural when it's expecting me to not have castiel objective impermanence meanwhile I'm like. okay but where's castiel.

[m1zumono]

dean winchester and autism because this man is autistic and i will not accept otherwise:

his reaction to sam giving him the giant slinky at the end of 7x14 'plucky pennywhistle's magical menagerie'

actually physically stimming when he enters the bunker with sam in 15x14 'last holiday' and sees the christmas decorations

the boxing episode, 11x15 'beyond the mat', where dean spends the entire episode fanboying and (for lack of a better word) plays in the boxing ring

wearing the same thing (flannel, jeans, in earlier seasons the leather jacket) almost all of the time while not in disguise to work cases

eating the same thing (cheeseburger with extra onions or pie) at almost everywhere they go, as often as he can (about dean winchester and food, i could talk about that for hours he has so many issues with it and it's all john winchester's fault)

his ability to recite movies line for line, and his tendency to communicate almost entirely through references and movie quotes, and expecting people to understand what he means

about references, he makes jokes and references when it's not appropriate, he doesn't understand that something isn't appropriate in a situation where it isn't specifically pointed out to him, and he generally has a pretty messed up sense of empathy and inability to 'read the room'

‘you’re always calling me a geek, but you know every word to every led zeppelin song, backwards and forwards. you can discuss in detail every major rock drummer between ’67 and ’84… and you watch ‘jeopardy!’ every night.’ - directly quoted from sam winchester in 14x20 'moriah'

in 13x06 'tombstone' when they go into the motel and dean talks about the cowboys, identifying all of them and going into quite a bit of detail about a few of them, even though nobody asked him about it and he is absolutely infodumping. 'he really likes cowboys.' 'yes. yes, he does.'

his knowledge of cars, particularly baby, and how he takes her for a ride when he's sad because of the comfort she provides him. also about baby and comfort, the way he offers to let people drive baby when he realises that they're sad, thinking it'll make them feel better as she makes him happy and he doesn't understand how else to help

in 1x03 'dead in the water' he talks to lucas about how he didn't speak as a kid, he plays with the toy soldiers and it doesn't come across as playing with them to make lucas trust him, it actually comes across as him finding genuine enjoyment in it

in 1x15 'the benders' when he's talking to the kid who mentions godzilla, dean brightens immediately and goes off topic talking about his favourite godzilla film, and has to be reminded that he's working a case by sam

the entirety of 14x04 'mint condition', how dean gets to express his interests and be himself and how a lot of people have mentioned that he seems to be genuinely himself in that episode instead of the act he puts on

larping with charlie, no explanation needed

he shuts down when things go badly, often blasting music and ignoring everything and everyone around him

he always picks scissors when playing rock, paper, scissors, and it's actually something that comes up multiple times within the show - in 2x17 'heart', sam says, 'dean, always with the scissors,' and along the same lines, his excitement both times he actually wins the game

in 1x04 'phantom traveller', dean is terrified because of the plane and sam points out that he's humming metallica. he replies that it calms him down, and that just seems very autistic

[dead-angel-witch-fae]

mint condition and the tombstone rant are so near and dear to my heart

[castielsparkle]

☆ john winchester's journal | 1x12 - faith | 4x01 - lazarus rising | 12x19 - the future | 5x04 - the end | 6x20 - the man who would be king | john winchester's journal | 12x02 - mamma mia | john winchester's journal | 2x04 - children shouldn't play with dead things | john winchester's journal (x3) | 2x20 - what is and should never be | 6x20 - the man who would be king | supernatural season 5 disc 6 special feature commentary

[blushingsastiel]

the love and hate i have for supernatural is out of control. the love between two brothers who try to save each other and the world, but sometimes sacrificing the entire world for each other. their selfishness. the way sam and dean hide from each other and when it gets too transparent, when they can truly see each other, it's ugly but it's them. brother and brother against the world. sam's insistent need to see the good in almost everyone, trying to see the good in himself too is painful. dean's mistrust for everyone, including his own brother because nothing in his life has been fair.

wow idk where this came from.

[morganaconda]

[luckshiptoshore]

i saw this great Dean Reading gifset and now I have had Thoughts and I need to contribute to the Dean-as-reader discourse.

First of all, I want to be clear that obviously I think Dean reads. Some of those references you don’t get unless you’ve actually read the texts in question. The man reads! But I also think that a lot of the evidence fandom pulls out for him specifically reading is actually just evidence for him being good at picking up cultural knowledge.

He has this huge brilliant restless ADHD brain, and a thing that ADHD brains do is magpie references and use them to make other people think that they’ve been paying attention when they were actually thinking about song lyrics, or cars, or that rock over there. I can have an entire conversation with someone about a TV show or film or book I’ve never engaged with, and I also gather knowledge about cultural items from weird places. I know what limericks are not because I read a lot of them, but because I watched Bridget Jones’s Diary when I was 12 and a character recited limericks in one of its scenes.

And I suspect that this is what Dean does too. I do think he’s read Vonnegut, because that reference is a pretty deep cut, but some of the other stuff? He magpied that shit. There’s a season (I think it’s 9?) where Sam and Dean keep making Game of Thrones references, and I absolutely believe that Sam has read all of A Song of Ice and Fire three times, and Dean has watched the trailer for the TV show once by mistake, and they both have the same level of understanding of the world as a result.

Again, Dean can and does read, and he enjoys it when it’s something that interests him, but what he really loves is stories, not a particular method of storytelling. Sam is absolutely a person who elevates literature above other kinds of story, but Dean isn’t, and I think that’s so cool of him. He just likes words and connections and people and he doesn’t really care how he gathers up new cultural information. So it’s less about books, for him, and more about what the books contain.

Weirdly, this gives him a kind of lovely parallel with Cas: they have both had enormous story information downloads into their minds, except Cas’s happened all at once, and Dean’s happened over his entire lifetime.

Anyway. My boy Dean is a big-brained nerdy magpie who reads and watches and connects and never ever stops thinking and I love him.

[tothewheel]

unfortunately will never pass as a man on account of my beautiful captivating eyes 😔

[tothewheel]

[tothewheel]

unfortunately will never pass as a man on account of my beautiful captivating eyes 😔

[exitwound]

when god made me he just wanted to see how many things could be wrong with a girl at once

[leucotoe-archive-deactivated202]

words of affirmation i repeat on the daily

[inkskinned]

you spent hours in libraries and in art supply stores trying to absorb the artist tips from books your parents didn't want to buy you. on each page of every "how to draw" is a version of the same four things: this is how you shade a sphere. this is how you shade a cone.

this is what a man looks like. he is hard and angular and jutting. his chest narrows a triangle down to his sharp hip and long legs. his jawbone is a square. he is powerful, imposing, his hands are big and meaty. he is a leader.

this is what a woman looks like. she is soft and her hands tuck her long hair back behind a delicate ear. she is big-eyed and round (but not too round, she is skinny, here is the faint sketch of her abs showing), she is smaller and lighter and pretty. she has thick black lashes and her tits do not come with a massive ribcage to offset the weight we put on her - she has curves, but they are impossibly slim without giving her backache trouble. there is a large red hourglass outlined on top of her figure, the way there is a triangle outlined on top of the man. her face is a heart-shape, and her lips are pouting.

here is how you draw the woman and the man together. the man should be in action shots. the woman's ass should be in action shots. she should fit against the man to compliment his negative space - she should slot into his shadow so when they hug, they become one uniform space. here is how all the other artists have done it, see how good it looks when the man (angles, fire, passion, action) and the woman (roundness, water, emotion, supplication) complement each other? he begins the sentence, she is his ending.

do you want to kiss another girl? that is round-to-round. that is fitting the wire into the wrong socket! how would the faces look together? a single silhouette you sketch and then hide, scribbling over it.

do you want to look like a girl? by sheer genetic happenstance, you absolutely don't look like that, and you never have. you don't look like a man, either, though, do you. you don't feel like you truly belong to either gender, but there is not a "neutral/fluid" drawing in the book. there is male (triangle) or female (hourglass).

but you have a square jaw and square hands and "masculine" proportions. but you have curves and roundness and full lips and "feminine" features. someone online says, definitively, that any form of gender noncompliance is "a mental illness." this comment has over one thousand likes from people who agree.

here is how you shade a square. none of the clothes at the store look good on you, you always somehow feel like you're wearing a weird kind of costume. here is how you shade a sphere. your friend's mother calls the school because she's horrified you're in the same changing room. here is the neutral body figure: it is a wooden man. technically the wooden man is genderless, but that is because masculinity is the default, and everyone calls the figure "a wooden man." you must be small and posable and skinny and featureless, then you can be masculine enough to not have gender.

here is how to draw a person. begin with some shapes. choose the right shapes to get that person's gender correct. do not kiss her. shade in short, sharp lines.

when she laughs, look away.