Phantoms & dirges

Phantom, she/her, 19, autistic and way too obsessed with robots, monsters and more! B-day 7/5 not Eric!

[leigthh]

spromgtrap doodle

[springlillies42]

That moment when your special interest is so potent in you that eventually, you end up making entire side blog dedicated to the character you relate to most in it.

[springlillies42]

For Christmas my dad got me a 4 DVD DBZ set with fusion reborn, wrath of the dragon and the lesser Broly movies. (Aka second coming and bio-Broly.) I have watched fusion reborn and still have yet to watch wrath of the dragon, kinda hesitant as I'm not sure what to expect... I've already watched some of DBGT so my hopes aren't high. Don't worry I got DBS Broly to make up for it too.

[paparoachd-deactivated20240229]

do you have a favorite oc?

yes

no

Voting ended onDec 29, 2023

No 3rd option; it's yes or no and if you cannot decide, then you don't have to vote. Scroll on or definitely talk about your oc(s)!

[blossomberriess]

what was your starter anime?

hunter x hunter

fullmetal alchemist

pokemon

naruto

death note

my hero academia

one piece

jojo's bizarre adventure

sword art online

dragon ball

sailor moon

other (please put your answers in the tags)

Voting ended onDec 28, 2023

disclaimer: these are results from google. there were loads so i just picked at random from "most watched anime" lists

please reblog and put your answers in the tags <3

[szynkaaa]

in a parallel universe Sephiroth found out the truth, did not go insane, left shinra and chopped his hair to short again blunt endings because he did it with his sword

[springlillies42]

Ahhhh yes, yes, yes, yes! I love this, mostly because of the symbolism behind short hair. Basically it's more common with woman, but short hair often is used to show: mourning, change, growth, rebellion and so much more! That's actually why in a lot of shows and movies scenes of characters cutting their hair are shown with such importance, as more often then not it's used to symbolize that. So it's safe to say short hair is very much in line with such an au idea, as it perfectly reflects the change and realization he would face. In most asian countries like Japan people would grow out their hair for many reasons, however all of these reasons really don't reflect the full scope of Shinra. (But do reflect Sephiroth in many ways.) In other words I wouldn't be surprised if he did so in hopes to right his wrongs, and then grow it back.

[isabeltheprocrastinator-deactiv]

Found this on Pinterest, but count this screenshot as a reblog

[deadbloodzero]

As an Aro/Ace who stays out of the whole online lgbt+ spaces due to hating drama, I had no idea this was a thing.

Come be safe and unattracted and unromantical with me and my goofy little posts, pspspsps

We can hang out and bake cookies and infodump about our fixations.

[springlillies42]

I'm Graysexual, witch is part of the spectrum. So it's safe here, I tend to ramble about my obsessions really. Also Ironically I'm on so many spectrums it's kinda funny.

[knight-says-rollout]

“how would it work if Cybertronians had disabilities” “What if there were disabled Cybertronians”

THERE ARE

THERE ARE

loosing my mind at how some things that are So good can be So niche why can’t we just be a hivemind

Just one example, my favorite example, is:

Shattered Glass Soundwave!!!

He’s gone through Multiple reformats varying between with his consent and,,, not. The latest of which took place when they didn’t have many materials

So they used half earth metals half Cybertronian ones

As it turns out? Those two things don’t mix very well. His joints are Horrible. They lock up randomly, the worst of which being the door to his tape deck.

He physically isn’t able to dock his cassettes reliably because they might get stuck in there.

What does he do to fix this? So glad you asked!! He has his own assistive aids, in this case: a portable external carrying case

It was made and personalized to work specifically for him and his situation

I love him

[puraiuddo]

Soundwave in the normal IDW run is also most definitely autistic/autistic coded.

[knight-says-rollout]

Dude that’s not even the half of it, soundwave has Always been autistic coded, and it’s not just confined to IDW! That specific panel is more sensory processing issues than autism, tho the two Do often go hand in hand, but there’s So Much More for BOTH things

His enter character is practically an allegory

I could talk ab this for hours actually, there are so many elements that play into it this needs to be its own post. But yeah no we’ve got quite a few autistic TF characters! And other mental disorders and illnesses- there’s honestly So Much rep on that half of it

What I was talkin ab here was how people act like there aren’t any physical disabilities since “they’re robots and can just replace or repair anything that’s wrong”

[springlillies42]

Okay as someone who's autistic myself. I can actually add a lot more. the DJD: kaon is blind and uses echolocation to get around, and all the members are definitely Neuro Divergent in some way. My favorite example is tarn actually. He's shown to hyper fixate, have special interests, has been shown sensory seeking, the face picking is not helping, his anxieties, etc. Some other lesser notes. Tfp and bayverse bumblebee are unable to speak how most do, tfa wasp and Idw fortmax definitely have PTSD, starscream has had many different problems in different gens, rung has some sort of vision problem, ratchet's aging joints in most gens, there's not really a real world equivalent but krok counts too. (Examples of other disabilities with no irl equivalent are: eda from toh and Alphonse from fma)

[purpleboytournament]

Purple Boy vs Purple Boy: Cooler (Dragon Ball Z) vs Skull (Katekyo Hitman Reborn!)!

Cooler

Skull

Voting ended onJun 8, 2023

[springlillies42]

Come on man! I believe in you, at least last a long as you can. I will cheer my comfort character and autistic obsession. I don't care he died twice, he makes me happy. This man respects his own employees and learns from his mistakes unlike the rest of his family. He is water logged cat, baby girl and so many blorbo common place tropes rolled into one beautiful roll. I would cheer this man into the heat death of the universe if I needed to. He is my boy and I love him for it. Common he's so much Cooler! Bonus, Like all other dragon ball characters he has a different form :)

[moonaboard]

i keep seeing jokes about Imagine Dragons showing their support by performing for WGA strikers, like about how bad their music/singing is and jokes about how it’ll hurt the movement and normally i’m neutral to the hatred of popular/used to be popular things, but GOD. as a queer ex-mormon i so badly wish more people knew what this group and what specifically Dan Reynolds has done to support queer kids

(article from screenshots)

also while im here Enemy (the arcane song) is also about queer mormon kids <3

[ashelyskies-deactivated20241121]

I absolutely hate how people took a kind, progressive, good band and decided to give it the nickelback treatment.

(Frankly I don’t even necessarily think they’re bad, sound wise, either. But I guess music is subjective so if you disagree that’s your right, just don’t treat it as some kind of unilateral truth)

My cousin (who is a christian fundamentalist and a massive homophobe) once mocked me for liking the band as an atheist because they’re religious, and I just went silent because I didn’t feel like getting into an argument, but

Like

Dan Reynolds has been an outspoken ally for a while.

“Believer” is about queer religious trauma. “Love” is about queer acceptance. He called out Eminem over homophobia. He was part of the Loveloud Festival, that raised over a million dollars for queer charities like the Trevor Project.

Gee, it’s sure a funny coincidence he and ID got branded as cringe. I wonder what motive someone could possibly have to do so.

[birdsagainsthumanity]

I got the honour of seeing Imagine Dragons live, and, a. they’re fucking GOOD what the FUCK especially live, like their music style has changed over time and it’s fine to not like that but the live performance was just so passionate and wonderful, and b, I can’t coiuldn’t take any pictures of it but one of the guitarists has a trans flag guitar with a trans flag strap and it’s so fucking beautiful and I nearly cried when I saw that clear and open support in such a subtle way. I’m glad someone else put into words how fucking annoying that attitude has been towards them with the strike.

[springlillies42]

I feel like sharing my own experiences as well. I used to struggle a lot with my emotions, and even struggle with my own sexuality affecting some of my relationships. I myself am bi however my attraction to males is very weak. As a kid and even now their songs gave me a glimpse of hope, a feeling of happiness. I felt fully accepted for once and when so many don't give you that, it means a whole lot

[junos-ramblings]

whether youve played tears of the kingdom/breath of the wild or not, PLEASE help me out here. in fact the judgement of non players will probably make a big difference.

these guys are called "blue lizalfos" in game. but thats not blue. right. right??? they're purple, right???? a blue-heavy purple, sure, but distinctly purple??????

please. what are they.

yep thats purple

thats definitely blue

secret third option (please elaborate????)

Voting ended onMay 24, 2023

reblog for bigger sample size etc etc

[liquid-geodes]

Girl that's indigo, that shit ain't blue or purple

[transingthoseformers]

Inspired by another post of mine, but since I'm bored:

Is TFA Starscream pink, or purple?

Pink

Purple

(some third option)

Voting ended onMay 15, 2023

[best-first]

I think Optimus should slam into things in truck mode more often, it is always immensely hilarious and 100% effective

[beeartsy]

I have some great news about transformers cyberverse

He does it quite a few times, if I remember properly

[scatterpatter]

[mechhours]

Kinda convinced it’s his favorite and/or go-to move in a fight…

[springlillies42]

It's always swindle huh?

[transingthoseformers]

I'm actually gonna expand upon this because Fortress Maximus is one of the mtmte characters who I love and don't think gets enough attention. I absolutely adore his design (this might be in part because my bias for the bigger characters), this whole scene involving him, Rung, and Whirl is intriguing, and it's cool how we can track his actions right back to his psychology

[loveofbots]

Thank you for actually having two brain cells to form a coherent thought, I will add to this with my non coherent thoughts:

Beeg moose man

Teef

Large and hands for holding

Whimper baby

[qualitytransformerstrash]

I hope it’s okay if I hop on this too because not only is he designed SO WELL, his CHARACTER ARC is so good! He’s rightfully furious at the start of MTMTE but takes it out on the wrong people, definitely not his finest hour but he LEARNS! He grows so much! can’t get over how gentle he becomes! I mean he can still be a bit of a brute but he certainly learns to reel it in and only use his strength when necessary!!! Like a man with self control, and humility? Who loves animals???? IDW Fortress Maximus is S tier and it’s CRIMINAL that he isn’t as popular as he deserves. It might be because despite his time in the comics being kind of action packed, it was brief. He was there, then he wasn’t there for awhile, then he came back for a few issues! I think if he’d had a more steady presence he’d be more popular

[springlillies42]

I have some in put too!

His helm reminds me of certain beetles and I love it so much!

Every time I see him with any animal I mentally die from how wholesome this big man is.

I only like him in a platonic manner but, take me into your arms I want hugs and cuddles damnit. 10/10 gentle giant.

despite everything he goes through, he doesn't let it stop him, hold him back or ruin his life, he keeps moving forward.

His design is nothing of what you would expect and he's never let anything stop him.

He's rounded out on fluff and angst. Just ahhuuuuuhhhhhg too many feels.

[tolovaj-escaped-deactivated2025]

Sick sick sick of possibility of being fucking recorded every waking second by tiktok obsessed quasi celebs. Video titled something like "Caught him thinking he's the main character" but it was just a kid wearing headphones, looking out the bus window. Of course it was posted without his knowledge. Stop recording strangers and everything you see, nobody gives a shit and not everyone is happy to be on tiktok or youtube because of a moron with no braincells and an account. What could be a forgettable awkward moment is now permanently there for the victim of lackabrainis infested idiot to get anxious about forever.

[ro-zden]

Okay, this seems like a relevant thing to share today: I've been in this position. Back in college while on that student lifestyle, I somehow ended up with a pretty bad iron deficiency. How bad? I was not only sleeping too much, I was falling asleep everywhere -- in class, in the library, in cafes five minutes after drinking coffee. It was terrible. Anyway, during a class I enjoyed, I was sat at a table with a few classmates, and I started falling asleep while taking notes; nodding off, dropping my pen, startling awake and falling asleep again, until my head was on the table. No one seemed to mind, we were all going through it I guess, and my lecturer was nice enough not to make a big deal out of it.

Cut to the next day and I was in the Students Union, when a friend came up to me and told me how funny that video was of me falling asleep in class was. What? I asked her about it, what did she mean, who made the video, and she realised I literally had no clue about it. Kindly, she told me who to talk to and I thanked her. I was already upset, but I knew it wasn't the messenger's fault. So, I took to Facebook and messaged the girl who made the video -- a girl on my table in the class from before. I asked her about it, and she admitted it right away -- she took the video on her phone during class and posted it to her snapchat. That's how the other girl saw it, not to mention countless others.

Sorting this out was an absolute toil. I felt betrayed and violated that someone would do that while I was obviously not in a position to have any say about it. I lost friendships with the people who took the girl's side, as if it was no big deal or "funny". I had to tell the lecturer about it, because let's face it, that's a shit thing to allow to happen during class itself, the department moved to be more alert and proactive about restricting phone use in class, and all that girl had to do was give a half-hearted apology. The next semester, she was still openly using her phone in another class we had.

For a long time, I couldn't trust anyone who held their phone up around me, as if to take photos or video. It would make me so anxious and put me on edge. I never did speak to the people who cosigned her behaviour, who acted like it wasn't their problem that their bff video-recorded a person in class over their health condition without their consent.

I did eventually grow out of my anxiety around phones, and I resisted the urge to break that girl's phone, but, I will absolutely bring back that energy if I see someone record a stranger in public without their consent. Take it from someone who's been that target -- if you think it's okay, you deserve to get your shit wrecked.

[ro-zden]

I just want to add, in case anyone reads this and isn't sure -- yes, it is absolutely fine to reblog this, and in fact I encourage you to. If testimony from a former target of this behaviour is the one thing that makes it click for anyone thinking of doing it, if it makes them reconsider before potentially ruining a stranger's life, then my experience will be worth it for me.

Don't record strangers and put that shit on the Internet or social media without their consent.

[angiethewitch]

a "friend" of mine posted a video of me online once when I was in a psychotic episode. I was actively struggling and she thought it was funny to film me while I was hallucinating and talking to thin air while in an active delusion. I still struggle when people hold their phones up. a few months ago I was out with my friend and I looked really good and I felt really confident and I was just sat having coffee outside when a man walked past obviously fucking filming me. I was immediately reminded of that tiktok thing "pov you're a girl in a skirt/you're a girl in public" where girls would show men filming them and staring at them. i went from feeling cool and confident to feeling like public property. and I remembered being filmed while in an episode and got paranoid my friend wasn't real and this man was filming me because I was the haha funny crazy person talking to an empty chair because that had fucking happened to me before.

you film that homeless man laughing to himself and talking to an empty space? yeah he's probably psychotic. you film someone having a meltdown and screaming at nothing? probably also psychotic. you are taking advantage of someone's most vulnerable state and you think its funny and you want to get Internet clout for filming them. youre a piece of shit if you do that. I went from feeling safe around my old friend, feeling unjudged, feeling supported, to feeling used and unsafe and judged.

this shit overwhelmingly affects disabled, sick and mentally ill people. cut it the fuck out. the next time you think it would be funny to film the weird old lady talking to the trees, take a second and consider: would you like to have your most vulnerable moments immortalised on camera?

[springlillies42]

I'd rather not talk about my own experiences. but it is important for people to not film without consent, hell even consent prior would be best. And even then, no means no. Even I have my own experiences, I've only ever filmed someone to help them. (Filming my mom's state to ask for help, I don't always know what to do.) And I never, ever post it online.

[ober-affen-geil]

In what way were you introduced to what a "lapis lazuli" is?

Steven Universe (you know how to pronounce it)

Deltora Quest (you probably don't know how to pronounce it)

Some other way (tell in the notes!)

I don't know what that is (show answer)

Voting ended onMay 15, 2023

[litttleprincess-deactivated2017]

Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this. TUMBLR RULE. When you see it, REBLOG IT.

[glammedgrey]

The original post only has US helplines. I’ve added UK helplines underneath. It would be great if people could add numbers from everywhere in the world.

Depression Hotline: [phone]

Suicide Hotline: [phone]

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: [phone]

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK Helplines:

Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail [email protected]

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: [email protected]

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 [email protected]

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: [email protected]

b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: [email protected]

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail [email protected]

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

India Self Harm Hotline: [phone]

India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669

Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7

suicide hotlines;

Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430

Australia: 13-11-14

Austria: 01-713-3374

Barbados: 429-9999

Belgium: 106

Botswana: 391-1270

Brazil: 21-233-9191

China: 852-2382-0000

(Hong Kong: 2389-2222)

Costa Rica: 606-253-5439

Croatia: 01-4833-888

Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67

Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908

Denmark: 70-201-201

Egypt: 762-1602

Estonia: 6-558-088

Finland: 040-5032199

France: 01-45-39-4000

Germany: 0800-181-0721

Greece: 1018

Guatemala: 502-234-1239

Holland: 0900-0767

Honduras: 504-237-3623

Hungary: 06-80-820-111

Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90

Israel: 09-8892333

Italy: 06-705-4444

Japan: 3-5286-9090

Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292

Malaysia: 03-756-8144

(Singapore: 1-800-221-4444)

Mexico: 525-510-2550

Netherlands: 0900-0767

New Zealand: 4-473-9739

New Guinea: 675-326-0011

Nicaragua: 505-268-6171

Norway: 47-815-33-300

Philippines: 02-896-9191

Poland: 52-70-000

Portugal: 239-72-10-10

Russia: 8-20-222-82-10

Spain: 91-459-00-50

South Africa: 0861-322-322

South Korea: 2-715-8600

Sweden: 031-711-2400

Switzerland: 143

Taiwan: 0800-788-995

Thailand: 02-249-9977

Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800

Ukraine: 0487-327715

[justmemyselfandthefridge]

Here’s some Canadian ones too!

Canada Suicide Prevention Service: Call: 1-833-456-4566 (24/7) or text: 45645 (4 pm to 12 am EST) 

Kids Help Phone: Call: 1-800-668-6868 or text CONNECT to 686868.

First Nations and Inuit Hope For Wellness Help Line: 1-855-242-3310

Transgender Crisis Line: 1-877-330-6366 (I’m not entirely sure about this one tho)

And then don’t forget about 911 as well!