squonk

gay? in this economy?

[hollanovsgingermelt]

this whole scene was intense enough with shane coming out but when you think a little harder about it, it gets even worse because ilya was so HUMILIATED to even have to say that he could never even go back home if he came out. he felt so embarrassed and that now that shane was sure of himself, the reality of russia & his family made ilya spiral. he was so scared and embarrassed:( my baby.

[buckysoldatbarnes]

we all know ilya loves trash tv, fashion, gossip, and pop culture. somewhere along the line, he ends up bored one night, and stumbles across a documentary about Princess Diana. big mistake

needless to say, ilya watches this story of a kind, beautiful, loving young blond woman whose rich and powerful husband abuses and resents her. she struggles with mental illness, and dies young, leaving behind two teenage sons. the youngest son becomes an exile from his home country, in large part because of who they chose to love. shane finds ilya crying so hard he throws up

[wraithillustrates]

dont focus on the anatomy too much i didnt wanna pull up a reference

[shilyas]

cutie!ilya (1/?)

[sillyceal]

Gif creds: @/roselandrys

I borrowed this gif from the person above and I noticed something about shane

if you look just before he lays his head down, his face crumbles like he's about to cry but is trying not to

I do the same thing shoutout to Hudson

(also ilyas little "oh shit" with his eyes theyre such good actors)

[itoldyatshirt]

(Feel Real-Deptford Goth)

[u2011234567]

Haasleau hcs but Cliff's pov

Cliff’s version of flirting with Luca specifically is just staring too long and saying things in that low calm voice that immediately makes Luca defensive.

The first time Luca falls asleep on him during a flight, Cliff genuinely doesn’t move for almost two hours because he doesn’t want to wake him up.

Cliff acts very “whatever” about Luca stealing his clothes until he sees Luca wearing one of his hoodies after a bad loss and suddenly that hoodie becomes Cliff’s favorite thing on earth.

He’s obsessed with making Luca laugh. Like specifically the real laugh — the one where Luca throws his head back a little and forgets to be cool for five seconds.

Cliff figures out early that Luca pushes when he’s scared. Picks fights. Gets sarcastic. Says things he doesn’t mean just to see if Cliff stays anyway. Cliff staying becomes very important very quickly.

He calls Luca “pretty boy” specifically when Luca’s spiraling because it annoys him enough to snap him out of his own head.

Cliff doesn’t really get jealous until he realizes Luca genuinely doesn’t notice when people flirt with him. Then it becomes: Oh so I have to deal with this AND you’re oblivious.

Cliff’s favorite version of Luca is the sleepy one. Quiet, messy-haired, half coherent, wearing Cliff’s clothes and leaning into him without thinking. Luca would be horrified to know this.

[pnglove]

[sunnypeachyy]

Favorite Hollanov Reactions

[slightlydepressedmelon]

Not Your Fault

M - 3.2k words - Cliff x Luca

When Cliff accidentally triggers a memory of Luca’s shitty ex boyfriend they have to navigate the aftermath together.

[splattergutz]

dennis feeling too guilty to eat when he makes a mistake at work because when he was a kid his parents decided whether or not he deserved food based on his work on the farm so when he gets home from his shift he’s refusing to eat but jack & robby keep reassuring him that he’s their good boy & they’re so proud of him & when he cant be consoled robby brings dennis into his lap & gently spoon feeds him his dinner while jack kisses his forehead & repeatedly reassures dennis that he’s doing so good

[trickster707]

I hear you with your Omega Dennis, who’s abusing heat suppressants due to his abusive family and then suddenly going into heat at the hospital with only Alpha Robby (and Jack) to save him.

But I raise you to:

Dennis, who had his first heat at 14. Who almost begs his teacher to not call his parents. To please not tell anybody, but who also didn’t know how to explain to them that he wasn’t allowed to be an omega. That his family will never accept a male omega and how scared he is of their reaction. Dennis, who gets picked up early by his omega mother, who just needed to sniff him once to start crying. There was no scenting, no comfort offered. Just her quiet sobs filling the car as they drove home, where he was made to sit on the hard kitchen stool and wait for his father to return. Once he did there was yelling, screaming and fists until he finally fell unconscious.

When he woke up his heat symptoms were gone. And so was his scent.

Omega Dennis who was left so traumatised by that one incident that his heat just never appears again. As he enters his 4th year of medical school, he’s already convinced that they’ve all been wrong that one time and he’s just a beta. He used to get a panic attack whenever he smelled the pre-heat on an omega classmate (which he shouldn’t be able to as a beta but maybe his nose is just really sensitive), but he worked on that until all that was left was the ringing in his ears and the tightness in his throat. After all, as a doctor he couldn’t run from a third of his patients during their most vulnerable state. Still, the fear stayed with him.

When his scent returned, he first thought one of his patients accidentally scented him. Santos gave him one whiff on their ride home and wouldn’t stop teasing him about his secret admirer but when it wasn’t gone in the morning despite him showering twice….

They stopped on their way to work to get him some scent patches and Dennis had to promise her to consult Dr. McKay.

In the end he couldn’t bring himself to do it. Fear clawing at his insides whenever he just thought about presenting as an omega…so he just didn’t. Thankfully his job gave him many opportunities to not think about personal stuff.

He made it three weeks until he recognised the first signs of his pre-heat.

He almost didn’t make it to work that day.

The ringing in his ears wouldn’t stop. The heat in his body was a constant reminder of what he was and what was about to happen. Every second spend in silence was filled by the reminder of that one night. The screams, the pain, the sound of his mother crying in the car and the disgusted looks his brothers gave him from that day on.  

In the end he made it through his shift. He wasn’t sure how he did it but going by the worried glances Dr. Robby had given him all day long he guesses he didn’t do a good job at hiding his emotions.

The older Alpha confronts him that day in the lockers, asking him how he’s doing and if he can help him with anything. His hand lying heavy on Dennis’s shoulder, so close to the scent gland that has been itching ever since that morning and that grew more and more irritated by the hour. The scent patch, that he had to renew almost every hour by now, only made it worse.

And something about Robby’s worried look, the kind eyes, steady hand and warm smell of smoke and hot summer rain made Dennis crack. Tears started streaming down his face and ugly sobs wrecked his body making him a shaky mess in his attendings arms. All the stress and anxiety of the past weeks heightened by his hormones didn’t even leave him the chance to explain what was going on before he had his head buried in Robby’s chest, who immediately engulfed him in his arms.

Just in that moment the door opens and Dr. Abbot walks in. For a second, he’s just standing there, looking at his best friend holding the small crying beta, who they both been crushing on since day one. He has half a mind to leave until he sees Robby’s panicked and helpless look, asking him to stay. Slowly closing and locking the door he walks closer, until Dennis notices him.

Blushing furiously, Dennis tries to hide his face, before he realises, he’s only burying his face deeper into the Alphas chest. He tries to move away but one of Robby’s hands immediately pulls him back in by the back of his head. A new and third hand appears on his back, where Robby’s just had been, rubbing small circles into his tense muscles. Dennis is sure Dr. Abbot was asking questions but he couldn’t get his mind to focus on that voice, far to overwhelmed by being held so carefully, like he’s never been held before.

The hand from the back of his neck gently moves to lift his chin up, until he makes eye contact with the two Alphas. They talk softly to him asking him what’s going on, if there’s something he needs that they can provide and for the first time the Omega in Dennis calms down, inherently pleased by the thought of two Alphas taking good care of him.

And maybe it’s the hug, the warmth, the genuine care in both of their eyes but for the first time in over 13 years, no, for the first time ever, Dennis talks about what happened the day of his presentation. The panic attacks afterwards, his fears and how he tried to avoid the fact that it’s happening again.

He cries some more. At some point the three of them moved so that he was sitting on Jacks lap with his face turned towards Robby, who was gently cradling his face, wiping away the tears as they came. The other Alpha was holding him close, softly scenting his neck for comfort  

When all was said and done, they still didn’t leave. Jack, now late for his shift, made no move to push Dennis away. Instead, they both put him back on his feet and accompanied him to get a check-up by an omega specialist in the hospital. Afterwards Jack said his goodbyes but promised to join them after his shift.

In hindsight Dennis couldn’t explain how everything happened, only that he was more than happy about the outcome. His first actual heat was mild, mostly due to the suppressants he got during his check-up. He spent it warm and safe in the first nest he ever built, made out of clothes that smelled like Jack and Robby. There was no yelling, no crying and no pain. Just his two older Alphas who held him and made sure he had everything he needed.

[splattergutz]

dennis feeling too guilty to eat when he makes a mistake at work because when he was a kid his parents decided whether or not he deserved food based on his work on the farm so when he gets home from his shift he’s refusing to eat but jack & robby keep reassuring him that he’s their good boy & they’re so proud of him & when he cant be consoled robby brings dennis into his lap & gently spoon feeds him his dinner while jack kisses his forehead & repeatedly reassures dennis that he’s doing so good

[shrekhollander]

Rookie Ilya asking Rookie Shane how much does he weight (how many pounds or kilograms) at the hotel gym and Shane tells him the number but he is like ???

AND THEN ILYA STARTS DOING WEIGHTED HIP THRUSTS WITH THE EXACT SAME WEIGHT THAT SHANE TOLD HIM AND HE IS ALL SWEATY AND JUST LOOKS AT SHANE AND GOES ;)

[holyfuckingweed]

Hollanov valentine's day shenanigans

+ Bonus:

Heated Rivalry social media au 12/?

Part 11

Tag list: @genderfluidqueerio @pixelatedhomunculus2 @mothman-stole-my-eyebrows @my-hockey-shaylas @malgudinights @zoe-inthesky @bisexualchaosdemon @prometheusthedragon @just-a-queer-person @moonchild701 @1lliad @disrespectedgoatman @ignoretenderness @laininthemembrane @xdbug-bob

(It says "I will get you pregnant" in Ilya's tweet i literally just noticed that the "you" is messed up🤦)

[marmelade-sky]

Luca Haas pre-game playlist definitely has some Ikkimel on there

[3416]

this entire sequence of ilya coming to shane's apartment.. their first time... ilya leaving shanes apartment....... absolute CINEMA