「Bᴀsᴛᴀʀᴅ Sᴀɪɴᴛ」

《 26yo • Gᴇɴᴅᴇʀϙᴜᴇᴇʀ • AMAB • Mɪɴᴏʀs DNI 》 "I'ᴍ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴀ ʜᴏʙʙʏɪsᴛ. Tʜᴇ ʀᴇɴᴀɪssᴀɴᴄᴇ ɪs ғᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʀᴜᴇ ᴀʀᴛɪsᴛs, sᴏ sᴇᴇᴋ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ɪɴsᴛᴇᴀᴅ."

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Sʜᴏʀᴛ Sᴛᴏʀʏ WIP(s)

Gʀɪᴍᴅᴀʀᴋ Gʀᴇᴇᴛɪɴɢ*

Tᴏᴅᴀʏ's Eᴛᴇʀɴɪᴛʏ*

A Bɪɴᴅɪɴɢ Pᴀᴄᴛ

Tᴏ Us, ᴛʜᴇ Oᴄᴄᴜʟᴛ

Tʜᴇ Wɪᴄᴄᴀɴ I Aᴘᴘᴇᴀʀ ᴛᴏ Bᴇ*

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

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Finally watched Dandadan a couple weeks back and I just had to get me a pair of Evil Eye's earrings. The Etsy shop even let me customize the colors, so they're now my Non-Binearrings

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I've been struggling to get my foot in the door with YouTube. To be clear, I haven't faced issues like demonetization, censorship, or copyright. I think what I've been struggling with is figuring out who I am on camera. I made some changes to my channel so my name is less like a character/act I commit to, but I still don't know how to act once I get rolling. I don't want to put too much thought into it so I can just be my authentic self, but I easily start to doubt my own authenticity. It's like knowing what kind of archetype I represent in the stories of others, but not knowing myself beyond an archetype. I really want to make content, but I guess I don't know myself well enough to get comfortable with it. Still, I need to do it.

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Ambition without direction will be the death of me

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I hate to say it, but I need to go back through my company's audio training lessons since I'm stressing over getting the crisp mic quality I'm looking for. I was supposed to have this new YouTube promo recorded weeks ago 🫠🫠🫠

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All roads lead to learning anatomy, I guess. Doesn't really seem like an improvement

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Started rewatching Negima with my partner and it made me wanna work on my pixel art again

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Saw someone in a Monster Hunter Wilds lobby with the custom stickers "Jesus loves you" and "Repent and believe the gospel." I texted in the lobby chat "Jesus isn't my type, but I'd nail him too." Didn't get a response back.

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I feel like I enjoy wearing chokers because some tops just need to be on a leash

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Been a while since I've worked on my YouTube channel, but I'm hyped to build some consistency this year, especially since a coworker recommended some nice audio gear to use. The perks of working in av ✌🏾

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Decided to make some layered armor fits based on card suits just for funniest.

Spades (Also inspired by Doja Cat's outfit in the "Rules" MV):

Hearts:

Diamonds (Which needs an overhaul once I get more Dahaad ƴ pieces):

Clubs:

[paizuribya]

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Thinking of changing my 'sona from a goat to a hare with goat horns as a kind of chimera. Not exactly better at lagomorphic features, but it's a start.

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ao3 turns 16 today.

reblog if you’re older than archive of our own

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Working on video edits in my spare time to ease my mind. Neither's doing well.

Song: "Take Me There" by Potsu

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Didn't go out on Halloween night, but I went out November 1st for one of the work bestie's Halloween party. (Ps. I'm usually more comfy being behind the camera, so posing is really awkward)

(Pss. The work bestie told me later on that his bf usually refers to me as his muscular coworker when talking about me to their friends, and that made me really giddy. 👉🏾👈🏾)

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Think this could work as a PNGtuber model? Still working on humanoid anatomy, so I feel like I can make this work for a while.