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Autumn
Right Now
I really miss my dog. I just miss her. My heart is so broken without her. šš¢
The Saga Continues
So even though I replied to his email, not right away, I still havenāt heard from him. In my head I didnāt think I would. Still, I thought Iād at least get a sentence or two...? š¤·š»āāļø Nothing. So, ok, message received. š
I was hurt-not because of anything heād done, obviously, but because YET AGAIN, I let my heart lead me down the dark endless abyss of unrequited love. Why? Why do I always do this? Why do I always ALWAYS want what I canāt have & why WHYYYYY canāt I just ONCE have what I really want? But no, I let my heart trip the light fantastic to its own doom. I remember thinking to myself after a couple appointments with him, like, ādonāt even go there girl. Youāre only going to get yourself hurt. Donāt go down that path. It only ends in complete destruction.ā Did I listen? No. I always go down the path because I foolishly think that THIS TIME it will be different.
It never is.
Then...
THEN! On the 10th of January he accepted my friend request on Facebook! WTF?!
Ummm ok...? So if you wanted nothing to do with me, why bother accepting my friend request? And I STILL havenāt got a reply to my email, sooooooo what is the deal? I donāt understand.
Does anyone, ANYONE, have ANY ideas what I should do, if anything?
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āCodependency isnāt sexy. It isnāt romantic. Itās built with a fuse and will surely burn out. The healthiest thing you can say to the one you love is, āI would be okay without you, and thatās why I choose to stay.āā
ā LB, A Few Things About LoveĀ
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Foleys Bridge byĀ Jarlath Gray
If youāve ever been left.
If youāve ever been left, I want you to remember:
~ Being funny isnāt a relationship skill. ~ Being charming isnāt a relationship skill. ~ Being good looking isnāt a relationship skill. ~ Being successful isnāt a relationship skill.
Those things are attractive, but theyāre surface-level. When the shit hits the fan (which it most definitely will) and youāre ill you lose a parent need support through a miscarriage or a lost job or depression No amount of charm or beauty or talent will cut it.
You donāt want an embellishment. You want a teammate. Ā Someone who will care for you, respect you and wade through the mud with you whilst holding your hand.
Lin-Manuel Mirandaās successful attempt to be in Into the Woods
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āPromise me one day heād see these. These storm of words Iāve built up inside of me and poured out for thousands to see. Promise me. That one day, heād see how much I loved him.ā
ā P.G.G
A Little Kindness Goes a Long Way
Guys! I know itās been awhile, (I donāt think anyone even really reads this tbh, but hey guys listen!) I heard from him again!
So, like a week before Thanksgiving I sent him a hand written thank you note to thank him for all he did for me to help me walk again.
I didnāt expect to ever hear from him again. Thatās not really why I sent the note. I mean I did have a little fantasy that he would write me back or call me or something (like use the return address to come and bring me flowers and ask me to be his girlfriend in person... š) but I knew deep down that that would never happen in a million years. I just honestly wanted to tell him all that I couldnāt say out loud about how grateful I was for everything he did to help me walk again.
Then a couple days ago, about a month later & completely out of the blue, I get an email from him! He said he was sorry he was late in responding but that he did get my note and he wanted to thank me for the kind words & that it āmeans a lot.ā He also responded to some specifics I mentioned, but then he wrote a sentence that has consumed me. I canāt tell if thereās more behind it & I desperately wish I knew. He wrote, āThe evenings aren't the same without your family and work stories.ā
I feel like the scene in Hamilton when he & Angelica are writing back and forth during Take a Break and she says, āIn a letter I received from you two weeks ago I noticed a comma in the middle of a phrase. It changed the meaning, did you intend this? One stroke and you've consumed my waking days, it says: āMy dearest Angelicaā
With a comma after dearest, you've written, āMy dearest, Angelicaāā
I feel like both Schuyler sisters, really. Both helpless and never satisfied.
Is he just being polite? Did he truly enjoy chatting with me but just in a friendly way? Or... dare I hope, that thereās a chance, however minuscule, that he misses me the way I miss him and this is all heās brave enough to say? I donāt know. All that time we spent together and I could never get a clear read on his confidence level when it came to relationships. He didnāt mention a girlfriend ever, but he has a large number of friends who are girls, and in the context that we interacted in his job he was supremely confident. Yet, something about him seems like if heās just winging it, if he doesnāt have a rulebook for how things should go... heās not so self-assured. Maybe thatās just me a little more hoping. Iām sure it is.
He ended with, āHope you have a great winter and happy holidays.ā Iām not sure how to take that either. Does he mean that as just have a good holiday season, hope to hear from you after? Or is it like happy holidays...have a good life & donāt talk to me again? And who says have a great winter? Heehee, heās so cute. š
I donāt know how to respond. I know I want to and Iām going to. Ugh! But what to say? Iām a writer! Surely I can use my gift of words to draw him in more? At least we could be friends?
*sigh* I know, Iām kidding myself. Heās still messaging me from his work email. Iām sure if he were remotely interested in anything more heād use a personal email or look up/ask for my phone number to text me or something. I know Iām completely over thinking and over analyzing this whole thing. Yes, I know Iām crazy.
What I really am, is hopeless.
āYou know I want you. Itās not a secret I tried to hide, but I canāt have you...ā
If anyone anywhere has any suggestions, Iām open. Go on anonymous if you want but please let me know any ideas. Iām flying blind here.
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āA wind has blown the rain away and blown the sky away and all the leaves away, and the trees stand. I think, I too, have known autumn too long.ā e.e cummings