diagnosed (?) osdd-1b

Hugo, Anne, Misha, Cas, Silas, Tony, Jensen

[starrynightteam]

We are a small OSDD 1B system with seven (?) alters.

Hugo @ourresearchjournal

Misha @let-me-whine-on-internet

Anne @anonymous-anne-world

Cas

Silas @silasgrimoire

Tony

Jensen

DNI if you're a minor. We are all adult alters in an adult body.

[starrynightteam]

I've been the host for so long I thought I merge with the new host but I'm here now????

-Anne

[starrynightteam]

I'm so burnout being "alone" and fusing so much that I feel like being separated is better but we don't know how to do that without the dissociation here anymore.

[maxxie-or-smth]

we need a surgery that removes you from your body

[thatgarden]

@funnier-as-a-system

[starrynightteam]

The perks of being depressed, diagnosed with BPD and Bipolar, undiagnosed OSDD, and having sensory issues is that when I'm calm I am the epitome of calmness.

Just got an accident. Yelling, cursing, then drive my motorcycle for another 15 km with a dislocated knee anyway.

Still pissed off I'm not dying. But oh well.

Like yeah sure, my brain thinks that bright light might as well be the fire from hell itself, but actual threatening shit happened and it be like "sure, predictable, what should we do now?"

And people had the audacity to say we're crybaby when things overwhelmed us. Bitch, you can't survive what I survive, vice versa. Carry on with your own shit, I carry my own shit.

[bizarrebazaar13]

what if your doppelgänger wasn’t evil it was just a person. what if your doppelgänger wasn’t trying to replace you it was just trying to learn to be a person and you were the best model it had. what if your doppelgänger looked at you with your eyes and said with your voice that it just wanted to be loved. what then.

[hirointheshamen]

@funnier-as-a-system

[chernozemm]

do you ever have such a monumentally bad brain day that you just take away its mic?

like...... buddy, you are producing insanely bad thoughts today and believing them, I'll take it from here, get off the stage

[negamewtwo]

@funnier-as-a-system

[captaintal]

Someone said this scene was Greed and Ling and I wholeheartedly agree.

[canisnebular]

@funnier-as-a-system

[funnier-as-a-system]

[ID: a three panel scene redraw featuring Greedling from Fullmetal Alchemist. Greedling is sitting in a waiting room and writing on a notepad; Greed and Ling are playing tic-tac-toe against each other. In the final panel, you can see tally marks representing how many games each of them has won; the score is: Me: 1, Evil Me: 19. / end ID]

[starrynightteam]

I don't know where to put it, my fandom blog or my osdd blog

[fibro-memes]

[funnier-as-a-system]

[ID: text that reads: if you hear me telling the same story twice just let it go. i only have like six memories and they all take turns / end ID]

[starrynightteam]

My brain if it allowed to have freedom of expression:

[starrynightteam]

There are two new alters in the fam. We don't know if Jensen still around, so the number is either 8 or 9 now.

Stop medication for two months already, so far feels like being back to ground zero but our psychologist told us no progress is backwards. We haven't talked about our plurality in months. She never asked about "us". We quite enjoy the dynamic since Anne was front stuck anyway, but with the current update and no one to talk to, gives us reassurance that everything is going to be okay, it's still a bit scary.

Anyway if they stay long enough we're going to be introduce them. For a while it's just been Anne so we kind of abandoned this blog, but I think it's safe to say that we're back.

[holybeings]

I keep becoming me over and over and over again

[starrynightteam]

The host be like:

[daily-spooky]

[starrynightteam]

@funnier-as-a-system

[august-zip]

The word ableist is thrown around so much i highly doubt alot of you actually know what it means compared to how you use it.

(Alot of you just use it when you don't agree with someone)

[only-cat-memes]

[foxes-in-love]

[saros-system]

That's so cute! Also @funnier-as-a-system ...?

[funnier-as-a-system]

[ID (taken from alt text): A comic of two foxes, one of whom is Blue, the other is Green. In this one, each panel is a different scene, starting with Blue looking angrily at his computer, as Green rushed to him, peering at the screen with curious enthusiasm. Blue: Ugh, I hate trying to express what I want to say in an email. Green: Can I see? Next, Blue is frowning at a bag of sweets, while Green looks inside, eager and excited. Blue: Ew, I only have all the licorice left. Green: I can take them. Then, Blue is sitting at a table with a small figurine and painting tools in front of him. Green is peeking over the edge of the table with great interest. Blue: Oh, the pain of painting a million tiny details. Green: Let me do it? At last, Blue and Green are in bed, cuddling, with Green as the big spoon and Blue as the little spoon. Blue: You know you don't have to volunteer for everything I don't like, right? Green: But you're just letting me hog all the best parts. / end ID]

[osddid-i-do-that]

For any system that needs to hear this:

Experiencing periods of silence in your brain is normal. You’re not making it up or faking or actually just a singlet just because you can’t hear other alters 24/7/365.