M A N I A

19. She/her. USA. Having the world's latest emo phase. Header is proof of the time Joe Trohman roasted me on twitter. I follow the tag #stateofdismay

[pdlcomics]

Welcome

[cloe223]

I am laughing so hard

[valtsv]

your friend group in your 20s will consist entirely of people who are either a) gay b) have the same trauma as you c) work with you or d) all of the above

[valtsv]

and how could i possibly forget e) lives too far away from you to meet up irl more than once or twice a year

[roxolotl-remaking-deactivated20]

my animal behavior professor just emailed me this

[stateofdismay]

He’s doing his best

[waxahatchee]

Dr. Death Defying was the first person who told me it was okay to be trans and then immediately gave me a gun

[furiousgoldfish]

sorry I can’t hang out, I’ve got places to avoid and people to disappoint

[traumatised-mum]

you ever just sit and realise u can’t remember 80% of your childhood? like … what happened? who am i ..?

[anisetheapothecary]

Many people in the comments are saying “trauma”, but this is actually a very normal occurrence. It’s called Childhood Amnesia, and it’s a process which, as the brain reorganizes itself for cognitive thought that is developed in late childhood, it changes the Accessibility of those memories during recall. Many childhood memories are available to the person, but they will not be remembered during regular recall activity, you have to “trick” your brain into remembering with different tactics.

This is because there are two parts to memories - their encoding and their recall. The encoding determines their availability, their recall determines their accessibility. The reason why trauma memory and childhood amnesia are different is in this distinction. Trauma memory is often encoded differently, bypassing to the limbic system where it is stored as intrinsic memory. It can’t be recalled because it was never encoded. Childhood amnesia, however, seems to indicate that the memories are encoded, but we lose access to them as we age. This is most likely due to the development of brain structures that fundamentally change our encoding and recall of memory as we get older.

This is an important distinction, because trauma memory is “stored in the body”, i.e. you get triggers that send your body into a cascade of uncontrollable feelings, sensations and reactions. Whereas childhood memories won’t generally do that, they are just recalled at odd times with odd associations.

[malcolmcooks]

reblogging this because I’ve legit seen people freaking out when they realised they can’t remember some of their childhood, thinking they might have some repressed trauma.

[stateofdismay]

It’s made more complicated by the fact that the brain (usually somewhere in adolescence) goes through a process called “synaptic pruning” in which it evaluates all the neural network connections it’s built up to that point and decides which are important enough to keep. The “unimportant” ones (i.e., the ones that don’t get used often, which really just means you don’t think about those things much) get “pruned” away. This is why you forget so much of your day to day childhood. Your brain decided it wasn’t important enough to keep those memories.

[chlmera]

so i have a finnish friend and we were talking about moomin’s recent popularity surge and

[najsigt]

AS A SWEDE THIS IS 100% HOW I FEEL

[freakywizard]

This body is a vessel for my mayhem and as long as I can perform bafoonery it doesn’t matter if this stomach is flat or not

[4444555666777888999]

8 years old. College reading level. The weight of the world on my shoulders.

[vrson]

20 years old. illiterate. the weight of the universe has given me chronic back pain

[e-seal-deactivated20210319]

Necromancer that doesn’t know they’re a necromancer and thinks they’re just a really good emt

[raimagnolia]

That is the funniest thing i have ever read

[lesbianshepard]

if I was rich i would absolutely go all out weird. commission books handwritten in a made up language. erect strange black spires in the wood. buy a boat, make it look like a perfect copy of one that was used in an 18th century antarctic expedition, and then let it drift to shore miles away. i want every interaction with me to leave people with a sense of impending cosmic horror.

[lesbianshepard]

me, painstakingly arranging a fake alien-like skeleton sitting at a desk in the hidden room behind my bookcase: this is going to be so cool when they find this in 50 years

[anexperimentallife]

[veryfunnymemes]

[pinbian]

It’s almost like CEOs and cooperations have an agenda making youths have addictions

[magister-christophe]

That’s a pretty wild accusation. I can guarantee you that getting kids addicted is the last thing that the company behind Juul actually wanted.

[geekandmisandry]

You weren’t supposed to deepthroat the boot but ok

[8392019938]

“omg why are you crying?” “the economy, bro”

[fluffymcmuffins]

No WONDER I have back problems.. I b carrying around this BIG ass heart all mf day

[cungadero]

i mean this in the nicest way possible you guys but you NEED to take better care of yourselves online. getting severely anxious about mass quantities of horrible things you cant change every single day is normal considering the internet’s ability to educate on worldwide issues, it shows that you have empathy and that you truly do care. but relentless knowledge of constant suffering on this scale is NOT something humans are psychologically equipped to handle. it’s okay to shut off. it’s okay to just take a break and enjoy yourself for a while in your own localized space

[hazelmarswolfe13-deactivated202]

[c-bassmeow]

This is amazing