stelle

yuri enjoyer and chronically online

[stellarisstars]

✦ Stelle, she/they, 🇵🇰

✦ 20 yrs old and multifandom. mainly Genshin Impact, The Apothecary Diaries, Star Wars, Trigun & Hadesgame, etc.

✦ I make edits, draw and post on ao3!

✦ AO3 link: https://archiveofourown.org/users/stellesanecdotes

Twitter : @stellest4rs

[stellarisstars]

reading fanfiction of anakin actually reaching his full potential as the chosen one always feels like this to me

[stellarisstars]

Vergil’s character is very interesting and I think a lot of the general fandom to glaze over that for the memes. Of course, Dante and Nero are victims to this as well but with Vergil, they also seem to fundamentally misunderstand his motivations and development.

He’s not an alpha male, white monster, plastic chair guy, he’s so much more than that. He’s a complex character with alot of trauma who’s been tortured, killed by his own brother and well… whatever dmc 5 was too, I guess.

NDMC making Vergil hate this mother makes zero sense bc Vergil never hated Eva, he was scared and wanted to be loved. For so long, he just wanted acknowledgment that Eva loved him (you can see all of this addressed in visions of v).

So many of Vergil’s motivations to become stronger stem from fear, fear of losing everything. He has such good writing but he gets sent to mischaracterisation factory instead where adi shankar turns him into nothing more but a parody of his original character.

[evildala]

Lately I have really been rocking with Obi-Wan who needs to believe Anakin and Vader are different people. Obi-Wan who cannot live with the idea that he left his boy, his Padawan, his brother, his son on the banks of Mustafar. Obi-Wan who cannot reckon with the fact that Anakin did those horrible things, and that Obi-Wan still loves him even though he did terrible things.

I’ve said before I loooooove an Obi-Wan who doesn’t see himself until Anakin’s father until his exile on Tatooine, usually playing with the idea of “how else could I still love him”. HOWEVER, I think an Obi-Wan who needs to accept his role as Anakin’s father because it proves Vader is a different person and “no parent could ever do that to their child. He wasn’t Ani then no that was someone else that was someone else.” is very fun.

Obi-Wan vehemently denying Anakin can be brought back, doubting Luke could succeed not just because of old Jedi doctrine but because he needs to. If Anakin is in Vader, if Anakin could be saved, that would be Obi-Wan did leave him to burn alive. That would mean that Obi-Wan violently and angrily mauled the boy who used to flinch at loud sounds, the boy who Obi-Wan promised he would never physically hurt.

That would mean that Palpatine’s influence went beyond Anakin’s immediate fall. And Obi-Wan is deep in survival mode. He just can’t think about that.

It’s not that Obi-Wan always believed so strongly in this separation, or even that he always believes it come time for ANH. He has nightmares of little Ani screaming for help in the fire. He thinks of the dear Emperor when he see’s men around Mos Espa who try to take advantage of their status and age and exploit people who don’t know much. He see’s Anakin everywhere.

Obi-Wan is closer to understanding Anakin than he ever has before but he doesn’t let himself. 19 years is a long time and slowly, overtime Obi-Wan does convince himself that Anakin is dead. Vader is alive. Obi-Wan hurt Vader. Anakin could never come back and he is a machine not a man. Because Obi-Wan would never have abandoned the man who he called his brother and the boy who he cared for like a son.

It’s a fun inverse of Anakin who also needs to see Vader and Anakin as separate people. Lets adopt maladaptive coping skills with Papa!!!

We are too ready to accept Obi-Wan as a reliable narrator! The people of Tatooine call Obi-Wan a crazy old hermit. Let him be funny and light in ANH because he has been so desperate and alone his reality is a little warped.

Anyways. Vader and Anakin are different because Obi-Wan so desperately needs them to be.

[alilyhn]

[overthinkingao3]

We write for ourselves, but we post for others.

(this came out of a conversation in the comments on a previous post about an author threatening to stop updating a fic because of lack of engagement)

So there’s this idea that fic writers should write for themselves and not care too much about stats or engagement,

and i totally get the sentiment behind that. if writing becomes entirely about stats and external validation, something important does get lost - creative freedom and joy, conviction in your own writing

but i also think:

“i write for myself, but i post for others.”

because posting fic is not only self-expression. it’s social. ao3 is called an archive, but emotionally it often functions as a community space.

people post for connection, for participation, for others to bear witness to their pain and trauma and grief,

and i don’t think most people are asking to be admired so much as acknowledged. there’s something deeply human about wanting another person to encounter something that mattered to you and go:

“ok, yeah, I see what you were trying to say. I see you.”

especially because fanfic is often people processing very real feelings through fictional characters at a safe distance, one step removed,

and then uploading that deeply personal thing into a shared archive and hoping somebody else might connect with it.

And i think that’s why it hurts so much when you summon up the courage and post a fic into the void and you get nothing back,

and then it’s like,

does anyone see me? does anyone even care?

[yanna-writes]

referring to anakin as a “dictator sympathiser” is a pretty wild leap to take from him pointing out the flaws of the current administration. like…… they’re literally on naboo because the republic was unable to protect one if its most important senators. lead opposition to the military creation act. the senate was too bogged down in debate and procedure to even respond decisively to this *gigantic* threat that dun-dun-dun!!! they were super chill about removing her from the political stage entirely. again: she was lead opposition to the military creation act. by then, they were barely even trying to playact at democracy anymore.

btw. this is also the same naboo that anakin helped save ten years prior because (again!!) the senate dragged their ass and failed to step in when its people were literally in concentration camps. don’t even get me started about how it happily turns a blind eye on the outer rim’s slave trade. y’know… exactly what anakin had personal experience with?

but go off, i guess.

[stellarisstars]

The amount of times I see people say this on tiktok or twitter even that anakin is a rightwing facist, I want to smoke 500 cigarettes and kill myself

[stellarisstars]

fem anidala, problematic boob size gap, younger woman x older woman we are WINNING this pride month.

[stellarisstars]

Anakin: I’m thinking of getting breast reduction surgery

Padme: DON’T.

[ffluv]

[knarchive]

Goddess of the frostmoon

[stellarisstars]

fem anidala, problematic boob size gap, younger woman x older woman we are WINNING this pride month.

[nthegg]

🌗

[smile-archon]

Sandbina as mermaids!!

[beforedazed]

sandbina doodle :p

new to posting on tumblr!! I used to lurk here instead..

[emetitur]

hyposelenia

17/100

[galsan12]

[nesry-n]

anakin about padmé in rots novelization:

“the woman whose breath was his only air, whose heartbeat was his only music, whose face was the only beauty his eyes would ever see”

when I say anakin worships padmé, I mean he worships padmé—worships her entire being.

[nesry-n]

still thinking about this because what do you mean anakin? do you mean that after you stole her breath momentarily, you ceased to breathe on your own forever? do you mean that after her heart stopped beating, your life became colorless? do you mean that after you lost her, all beauty was gone from your life?