[updated: 23. 10. 2025]
"You are a wonderful creation. You know more than you think you know, just as you know less than you want to know"
(caution: this can be awkward)
NOTE: i kinda forgot about this blog for an embarrassingly long time and it's cuz of my adhd and lack of motivation and lack of studying and tbh i prolly will post once in three years fuck you
hey, i'm ava (not irl name) and this is my new forgotten studyblr and here are some things about me ig
personal:
i'm finally 18 (WHY)
i'm in 12th grade (WHYYYY)
and I'm indian (my first language is english, but my "mother-tongue" is bengali)
chaotic academia
bisexual (but still by myself *sad laughter*— IT'S 2025 I MADE THIS 3 YEARS AGO HOW AM I STILL BITCHLESS)
i have adhd, anxiety and depression hahah (diagnosed)
procrastinating by writing this
interests:
drawing/ art in general
books (i like thrillers and books with political commentaries and romances, too)
listening to music
writing
researching about social stuff
debating (a lot) but also public speaking in general
doomscrolling on my phone
school stuff:
i live in India so i follow the Indian cbse system
we have five exams: 1. unit test 1: 25 marks for each subject; block test 1: 70 marks for phy, chem and bio, and 30 marks for their practicals, 80 marks for maths and english and 20 marks for their practicals, and 30 marks for art and 70 marks for its practical. The other exams are unit test 2 and 3 and block test 2 or finals which follows the same pattern.
[this is the 11th-12th grade system]
we also get a grade on each subject per exam (A1, A2, B1, B2, C1, C2, D1, D2, E) based on our marks percentage
my subjects are: maths, physics, biology, chemistry, art and english (which is 1st language as i mentioned before)
from 11th grade we can choose different subjects and my combination is pcmb
indian school year starts from april
my fav subjects are physics, political science, maths and english
career/ university goals:
previously wanted to go to MIT, Princeton, Harvard or Caltech, but that plan is canceled for financial reasons
wanna be a space scientist at ISRO/NASA
or just pursue a career in physics academia— physicist basically
planning to study stem in college
colleges i wanna go to now: IISc, IIT Bombay, IISERs— I JUST WANNA GO SOMEWHERE WITH SCIENCE PLS
my backup is fucking nothing i will die on the street
goals in general:
be more confident and less socially awkward
improve my grades
eat healthier ig
not procrastinate and learn to manage time
improve calligraphy (mine's good, but not awesome)
be less fucking depressed cuz everytime i update this i realise i am more depressed
watch the entire gilmore girls movie list (around 500 movies) and listen to every single artist mentioned in it and read every book rory has read so that i can make obscure references and then be pretentious about it
things i love:
cats. And dogs. i will go feral over them.
space
mythology of around the world
really deadly animals (my fav animal is titanoboa, so you get it)
unknown deep sea creatures
political theory
neuroscience or even just anatomy type shit
psychology and psychoanalysis
murder (jk, but i have very intensive knowledge of poisons, creative methods of torture and burying bodies)
inspirations:
@studyquill
@starrystvdy
@shythecheesecake
@mogsbiosciencejourney
@cactusandstudies
@revisign
so, yeah, that's kinda it ig, so byee (get me out of this capitalist hellhole PLEASE) <33















