dorothea @strwbrryqrl - Tumblr Blog

𐂯 We all have teeth that can bite underneath ˖ ࣪ ִ𖤐

꩜⩊꩜ To where the reality grows ᶻ 𝘇 𐰁

ᶻ Yeah, that's where mine go ˙𐃷˙

#lyrics #thecurseofcurves #emo #emolyrics #cuteiswhatweaimfor #songlyrics

LOL guys i just got cheated on

#what the fuck

hope i die in my sleep tonight

why do you not give a shit about me anymore. you clearly have fallen out of love with me didn’t you?

i know you don’t love me anymore

fuck it bro im genuinely depressed tonight

but

i keep thinking about the "What ifs" if I do end it all someday... I wanted to be an animator as a kid and I don't think I'll ever reach that. I keep thinking about those delicious foods I wanna try, places I wanna travel to, and activities I've been dreaming to do. I wish to feel and kiss my boyfriend and lay down together in a field full of my favorite flowers during a sunday morning. I wish to see my best friends get their success in life and be at their happiest. I wish my family would love to understand me more. It's hard bottling up emotions I shouldn't show or else I'll be called crazy. That's all they ever did anyway. It's hard to write everything with a heavy heart. Maybe one day, I can fully express everything here just a way of letting it out instead of bottling my feelings all the time.

sighs

Sometimes, I would often torture myself with the idea of leaving a written suicide letter when i die then think if my family would care and how their life will turn out in a few years without me. If my parents would throw my things or not, if they would read my diary or check messages in my phone, looking for clues they keep ignoring. Or maybe if they would leave my room the way it was, without touching or moving anything out of respect. I hope my mom don't throw my books away or my collectable figurines or even my junk sketches piled up inside my personal box. But honestly I'd like to think they're better off without me in their life, my dad wouldn't feel disgust having me around, my mom won't have to be stressed and dramatic all the time, and my sister wouldn't have someone annoying her anymore. I would miss my dog a lot though, I always wonder if they would know that I'm dead or if they'll just keep waiting for the rest of their life. Anyway, I'm going to college soon and I'm not really excited for it, well i try to be just to show I appreciate it because not all people are able to go to college. I hope my life will be given to someone else desperately in need. I wish I didn't have this life with opportunities that are worth living life for because I never really got away from self loathing and low self esteem. If I was a bit "normal" as a child, if I wasnt exposed to fucked up shit at such a young age and became hypersexual and did horrible things, maybe I would love and appreciate myself a little bit more. Anyway ew im being too vulnerable here this is disgusting okay bye i will kms soon i promise

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when you’re 18, broke, and jobless after applying for 300+ jobs these past two months so you have no other option than just to rot and cut whole summer and build the courage to leave this world

#holy peak #vent account #personal vent #vent post #vent #looking for moots #looking for mutuals #i wanna end it all #chud life

I just like wanna jump off and die

fuck you mom fuck you and your shit mindset its a fucking hell living with you. youre inhumane youre full of hatred youre so fucking conservative in the worst way possible i hate you