yes, it's scary, but you're brave.

heather. 37. chaotic gemini. bisexual af.

[stupidcanadianwolfbird]

Fic List Updated: May 1, 2026 Link to my AO3: canadianwolfbird original header image credit: frenchnbookish

Welcome to my master list of Game Changer Universe fics! As always, I encourage folks to read the tags and author's notes for any potential content that may be upsetting or triggering. I've tried to cover them here as well, and if there's something I've missed, please feel free to reach out.

Individual/Standalone Fics, in chronological order of pub date:

you haven't come this far to fall off the earth: Hollanov, Rated M, 7k words, Ilya-centric, canon-compliant. Ilya struggles with a depressive episode while Shane is away for a lucrative hockey commitment. Involves themes such as depression, intrusive thoughts, and passive ideation.

on sleepless roads, the sleepless go: Hollanov, Rated M, 4.5k words, canon-compliant. five times Ilya visits his mother's grave, plus one time he's not alone. Involves themes such as grief, mourning, death of a parent, and references to depression.

have yourself a merry little christmas: Troy x Harris, Rated T, 3k words, canon-compliant. Troy proposes to Harris during the annual Centaurs Secret Santa exchange. No heavy themes, just fluff, fluff, fluff. the house don't fall when the bones are good: Hollanov, Rated M, 6k words, Omegaverse AU (follows canon timeline/events). Shane becomes pregnant after his and Ilya's tryst at the cottage and has an abortion with the support of Ilya and Yuna. Involves themes such as pregnancy and abortion. i'll pull the stars down from the heavens to fill your empty skies: Hollanov, Rated T, 4.6k, canon-compliant. Shane builds Ilya a blanket fort as an escape from the outside world around the anniversary of Irina's passing. Involves themes such as allusions to mild hurt/comfort, depression, and death of a parent, but otherwise, is mostly fluff. all of these lines across my face tell you the story of who i am: Hollanov, rated E, 5.7k, canon-compliant (post-canon). Ilya surprises Shane with a vow renewal ceremony with the help of their loved ones after they both retire from hockey. No heavy themes, just some gratuitous smut at the very end!

Series: i pray that something picks me up and sets me down in your warm arms (ongoing/incomplete) part 1: keep me in your heart for a while: Hollanov, Rated M, 1.5 words, Ilya-centric, canon-compliant (post-canon). Ilya gives into his intrusive thoughts of passive ideation. Involves themes such as an on page suicide attempt by a major character, depression, a near drowning (please take exceptional caution if you choose to read this one). part 2: and when it rains on this side of town, it touches everything: Hollanov, Rated M, 3.5k, canon-compliant (post canon). Ilya's journey to wake up from his attempt, while Shane waits for his husband to come back to him. Involves themes such as implied/referenced suicide, grief, death of a parent, and depression.

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i'm twisted up when i'm twisted with you (ongoing) part 1: so take it like a taker, 'cause baby, i'm a giver: Hollanova, Rated E, 6.5 words, Gender-swap/Rule 63 AU. Shane and Iliana hook up after Iliana's most recent MVP win in Las Vegas. Pretty shameless PWP/smut with some gratuitous facesitting, champagne, and strawberries.

[billy-crudup]

Yeah, but I’ve dealt with my demons. It’s a process. SHAWN HATOSY as JACK ABBOT in THE PITT 2.15 | 9:00 P.M.

[lesbianlandry]

get shane some pwhl lesbians and ilya some drunk bathroom girls NOW

[military-newsboys]

Ilya: Shane has insanely strong opinions about everything. Go on, ask his opinion on something no one should have an opinion about. Wyatt: Hollzy, what's the worst multiple of 4? Shane: 56, obviously.

[regainingparadise]

When #myshane retires, he doesn’t go into coaching or podcasting or whatever.

He becomes a consultant who shitty teams trying to not suck, good teams who want to last further into the playoffs, great teams who want to finally win the cup, call to Fix Them.

He is paid absolutely bonkers amounts of money to watch a team play for five minutes and immediately diagnose what’s wrong with them. He is always right.

Ok 5 minutes is probably an exaggeration. The coaches send him a bunch of tape to review in advance. They probably focus on their best players or the ones they think need the most improvement, but half the time Shane requests more, focusing on players they hadn’t paid much attention to before. Then one day at practice, the players look up into the stands and are filled with awe, terror, and wonder, because Shane Hollander is sitting there staring directly at them with a scarily thoughtful look on his face.

He meets with the coaches and gm and reports his conclusions. Who to trade and for who , how to get better results from certain players, how to run power plays and penalty kills, changes in line makeups.

Some lucky players get to meet with him. He takes about five minutes to list off or demonstrate everything they need to do to stop sucking. He has no time for chit chat or hero worship. Focus, listen, learn, and do exactly what he says and you will be good. Fail to do what he says and you will shame your entire bloodline.

I think that, if he’s not the one actually playing, this would be a dream job. It involves Knowing Things About Hockey, Judging Shitty Hockey Players, Getting Recognized As The Best at Hockey, Being Correct, and Making Hockey Better. He should get to do all these things

[mothsartart]

in case you didn’t know rookies often bleach their hair. it’s like a bonding/superstition thing. so have bad bleach job rook shane hollander

[gaygoatshane]

what if we were coworkers who were also soulmates that rose to fame so quickly that when we reunited, all the cameras were so bright that we had to create a little tunnel for just us to see each other and have a moment alone like this

[military-newsboys]

Yuna: Congratulations. The two of you have just won gold and silver in the Moron Olympics.

Shane:

Ilya:

Shane: Who won gold?

[circusheart]

If I keep practicing I might even be a person soon

[i-fear-gritty]

i think if hollanov decide to have more than one kid at least one of them will be a goalie. and you know that kid is going first in whichever draft they end up in because they practiced on shane fucking hollander and ilya fucking rozanov (because if your dads were casually the two best centres in the nhl and two of the most successful hockey players on the planet, then you defend that net like your life depends on it)

everyone else in that years draft thinks this hollander-rozanov child got picked first out of nepotism (because who the fuck is that desperate to pick a goalie first overall in the draft?) until one day that team’s starting goalie is injured and all of a sudden your scoring chances have gone to hell because you’re trying to get the puck past cerberus, the three headed dog that guards the gates of hell

[isolabellz]

hollanov honeymoon scenes

[upset-to-dead]

Three sentences to describe the kind of character Troy Barrett is.

Troy’s handwriting was terrible, but he tried his hardest to write legibly when he scrawled To my friend Nathan. Then he added his mess of a signature and, after a moment’s hesitation, a little happy face. Because maybe he could be the kind of guy who drew little happy faces next to his autograph.

Role Model, ch.9

[ceruleanheaven]

i am always one wrong word away from being shot by all the people who find me tolerable

[stupidcanadianwolfbird]

WIP Wednesday, ahoy! Thank you for the tags @beefybisexualrozanov, @ashes0909, @onthewaytosomewhere, @books2beach and @tailsbeth-writes! I honestly have been so fucking stuck lately - but have something from Hollanovaas (and maybe it'll jog my writing drive)? ----

“What do you think, kotik?” Ilya whispers, kissing Luca’s ear as he speaks. “Our l’vonok looks all worn out. Should he stay the night if he wants?”

Shane hums softly, brushing Luca’s bangs away from his eyes and kissing his forehead. “Yes, I think he should stay.”

Luca lets out a content noise - he isn’t sure that he could get up if he wanted to, so he’s grateful that he doesn’t have to ask. His head is heavy and he can feel his eyelids drooping, but Shane gently brings him back. “Hey, Luca - stay with us. We need to get you cleaned up. Ilya - could you run us a bath? I think a shower might be too much.”

“Of course, sweetheart.” Ilya murmurs, his words punctuated with the sound of a kiss against the corner of Shane’s mouth. “I will be right back.”

Ilya lifts himself off the bed and the loss of warmth at his back sends a shudder through Luca. Shane’s fingers continue to move through Luca’s hair and Luca can’t help but curl closer into Shane’s side. He’s still not entirely convinced this isn’t a really excellent dream he’s about to wake up from. 

A few minutes later, Ilya’s voice comes from somewhere behind Luca. “The bath is ready. I’ll clean up here while you two relax.”

Shane nods, lacing his fingers through Luca’s and helping him to his feet. Luca is grateful for the support of the other man - after two orgasms, he feels as if his bones are made of rubber and like he’s going to collapse to the floor.

Shane slides into the tub first, letting out a content sigh as his body slips below the water. Steam curls up in wispy tendrils from the surface and the smell of eucalyptus fills Luca’s nostrils. The bath’s basin is as deep and wide as the soaking tubs they have at the training rooms at the arena, and Luca is envious - his condo’s bathtub is nowhere near this luxurious.

“Come on in, Luca,” Shane murmurs, and Luca doesn’t need to be told twice. Carefully, he steps over the edge, a moan escaping him as he dips down, settling his back against Shane’s torso. Shane loops his arms loosely around Luca, pressing his nose into Luca’s neck. 

The water is the perfect temperature, and the feel of Shane against him is comforting. Luca finds himself with the dangerous thought that wishes he could have this all the time. He can’t think like that. He has to savor this for what it is: one night. ---

Open tag since it's so late!

[stupidcanadianwolfbird]

10 people i’d like to get to know better

Thanks for tagging me @iammistressofmyfate and @ashes0909!

last song: "Sunny Came Home" by Shawn Colvin

currently watching: Friends for the billionth time (please don't judge me - I'm not one of those Friends fans that insists it's the best show ever (it's not) and that everyone needs to watch it (they don't), but it is a comfort/nostalgic thing for me)

currently reading: Aside from fanfic, nothing, but I am about to start a re-read of the Grishaverse books!

current obsession: I am still GCU-pilled. Not sorry about it.

currently working on: many, many things, but the two I've been poking around in most these days are my trans, pregnant!Harris WIP and my Hollanovaas WIP (both are now over 10k and I feel like I am obligated to finish at least one of them)

currently wearing: jeans, bare feet, and a shirt with an embroidered lavender plant that I got from Sierra Simone's Priest series Kickstarter!

last google search: "kelsie whitmore"

favorite flower(s): okay, I have SO many (I am a flower girlie through and through) but in the interest of being silly/a smart-ass:

exceptionally low-stakes tagging: @shanehollandertwentyfour @dntat-makesthings @beefybisexualrozanov @haroldtea @erisenyo @goldrushzukka @books2beach @tailsbeth-writes @orchidscript @miss-minnelli and anyone else who wants to play (tag me if you do!)

[littlegirlinvisible]

CONNOR STORRIE & HUDSON WILLIAMS In newly released exclusive photos for The New York Times (December 2025) via HudconUpdates & Connor Storrie Canada Ph. Ryan Pfluger

[troy-barrett-love]

An incomplete List of places where Troy Barrett had taken a nap (vaguely related to my headcanons about Troy's sleep issues):

- On the couch in Harris' office

- Under the desk in Harris' office (he didn't want to be found, it was his best bet at a hiding place)

- On a chair in Harris' office

- On the bench in the changing room after practice

- In the gym (he was working out with Shane, who said he'd be right back. He wasn't)

- In front of the dishwasher (he was waiting for it to finish)

- In his and Harris' back garden (he let Chiron out and the dog had more energy than him)

- Chiron's new dog bed (he wanted to prove it was just as comfortable as the old one)

- Bood's bathroom (he need a minute, which turned into a twenty minute nap, eventually got woken up by Luca who really needed to pee)

- On the bed mid changing the sheets

- On Shane and Ilya's back porch (Ilya said he'd be right back, he wasn't)

- On the floor in Wyatt's living room surrounded by Legos (they were building a space ship together)

There is photographic evidence of at least three quarters of these events, commonly shared in the team's group chat.