4 years later
Things have changed but it’s still mostly the same. Moved, but only to a new room in the same apartment. It’s larger which is nice, more room for posters and flags, but I’m still settling into it and figuring out where I want to arrange my bed and desk and all that. Different roommates now too. Still the same car. Never ended up tinting the windows, but some of the stickers I put on there are starting to fade and peel. Same job, though I’ve moved to full time night shifts. After getting furloughed for a couple of months during the pandemic and having to deal with the insanity of working day shifts in the later half of 2020, I took the opportunity to transition back to nights which helped my anxiety. Got a pay raise so I can afford my expensive new hobby of custom mechanical keyboards. Still essentially a shut in, though I guess do go and do things every couple of months. My car stays parked in the garage on my days off for the most part though. Nowhere to really go when you’re just waking up at midnight or so. I’ve become stuck in such a rut of a routine that’s grooved to the point where I feel comfortable in it, though I know I should probably climb out. Destiny isn’t really that much fun anymore. It’s just become stale and while there are times when it’s fun, I feel like I’m mostly just continuing it see where the story goes and how it ends.
I’m 30 now and while there are times when I definitely feel older and more mature, I still feel terribly lost in thinking about what I want to do for the future. I feel like a grumpy old man sometimes honestly. Anyways, I’ve complained long enough. I am still just so tired.
