bathe in blood with me?

internet demon | she/her | 27 | transfem lesbian

[buffyblue]

[hukidamari-sketch]

[Halo3] #416 The Ark (39)

[probuccalfat]

every time a young gay person quits smoking or makes the decision that they want to quit, the sun shines on us all with the promise of happiness and beauty.

[probuccalfat]

i appreciate everybody that’s sharing the sentiment that it’s good for anyone to quit smoking (it is) but i very specifically wanted to highlight and encourage LGBTQ youth because lesbian, gay, and bisexual people are about 1.5 to 2.5 times more likely to smoke cigarettes than heterosexual people, and the statistics for transgender people are even higher than cisgender people. this is due to tobacco companies marketing heavily and aggressively to LGBTQ communities and exploiting the higher rates of mental health struggles prevalent in our communities.

i want and hope to see all my LGTBQ people live long, healthy, fulfilled lives despite how predatory and punishing this world can be. you should stay around as long as you can to make it a little better in your own way.

[this-is-trans-joy]

I wanna specifically shoutout trans men here because back in the day (I don’t know if it’s still prevalent) there was quite a common rumour going around that smoking could make your voice deeper, which meant a huge upstick in young trans men taking up smoking.

So, if any trans men are being told about this, it’s not true!! Smoking will not change your voice, at least not until you’re about forty years down the line and you’ve already irreparably destroyed your lungs and throat and mouth and pretty much every other organ in your body. When you hear heavy smokers with deeper, scratchier voices it is literally because their vocal cords have been ruined. This is not a passive effect of smoking, it is a very very damaging one!

It’s simply not worth it! There will be no meaningful changes except terrible ones. Voice training will do a lot more for you than cigarettes will, I promise that the people urging you to start smoking as a voice training method do not have your best interests at heart!

(And you know what, this also goes for not eating due to the idea that starving yourself will decrease your chest size. Like with smoking, there will be no meaningful changes except terrible ones. Your body is worth so much more than that and there will always be healthier alternatives!)

I wanna see trans people thrive, and one day when things get better and you’re able to start your transition, you’ll want a body that will last as long as possible so you can enjoy every little moment of your life. Please take care of yourself!!

[ob-2-kenobi]

As for trans women and other trans people taking estrogen HRT, smoking has been proven to reduce or even cancel out the effects of estrogen on the body. If you quit smoking, your transition will be faster, fuller, and smoother. I know that it's hard, but your boobs will thank you!

(Btw, afaik smoking only has this effect on estrogen from HRT. Estrogen that AFAB bodies produce naturally is not affected, so smoking is still bad for trans men)

In addition (and this applies to all trans people), smoking increases risks of complications during surgery, so doctors might refuse to let you get whatever surgeries you want if you smoke. They'll at least tell you to quit for a while beforehand, which will be easier to do if you'd already quit to begin with.

[diamondsandphoenixfire]

The not smoking before surgery thing is no joke. I met a guy once who stopped smoking at the time his surgical team recommended and they STILL had to call off the surgery because his oxygen was too low. Can you imagine finally getting your GCS/top surgery/FFS date but then waking up and it’s still there?? (IIRC he’s fully quit now and he got his top surgery with no issues because of it!)

I think also in that conversation, I had a couple people tell me that the book The Easy Way to Quit Smoking is, despite the gimmicky title, genuinely helpful.

If quitting for yourself seems too abstract and it’s hard to care, think about everyone around you. Someone with asthma or migraines will breathe easier if they’re not risking an attack from standing near you.

Lastly, some queer history: a 90’s tobacco marketing campaign that targeted gay men was literally called Project SCUM. That’s what they think of us. Don’t give them your money.

How Big Tobacco Still Targets LGBTQ People

The tobacco industry’s marketing has “systematically targeted” the LGBTQ community for decades…

Tobacco use in LGBT communities

There's a different kind of disparity in the LGBT community that is often overlooked: disproportionately high smoking rates.

[alivehouse]

what do you mean you havent used mindfulness techniques to accept the state of the torture labyrinth as is yet. its like youre not even trying

[b0tster]

lesbians making out video but with reduced music so u can hear them making out sloppy style. happy pride! 🏳️‍🌈🔊

[k1ntsug1-r0b0t-g1rl]

I'm not mourning my teenage years because i falsely believe all girls have a magical adolescence I'm fucking mourning it because i didn't get to be a real person. I'm really fucking glad you can talk about how being a teenager wasn't perfect, i didn't exist.

[posthumousprincessparts]

wdym where's my halo? you don't need a halo to be an angel, and i clearly am look at my beautiful holy wings.. wdym they're covered in soot and brimstone? you can't say mean things like that to an angel like me! they're literally radiant and pretty??? wdym "what about your cartoonish succubus tail?" that's literally my fucking angel... thing.. it's got a heart on the end ur not working with me here wdym wdym

[filmphotofranz]

source

[suckpuppy]

i should be allowed to burn people at the stake if they're not niceys to me

[important-cat-pics]

[amiyayuri]

@5kawa8gi

[wingkink]

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

[cloudofbutterflies]

Eryka Caldwell is a back trans woman who was murdered by her partner in her apartment last Sunday, and the story is getting a fraction of the attention that the murder of Juniper Blessing did. The police had already been called several times about her partners violence before her murder and did nothing, and she deserves the same outrage and mourning as Juniper got, and every one of our murdered trans siblings deserves. Trans women of color are more likely to be the victims of murder than any other group of queer people, and they need our solidarity, protection and support.

Trans Woman Eryka Caldwell Fatally Stabbed in Bushwick, Brooklyn

Caldwell’s boyfriend, 38-year-old Jonathan Fernandez, has been charged with murder.

[cloudofbutterflies]

Her family has a gofundme, please donate to them if you can so that they can transport her back home for her funeral.

Donate to Bringing Eryka Home for a Loving Farewell, organized by Loretta Worthy

My family is asking for help in the unexpected loss of my cousin, Eryka Caldw… Loretta Worthy needs your support for Bringing Eryka Home for

[transsexual-feminism]

Please donate!

[gracebutitsasecret]

I know some her family in Kentucky. People keep writing articles and think-pieces, but her family is hurting and needs help getting her home. If you've ever posted here about transmisogyny and the violence black trans women face, please take the time to donate!

[cloudofbutterflies]

Eryka Caldwell is a back trans woman who was murdered by her partner in her apartment last Sunday, and the story is getting a fraction of the attention that the murder of Juniper Blessing did. The police had already been called several times about her partners violence before her murder and did nothing, and she deserves the same outrage and mourning as Juniper got, and every one of our murdered trans siblings deserves. Trans women of color are more likely to be the victims of murder than any other group of queer people, and they need our solidarity, protection and support.

Trans Woman Eryka Caldwell Fatally Stabbed in Bushwick, Brooklyn

Caldwell’s boyfriend, 38-year-old Jonathan Fernandez, has been charged with murder.

[cloudofbutterflies]

Her family has a gofundme, please donate to them if you can so that they can transport her back home for her funeral.

Donate to Bringing Eryka Home for a Loving Farewell, organized by Loretta Worthy

My family is asking for help in the unexpected loss of my cousin, Eryka Caldw… Loretta Worthy needs your support for Bringing Eryka Home for

[transsexual-feminism]

Please donate!

[gracebutitsasecret]

I know some her family in Kentucky. People keep writing articles and think-pieces, but her family is hurting and needs help getting her home. If you've ever posted here about transmisogyny and the violence black trans women face, please take the time to donate!

[cloudofbutterflies]

Eryka Caldwell is a back trans woman who was murdered by her partner in her apartment last Sunday, and the story is getting a fraction of the attention that the murder of Juniper Blessing did. The police had already been called several times about her partners violence before her murder and did nothing, and she deserves the same outrage and mourning as Juniper got, and every one of our murdered trans siblings deserves. Trans women of color are more likely to be the victims of murder than any other group of queer people, and they need our solidarity, protection and support.

Trans Woman Eryka Caldwell Fatally Stabbed in Bushwick, Brooklyn

Caldwell’s boyfriend, 38-year-old Jonathan Fernandez, has been charged with murder.

[cloudofbutterflies]

Her family has a gofundme, please donate to them if you can so that they can transport her back home for her funeral.

Donate to Bringing Eryka Home for a Loving Farewell, organized by Loretta Worthy

My family is asking for help in the unexpected loss of my cousin, Eryka Caldw… Loretta Worthy needs your support for Bringing Eryka Home for

[transsexual-feminism]

Please donate!

[gracebutitsasecret]

I know some her family in Kentucky. People keep writing articles and think-pieces, but her family is hurting and needs help getting her home. If you've ever posted here about transmisogyny and the violence black trans women face, please take the time to donate!

[cloudofbutterflies]

Eryka Caldwell is a back trans woman who was murdered by her partner in her apartment last Sunday, and the story is getting a fraction of the attention that the murder of Juniper Blessing did. The police had already been called several times about her partners violence before her murder and did nothing, and she deserves the same outrage and mourning as Juniper got, and every one of our murdered trans siblings deserves. Trans women of color are more likely to be the victims of murder than any other group of queer people, and they need our solidarity, protection and support.

Trans Woman Eryka Caldwell Fatally Stabbed in Bushwick, Brooklyn

Caldwell’s boyfriend, 38-year-old Jonathan Fernandez, has been charged with murder.

[cloudofbutterflies]

Her family has a gofundme, please donate to them if you can so that they can transport her back home for her funeral.

Donate to Bringing Eryka Home for a Loving Farewell, organized by Loretta Worthy

My family is asking for help in the unexpected loss of my cousin, Eryka Caldw… Loretta Worthy needs your support for Bringing Eryka Home for

[transsexual-feminism]

Please donate!

[cloudofbutterflies]

Eryka Caldwell is a back trans woman who was murdered by her partner in her apartment last Sunday, and the story is getting a fraction of the attention that the murder of Juniper Blessing did. The police had already been called several times about her partners violence before her murder and did nothing, and she deserves the same outrage and mourning as Juniper got, and every one of our murdered trans siblings deserves. Trans women of color are more likely to be the victims of murder than any other group of queer people, and they need our solidarity, protection and support.

Trans Woman Eryka Caldwell Fatally Stabbed in Bushwick, Brooklyn

Caldwell’s boyfriend, 38-year-old Jonathan Fernandez, has been charged with murder.

[cloudofbutterflies]

Her family has a gofundme, please donate to them if you can so that they can transport her back home for her funeral.

Donate to Bringing Eryka Home for a Loving Farewell, organized by Loretta Worthy

My family is asking for help in the unexpected loss of my cousin, Eryka Caldw… Loretta Worthy needs your support for Bringing Eryka Home for

[transsexual-feminism]

Please donate!