a suffusion of yellow

currently living / [Don't share any personal identifiable information about yourself on the internet] years old.

[landmineblogging]

thanks. thanks for being around. thanks for knowing me. thanks for liking me. thanks for holding your hand out & saying here's a place you can be. thanks for another night

[landmineblogging]

thanks for staying. thanks for taking care of yourself. thanks for making me feel safer. thanks for enjoying the things that i enjoy. thanks for being kind. thanks for putting warmth in my chest when it gets tight. thanks for sharing your world with me. thanks for having a sense of humor. thanks for proving the worth of a human being where i've doubted it. thanks for leaving nice messages. thanks for your time

[landmineblogging]

thanks for waking up today. thanks for checking in on me. thanks for looking after your own well-being. thanks for staying hydrated. thanks for believing me when i tell you you're doing good. thanks for remembering my birthday. thanks for being a good listener. thanks for drawing me. thanks for being so expressive. thanks for letting me see your pets. thanks for tolerating my psychosis. thanks for putting others before yourself even when you should always be your own top priority. thanks for being selfless. thanks for offering me advice. thanks for reading. thanks for watching. thanks for listening. thanks for being you

[landmineblogging]

thanks for everything

[mumblesplash]

last year i started taking little walks around my neighborhood for enrichment and whatnot, see, and i’ve been more or less keeping up with them barring those 3 months i couldn’t walk. and there’s some pretty big hills around, so there’s some stairs on this route i like to take. and even though i know stairs are a bit of a workout, deep down it was a little embarrassing to me at first, realizing i’d let my cardio fitness slip so badly that i needed multiple breaks to catch my breath on a single staircase. it got better as i kept at it, of course, but i would still internally wince a little at the fact that i’d get so winded on those stupid stairs. they’re just some rickety old hillside stairs by my house, i thought, they shouldn’t take it out of me THIS badly

it was only within the past few months that i got to a point where i was like okay, this is reasonable. they’re not EASY, but if i pace myself i can take the stairs all at once without gasping for air. that’s not too bad. there’s room for improvement and i still get a little winded but that’s a reasonable amount of tired to be, i reckoned, it’s one staircase but it’s kind of a long staircase. i’d always known it was kinda long.

except i recently found out i was underselling it a bit, there. turns out it’s a VERY long staircase. it’s ‘appears in tour guides and news articles’ long, actually. it’s ’annual citywide step challenge event’ long. it’s ’i can’t tell you the number of steps without doxxing myself’ long. and for almost a year i had no idea, because it’s nearby and not very fancy looking and i thought it was just Some Stairs and i was really badly out of shape. but no, i’ve accidentally been doing insane superhell cardio this whole time. i’m pretty sure i’m currently in better shape than i was running cross country in high school. the big hill by my parents’ house feels like flat ground to me now.

i don’t even know where i’m going with this. i guess the point is sometimes you are not uniquely ill-equipped for a thing, sometimes that thing is actually just really difficult. and sometimes you don’t realize this and end up holding yourself to insane standards for no reason. but also this can end up benefiting you in the end? idk. maybe i should participate in that step challenge this year or something

[shmreduplication]

There's some guitar riff that is very fast and my brother thought he'd never be able to match it because the original guitarist is a virtuoso and my brother is just some guy

He was warming up for band practice one day and played it and the singer was very impressed and was like 'oh you're doing a speed challenge of that song' and my brother said no, he's trying to match the original speed but it's impossible because the original is too fast. They relistened to the song and it was slower than how my brother played it

[shmreduplication]

Takeru Kobayashi, the man who revolutionized competitive food eating contests, deliberately never looked up the world record while training for his first big hot dog eating contest in 2001

In 2000 the record was 25.5 in 12 minutes. In 2001, Kobayashi ate 50 hot dogs, almost doubling the record. The judges ran out of pre-made signs to track how many he had eaten and had to start making handwritten signs on the spot

There's a lot of positives with SMART goals (Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Relevant/Realistic, Timely), (i really recommend it for things with work/school or things that have a natural deadline that isn't set by you) but the flip side of that is Godhart's law: when a measurement becomes a target, it ceases to be a good measurement. If OP or my brother or Kobayashi had specific goals and checked their progress against it, it would have inhibited their ability to achieve what they ended up achieving

[teaboot]

I think that if you had enough daughters AND played your cards right you could spring Mambo Number Five out at the EXACT right gathering and shatter your entire family's trust forever

[teaboot]

The secret is to name them out of order with the lyrics so by the time anyone catches on it's too late

[teaboot]

For me personally the ideal gathering would be my funeral

[konoko]

[silverbridge-harbor]

A juvenile bug isn't called a larva until it reaches the surface. While it's still underground it's called a margma

[wonderarium]

this sewing pattern just touched me while i was in the middle of reading it

[reactionimagesdaily]

[manhcester]

fruit edition

are you a strawberry or raspberry person? a lemon or lime person? a mango or peach person? a pear or apple person?

[mumblesplash]

last year i started taking little walks around my neighborhood for enrichment and whatnot, see, and i’ve been more or less keeping up with them barring those 3 months i couldn’t walk. and there’s some pretty big hills around, so there’s some stairs on this route i like to take. and even though i know stairs are a bit of a workout, deep down it was a little embarrassing to me at first, realizing i’d let my cardio fitness slip so badly that i needed multiple breaks to catch my breath on a single staircase. it got better as i kept at it, of course, but i would still internally wince a little at the fact that i’d get so winded on those stupid stairs. they’re just some rickety old hillside stairs by my house, i thought, they shouldn’t take it out of me THIS badly

it was only within the past few months that i got to a point where i was like okay, this is reasonable. they’re not EASY, but if i pace myself i can take the stairs all at once without gasping for air. that’s not too bad. there’s room for improvement and i still get a little winded but that’s a reasonable amount of tired to be, i reckoned, it’s one staircase but it’s kind of a long staircase. i’d always known it was kinda long.

except i recently found out i was underselling it a bit, there. turns out it’s a VERY long staircase. it’s ‘appears in tour guides and news articles’ long, actually. it’s ’annual citywide step challenge event’ long. it’s ’i can’t tell you the number of steps without doxxing myself’ long. and for almost a year i had no idea, because it’s nearby and not very fancy looking and i thought it was just Some Stairs and i was really badly out of shape. but no, i’ve accidentally been doing insane superhell cardio this whole time. i’m pretty sure i’m currently in better shape than i was running cross country in high school. the big hill by my parents’ house feels like flat ground to me now.

i don’t even know where i’m going with this. i guess the point is sometimes you are not uniquely ill-equipped for a thing, sometimes that thing is actually just really difficult. and sometimes you don’t realize this and end up holding yourself to insane standards for no reason. but also this can end up benefiting you in the end? idk. maybe i should participate in that step challenge this year or something

[shmreduplication]

There's some guitar riff that is very fast and my brother thought he'd never be able to match it because the original guitarist is a virtuoso and my brother is just some guy

He was warming up for band practice one day and played it and the singer was very impressed and was like 'oh you're doing a speed challenge of that song' and my brother said no, he's trying to match the original speed but it's impossible because the original is too fast. They relistened to the song and it was slower than how my brother played it

[shmreduplication]

Takeru Kobayashi, the man who revolutionized competitive food eating contests, deliberately never looked up the world record while training for his first big hot dog eating contest in 2001

In 2000 the record was 25.5 in 12 minutes. In 2001, Kobayashi ate 50 hot dogs, almost doubling the record. The judges ran out of pre-made signs to track how many he had eaten and had to start making handwritten signs on the spot

There's a lot of positives with SMART goals (Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Relevant/Realistic, Timely), (i really recommend it for things with work/school or things that have a natural deadline that isn't set by you) but the flip side of that is Godhart's law: when a measurement becomes a target, it ceases to be a good measurement. If OP or my brother or Kobayashi had specific goals and checked their progress against it, it would have inhibited their ability to achieve what they ended up achieving

[azspot]

“Because the truth is, tech doesn’t have an image problem. It doesn’t have a message problem. It has an intention problem. What’s wrong with the axe murderer who broke into my house is not that he hasn’t successfully persuaded me to buy into his narrative. What’s wrong is that he’s trying to kill me with an axe. Similarly, when you launch a product that’s designed to put millions of people out of work, block access to sources of verifiable truth, replace human creativity with slop, and lower the barriers to every sort of atrocity, the problem isn’t that you haven’t told the public a good story about those things. The problem is that you are trying to do them.”

— The 40 Most Rage-Inducing Problems in Tech

[vooduude2]

My leftover pasta looked so beautiful in the microwave

[loucifersbitch]

everyone needs to get weirder, yes, but also get kinder. get more supportive. get more loving. be good to your fellow fans, especially the creatives who give you art and gifs and fics and fancams and and and. treat each other well because on tunglr dot hell, we are all neighbors. and neighbors look out for each other

[cuttledreams-bugs]

I deliver a friend feel free to spread it as you please

[vile-things]

[elierlick]

Thirty-year-old Tamara Rees shows us what trans empowerment looked like in 1954. She fought Nazis, taught parachuting, and traveled the world... but her biggest challenge came when the press learned of her identity.

1950s news coverage of Tamera Rees' transition shows a time before the trans moral panic. Most stories regarded her as brave or heroic for her openness. National newspapers even celebrated her wedding in 1955.

The New York Daily News, which now hosts daily anti-trans editorials, ran a shockingly respectful series on trans people in the 1950s. Tamara Rees's narrative was among the longest and most detailed. She thoughtfully implored the public to respect not only her identity, but also other trans people like her.

Tamara wasn't the first famous trans woman of the 1950s, nor was she the best known. However, she had a unique opportunity to share her own story. You can read Tamara's 1955 autobiography, Reborn: A Factual Life Story of a Transition from Male to Female, at transreads.org/reborn 

[hollygl125]

Amanda Root + Ciarán Hinds in PERSUASION (1995), dir. Roger Michell

“I must go, uncertain of my fate; but I shall return hither, or follow your party, as soon as possible. A word, a look, will be enough to decide whether I enter your father’s house this evening or never.”

– Jane Austen, Persuasion (1818).

@pscentral event 49: literature

[layaart]

Illustration based on The Works of Vermin. here's what i've been doing the last couple months 🐛