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𝓲𝔃𝔃𝔂 // 𝓳𝓸𝓻𝓷𝔂™ // 運命の赤い糸 // 𝓶𝓪𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓽 // 𝓰𝓾𝓲𝓭𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓮𝓼 // 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓶𝓲𝓼𝓼𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓼

[suhoerections]

Update

I'm alive!

TW// MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES AND GROOMING

And I was also a minor on this site lmao.

I want to start this off by saying I'm clearing the air for myself, to be honest. I'm not mentioning anyone or saying names or @ s but there are a lot of predators on this site.

When I first started reading smut I was in 8th grade. I was an A student in literature and was like you know what, I'm gonna try this. Made a reactions post and boom blew up. I loved the attention and I loved making people feel connected through my writing.

I struggled with mental health issues and finding a community that helped me deal with that was great. I was also 14 so I was extremely impressionable. And before you get pissed that I was a child on this site, I was coping with unresolved trauma from assault and it made me hypersexual. Projecting that helped.

I made friends, as you do, and some of those friends who were adults didn't have my best interest in mind but rather theirs. I was manipulated into writing hardcore BDSM smut for adults when I was 14/15. I was groomed and pressured into these sexual fantasies and being a scapegoat for people to carry them out.

It was terrible.

I was ashamed, disgusted, unsure, and didn't know what to do. I couldn't talk to any of my friends about it. I felt trapped and alone. It got to the point where it took up my whole life and I was carrying out these fantasies for people while neglecting important years of my schooling.

Around my 16th birthday, I left. I couldn't cope with it anymore and I cut everyone out of my life completely. I feel bad about this because I had two mutuals who genuinely were the best people I could have ever asked for to walk into my life. A Baekhyun and a Chanyeol stan so what do I expect lmao.

That being said, I was open about my age to mutuals I trusted and they accepted it. A lot of them were good and honestly never really discussed anything of smut agenda or if they did it was fleeting and lighthearted. They were good people, and they did nothing wrong. There was only one, in particular, that was bad and put me through a lot of mental and emotional trauma and abuse. I believe that a lot of my mutuals are good people and that they were not trying to be predators, like I said, it was mainly one.

Anyways that's what happened and that's why I left and that's why I'm never coming back. I'm almost 18 and I have my life on track. I'm going to become a Marine Biologist and I have my whole degree and life set up. I've recovered and am receiving psychiatric help.

Please if you are a minor, adults should not be your friend and you should not do ANYTHING you are uncomfortable with. Don't bend your boundaries for ANYONE. You deserve to be okay.

Thank you,

Suhoerections aka Izzy

[peonybane]

The Intimacy Anthology Directory

Welcome to the Intimacy Anthology! Here, we venture into the other side of intimacy– The sillier side. The sadder side. The sorrier side. The lovelier side.

The Intimacy Anthology is geared to be focused more on stories in which intimacy is NOT always perfect. And that’s what makes it… so more much more intimate.

After all, what could be more intimate than a good cry in the arms of someone that loves you– that wants you to be safe? More intimate than healing and learning to trust again in the arms of another? More intimate than baring an insecurity and being accepted, wholly, for it? More intimate than the laughter that comes after someone accidentally lets a loud one rip?

What is more intimate than being imperfect together?

If you would like to join this list of wonderful authors, please check out the Intimacy Anthology Project Call!

Sponsored by the @ksmutclub​!!!

Before we take a step though into each world of intimacy, please be warned that all intimacy comes at the price of feeling exposed in some way. To make sure you’re prepared to experience various forms of exposure, we’ve provided two different categories of potential warnings.

Hard warnings will include stories that discuss, but never explicitly show, topics such as: abuse, suicide, rape, etc. Once again I’d like to reiterate that these stories will not explicitly show these things. Instead, these stories will be focused on healing from these traumas. Most of these stories, do NOT have hard warnings.

Soft warnings will include things such as: anxiety, insecurities, discussion of identity, biological maladies (ex. Hypoglycemia or Female Orgasmic Disorder), etc.

Also, please be aware that because of the open formatting of this project, at this time, most of these stories will not have much information about them. Please check back in regularly to see story updates and reblogs!

BTS Masterlist

—with stories by @spicykoreantatertots​, @megahwn​, @holyfluffly​, @realwonderlust, @hobertopia​, @mygsii​, @joopiterjoon​, @jinyoungsir​, @thatmultifandomhoe​, @maliby​, @darknytemare​, @joonbugsdimples​ and @tipsydipsydo​

EXO Masterlist

— with stories by @suhoerections​, @j-pping​, @ninibears-erigom​, and more to come!

GOT7 Masterlist

—with stories by @jinyoungsir​, @neonun-au​, @shaylee-summerss-stuff​, @peonybane​, @mintjoonlep​, @jj-nyoung​, @ropeseok​, @holyfluffly​, and more to come!

Monsta X Masterlist

— with stories by @realwonderlust, @thatmultifandomhoe​, @ratchetmonstax​, @darknytemare​, and more to come!

NCT Masterlist

— with stories by @wangtuanian​, @boymeetsweevil​, and more to come!

Seventeen Masterlist

— with stories by @hobertopia​ and more to come!

The Rose Masterlist

— with stories by @flurrys-creativity​ and more to come!

VAV Masterlist

— with stories by @kesmonsterwrites​ and more to come!

VIXX Masterlist

— with stories by @neonun-au​, @darknytemare​, @peonybane​ and more to come!

Honorable Mentions

— with stories by @peonybane​, @mintjoonlep​, and more to come!

Will you join us and introduce even more stories (and maybe even groups) to the project?

Anthology edited by @peonybane​

Masterlist banners by @peonybane​

Updated: 2020.06.13

[suhoerections]

Artificial Love

➣ Genre: Smut || Angst

➣ Pairing: Chanyeol x reader || Sehun x reader 

➣ Warnings: Explicit Sex || angst || 

➣ Word count: 600~

Keep reading

[joolsreadsfics]

[joolsreadsfics]

I just realized I reblogged with this pic of my cat and I have no idea why I did that lol

[suhoerections]

I’m not complaining that’s a cute cat 🥰

[suhoerections]

“ i read fuckboy aus doesn’t mean i want one irl” I have nevER FELT SO SEEN BY A LINE OF TEXT IN MY GOD DAMN LIFE oh my godddddd this is the hugest fucking mood 🤧🤧🤧 rip I feel this on a spiritual level I’m rooting for ya home slice

SDKFJHDASKJF istg i hate boys esp the ugly ones who think they’re top shit but have a cashew under their belt istg but damn frick boys who aren’t frick boys but still frick you around 🤠 i’m about to leave the chat fr fr i hate this shit but its fine uwu because you know karma will hopefully bite them in the dick 🥰 anyways keep away from the fuckboys bby i bet we could get us a noice soft boy™ or at least one that wont fuck us around or maybe a nice goth gf with tig bitties if u swing that way too 😌 anyways i’m rooting for u too home slice keep up the good work 

[suhoerections]

i hope yall know i’m an egirl irl 

[suhoerections]

man, i just saw ur posts and like,,, u okay there? 🥺 deadass boys can suck sometimes :(

hey i’m sorry i didn’t get this for a while my inbox been stuffing up lately 🥺 but yeah fr i’m kinda just simping for a fuckboy atm but he’s not a fuckboy at the same time he just plays me like one because you know boys suck 🥰 but i’ll be fine uwu 

[suhoerections]

Thank you, your post just made me finally realize what bl*e lives matter actually refers to, like i was confusedly wondering where blue skinned people live, god I'm so sorry for my brain capacity, ,

oh dw bby i was like wtf are blue lives for a hot minute til my friend explained it to me 🥰 it would be cool if people had blue skin though i reckon it’d be rlly pretty 🥺 but damn fr doe i’m finna bout to BASH a bitch who says bl*e lives matter because fuck cops fuck that shit the only guy in uniform i respect is the spec ops guys like damn fuck cops 1312 acab uwu

[suhoerections]

don’t feel bad for dropping people who are racist, even if they are your friends, especially if you’ve tried to educate them and they’ve just been rude and racist back 🥰

[suhoerections]

why does no one address the fact that ur cooter literally never shuts the fuck up when u have sex like its queef after queef 

[peonybane]

The Intimacy Anthology Project Call

Welcome to the Intimacy Project! Here, we’ll be exploring the other side of intimacy– The sillier side. The sadder side. The sorrier side. The lovelier side.

The Intimacy Anthology is geared to be focused more on stories in which intimacy is NOT always perfect. And that’s what makes it… so more much more intimate.

After all, what could be more intimate than a good cry in the arms of someone that loves you– that wants you to be safe? More intimate than healing and learning to trust again in the arms of another? More intimate than baring an insecurity and being accepted, wholly, for it? More intimate than the laughter that comes after someone accidentally lets a loud one rip?

What is more intimate than being imperfect together?

Guidelines/Information:

Minimum Word Count: 2,000 words.

Can be ANY group (boy group, girl group, co-ed group, soloists)

All those involved (reader/OC and idols) MUST be 18+ (I will be double checking for idol’s current ages.)

Any type of pairing ( fxm, fxf, mxm, poly, etc.). While I will not outright say no to member x member stories, I will highly discourage them because I do not think they would fit in with this project. That being said, it is to be expected in a poly story.

Discussion of Trauma is allowed, but with limitations. Trauma (ex. abuse) may be discussed in the story. BUT the trauma CANNOT be the main focal point/described directly. If you choose to work with a story that involves trauma, the focus of the story needs to be on the healing. If you do decide to go this route, I need to know as soon as possible.

You may submit up to three (3) separate stories. Each story would need to be for a different idol(s).

Each idol will have a limit of two (2) stories written for them (Because of BTS’s popularity, I will allow up to three (3) under extenuating circumstances). I want to encourage people to write outside of their comfort zones and to explore with this project. Poly stories will not be counted towards this limit, instead they will be added as their own “idol.” I will be keeping a running list of idols that have been claimed attached to the bottom of this post.

To be accepted into this project, please reblog this post and send me a DM with what you want to write!

When you’ve finished your story, please send me another DM with the link to your story and I will add it to the masterlist.

When you post your story, please also include a link to the masterlist for the project somewhere on there as well as a list of warnings.

Also please let me know if you’d like to join the project discord.

AUs are highly encouraged as well. The story can be whatever you want, it just has to fit under the given parameters of the project.

It can be as explicit or inexplicit as you want– you just have write a story that fits the parameters of the project.

Previously written works/ongoing series cannot be accepted into the project. However, I can make an honorable mention section in the masterlist.

EDIT (IMPORTANT): While my intention of this project, was to focus on things that can be related to smut, it was brought to my attention that I didn’t explicitly state that. Because that that, I will be accepting non-sexual stories. I just ask that whatever you choose to write about, it needs to be intimate. And what I mean by this is that it needs to focus, even vaguely on the idea of love, of caring, of reassurance, of trusting, without the fear of rejection. 

Schedule:

Accepting applications: May 29th, 2020 to August 29th, 2020.

Masterlist posted: June 12th, 2020 (unless someone finishes their story sooner, then it will be posted then.)

Posting Dates: June 1st, 2020 to September 30th, 2020.

Accepted Authors:

@peonybane​, @ropeseok​, @holyfluffly​, @abangtanfangirl​, @mintjoonlep​, @jinyoungsir​, @ratchetmonstax​, @realwonderlust, @spicykoreantatertots​, @megahwn​, @joopiterjoon​, @flurrys-creativity​, @ninibears-erigom​, @jj-nyoung​, @wangtuanian​, @maliby​, @hobertopia​

Idols list and Prompt ideas below the cut!

Keep reading

[suhoerections]

i hate how cishet white men can’t even admit they’re privileged...

[myeoning-call]

Suho 200602

Time to scream in all languages!!!!!!

[suhoerections]

please be safe if you’re protesting ! don’t forget your face masks and acab energy ! 

[lq-pcy]

♡

[suhoerections]

@mayrubyy

[dotaesgone]

yes chenle, we agree

[ofkimtaehyung]

BLACK LIVES MATTER - RAISE AWARENESS

On May 25, 2020, George Floyd was slowly and mercilessly killed by 4 Minneapolis police officers while being videotaped by concerned citizens begging them to stop. Floyd was surrounded and brutally dealt with by the police as Derek Chauvin’s knee pinned down his throat. Floyd kept screaming “I can’t breathe! I can’t breathe!” but they didn’t listen. He then became unresponsive but was continually choked until his nose began to bleed, and his lifeless body was shoved into a stretcher and into the back of an ambulance.

The officers involved have been fired and the FBI has been called to investigate. But we must do our part to ensure that George Floyd receives the justice he deserves. Please sign these petitions addressed to the FBI, The President, The Minnesota Bureau of Criminal Apprehension, The Minneapolis Police Department, & DA Mike Freeman. An email on your behalf will be sent to all of the above. The lawyer representing Floyd’s family, civil rights attorney Ben Crump, urges us to call DA Mike Freeman (612-348-5550) and tell him to arrest and charge these officers for the Murder of George Floyd, I encourage you to do so.

SIGN THESE PETITIONS:

https://www.change.org/p/mayor-jacob-frey-justice-for-george-floyd

https://www.change.org/p/change-org-the-minneapolis-police-officers-to-be-charged-for-murder-after-killing-innocent-black-man

https://www.change.org/p/department-of-justice-mandatory-life-sentence-for-police-brutality

https://www.change.org/p/mayor-jacob-frey-justice-for-george-floyd-2

https://sign.moveon.org/petitions/justiceforfloyd-demand-the-police-officers-who-killed-george-floyd-are-fired

https://go.theactionpac.com/sign/justice-for-george-floyd?akid=s126290..-x2Vhw

https://go.theactionpac.com/sign/stand-with-breonna?akid=s170063..jxQ_ei

FOR THE PEOPLE WHO LIVE INTERNATIONALLY: if you cannot sign without american postal codes, feel free to use these:

90015 - Los Angeles, California 10001 - New York City, New York 75001 - Dallas, Texas

DONATE TO GEORGE FLOYD’S FAMILY:

https://www.gofundme.com/f/georgefloyd

TEXT “FLOYD” TO 55156!

TEXT “JUSTICE” TO 668366!

If you want to be educated and informed more, refer to the official page for #BlackLivesMatter:

https://blacklivesmatter.com/

[suhoerections]

i read fuckboy aus doesn’t mean i want one irl 😔