I think like. The thing I keep coming back to about the Murderbot show is that I cannot remember ever seeing another tv show give an âOhâ moment to platonic love.
But my god, when Murderbot shows Mensah Sanctuary Moon to help with her panic attack. You see her look at it, and you see her realizeâŠ
Yes, she has been thinking of Murderbot as a person, thatâs why she went back for it at the DeltFall habitat. But itâs all been very theoreticalâthe way you might help a stranger up if they fall, but that doesnât mean you want to get to know them. It doesnât mean youâve reckoned with their interiority.
But as Murderbot murmurs, âBreathe, breathe, breathe the crystal lightâ to itself, you see it all click into place for Ayda Mensah.
This terror sheâs experiencing? All-consuming and confusing and soul-crushing? SecUnit has felt this. And it had to face it aloneânot just in the sense that there has never been anyone to offer it comfort, but in the sense that no one even thought that itâit as an entity, it as a being capable of fearâexists.
So it found this show. And Mensah has been so pissed at it for potentially getting them all killed because it thought a stupid fucking soap opera mattered, but oh, oh, oh fuck, this show is the only thing in the universe that has ever given it comfort. This show has offered it context and escapism and asked for nothing in return. It absolutely is critical matériel.
And that brings her to now, to herself, to herself and Murderbot. This person next to her, who she is technically in possession of, who has had to claw and scrape for even a thimbleful of peace, who was only able to protect that peace by never ever ever letting anyone know it existed. She and her team have ripped away its impossibly precious privacy, exposed its secrets⊠and here it is handing her part of its soul anyway, because in this moment she needs it.
Because it knows what itâs like to be scared and alone, and does not want her to feel that way.
And so she falls in love, and you get to watch it happen.
My ace ass has a lot of messy feelings about love and the way it appears on screen. Few things have hit me as hard as getting to witness the exact moment Dr. Ayda Mensahâs soul met Murderbotâs and decided it was home.
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