The Proud Somewhat-Witch, Sunny!

Hello! I am Sunny! I am a minor currently, and am secretly practicing witchcraft. I'm still fairly new to Paganism though even if it has been a few months since I've joined the religion by now, and I do have a different set of beliefs, so please be patient with me lmao. The main deities I worship are Hermes, Lillith, Aphrodite, Ares, Hecate, Lady Isis, and Apollo!

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Helllooooo!! I am Sunny, and this is a blog for my experiences with Paganism, my deities, and my experiences with attempting to learn Witchcraft since I've always been very drawn to it. Keep in mind, I'm still kinda new into this, so if I make any mistakes, please be gentle with me. I have my own set of beliefs regarding Paganism—which I will list along with other info here.

Beliefs

- Magic and Witchcraft

- Basically every God out there

- Soul Parents

- Astral Projection

- The Multiverse

- Clairaudience

- Messages through dreams

- Past Lives

Deities I worship: Aphrodite, Hermes, Hecate, Apollo, Ares, Lillith, Lady Isis, (and Hades?? I think?? He is my mentor guide apparently, so—).

Relationships with my deities!

Soul parents: Hermes, Aphrodite, Lady Isis, Thor.

(EDITED: Lord Zeus and Lady Hera may also be my soul parents??? Unsure)

Mentors: Hades, Hecate (according to her, she knew me in a past life and was my mentor before and is still my mentor now), Ares.

Sibling figures or other familial figures of mine: Odysseus (like a dad to me), Apollo (like a brother and uncle to me), Zeus (like a very respected dad to me but also a mentor).

Deities I've spoken to but am not sure what the word for my relationship with them is yet lmao: Lord Konshu, Lord Loki, Jesus Christ (apparently according to a reading I did one time), The Morrigan (who is one of my guides), Lady Nyx, Lady Eos, Lady Thalassa, Lady Hera, etc.

Dionysus, Apollo and Aphrodite have also had a presence in my life since childhood! But I've recently gotten back into contact with Dionysus cuz I unironically missed him and decided to reach out 😭😭

I will say this here and now—again, I am using alternative means of communication for stuff like Tarot right now, and I happen to own a Pendulum and can do coin readings. But I am in no way reliable for private or public readings right now jdhdj. Least I don't think I am. I also communicate with my deities through things I sense or through my gut feelings too??? But I'm not sure how reliable that would be for a tarot reading.

I also see every deity who's related to my soul parents as related to me as well, so I see deities like Eros and Hermaphrodite as my siblings even if I haven't spoken to them yet lol. I know they aren't technically, but I can't help but see em that way./lh

Either way, I don't wanna start shit, and I want this to be a fairly peaceful blog about my Pagan Journey, so please don't try fighting me! Other than that, I have no problems with whoever interacts as long as they don't act stupid or creepy or weird./gen

With that being said, let's get things started!

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Woke up to the sounds of two birds loudly chattering/chirping this morning. I know theres always a chance it could just be two birds, but a part of me wonders if it was a sign from Lord Hermes AND Lord Apollon due to something I said yesterday. 🥹

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apollo's light melts ice

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Haven't posted here in forever—BUT THIS IS TRUE.

May Lord Apollon melt Ice, and rid of their control forever.

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Just casted a curse for the first time in a while. Feeling good (and nervous). /lh

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Pagan Age Regressors!! • Community on Tumblr

Just a community for those who are Pagan and also an age regressor of some kind.

A community for people who are Pagan and also Age Regressors specifically!

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Saying this now—there's no need to worry about being 'tricked' or doing something 'wrong' in Paganism. Trust me. These are God's we're talking about. They are all powerful beings (who, yes, cannot change everything that happens in the world, but are definitely powerful enough to the point you can trust them) who will hear your name when you speak it, they will hear you when you'd like to communicate, they will hear you when you pray. Trickster spirits, regardless of if you think they're around or not, cannot impersonate a deity. If that happened, a deity would strike them down. You don't need to be afraid. Trust me. Your God's have got you. From my understanding, the relative the God's have to us is a bit like a parent to a child. They are the ones who know better here and have actual power. Your God's are taking care of you, no matter how close or distant you are with them.

And, for the last time—no, your God's don't hate you. And yes, they DO care about you. They have shown me of plenty of times that they care through various signs and have told me they love me. And they have done the same with others. Just because you're distant with some of your deities or have insecurities that you might be projecting onto your deities doesn't mean you get to yell at people that their God's don't like them. (Seriously—if you take the time out of your day to try and make someone think that their God's don't care for them, then you're absolutely miserable. You aren't 'better'. You don't 'know your place'. You're just an asshole.)

Also, everyone's practice is different, because every human has different wants and needs, and different lessons to learn. So don't go shitting on people for having a different type of practice than you. Or for having different experiences.

All I want for people to know is that the deities have got us all, and will take care of us. If they didn't care about us or want to work with us, they wouldn't get involved with us, and they wouldn't openly stick around and talk to us sometimes. Don't worry about some Pagans on the internet with a superiority complex fool you into thinking they won't take care of us and that they don't care for you. /gen

(Maybe my experiences are different since my practice as of lately has been focused on me being an age regressor and letting myself be a kid for once, but I do know that my deities take care of me and ensure that I know they love me. In fact, it appears to me that most deities love their worshippers and devotees. People just unknowingly let their own insecurities and fears get the best of them, and even the need to 'know their place' because they're too afraid of 'disrespecting' their deities. The only thing you need to recognize is when you may be unknowingly causing yourself too much worry or stress because of your personal problems, which your deities will help you through if you let them.)

(Either way, just don't be a dick to other Pagans. And maybe learn to admit when you might just be letting your anxieties and stresses get the best of you. I get that people have issues, but that's not an excuse to yell at people and project your own issues onto them and also your deities.)

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I haven't posted here in a bit, but I've been incorporating age regression a lot into my practice as of late, especially since I may be a Permaregressor. My deities have adjusted to this by acting sweeter to me (not that they weren't sweet already but still) and always treat me like I'm small, which I appreciate. It's nice being treated like I'm small by them.

Lord Hermes (along with Lord Apollo, Lord Ares, Lady Aphrodite, and more) has been the one usually helping out though—like talking to me, comforting me, doing child-like things with me, etc. It's nice—I just kinda can't help but wonder why that is. Like I kinda wonder if that has anything to do with his domains or something.

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I talked with Lord Hermes (during a reading) earlier about different things he could use to symbolize me if he was like trying to channel messages to me or something, and he ended up picking wolves (the animal) to symbolize me—I got curious, and ended up finding out Hermes was referred to as 'the hungry wolf' in one particular story. Not that it really means anything—I just find it kinda neat lol.

Wolves also apparently symbolize Lord Apollo, who I'm a devotee for, so that's cool—

Oh, and wolves also means independence and intelligence? And I'd say I'm pretty intelligent and independent, or at least I'm described that way a lot when it comes to spiritual meanings, so that's cool./lh

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Started doing meditations with Lord Hermes. I've never felt more loved in my life tbh—talking to him as a trouble.

I think if I do more, he's gonna mainly work on showing myself love in times of anxiety (I usually beat myself up when I'm anxious or get mad at myself for being anxious) since anytime I meditate, Lord Hermes usually makes me show affection to myself or keeps saying praises about me. I always swear I can feel his hand patting my head whenever I meditate.

I'll have to ask if that's what he's mainly making me meditate for though. He seems pretty affectionate to me anytime we do, or at least, he acts affectionate to me, and makes me do things to help with my self-love during meditation. So I sorta guessed it was to help with my anxiety somewhat—

I like meditation with my guides though. I'm gonna start doing that more.

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..welp—guess who's both a Lord Apollo AND Lady Hecate devotee now/silly

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Sharing this story cuz I wanna see what other Pagans think—

I remember when the election happened not too long ago, and Trump was sworn into office, I had been angry. No one was doing anything. Everyone seemed to be in anguish. I was so angry. I wanted to do something. And so, I made a bit of a reckless decision. I almost did, anyway. I won't say what I was going to do, since it was a very stupid choice to make at such a young age. Especially since I'm sixteen. But all I'll say is that I prayed to Lady Athena, Lord Ares and even Odysseus for guidance regarding what I was going to do.

However, when I talked to my deities about how they personally felt about the choice I was going to make, they all seemed to strongly disapprove. When I asked why, the answer was simple: I was too young, and I wasn't ready, and I could not endanger myself like that. I complied, but I was enraged at everything. I even strongly considered going against their advice and doing it anyway.

But then, something happened.

During a Shufflemancy session, Lord Hermes (I believe) played Achilles, Come Down. As I listened, it became more apparent to me that he and the other God's were actively trying to prevent me from making an emotional decision that would actively endanger me and possibly my life. Especially with lyrics like 'You're scaring us and all of us / Some of us love you Achilles / It's not much, but there's proof', and even 'It's not worth it, Achilles / Don't listen, Achilles'. It felt like I was 'Achilles', and they were talking to me. As I listened, I felt slowly more and more convinced not to act on my anger, and eventually, I agreed not to do what I was considering doing, deciding maybe I really wasn't as ready as I thought I'd be, and that I couldn't endanger myself at such a young age.

Even now, sometimes, my anger leads to me wanting to do what I was very much considering doing. But I always remember what my God's told me. I cannot brave such dangers while I'm so young and have so much ahead of me. I will do my best to be strong despite everything, for the sake of my deities.

I wish luck upon everyone during this time. If anything terrible happens to my fellow Pagans, may the God's be with you all during it.

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..Lord Aeolus apparently wants to work with me—huh. It's kinda weird I never saw that coming. 😭/lh

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Nightly reflection in honor of Lord Hermes, Lady Hecate, and The Morrigan!

I think whenever I finally leave my mom's house, I'm gonna go talk to a therapist. I dunno if I can right now since she tends to get pissy if she's criticized a lot, not saying the therapist would criticize her—but there's a chance. And I just frankly don't wanna have to deal with my family being in charge of me going to therapy or not, so I think I'll go once I'm of legal age. For the sake of my deities.

Considering I discovered that I may possibly have a repressed memory of being sexually assaulted by someone, it may be necessary I go to therapy anyway before anything else happens.

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Nightly reflection in honor of Lady Aphrodite, Lady Hecate, The Morrigan, and Lord Hermes.

I'm not really sure why I'm prone to ignoring certain things when I don't wanna confront it. Maybe it's because I'm afraid of being yelled at or worse? I dunno. Point is, it's kind of a problem. I think being yelled at so many times in the past is probably what's causing it. It's a little hard not to shake or cry when someone's screaming at me. I remember in class one time, I started to nearly cry because of how someone started to scream, and it wasn't even directed at me.

I gotta figure out how to confront people directly somehow. I handle things quietly/'safely' too often, I think.

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I fucking love Lord Hermes so much. I almost teared up cuz of a really sweet sign he sent me when I was feeling anxious./pos/p

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Lord Hermes is gonna be so proud of me :DDDD!!

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I had an intrusive thought that I kept apologizing to Lord Apollo for over and over and ended up crying to him about because I genuinely didn't know where it came from. I feel fine now and more calm—I feel sick anyway so maybe that's why I feel kinda weird today. I dunno. I prayed to him to help me with my sickness once I calmed down enough to speak properly.

Lord Apollo wasn't even mad it seemed. He just stayed with me and comforted me til I felt better. But I feel weird for the thought I had in the first place even though I shouldn't since I know they're just intrusive thoughts. I feel guilty anyway though.

I think I'm just gonna rest for a while and wait til he gets back. I said I'd talk with him later today anyway.