After stuff has happened, I find that Iām tired of not doing things I enjoy. One of those things among many is writing. Iām excited to start sharing that enjoyment here with you, and maybe-just maybe⦠we can be friends?
I write for Suo Hayato from Wind Breaker specifically for now but, Iām hoping to branch out pretty soon :)
Warnings: Angst, Minor character death mentioned, my portrayal of Suoās eventual emotional growth, o/c is taller, SLOW slow burn, Written pre-chapter 210.
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After their exchange that day, he often asked her questions about the flora of the west, Sana having a sense of deja-vu as this version of his senior sheād known asking identical questions almost word-for-word. They were sly, rooted in humor, and possessing double meanings that inadvertently told him more about her. Frustratingly enough, she knew when to hold her tongue, every answer short and almost clipped. Their days blurred together, Suo only recognizing the passing of time through Sanaās routine. It became easier to step outside and see her there, a feeling other than that of a rock at the bottom of a pond filling his soul with a tinge of affectionā¦
ā¦though he knew the cliche implication, it was hard not to admire her there.
Her eyes had a tint of violet to them. Her height was equal if not taller than his own. Her hair lacked pigment all the way to her eyelashes. Her clothes were all second-hand and patched neatly with care, the love for the past shining in everything about her.Ā
These were all things heād observed of Sana Isla. Her features were the blankest of canvases and yet her hands worked as if joy was nestled somewhere at the bottom of the soil as she dug, and maybe she thought so, considering the warmth in her expression as a sapling settles into the soil. She valued old and new.
That being said, trying though he might to get a rise out of her, she was a still statue in the pristine grass.
Sana felt like she was being tested with his pestering. What purpose does it serve him to be infatuated with her? She kept herself busy, the bigger problem on the cork board in the shed eating at her like a pincher bug nipping at her ears.Ā
She felt that itching discomfort once more as the June sun burned high in the sky one afternoon, the shadow of the shed looming ominously over her as she wore the same withered expression she had every day she came to work. She grabbed the handle of the heavy door, confident wrist and elbow yanking on one side to slide it open. She peered inside a moment but quickly slid it shut again, a tick in her eyebrow and her eyes half-lidded. Her chest rose and fell as a long, loud sigh tore through her, one that usually was acknowledged only by the cat.
This day, however, she wasnāt so lucky. A voice-now familiar- cut through her stupor,
āNot today either, Miss Sana?ā
Suo asked, a few feet away. Heād happened upon her once again as he had been coming down the path from the dojo, the shade of the overhanging magnolia failing to hide her disposition. Sana flinched at the unexpected voice, startled as she turned her head to meet his eye. His was full of an understanding without words that made her own widen. The question was pleasant, ringing like a bell in her ears and a wave of guilt bloomed in her chest. The use of āeitherā insinuated a first time, and made her wonder how long ago heād seen her there.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā She had a strong squeeze on her gloves as she turned to face him, the fluster in her demeanor new and obvious to Suo. A small titter escaped Suoās lips in response. Her face scrunched in veiled annoyance, reminding Suo of a startled cat.Ā
āOh- Iām sorry, was there a deadline? Nobody mentioned to me if there wasā¦ā
She replied, tone even. Rather than torture her any more today, Suo shook his head a little.Ā
āAt ease, soldier. Thereās nothing like that,ā
He teased, a bit of playfulness seeping into his voice. He tilted his head downward a little, eye glancing up at her downturned face. Her grip on her gloves slackened slightly, eyes pooling with a sense of grief she couldnāt seem to shake despite it all.Ā
āIām a little curious about whatās in that shed youāve seemed so troubled by.ā
He added, her eyes finally coming in contact with his in an unnaturally timid way. He truly wasnāt expecting to see any other part of her except maybe the polite dodging of familiarity. It was an answer he wanted to know, but was unprepared for his mourning to reflect back at him.Ā
Her eyes flickered to the metal door before they slid shut as she sighed.Ā
āItās⦠itās his handwriting,ā
She muttered, wringing her gloves once more. Suo furrowed his brow slightly.Ā
āAs inā¦itās not legible?ā
He asked, trying to understand.Ā
Sana shook her head, expression solemn.Ā
āI just- I⦠knew āim for a long time⦠itāsā¦tough.ā
She admitted, a quiet volume amid the playful birdsong. She felt her chest drop into that all-too familiar place, one that she often had to distract herself to break free of. This time, however, she had her boss in front of her. Embarrassment joined her feelings as his expression became unreadable, his eye flickering upward and past her.Ā
His feet seemed to carry him on their own, although in Sanaās eyes he held a determination sheād not yet seen before. Suo stopped in front of the shed door, pulling the handle to slide it further over its tracks. The squeak was loud enough to echo, and he had to use some force to do so.Ā
āHow did she slam these earlier?ā
He mused, entering the shade of the shed with his eye adjusting. He took in the way the interior had been organized with care, scanning until he saw it: pinned to a board was a large white diagram, notes scattered in English, Japanese, and Mandarin in various areas. There, indeed, was his masterās scrawled writing.Ā
The diagram depicted different options for trees and flowers, a corner specifically circled that contained a vegetable and herb garden, the arrangement similar to a floral bed.Ā
Sana had timidly joined him at the mouth of the shed, peering in to watch him. She was beginning to understand how deeply connected to him Suo must have been, wondering now what his thoughts might be to see his handwriting once more.
His eyepatch obscured his expression to her, however. Instead, she saw only the upturn of his lips that soon uttered bitterly,
āWho knew he could write so messily?ā
He let out a little chuckle, Sana finally swallowing her shyness and stepping into the shed with him. She noted the way he said it, the tone less polite and more exposed.
āDid he write neat in the past?ā
She asked, stopping as she stood next to him, eyes trained on the board with defeat.Ā
āYeah. He was pretty strict back then.ā
Suo shared tone changing back to its casual air. Images shuttered behind his eyelid of memories heād forgotten while Sanaās remained trained on the characters,a finger brushing over one of them absently. They stood in their own noisy thoughts for a moment.
āā¦are the English notes yours, then?ā
He asked her, making her head turn to face him. She nodded, eyes flickering over to where her finger pointed and dragging it upward toward a corner near the dojo.Ā
āHe wanted that vegetable bed to go here. I said it wouldnāt work, mainly because of that forest behind there, rabbits⦠He took my word for it, so we were wondering where to put it until I started mapping it out, I figure⦠edible flowers mixed in like wild violets and melons next to each other, maybe some string beans or snow peas over here-ā
She was pointing this way and that with her finger, forgetting the company she was with for a moment. The description created imagery for Suo who listened intently, noting the way her voice flowed so easily when the topic was familiar to her.
It made his smile grace his features a bit more as she rambled, his ears catching her rich voice and informal speech, the way her āRās over-rolled just a tad, and her sentences clipped a bit awkwardly. Heād come to the conclusion that it took a moment for her to translate when she spoke, her curtness not meant to cause offense, but instead reveal the remains of a language barrier.
āThen, I was lookinā into it and I found out that the place it would be better is around here-ā
She slid her finger again over across the diagram, towards his direction, her arm crossing into Suoās vision. When it didnāt quite reach the area Sana was talking about, he pointed to it himself, their index fingers meeting in the middle. Her eyebrows shot up in surprise.
āā¦here?ā
He asked, tilting his head a little.Ā
That soft āyeahā¦ā escaped her lips again, flustered by the way it felt to be in his space. She pulled her hand away as she said it, her hand joining the other that still gripped the gloves.
āAre youā¦lonely? Working on his property without him, I mean.ā
He asked, facing her now. Suo knew it was really him that was the lonely one, but as she nodded again, it caused relief in him that he didnāt know could exist.Ā
āI wanna keep doing what he wanted⦠but, I find myself stopping midway. Iā¦thought I needed his guidance, yāknow?ā
She uttered, eyes flickering away from him to the gloves in her hand again.Ā
āBut⦠I donāt wanna do something you wouldnāt want. You inherited it, after all.ā
She said, to which Suo nodded thoughtfully.Ā
āMiss Sana, letās meet in the middle,ā
He began, guiding her out of the shed with an ushering hand so as to keep their grief at bay.Ā
āWe were both a part of his life⦠I donāt think itād be too difficult to collaborate on something that honors both of our memories of him,ā
He explained, eye drifting towards the plot that lay bare.
The area was clear, prepared and even had decorative mulch. Sana realized the excessive care sheād given the vacant plot and bristled slightly in embarrassment as they approached it.Ā
āI-uhā¦I guess I put more energy than I shoulda into keepinā it clearā¦ā
Suo chuckled a little in response.Ā
āOh Iād say if itās something you care about, why not put extra effort right?ā
Sana nodded a little,eyes drifting to him once again. He always seemed to know what to say. He met her gaze with a pleasant smile before he turned away from her.Ā
āYes-well⦠The next time you look at that shed so dejectedly, feel free to ask for my help⦠Iām always here, after allā¦ā
Working with Suo on the plans was far more insightful than his master, but definitely not as personal.Ā
On a surprisingly cool day later in June, Sana reflected, hands busy with a spade making holes for the shrubs. It was an early morning, the shade of dawn blanketing the garden.Ā
āDespite everythingā¦ā
She mused as she dug,
āI donāt think Iāve learned much about himā¦ā
This was true, her mind drifting to the way her open questions seemed to create craters of missing information, even as he came to help her plant saplings and sprouts. Vague mentions of a city far away, friends and comrades of unknown origins, and teachings stemming from his master were all that escaped his lips as they chatted through June.
She understood it better than anyone, wanting to withhold things that failed to enrich her away from where it wasnāt needed. Who wanted to hear the sob story of the half-abandoned half-and-half girl with what felt like useless knowledge? Even so, he seemed to listen and remember. This closeness was completely one-sided, and it bothered her about as much as how much she thought about him.Ā
The sun rose over the trees, an arc of contrast sheening over the property as if a blind had been raised. As it did so, Suoās shadow preceded him in her sight, that look adorning his face once again. Turbulent.Ā
Sana gravitated toward him, not far from the porch.Ā
āā¦you seem so lonely.ā
She mumbled when she approached him, his eye shifting to meet her frame.Ā
āLonelyā¦you think so, huh?ā
He asked, head tilting up with the same mask raised to her. The vacancy of it was soon replaced with curiosity as her next words surprised him.
Her chin rested on the hilt of the spade as she leaned on it lazily.
āI mean, thereās probably not a lotta people you know yet in town, otherwise theyād be coming to bug yaā-oh, but maybe thatās rude?ā
She rambled, realizing sheād pried too obviously.
Suo paused a little, holding back emotions still much heavier than heād had before. She was doing it again, clumsiness becoming so charming that he couldnāt help the smile that cracked on his features. This was still easy to break away from, which he was grateful for.Ā
āIām hurt, Sana. You think I canāt make any friends?ā
He joked, leaning back on his hands on the engawa floor. His sly eye watched her panic internally as she waved a hand at the wrist dismissively.Ā
āNot what I said, and you know it,ā
She wagged her finger accusingly, nose scrunched in annoyance. He scoffed a laugh.
āSounds like youāre lonely just as much,ā
He said, rising from his casual position to stand on the engawa, the railing the only thing separating them. Sana had to look up at him from here, his expression provoking a change in the atmosphere to something more personal.
Her eyes were something Suo had had a hard time looking away from recently. Sana had a penetrating gaze, light like clear water, but hardly readable, even with all of his experience.
Similarly, Sanaās gaze was trapped in a pool of the darkest raspberry honey, there being so much to dig at, so many questions that were disrespectful to ask. Instead, she lets him win, giving a piece of her sorrow for him to do with what he will.
āHow dāya figure, smart guy?ā
She grumbled, hiding her lower face in her forearms.Ā
Sheād been caught off guard with his questions often enough to know heād bite for this one, his eyebrow raising slightly.
āIsnāt it a bit irregular to work so hard so far away from town? The last time I was there, only high schoolers were anywhere near our age.ā
Anyone could see what Suo really wanted to know with a question like that. Though delivered as a tease, his eye was keen. Sana huffed a little in response before turningĀ towards the hills backing the cypress forest beyond.Ā
āYou think I work here all day long just to look atchya? Awfully confident,ā
She quipped, irritation and defensiveness in her voice.Ā
Suo watched her ponytail dance like spiderās silk in the golden light. Unable to resist it anymore, he found himself subconsciously reaching for a strand of it, rolling the fair tresses in his fingertips. It was as soft as this moment, a tenderness overtaking the teasing edge of his words,
āI didnāt think that until you just gave yourself away,ā
He said with a light chuckle, the hair heād captured running through his fingers as she turned her head to look at him in annoyance.Ā
āNo, itās-ā
āHm? What, cat got your tongue?ā
She scoffed. Her cheeks had dusted in a sweet fuchsia. Sana wondered how many others had seen the expression he wore now, evenness dampening the mirth and tenderness it carried.Ā
Her eyes lowered as if to conceal the mental gymnastics she was performing, unsure of what to make of what she DID know. In the end, she couldnāt stop her mouth from running away from her, heart racing with anxiety and some other force she knew nothing of.
ā⦠Itās hard not to.ā
His eye widened at the candor of her words, a rise in his chest at the break in her frigidity. Delight filled him as he saw the warmth in her cheeks. There was a spark of something knowing in her gaze for a moment that disappeared as she grew embarrassed and turned away, spade rising from the soil. Suo laughed as he watched her smooth gait before finally shouting after her,
āWell~ what would you do without me, then?ā
She scoffed once more, her chin turning over her shoulder to give him a warning look before Hayase interrupted their verbal chess.
Sana watched a natural smile grace his face as he spoke with Hayase, though his eye flickered back to her once, closing in what Sana could only assume was a wink.
What she didnāt see was the tick in his brow, the way he stewed on her words, both the compliment and the unintended criticism.Ā
Ā A week later, the sound of low voices arguing surprised Sana as she raked up trimmings, heavy footsteps crunching on gravel unceremoniously. As was the case with Suoās arrival, Sana peeked from behind a shrub to see four young men crowding up the path, varying in heights and hair colors. The ringleader seemed to be the grumpiest, shoulders slumped and hands in his pockets.Ā
Ā Ā His gangly gait led the other three, varying in his same confidence, through the winding path, whereupon a blond young man pointed with a whisper toward the set of violet eyes that were seeminglyā¦glaring? The bicolored haired man quirked an eyebrow, calling out to her,Ā
āHey, you!ā
Ā Ā Ā Truthfully, Sana hadnāt been glaring but more so peering out at them, her eyesight poor from far away. She jumped at his tone, spooked as she disappeared back around the corner. She was unaware that Suo was waiting after hearing that familiar terse tone his best friend had. She simply found out when he stopped her by her shoulders mid-step.Ā
Ā Ā She went rigid, then, shoulders tense as she locked eyes with him.Ā
āThereās a flock of guys out front-ā
His eye widened in surprise,Ā
āWhat? Who?ā
He asked, though he stayed paused, hands remaining in their place as he heard hurried shoes on gravel. Before they could get within earshot, however, Suoās face moved, lips close to her ear.
The tassel of his earring had brushed her cheek, making her face twitch and ears burn. Sana could sense the apple of his cheek rise in a low-eyed smirk.
āā¦Didnāt you say I had no friends, Miss Sana?ā
āI didnāt meanāā
He laughed a mean little chortle before he slid past her with light feet, so fast that she didnāt have time to scold him in broken words. Shouts of āSuo, what the hell?!ā And āyou scared us to death! Again!ā among other things resounded through the garden in her own voiceās stead. She chose to slink away into the kitchen in the chaos, where Hayase leaned on a counter lazily.Ā
Ā Ā It was comical, Sanaās disheveled hair and heaving chest making her look as if sheād seen some sort of ghost.Ā
āThereās people hereā like, waaaaay more than weāve had since the master was here.ā
She said tensely, oddly dramatic given how mundane the event seemed to be.Ā
Hayase nodded.Ā
āYup, I prepped the rooms yesterday⦠didnāt Mr. Suo say anything?ā
Sana paused, shifting her weight.Ā
āā¦no,ā
She said sourly, the thought of their conversation last week making her sigh. He couldnāt have been thinking about her offhanded commentā¦could he?
āHa-ha! You didnāt even notice all this running around weāve been doing? You tasted the practice dishes for dinner!ā
Sana panicked a little, reflecting on Hayaseās point before blushing a bright red. She swears before running a hand down her face.Ā
āYeah. Yeah- I did thatā¦ā
She paused before prying,
āDid heā Uh- Did he ever say who it was he was inviting? He really didnāt say nothinā.ā
āHe said it was some close friends of his. Thatās about all. He did mention that he was trying to make sure we werenāt worried about his social life, thoughā¦ā
Hayase explained, eyebrows furrowing at the end.
Sana felt dread bubble in her chest, eyes shifting away from Hayaseās form in guilt.
āI may have said somethingā¦āĀ
āāāāāāāā
Sakura huffed as he flopped onto the floor pillow, chin balanced on the heel of his palm, elbow resting on the low table in which the five friends had gathered.Ā
āNow are ya gonna tell us why you moved out to the middle āa nowhere or am I gonna have to kick yer ass?ā
Suo laughed a bit, eye jovial. There was a sparkle in it that had been missing, seemingly only emphasized by the presence of these once boys that he had spent so much time with through high school and their twenties up until now. Their faces were filled with a maturity that graced them so wonderfully, their spirits the greatest quality in which he felt heād never manage to emulate. Sakura, Nirei, Kiryu and surprisingly, Sugishita all came running to see him as if it was second nature.Ā
āOh, cāmon Sakura, you couldnāt hold down the fort while I was gone?ā
He poked, earning him a sassy response,
āHey! This aināt about me, youāre the one that took off!ā
Sakuraās eyes, though his brows knitted, mirrored the othersā worry. Despite the exterior, Sakura knew better than anyone that Suoās actions werenāt without reason⦠And, given the suddenness, it had to be emotional.
Suoās eye lowered away from Sakuraās face slowly, looking out the window.Ā
āYou know⦠tigers canāt pace in the same cage forever.ā
The darkness stirring in his stomach returned with a vengeance as he turned his head to see the five unconvinced faces around him, but heād learned he couldnāt simply worm his way out of things with them anymore. Suoās expression became resigned as he drew breath to speak, to tell them everything.
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The hour passed in whispers and quick hands for Sana and Hayase, gossipping about who the men were to Suo. They deduced together that they were Suoās friends from the mysterious city where he had come from. They seem to have known each other since high school and been in some sort of club together.Ā
āSounds like⦠maybe a gang?ā
Sana had mused, nectarine between her teeth as she held a bag open for Hayase to put pie scraps into the trash. Since there was company, Hayase had gone straight to work, mulling over the suburbia-style clothing choices of their guests. Despite sitting in his own home, the masterās refinement is out of place.
āIt very well could beā¦Ā
Hayase remarked with a judgemental expression, hands busy trimming pastry with a butter knife.
ā You know, his sensei ran in similar circlesā¦ā
Sana raised an eyebrow, one hand leaving the bag to chew the fruit and swallow before answering.
āWhat? Naw⦠Wouldnāt he be all tatted or somethinā?āĀ
She reasoned, pointing the fruit at Hayase with incredulous eyes. There wasnāt a lot of it left to point, the ripeness of the nectarine too soft to eat slowly.
āNot necessarily!ā Hayase remarked with raised eyebrows and wagged the butter knife in response.Ā
āI met a guy who was on the borderline involved in the Yakuza, no tattoos or clan name but knew a lotta ways to keep outta trouble⦠Sketchyā¦ā
Her eyes sparkled at the memoryāas if she had a preference for such excitingly dangerous stories. Sana caught onto her expression easily and snorted in response, the whole thing just sounding like a light novel cliche.Ā Ā
āYeah, or heās a hot CEO with a lotta time on his handsā¦ā
She trailed sarcastically, rolling her eyes and giving Hayase, who was chuckling at her, a nudge. Her hips leaned off the counter and she washed her sticky hands, the pit of her juice-dripping nectarine thrown into the trash before she put her wide-brimmed hat back on and disappeared into the side yardāfar, far away from any guests.
āāāāāāā-āāāāā
What followed the groupās conversation was sounds of struggle in the dojo, sparring finally taking place inside. The floors creaked under the weight of five extra sets of feet, the gentle tai chi movements Suo usually did by himself now hardened like steel. It was just like old times for them, switching sparring partners occasionally, the pairs working just perfectly.
Sana, nosy as can be despite herself, peered through the shade of her sun hat as she pulled weeds around the young vegetable plants. Keen eyes watched as the six men threw punches, kicks and parries, though not at full strength by any means. She felt as though she was watching the MMA fights that were pay-per-view when she lived in an American apartment building as a child. This piqued her interest, arms folded and attitude relaxed as she fell back to sit on the grass behind her. Who knew it would cause such nostalgia?
Hayase had also made her way across the garden path from the house, a pile of towels and a pitcher of water carried most expertly. She was full of enthusiasm, a smile beaming on her face as she watched them.Ā
She noticed Sana there on the ground, giving her a nudge with her foot.Ā
āHereā take the towels, itās heavy!ā
Sana rolled her eyes. It definitely wasnāt that heavy. She stood anyhow, dusting her clothes off and taking towels, her focus still elsewhere.
Suo moved with such familiarity and poise it was almost damning, as if the surprise on his friendly opponentsā faces was fate itself, the only outcome to pair with their new place off-kilter or on the ground.Ā
Nirei had a determination about him that wasnāt new to Suo, but one he had not seen in a while. The movements Suo had taught him were embedded in his style,Ā but there still existed a skipping fluidity. His fist rose to punch where Suoās would normally block and parry. Suoās reaches were granted low ducks and positioning changes. Nirei had learned more in his absence. Suo was impressed.Ā
Nirei threw another punch at Suoās face, toward the side in which his eyepatch sat. As he did so, Sanaās clumsy clunk of a step made Suoās gaze wander to her. It strayed long enough that when he looked back, he almost didnāt have time to shift out of the way, Nireiās sleeve grazing his cheek just barely.
Instead of looking towards Sana, Nirei watched Suoās face. What he hadnāt expected to see was the cherry color his friendās ears had turned as the girl with the silver hair and garden clothes entered the threshold of the dojo, towels in hand. The stillness always locked in his features did not break, but this rare sight of Suoās body betraying him was enough to understand.Ā
This. Heād thought, the excuses Suo had made in the house earlier seeming too simple, this is whatās keeping him here.Ā
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As the sun set, Suo waved at his friends as they descended the path to the bus stop, past the stream and gates. Nirei gave him one last accepting look before he joined them. Suo couldnāt relax until they were gone, even Hayase being too much to maintain the heavy mask he still wore.Ā
āArenāt you gonna walk āem?ā
Sana asked as Suo let his hand join the other behind his back. Suo snickered a bit.
āNah, their navigator never fails. Besides, you seem far too shell-shocked to be left to your own devices.ā
He joked, disposition cheerful.Ā
Sanaās eyes lingered on his side profile, the images of Suoās foreboding grace as heād sparred with them, the way his limbs became harder than stone and then easily flowed in a pattern still fresh in her mind.Ā She wondered what else he could doāwhat his true strength might have looked like. As these thoughts swam, Suo could feel his ears redden again as they did before. He didnāt know his own motives with her most of the time, so his next words came as a surprise to both of them.
āLike what you see, Miss Sana?ā
He asked after a tick of silence. The warmth in his voice was meant to embarrass, to draw away from the pool of her thoughts.Ā
Instead of showing her panic however, she shrugged, eyes flicking back to the path in the distance to meet his request.
āThe way you fight is fun taā watch,ā
She said, an answer within an answer.Ā
Suo chuckled, as if embarrassed.Ā
āYou think so, huh?ā
Sana nodded.Ā
āā¦though, you might be a bit terrifying at full strength⦠that old man mustāve trained you for some sort of purpose, I suppose.ā
She trailed away when his smile changed into something a bit darker, not sad, butā¦wary.Ā
āAre you⦠trying to ask me what that purpose is?ā
He asked with an air of cool composure, though he felt he should continue to dodge her.
It appeared to Suo that the difference between she and Nirei existed only in her lack of inquisition. Had that changed now that sheād seen what his master had trained into him for real?Ā
Sana couldnāt help the snort that escaped her nose, Suoās anxiety rising.Ā
āI donāt think I need to know that stuff for me to do my job, Mr. Suo. Hayase-san would love that story, though.ā
Suo raised his eyebrow, a nervous smile redecorating his face.Ā
āYouāre not the least bit curious about me?āĀ
Sana sputters, eyes widening a bit.Ā
āWell yeah, of course I am, but what kinda dumbass walks into a conversation and starts askinā obviously personal questions?āĀ
She defended, making Suoās expression morph into surprise. He paused before snickering, chest lightening from the burdens of his worry.Ā
She didnāt want to know⦠or- she respected that he didnāt want to tell her.
āFair enoughā¦ā
He said, a comfortable silence befalling them, his eye glancing at her shaded figure every once in a while, missing hers every time.
Sanaās heart clenched a little, remembering the way heād pranked her so drastically. Her brows knitted together before she turned to face him fully, growing closer to him.
āIf I did cross you, though⦠I didnāt mean it, the other day, I- I pried too far,ā
She said, gaze intent on locking with his now.
Suo smiled tiredly at her words, the socializing having finally gotten to him enough to show. Her face before his friends caught them was enough penance, anyway. Her befuddled expression was one he wanted to see again, the panic of newness truly endearing.
Truthfully he wasnāt angry with her, more feeling exposed in a way he didnāt feel he was ready to admit to himself.Ā
āYou donāt have to feel bad about it, Iām sure someone more unaware of me than you would have said the same thingā¦ā
Also truthfully, heād just wanted her to see he wasnāt lying, just telling the truth shrouded in a lack of specifics, a lack of self. Even today, he chose to speak through the presence of others, not onceābut twice. Though Nirei noticing was accidental, at least the point was put across.Ā
āI donāt know why⦠it felt important for you to know I wasnāt alone out there.ā
A warm breeze blew through their hair, through the invisible wall between them. They peered at each other through a hole in the brick that Suo had pulled out onto his side at this moment, and Sana realized that his friendsā presence here wasnāt just a prank after all.Ā
She sighed heavily, pulling her hat off of her head and letting the string of it dangle around her neck. Her hair frizzed a little, her arms weaving into a stretch. Her voice changed into something a bit scratchy as she spoke in English, her mind tired from trying to translate all day.Ā
āIf youāre really that concerned about how I see you, then youāll have to put effort into telling me things, I guess.ā
She grumbled in annoyance, not a fan of this much beating around the bush. He was such a skittish person when he was alone, his many facets having her want to search for the real one⦠to see if that real one would want to befriend her, or if her presence just eased his boredom.
And, as if he read her thoughts, he responded in kind. He faced her with a new glint in his eye, words flowing easily like breathing.
āOnly if you promise to do the same, Sana.ā
She turned to him with a blindsided expression before she silently put two and two together.Ā
His sensei knew English just fine, Suo was from hereā¦Ā
āOf course you speak Englishā¦ā
Sana rasped. Her heart clenched a little in embarrassment for not asking sooner, but when was she supposed to do that?
āSee? Already holding up my end of the bargain, guess Iāve won so far!ā
Suo still vied for the element of surprise. He hated how right Sana was about his weakness, but he wanted to know more about her so badly that this hoop was as easy as breathing. Plus, she always seemed so shocked when she learned anything about him anyway.Ā
āYeahā yeah, I guessā¦ā
He laughed a bit.Ā
This was going to be an interesting summer.
āāāāāāāāāāāāāāā-
Below the Kanra property, a town lay quietly bustling. It was not your typical shouting and merriment, just work and meditation, and the occasional family dysfunctions. The area had a sort of punitive air that seemed to squander youth, many buildings abandoned as a result of no young adults to take care of things. Cities meant freedom from this place, but not everyone made it.Ā
A middle aged man, thin like a bean pole and shaggy like an ungroomed dog, pulled open the door to his shop slowly, the display of kimono and other mended pieces in front ofĀ an emerald green background revealed itself as he pulled the shutter open.Ā
This Saturday morning in July was cool and bright, the sun hitting the dew on the trees and shrubs that dotted the shop faces, granting the silent place a sense of tranquility. The man pulled a folding chair out from behind the display and opened it outside the storefront. His steely eyes were tired but without complaint as he took sliding strides back into the shopās cluttered interior.
Ā Spools of thread and rolled yards of fabric scattered every wall, tools in random places stuck out in precarious spots. Among the chaos, the man uncovered a basket full of neatly folded dress shirts and dragged it outside to work in the sunshine. He moved it with little effort, like a spider carrying a bundled up fly.
He settled after a moment with a strong needle threaded with white string as he pulled it through a button of the first shirt in the pile.Ā
He worked in silence for a while, birds chirping peacefully. The town began to awaken building by building, a soft hum of conversations and of dishes clinking filling the strip before the man heard bare feet padding down the wooden stairs inside his shop, pale long legs accompanying them clad in sleep shorts and upper body in a rumpled matching pajama shirt.Ā
There at the bottom of the stairs was his daughter, the only evidence heād ever made it out of the town at all. Her white hair was pulled into a ratty bun atop her head, her violet eyes sharing the shape of his own still had the remnants of a heavy sleep in them.Ā
āHey dadā¦ā
Sana rasped gently in English, steps lighter as she avoided anything sharp that might have landed on the floorĀ
āMorninā,ā
He replied gruffly in Japanese, Sana wrapping her arms around his neck from behind briefly in greeting, watching his calloused hands work for a moment.Ā
āHad breakfast?ā
He shook his head.Ā
Sana closed her eyes a minute before limply sliding away from him, stretching her arms above her head before turning on her heel and walking stiffly into the shop and up the stairs to the apartment kitchen. Everything here was neat and diligently kept, the minty green walls complimenting the white cabinets and light wood countertop. It was small, to be sure but the ceilings were high enough for the skyscrapers that were the Sanas.Ā
Her thoughts began to wander to her boss once more, what he did on the weekends, how he even entertained himself all alone up there⦠Even if he did have friends, did he ever call them? Granted, sheād seen a bit more activity but it wasnāt anything she had to interact with. If anything, Suo had been teasing her more somehow with sayings in English and sly puns, making a point to keep new people away from her out of consideration for last time.
Ā Heās lucky heās pretty, thatās for sure.
She found herself thinking, having accepted this fate of her feelings. What else was bound to happen with a face like that? She didnāt feel like considering ānow what?ā or anything that complicated. This was a job, he was someone more important with money and connections to far off places.Ā
It wasnāt hard to distance herself from his charms when he wasnāt here.Ā Ā
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Ā In the afternoon, Sanaās father had turned the a/c on to continue working inside. His tailor business had taken off since many of the population had relied on his family to care for the clothing in town, but it being yukata season created an influx. The summer festival held every year would be any day now, it was the biggest event outside of New Years.Ā
The fliers could be seen anywhere, even at the grocery store a block or so down. Sana taped one she had gotten in the mail to the window, in her cleaning clothes to help her dad. Her hair was pulled back with a kerchief, overalls replaced with a white T-shirt and wide torn jeans.Ā
She had a tick in her brow as she surveyed the work she had cut out for her, eyes low and annoyed.Ā
āSeriously dude, itās like every goddamn week with this place!ā
She griped, frustration bubbling over. It had been only 2 weeks since she had completely re-organized everything.Ā
Her father raised an eyebrow up at her, needle still in hand.
āNobody asked ya to do it, yannow, I had it organized enough,ā
The man reminded her, returning to his stitching.Ā
She ātskedā before taking up the broom and beginning to sweep.Ā
āYeah, organized to kill yerself.ā
Her father chuckled a little bit, nimble fingers sliding fabric across the long table that filled a corner of the shop. It was the only area that was truly clear.Ā
They worked in silence for a while, heads down until a healthy bellow of āhellooo!ā echoed through the shop.
The Sanas turned their heads to see a hefty man with the build of a woodworker and a mustache to match. His tan was heavy. The both of them smiled warmly at the customer, though the older Sana seemed confused.Ā
āShio-San, you just dropped that bag āa clothes off yesterday, Iām not a fairy godmother,ā
He quipped, putting his needle in a pincushion before standing up to greet the so-called āShio.ā
āI know, just cominā by to chat,ā
He said, strolling further into the shop.
Sana leaned on the broom handle a minute as she lingered, Shio calling out to her with a wave,
āAnd you, Daburu-chan, finally have a day off, hm? Any news from up that way?ā
Sana wrinkled her nose in disinterest.
āNah, just the same old stuff. Uh-Howās Mina?ā
She asked, his daughter a friend of hers from high school. She was his apprentice now at their lumber shop down the road, but summers tended to be a bit busy for the two youths to meet.
Shio beamed with pride at the mention of her.Ā
āAh, sheās doinā great! Proud of my little Sappy, she just processed her first tree not long ago.āĀ
Sanaās eyebrows shot up in interest.Ā
āMan, good for her,ā
Her father remarked, crossing his arms and nodding along. Shio continued,
āShe did so well weāre gonna send her to that technical school, see if she could become certified to run mill equipment.ā
Sana felt a pang of something in her gut at those words, and began sweeping again with renewed purpose, though to the men chatting it simply looked like she was being diligent.Ā
Sana always thought school was a waste, mainly because she was tired of it after getting through high school. It was exhausting, boring, and everyone there was a snotty person with goals and dreams. And now, Mina was being sent among them to become someone more important. More important than this town, at least.Ā
The men continued chatting and Sana finished sweeping, starting to move things into their rightful place, when out of the corner of her eye she saw a charming burgundy hue of hair cross the window. It was awfully familiar, her head turning to see better only to miss it and have to turn more and more until her back faced the wall and in walked the man sheād dismissed casually from her thoughtsā for the first time, Suo Hayato had descended the mountain.
Thank y'all so much for reading! I posted a piece of this already but then realized the timeline fit better in Summer, so a fragment of this is reposted for those that think they're getting gaslit (lol sorry)
I hope to update a bit more regularly now that it's the summertime.
Comments are always welcome!
Pt I Here: https://www.tumblr.com/suolovesong/778710606857617408/this-side-of-paradise-1-spring-aged-up-suo?source=share
In my heart of hears I feel like Suo will return to Furin after his arc (still clinging to the 'he ran away from Red Chanpuru and was threatened/ coerced into returning' theory, however unlikely)
And if that is the case, I'd love for Suo to try to compensate for his past secrecy by over sharing and trauma dumping.
Sakura: Say, Suo, Is your eye-
Suo: ah, you mean this eye? The one that I lost in the ritualistic punishment I got after I tried to run away from Red Chanpuru when I was a child?
Sakura:... I was gonna ask if your eye PATCH is made of real leather. Holy shit though
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Tsubaki: aw I love your earrings! So stylish!
Suo: thank you! They belonged to my master, who raised me. They're dead by the way, I had to take these from their corpse as per their last will. That was such a bad week, I also almost got murdered twice.
Tsubaki:....
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Suo: so yes, since part of my training to become an officer included salt being rubbed against my every wound, I had very good motivation to learn how to dodge early in my journey.
Kiryu: I only asked you to pass the salt suo-chan
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Suo: -and that's how I almost died from poisoning when I was 11 after someone got jealous of how fast I was climbing the ranks and put poison in my food. After that, you can imagine how I'd try to avoid eating anything not specifically made by me
Anzai: ...
Suo: So, thank you for asking me which pizza flavor I'd like, but I'll have to decline the offer. I'm sure I can make myself something quick to eat while you guys have that, in the time it'll take the pizza to be delivered. Ah, I'm also really good ar cooking and using kitchen knives because of that time -
Anzai: pls just. Stop.
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Suo: come one, Sugishita-kun! Let's join the others
Sugi:
Suo: ive never been to an amusement park, you know? since I've been groomed for the asphyxiating responsibility of looking after an entire city that was dropped on my shoulders as a young boy, I never truly got to enjoy my youth and have fun. But of course I'd never want you to feel pressured into joining us!
Sugi:
Suo: did I mention I spent my last birthday being forced to-
Sugi: okay. I'll go. Stop.
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The only one who'd be thriving would be Nirei who FOR ONCE has actual Intel to add to Suo's notebook.
After their exchange that day, he often asked her questions about the flora of the west, Sana having a sense of deja-vu as this version of his senior sheād known asking identical questions almost word-for-word. They were sly, rooted in humor, and possessing double meanings that inadvertently told him more about her. Frustratingly enough, she knew when to hold her tongue, every answer short and almost clipped. Their days blurred together, Suo only recognizing the passing of time through Sanaās routine. It became easier to step outside and see her there, a feeling other than that of a rock at the bottom of a pond filling his soul with a tinge of affectionā¦
ā¦though he knew the cliche implication, it was hard not to admire her there.
Her eyes had a tint of violet to them. Her height was equal if not taller than his own. Her hair lacked pigment all the way to her eyelashes. Her clothes were all second-hand and patched neatly with care, the love for the past shining in everything about her.
These were all things heād observed of Sana Isla. Her features were the blankest of canvases and yet her hands worked as if joy was nestled somewhere at the bottom of the soil as she dug, and maybe she thought so, considering the warmth in her expression as a sapling settles into the soil. She valued old and new.
That being said, trying though he might to get a rise out of her, she was a still statue in the pristine grass.
Sana felt like she was being tested with his pestering. What purpose does it serve him to be infatuated with her? She kept herself busy, the bigger problem on the cork board in the shed eating at her like a pincher bug nipping at her ears.
She felt that itching discomfort once more as the June sun burned high in the sky one afternoon, the shadow of the shed looming ominously over her as she wore the same withered expression she had every day she came to work. She grabbed the handle of the heavy door, confident wrist and elbow yanking on one side to slide it open. She peered inside a moment but quickly slid it shut again, a tick in her eyebrow and her eyes half-lidded. Her chest rose and fell as a long, loud sigh tore through her, one that usually was acknowledged only by the cat.
This day, however, she wasnāt so lucky. A voice-now familiar- cut through her stupor,
āNot today either, Miss Sana?ā
Suo asked, a few feet away. Heād happened upon her once again as he had been coming down the path from the dojo, the shade of the overhanging magnolia failing to hide her disposition. Sana flinched at the unexpected voice, startled as she turned her head to meet his eye. His was full of an understanding without words that made her own widen. The question was pleasant, ringing like a bell in her ears and a wave of guilt bloomed in her chest. The use of āeitherā insinuated a first time, and made her wonder how long ago heād seen her there.
She had a strong squeeze on her gloves as she turned to face him, the fluster in her demeanor new and obvious to Suo. A small titter escaped Suoās lips in response. Her face scrunched in veiled annoyance, reminding Suo of a startled cat.
āOh- Iām sorry, was there a deadline? Nobody mentioned to me if there wasā¦ā
She replied, tone even. Rather than torture her any more today, Suo shook his head a little.
āAt ease, soldier. Thereās nothing like that,ā
He teased, a bit of playfulness seeping into his voice. He tilted his head downward a little, eye glancing up at her downturned face. Her grip on her gloves slackened slightly, eyes pooling with a sense of grief she couldnāt seem to shake despite it all.
āIām a little curious about whatās in that shed youāve seemed so troubled by.ā
He added, her eyes finally coming in contact with his in an unnaturally timid way. He truly wasnāt expecting to see any other part of her except maybe the polite dodging of familiarity. It was an answer he wanted to know, but was unprepared for his mourning to reflect back at him.
Her eyes flickered to the metal door before they slid shut as she sighed.
āItās⦠itās his handwriting,ā
She muttered, wringing her gloves once more. Suo furrowed his brow slightly.
āAs inā¦itās not legible?ā
He asked, trying to understand.
Sana shook her head, expression solemn.
āI just- I⦠knew āim for a long time⦠itāsā¦tough.ā
She admitted, a quiet volume amid the playful birdsong. She felt her chest drop into that all-too familiar place, one that she often had to distract herself to break free of. This time, however, she had her boss in front of her. Embarrassment joined her feelings as his expression became unreadable, his eye flickering upward and past her.
His feet seemed to carry him on their own, although in Sanaās eyes he held a determination sheād not yet seen before. Suo stopped in front of the shed door, pulling the handle to slide it further over its tracks. The squeak was loud enough to echo, and he had to use some force to do so.
āHow did she slam these earlier?ā
He mused, entering the shade of the shed with his eye adjusting. He took in the way the interior had been organized with care, scanning until he saw it: pinned to a board was a large white diagram, notes scattered in English, Japanese, and Mandarin in various areas. There, indeed, was his masterās scrawled writing.
The diagram depicted different options for trees and flowers, a corner specifically circled that contained a vegetable and herb garden, the arrangement similar to a floral bed.
Sana had timidly joined him at the mouth of the shed, peering in to watch him. She was beginning to understand how deeply connected to him Suo must have been, wondering now what his thoughts might be to see his handwriting once more.
His eyepatch obscured his expression to her, however. Instead, she saw only the upturn of his lips that soon uttered bitterly,
āWho knew he could write so messily?ā
He let out a little chuckle, Sana finally swallowing her shyness and stepping into the shed with him. She noted the way he said it, the tone less polite and more exposed.
āDid he write neat in the past?ā
She asked, stopping as she stood next to him, eyes trained on the board with defeat.
āYeah. He was pretty strict back then.ā
Suo shared tone changing back to its casual air. Images shuttered behind his eyelid of memories heād forgotten while Sanaās remained trained on the characters, a finger brushing over one of them absently. They stood in their own noisy thoughts for a moment.
āā¦are the English notes yours, then?ā
He asked her, making her head turn to face him. She nodded, eyes flickering over to where her finger pointed and dragging it upward toward a corner near the dojo.
āHe wanted that vegetable bed to go here. I said it wouldnāt work, mainly because of that forest behind there, rabbits⦠He took my word for it, so we were wondering where to put it until I started mapping it out, I figure⦠edible flowers mixed in like wild violets and melons next to each other, maybe some string beans or snow peas over here-ā
She was pointing this way and that with her finger, forgetting the company she was with for a moment. The description created imagery for Suo who listened intently, noting the way her voice flowed so easily when the topic was familiar to her.
It made his smile grace his features a bit more as she rambled, his ears catching her rich voice and informal speech, the way her āRās over-rolled just a tad, and her sentences clipped a bit awkwardly. Heād come to the conclusion that it took a moment for her to translate when she spoke, her curtness not meant to cause offense, but instead reveal the remains of a language barrier.
āThen, I was lookinā into it and I found out that the place it would be better is around here-ā
She slid her finger again over across the diagram, towards his direction, her arm crossing into Suoās vision. When it didnāt quite reach the area Sana was talking about, he pointed to it himself, their index fingers meeting in the middle. Her eyebrows shot up in surprise.
āā¦here?ā
He asked, tilting his head a little.
That soft āyeahā¦ā escaped her lips again, flustered by the way it felt to be in his space. She pulled her hand away as she said it, her hand joining the other that still gripped the gloves.
āAre youā¦lonely? Working on his property without him, I mean.ā
He asked, facing her now. Suo knew it was really him that was the lonely one, but as she nodded again, it caused relief in him that he didnāt know could exist.
āI wanna keep doing what he wanted⦠but, I find myself stopping midway. Iā¦thought I needed his guidance, yāknow?ā
She uttered, eyes flickering away from him to the gloves in her hand again.
āBut⦠I donāt wanna do something you wouldnāt want. You inherited it, after all.ā
She said, to which Suo nodded thoughtfully.
āMiss Sana, letās meet in the middle,ā
He began, guiding her out of the shed with an ushering hand so as to keep their grief at bay.
āWe were both a part of his life⦠I donāt think itād be too difficult to collaborate on something that honors both of our memories of him,ā
He explained, eye drifting towards the plot that lay bare.
The area was clear, prepared and even had decorative mulch. Sana realized the excessive care sheād given the vacant plot and bristled slightly in embarrassment as they approached it.
āI-uhā¦I guess I put more energy than I shoulda into keepinā it clearā¦ā
Suo chuckled a little in response.
āOh Iād say if itās something you care about, why not put extra effort right?ā
Sana nodded a little,eyes drifting to him once again. He always seemed to know what to say. He met her gaze with a pleasant smile before he turned away from her.
āYes-well⦠The next time you look at that shed so dejectedly, feel free to ask for my help⦠Iām always here, after allā¦ā
Iām not a big fan of the theory that Suo is part of the Yakuza or Chinese Triad, but it would make the dramatic way that Sakura revealed his trauma kinda comedic if we consider Suoās pov
Sakura: I killed someone
Suo: !!!
Suo: Maybe, I can trust Sakura with my past, he might actually understandā¦
Sakura: My mother died in childbirth
Suo: *jaw clamping shut with the force of one thousand suns imploding*
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In your language...How Can I Reach You?
Shogun AU! Samurai Lord! Rin Itoshi x Polyglot! Reader
Act I Part I: Passing Faces- Rin Itoshi unexpectedly becomes Lord Itoshi in place of his brother, Sae... A new young consort enters the palace...
Act I Part II: Passing Faces, Conflicting Philosophies- Rin is met with unpleasant news that soon reaches your unwilling ear...
Act I Part III: Passing Faces, Betrothal of Strangers- As things begin to get more lively, you finally figure out who exactly you're engaged to....
This Side of Paradise ā
Aged Up! Suo Hayato x O/C (Sana Isla)
This Side of Paradise 1: Spring- Suo moves back to his childhood home in the mountains after his Sensei's passing... Just who is that girl in the garden?
This Side of Paradise 2: Summer- Hearts connect over time...who could blame them in such a pretty place?
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Suo hadnāt expected the day to turn out like this, as rain poured from the heavens, drumming along the roof of the shrine he came to visit. His white button down dampened from the mist of the rain drops pelting along the low wall that overlooked the expansive garden as the scent of spiced incense filled the small space before filtering out the door. Leaning closer to the mist, he cast his gaze up to the charcoal sky above as it rumbled back - almost as if it were directing him to stay inside. Sighing lightly, he sat in front of the brass statue of some god he wasnāt all that interested in knowing or coming to visit. Honestly he just came here because itās where his master took him in his younger days. When he was angry, temperamental and distrustful of those around him. He settled in for the afternoon, trying to wait out the rain. Thatās when he heard the slapping of feet on the stone walkway up to the little shrine, but he didnāt turn to see who it was. Sure they were just trying to find cover from the onslaught of water from above.
āDevelopment,ā his master would have commented on his change in demeanor from all those years ago.
And when he heard quickened breaths behind him he still didnāt turn, knowing that outside of a simple nod or greeting most people didnāt find themselves up here to talk. Even as he heard the tell-tale signs of someone entering the shrine, schlicking water from their face and clothes as close to the door as possible, he still didnāt turn.
āYou should at least say hello,ā his masterās words rang in his head, a reminder that he still had a long way to grow as he turned to greet the person rushing into the shrine.
āIām sorry,ā he turned to see a girl around his age, drenched to the bone and heaving from the sprint up the steep hill. Before he could even reply you went on to say, āyouāre right. I shouldāve greeted you at least,ā as you bowed deeply to him - water trickling down your face and plopping on the floor in front of him.
āWh-what?ā He asked, brow notching at your odd greeting.
Your face grew hot as your mouth fell open, then snapped shut a moment later. Usually you were much better at hiding your⦠ability, but in the rush of the thunder and rain you forgot to check if he had actually spoken before responding.
āU-uhm,ā you stammered as the gears turned in your head, āI mean, um, Iām sorry for getting you wet! I should say hello first at the very least,ā you chuckled back awkwardly. Suo nodded up at you slowly, his interest piqued considerably as you moved further into the shrine.
āNo worries,ā he replied with a serene smile, though his sienna eye was sharper to your presence now - it was obvious you were hiding something by the way you avoided his gaze.
āMa-may I sit?ā You requested apprehensively, motioning to the only space left in the shrine - directly next to him.
āOf course,ā he replied with that same easy going smile as he nodded to the dry space next to him. āI wasnāt trying to stay dry or anything,ā he thought to himself though his face gave nothing away.
Immediately you paused, peering around the shrine for anywhere else to sit, your nose scrunching at his silent words. Suo watched you intensely until you finally met his gaze once again, where you found an unfaltering smile - completely at odds with the sour tone in his mind.
āI can also, um, leave,ā you suggested quickly, eyes flicking back to the downpour through the doorway, āyou were here first anyway!ā You said, tone apologetic but with an undertone that he couldnāt quite put his finger on⦠like he had hurt your feelings maybe?
āIām here because itās pouring outside. Same as you,ā he insisted as he patted the stone floor next to him. You were hesitant, but finally relented and sat on folded legs next to him.
Neither of you spoke for a long moment, avoiding each otherās gazes and the close proximity of the shrine. A cross wind brought a spray of mist over both of you, and your scent directly to Suoās nose. Your hair had already captured the spice of the burning incense and the petrichor swirling in the damp air, but a soft note of matcha clung to them. Specifically the kind that Suo loved to drink so often.
āShe smells⦠nice,ā he thought to himself, chancing a glance out of the corner of his eye only to find you with your head bent, eyes wide, and a bright blush pluming across your cheeks. He assumed it was just the proximity as he took you in - the way your rain and windswept hair clung to your face, long lashes pointed down towards your lap as you stared at your clasped hands where goosebumps had started to form and wrap their way up your arms where they disappeared under your shirt. He couldnāt help but notice the way your drenched clothes clung to your curves and thighs, not leaving much to the imagination. And at the end of the day, Suo was just a man as his imagination began producing images of what you looked like without the drenched clothes-
āUh-um!ā You interrupted his thoughts, meeting his gaze fully, eyes wide and blush turning crimson. If Suo didnāt know any better heād think you had a front row seat to the images flashing behind his eyes, but he assured himself that couldnāt be the case - his unfaltering mask still in place. But then your brow furrowed as if you heard that too.Ā
āIām Y/N L/N, whatās your name?ā You interjected his thoughts once again, breathlessly as your fists clenched tighter in your lap.
āSuo Hayato,ā he replied smoothly, āI go to Furin.ā He offered, half expecting you to recoil from the name of the famed delinquent school, but instead your face lit up as a sense of ease settled over you. His brows raised in question, and you immediately mirrored his expression.
Not being from around that area meant you really shouldnāt know that theyāre good people, but the guys in your area had fought them a few times. They always said the worst things out loud about Bofurin, but their internal dialogues always gave you a sense that the highschoolers who sported the black and green uniform were actually good guys. Usually just trying to protect and set others on the right track.
āI hear Furin does a lot of good for their community,ā you offered his silent question with a gentle smile. Suo had to contain his laugh from your long pause and the way your gaze cast to the side before meeting his again as you spoke - telltale signs of someone lying.
āWhereād you hear that?ā He prodded, his smile still serene but his eye tracking the smallest of changes in your expression as your brow furrowed again. āThinking through your next lie?ā he joked to himself silently. You blinked rapidly, your blush creeping down your neck as heat prickled along the back of your neck.
āVague. Keep it vague Y/N,ā you told yourself as you shrugged noncommittally before you murmured, āoh, you know, aroundā¦ā
āAround⦠where?ā He quizzed you genially, enjoying your overt expressions.Ā
āJus-just around, you know, in passing and stuff,ā you replied quickly as you waved your hand back and forth in front of you, hoping heād drop it as your gaze dropped back to your lap.
āYou're basically an open book,ā he chuckled internally as he brought his hand up to block the grin spreading across his face.
āWell so are you,ā you muttered back.Ā
Suoās grin faded completely. āDid she justā¦?ā He thought as his hand fell to his lap in shock at the same moment your head snapped up to meet his wide eye with your own, your jaw on the floor.
āY-you didnāt say that last part out loud, did youā¦?ā Your squeak bounced off the stone as Suo slowly shook his head at you.
Before he could ask you a single question, or even try to stop your hurried movements, you were already out the doorway and sprinting down the slick path towards the road. The rain having finally let up, he was able to watch you the whole way as the tall daffodils swayed on either side from your wind.Ā
He had half a mind to follow you, but for some reason he knew the two of you would cross paths again. The statue of Åkuninushi, now drenched in the light of the setting sun, smiled down upon Suo. The last conversation with his master at this shrine ringing in his earsā¦
āWhy do we always come to this shrine?ā Suo asked, peering up at the aged man.
āBecause this is Åkuninushi.ā His master replied simply.Ā
āÅkuni-who?ā Suo asked while digging his toe into the stone.Ā
āÅkuninushi,ā his master chuckled back, āhe lived quite the life, but nowadays heās seen as a god who heals and who makes marriages happy.ā The aged man explained patiently.
āBut why do we come here,ā Suo asked again, his hands clasped behind his back in the same way as the man next to him, even though he couldnāt help but fidget with his youthful energy.
āBecause I hope that one day he will smile fondly upon you. That one day, when youāre older, heāll bless you,ā his master explained as he reached out and rubbed the statue's head gleaming in the sun.
FINALLY less spikey hair and BEAUTIFULLY animated suo. he's still way more stunning in the manga. but OKAY. THIS PICTURE. IS BEAUTIFUL TOO. FINALLY, THANK YOU CLOVERWORKS.
I am tempted to buy a Shishitoren Jacket (since its a casual wear rather than Bofurin's, Tho, I planned to but the outfit just really looks like I'll be getting glances from how formal it looks)
I could use this Shishitoren jacket anywhere even just by going to the mall. I swear I'm not planning to buy a size that is twice bigger than mine just so I could have the feeling and idea that Togame Jo lent the jacket for me.
I've been thinking that it would comfort me in some ways or another. Especially that I've been feelin' utterly anxious and troubled since the start of April. It can also be a gift to myself, no?
SHOULD I? OR SHOULD I NOT BUY ONE?
SHOULD I BUY IT FOR THE SAKE OF MY COMFORT? IS THIS A NEED? a want? a necessity?
I would! Itās the same thing to me as making my own coral earrings (In the works, btw). Like casual things you can wear all the time will always be worth it far more no matter what :)
@suolovesong I was not expecting to get called out from that tag. Lmao
Glad thereās someone else out there like me š Apologies - this will probably be long.
Idk, like, I can totally understand why people ship suonirei. Theyāre good friends and theyāre often seen together because of their shared role as Sakuraās vice-captains. And I guess theyāre cute together. Very calm. Very sweet. Very vanilla.
But like, for me personally? I tend to favor ships where charactersā personalities can play off of each other more, and Suo and Nirei are both too tame to be interesting to me as a romantic pairing. Like, there is just nothing there to play off of in terms of their dynamic, other than plain fluff, which is just a bit boring for me personally. And also suonirei just irks me when I see it for some unexplainable reason (especially in fics - I donāt usually mind the fanart).
Maybe itās because I see them as part of a trio with Sakura and suonirei being a couple would āotherā Sakura (who has already been āotheredā enough in his life). I donāt mind suosaku or nireisaku though partly because theyāre both far more interesting dynamics to me and partly because it doesnāt feel as much like the third person would be left out (since both Suo and Nirei will follow Sakura regardless of their relationship status). Similarly, I donāt mind them as much romantically when itās a poly ship (suosakunirei).
Another reason though is because I have seen several people in the fandom, even some commenting on my platonically-written fics, about how āsuonirei is basically canonā (even though literally nothing in canon indicates any sort of romantic relationship between them) and āsuo should fawn more over Nireiā (likeā¦.what. Suo is canonically equally protective of both Nirei and Suo, but somehow suonirei shippers seem to forget his interactions with Sakura). And they also seem to ignore the fact that Nirei fawns over Sakura far more than he does over Suo or anyone else. And also the fact that Nirei is canonically a tad judgmental and possibly even irked by Suoās behavior sometimes (which is super funny to me, but unfortunately the fandom never really portrays that part of their dynamic).
So I guess a big part of me disliking suonirei is the fans who act like other ships involving them are āless thanā or ānot as acceptableā (while wearing shipping lenses that blind them to the fact that this specific ship is no more or less canon than any of the others)ā¦
ā¦.which is ridiculous because ships donāt even need to be canon to enjoy them. Shipping should be based on what dynamics you personally find interesting and would like to explore. It shouldnāt be a competition of which ship is more or less likely to be canon (thus claiming that other ships are invalid). Just ship what you want and let others do the same!!
So if people like suonirei? Good for them! Iām glad they have a ship that brings them joy!
They aināt my thing though, so Iāll just stick to shipping almost anything else š¤£
Duuude youāre so right about the dynamic they have in-cannon!
I always thought that friendship can run deeper than many ships utilize. Like I think Sakunirei works because theyāre both developing parts of themselves that they noticed in each other at first. Alternatively, SuoSaku works in the opposite way where Suo is comparative. We see little true development from Suoās inner world other than what Sakura inspires in him. I think a lot of what makes SuoNirei popular is the KEEL arc but like idk itās more about feeling inadequate imo, not necessarily a deep emotional attachment.
Nirei isnāt trying to change Suoās mind on anything and that, to me, doesnāt pose as much of a challenge as it is to hide intimate details about his life FROM him. Suo actively changes his mindset because of what Sakura does more than once.
(I agree tho that the art is soooo super sweet! And I also think the validity is definitely there, but itās not my FIRST choice. Honestly Iām a pro Saku x Everyone pretty much, esp Togame. )
I wanted to note something special I noticed in the 2nd episode of Season 2 that just aired:
Does anyone else pay special attention to Suoās clothes?
The first changshan he wears differs from the one in the latest episode! Iām glad they took that from the Manga it was one of the things I really REALLY wanted to see happen š„¹