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dogpuppy

do-not-u-dare

Im always scared to call someone my friend because what if they dont consider me a friend and hate me because of that

burrokitty

alternately I am also afraid of not saying someone's a friend when they consider me a friend and accidentally offending them

greelin

sorry to hear that you haven’t been feeling all that great lately. Do you want me to hunt you for sport

itwashotwestayedinthewater

I can tell you don’t have one

whatever it is i actually have three

yurucamp

interstate angel

#q #art inspo

effervescent-fool

ive never been able to take "climb him like a tree" as a sexual innuendo seriously because i picture climbing a tree in my mind and then i picture a tall man in my mind and when i put those two things together im not seeing anything sexual. im seeing like. circus tricks.

thementalistscandidate

When I say it I mean I’m gonna do this to them

inkfal

and they were pardners 🐎

Some horse sketches for the crew under the cut:

#q #fnc #art inspo #gillion tidestrider #chip

inkfal

Another cowboy moment! This time with Aurora and her horsie.

#q #aurora primrose #art inspo #ugh. cowboys...#i dont know how i never thought of cowboys w riptide i love cowboys so bad #this is so glorious

unfortunately having to come out as a straight man

#rory.txt #this is me hard launching being a binary trans man #and also im aroacespec but its funnier if i just say straight

traumatised-mum

you ever just sit and realise u can’t remember 80% of your childhood? like … what happened? who am i ..?

anisetheapothecary

Many people in the comments are saying “trauma”, but this is actually a very normal occurrence. It’s called Childhood Amnesia, and it’s a process which, as the brain reorganizes itself for cognitive thought that is developed in late childhood, it changes the Accessibility of those memories during recall. Many childhood memories are available to the person, but they will not be remembered during regular recall activity, you have to “trick” your brain into remembering with different tactics.

This is because there are two parts to memories - their encoding and their recall. The encoding determines their availability, their recall determines their accessibility. The reason why trauma memory and childhood amnesia are different is in this distinction. Trauma memory is often encoded differently, bypassing to the limbic system where it is stored as intrinsic memory. It can’t be recalled because it was never encoded. Childhood amnesia, however, seems to indicate that the memories are encoded, but we lose access to them as we age. This is most likely due to the development of brain structures that fundamentally change our encoding and recall of memory as we get older.

This is an important distinction, because trauma memory is “stored in the body”, i.e. you get triggers that send your body into a cascade of uncontrollable feelings, sensations and reactions. Whereas childhood memories won’t generally do that, they are just recalled at odd times with odd associations.

malcolmcooks

reblogging this because I’ve legit seen people freaking out when they realised they can’t remember some of their childhood, thinking they might have some repressed trauma.

queeranarchism

Some extra things:

Trauma isn’t necessarily ‘stored in the body’ and doesn’t necessarily have triggers. These are common experiences but not universal. The 'encoded in the limbic system’ theory has been disproven. Traumatic memories are re-experienced physically mainly because remembering causes our system to flood with stress hormones. There it also no evidence that trauma is stored in our 'ancient animal brain’. (The body keeps the score is a bad pseudoscience book)

'Repressed memories’ don’t really exist. There are memories that are difficult to remember because they happened a long time ago and there are memories that you’ve systematically trained yourself to avoid thinking about because they upset you, but they are still accessible to you. But if a therapist says you need hypnosis or some shit to 'recover’ memories: run. That’s dangerous quack science and is likely to result in false-memory recovery which can really complicate existing trauma.

Intrusive remembering is a more common trauma-response than memory avoidance.

You can forget and then later remember genuinely huge things like your brother’s wedding. You can also forget them entirely. It doesn’t mean you have 'repressed memories’, it doesn’t mean that you’re traumatized and unless it happens frequently it doesn’t mean that you have cognitive problems. The brain as a memory tool is just incredibly flawed.