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[sysbreak-reblogs]

separate place for reblogs. main: @systematic-breakdown

[digoodm]

Things for baby systems / beings newly figuring out their system / suspecting systems because I'm bored

"Idk if my trauma was enough"

If you're experiencing the symptoms, you're experiencing the symptoms. You don't have to focus on your trauma if you don't have support and even then, you can choose to wait until you're ready. No one's forcing you to work through your trauma yet and if they are pressuring you, fuck them.

"I'm starting to think I'm a system, what do I do?"

Do research on other disorders that it could be first (OSDDID symptoms overlap with others, like BPD) because you can subconsciously convince yourself of symptoms. If you still think it's OSDDID, log your symptoms and try to go to a professional.

"I think I'm faking"

There's a possibility you don't have it, there's a possibility you have it, but if you're not consciously faking, you're not consciously faking. Sure, you may be subconsciously faking but even then, that's not your fault. You're not a shitty person. Also, not to mention, thinking you're faking is common for even diagnosed systems.

"Should I use Simply Plural or PluralKit?"

I'd say no, not at least until you know for a fact or are like 90% sure. It can seperate your identity if you don't have it (NOT in the OSDDID way), and more if you do.

"I'm an endo"

Lmao no you're not. Not remembering your trauma is so common. Just be normal. If you're suspecting, you're suspecting, but you're not 'endogenic'. I won't deny your experience, but I will correct you.

I'm too lazy to think of more but feel free to ask questions. Note that I'm a minor and I'm not diagnosed and not a professional.

[moonjay-the-forest-spirit]

An experience I have that I haven't seen talked about in system spaces is being incredibly uncomfortable looking at photos of yourself when another alter was fronting.

Like I can't even bring myself to look at them, I just can't. If I notice a new video or photo of me or even a voice message that I sent to someone that I don't remember taking I get a sick feeling and really want to delete it without even taking a proper look. And when I do look/watch/listen? I just freak out. That's not me. But it's my face. My voice. Anyone else looks at it and they'll see me but it's not and that drives me mad.

It's the same with old photos and videos as well especially from childhood I get so freaked out when our mom tries to show us or other people old pictures of when we were little. I even lash out sometimes and I can never explain why just "don't show me that. I don't want to see it" maybe other people just take it for embarrassment? That's normal to be embarrassed of yout old baby pictures. But it's not embarrassment idk what it is but it's a truly awful feeling. I never want to see an old picture of me again.

[ghost-jester-sys]

Living Alone With A CDD

Some tips, tricks and general ways I've found to cope - To show it's not as complicated as you think to live alone with CDD's

Trauma

Trauma comes up at THE WORST times possible... Without therapy it's hard to stop it, but there are ways to help cope with it..

Creating a safe space to go when trauma memories are overwhelming helps me the most, I make sure there are comfort items and grounding items there!

Amnesia

It's hard to do anything when you can't remember what you last did...

I make sure everything that is a regular task is always visible if I were to go anywhere in my flat. Bins? Visible. Dishes? Visible. Bed? Visible.

It makes it easier to see what actually needs doing or if I should go relax

Also keeping a diary/journal of day-to-day things helps too! You can keep one online, in an app or have a physical diary!

Depression

Most systems will understand how hard it is to stay positive... Keeping in touch with loved ones, keeping comfort items for depression holders or alters more prone to feeling low and making sure you go out is key!

Even though you should "be responsible" it's important to give yourself a break- go buy a treat! Save up to get yourself something you've wanted! Even if these are temporary, they help!

Getting in your local community is huge too! Parks have community events sometimes, community gardens, community centres and libraries are the key!

Littles + Younger Parts

For some of us it can be dangerous to not have a carer (external or internal) around when a little fronts

For those that can cope with littles fronting I have another post on my page!

There's no real surefire way to manage this to be honest, it'll always be a struggle for me so I don't feel able to say much on it at the moment

Money

Being aware of money can be hard when people spend it without you really knowing

Keeping up to date with everything is incredibly important. Pretty much everyone uses banking apps now, which makes it MUCH easier to assess spending...

This is far from comprehensive but cut a disabled guy some slack, I've done what I can to waffle here and I hope it makes some people feel a little less alone.. and maybe I can be proof that you CAN do it

[stillfuckingtired]

Brain fog is not an adequate descriptor, actually. Fog can be kinda nice and beautiful and ethereal and refreshing. The thing we’re describing is more like a brain BOG; everything moves slow like you’re wading through water, it’s clunky and heavy and you keep getting stuck in the mud. It’s uncomfortable and inconvenient and everything takes so much effort. You lost a shoe, probably.

[muddyswirls]

[the-nvl-sys]

Normalize accepting you're wrong about having DID.

Normalize accepting it might be a different disorder.

Normalize not calling people who were wrong with their suspicions fakers.

It's okay to suspect a disorder and turn out to be wrong. That's what research, suspecting, and getting professional help is for.

[anti-willo-loki]

Some people will try to argue that Alters can't "be in a body part" while I'm over here completely dissociated from my legs because someone doesn't want to get up.

-?

[radioactive-yuri]

anger issues as a trauma response is something i don't see a lot of people talking about, probably because it's an "unpalatable" or "uncomfortable" form of struggling. like yeah, my older sister consistently denied me any real identity or freedom of my own for the first decade of my life. based on the shit people say online, you'd think my trauma response would be to become as small and unobtrusive as possible. WRONG! i just got angry as fuck. i made myself bigger, more threatening, louder. harder to ignore. when i don't want to do something someone else does, i genuinely struggle not to just go "no, i don't wanna do that. we're not doing that.", because for so long, i had to go "okay, i guess we can do this if you want..." even when i didn't. the point is that my opinion never mattered, so i made it impossible to dismiss. and in the process became an angry, bitter, argumentative individual. and that's something i'm working on.

the point is, our brains are different, and respond differently to similar traumas. but shout out to all my fellow people who developed anger issues in response to trauma.

[gothredy]

[thirteenthdistrict]

Not only is the "Evil Alter" trope stupid and weird, but it also doesn't come anywhere close to capturing the true horrific realities of being a system. Such as one of your headmates liking Taylor Swift.

[whitemonsterr]

gay fragment call that a fagment

[deitiesinpurgatory-deactivated2]

I think in general people don’t really understand that the outlandish or “evil” things that happen in our system is pretty normal or day to day. Like yeah sometimes you just have to ignore the parts getting tortured right next to you, yes parts are constantly being taken to god knows where because they “broke a rule”, yeah programmer parts will sit in the front room with us and simply watch us to make us uncomfortable and fuck with us, yeah there’s tons of programmed relationships that are abusive but we arnt deprogrammed enough to separate them yet.

[hazedxg0]

Not to invalidate anyone or anything like that, but I really do feel like the term "flashback" is overused quite a lot in the PTSD and C-PTSD community. Especially the term "emotional flashback".

Flashbacks are not just any instance in which you are remembering a traumatic event and getting upset about it. They are specifically dissociative reactions in which you experience the event as if it's occurring in the present.

It occurs when a normally compartmentalized traumatic memory and the associated psychobiological personality systems of defence completely take over your consciousness, leaving you immersed in the memory and unable to access the part of you that handles daily life.

Of course there's variability in how it presents. You don't need to be having a flashback in all your senses at once and completely forget where you are for it to be a flashback. Some people also experience it as "the trauma never ended" as opposed to "the trauma is happening again". And so on.

But in order for it to be considered a flashback you need to be experiencing the event, at least partially, as if it's happening right now.

This is true for emotional flashbacks as well. Feeling anxious or upset, even in response to a trigger, doesn't necessarily equal an emotional flashback. For it to be an emotional flashback, you need to be re-experiencing the specific emotions you felt at the time of the trauma. It's not just being upset that it happened. It's being put right back in the exact emotional state you were in when it happened.

That's not to say the symptoms people are describing are fake. They're just misclassified, and better explained by other (usually intrusion category) symptoms. Namely:

Intrusive memories: recurrent and distressing intrusions where a person remembers the traumatic event (or aspects of it), without the distinct feeling of re-experiencing it as if it was happening in the present

Psychological/physical reactivity to reminders of trauma: distressing emotional responses (i.e. fear, anxiety, dread, anger) or physical responses (i.e. racing heartbeat, difficulty breathing, shaking) in response to trauma triggers

Hypervigilance: being on high alert and searching for danger, often experienced as a chronic state but there can be episodes where it gets worse than baseline without it being a flashback

I think it would really benefit people to learn more about the symptoms of PTSD and C-PTSD, because it really feels like people just aren't aware of all the ways it can manifest and so they just end up calling everything "flashbacks" or "triggers" even when there is other language is that is more accurate.

[chiwosays-deactivated20251022]

"sysmed" is probably the stupidest fucking word ive seen all day. maybe all year

[phoenix-zip]

Oh my god, seriously though. I have so many issues with this word.

How dare we say that a disorder is medical, right?

It stems from transmed, a term used to describe people who believe that trans people should transition medically and experience dysphoria, or they aren’t valid.

The fact that it stems from a transgender related term implies that being a system is an identity. Despite the name, DID is a dissociative disorder, not an identity.

If it's not implying DID/OSDD is an identity, then it is implying that being transgender is a disorder, which is not only wrong, but also transphobic.

[the-io-collective]

threatening to become the "evil alter" is prob my fav hobby. you ate my sandwich??? im becoming the evil alter. got cut off in traffic? i'm the evil alter now. this guy on the street looked at us funny? guess what, evil alter baybeeeee.

[hop-timism]

plenty of talk about dangerous hallucinations but what about the ones that impact literally nothing at all like yeah i saw abby fnaf on the bus and then nothing happened