Aiden ♾️⭐️

19 ☆ he/they/it ☆ bpd possible audhd☆ dni -16 ☆ queer☆ tone tags appreciated!

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Welcome to my blog!

Intro post!!

This is me!

>Aiden

>He/they

>Trans

>Borderline (possible audhd) ,panic disorder

>19 years old

Communities i interact with: Disabled, Autism, Undertale, Art, Queer

Interests: Undertale (Special interest) Psychology (Special interest) BATIM, Deltarune, art, NSO, Autism, DDLC, FNAF security breach, dead end paranormal park, hazbin hotel, heartbreak high, The amazing digital circus, Kemonomimi, D.I.D

dni: haters, below 16 & overal just rude folks

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suffocating isnt it?

the weight slowly unbearable

deeply sunken within your chest

and you wonder and wonder

the only thing that fixed fixes this hole

is others their approval

like a leakage fixed with tape

it will last a second maybe a minute

till the dreading gently makes its way back

and you wonder when you look at yourself

is this what i am?

is this all i will ever will be?

a wound so deep that it may never heal because oh darling you were just so young

the loneliness is slowly suffocating you

and so is your wellbeing

you keep your head up so high

revealing its tension of the effort to do such

you kick it off with a smile, a little nod

it seems your convincing yourself rather than others

that you dont need help

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Vote (for free!) for my cat Baby Girl to help pay for her vet care 🥺💟

As many of you know, I've made this account to blog about my 3 cats: Baby Girl, Luna, and Trouble. Baby Girl lives with me. Luna and Trouble live with my stepmom.

When Baby Girl came to us, she had always had a weight control p despite feeding her vet recommended food and the correct portions. Despite having good care, she continues to gain weight. I need to take her back to the vet to do bloodwork and x-ray with sedation. We are at $520/$650 CAD but the vet has said there will likely be more care needed depending on what her diagnosis is.

Because alot of people can't monetarily donate to the cause, I've decided to enter her into a pet contest where people can vote FOR FREE after creating an account. You can cast a FREE VOTE EVERY 15 MINUTES. I'd be so grateful if you could! 💟

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Not big on love anymore. But, Oh man, you should've seen me when I was...

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while im gazing at my cigarette and the clock strikes 5am

i look down on myself and look at what ive achieved.

ive integrated myself into the norm losing myself amongst the way

i dont know if it was worth it.

when your trauma started on day one, a life in peace is not known

how am i ever becoming normal

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seeing a colleague making fun of the "No,no dont do that" scene in obsession hurts me personally. for me it depicts splitting so so intensely, the moodswings within the seconds is for me how a split actually looks like. The emotions feel very truthful

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So... i got classified

Looking at my therapist in the dsm 5 personality disorders, she classified me with bpd. my therapist has been on an off diagnosing me with autism adhd bpd. but she now did classify me as a borderline.

so much of my life does make sense now, also the overwhelming urge to prove my mental illness. the splitting, the dissociation, the $h and much more.

and honestly it has been difficult, being high functioning feels like larping my own diagnosis.

as an avoidant borderline it makes it seem like i dont fear rejection, but i can see that it seeps through sometimes.

i did dbt therapy 2 years ago and it did help me, my symptoms are pushed down the drain.. and maybe not always in the positive sense

sorry for this disasterous post, i just wanna find community

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ello ello fellow age regressors:))

my dream is to have a deco paci... has been for years now, does anyone know if anyone is actively hosting give aways for deco pacis?, i really really want to...

but the ones i can find in europe rn are really out of my price range, so more to spend on than i would like

ive been really really reaaaally wanting one so any ideas or accounts would be appreciated :3

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i really thought i finally had an official official diagnosis, i did all the testing.

it ended up being autism with lots of doubts from my psych and therapist....

now my therapist has decided to wipe it off again, saying the longer she knows me the less she thinks so. while all my friends and my bf do think so.

i feel so deeply lost especially since she started leaning more towards a personality disorder but refused to diagnose me with bpd before

now its "borderline organization"

i feel so deeply frustrated, especially ive discussed my worries so many times about feelings like a massive imposter.

even though i didnt feel like i always related to everything with autism, i did think it somewhat fit me and suited me.

but because i got traumatized as an infant there are so many doubts.

but thurseday she will ask this to another psychiatrist/therapist to hear a clean slate of thoughts, i am terrified.

i dont know what im trying to achieve with this, but i would like to hear people their opinions and thoughts

((((((((((((small disc: my therapist currently has thrown around MANY times with diagnosis unprofessionally and has decided to diagnose me regards to doubt and suddenly switched up again! im going insane. she also has prejudice towards bpd "you are too sweet to have bpd!!" she also commented that "you dont look like you ever had 34ting problems!! i mean ur not f4t or anything!"))))))))))

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a bit off an account shift,

i am planning to make this more of a mental health account, sharing my personal stories and life

i feel quite alone it the situation i am in...

feel free to interact

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I wanna share something personal today, and asking a question

bland mention of $h

So basically ive been supposingly for a long time in mh recovery. basically my therapist is very aware of the fact i struggle to tell her when i relapsed w $h but i did. you would expect her to react well on that. she ended up leaving me on read when i replied with mhm when she asked me what i did. then i decided the next day to text her to tell her it was just really intense the last few days, all she told me "yes it goes in waves"

is this even okay to do as a therapist?

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I always forget there are maga people on tumblr, this doesn’t feel like a website you’d find them on, so to keep them away:

Reblog if your blog is a maga free zone because if it wasn’t clear enough fuck ice, fuck maga, fuck Trump, Fuck Rowling, and fuck all the other bigots I missed

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attempted something new today art wise!!! have been trying to study anatomy and shading, any tips would be appreciated ^^<3

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gave drawing disablity aids a shot today!

this is my oc, hes called kai!

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Disability care and ableism.

I am an autistic student that had followed an internship within in a company that worked with disabled people on different levels (mild to severe) and physically disabled people.

But when i tell you the workers involved in the job can be sometimes extremely ableist is actually insane to me

For example;

When i was working there they did not accomodate me at all and judged me for the traits that accompany being neurodiverse. Needing clear instructions for example or needing clear explanations. On top of that their accomodations for me was a singular extra smoke break and a comment with "you dont look autistic"

Another example;

We had a lady come over from an organisation that was disabled, but the way they spoke of her afterwards made me feel annoyed and icky. They were exclaiming that the lady was "too proud" of her achievements and that she kept trying to talk about it, like ma'am have you realised neurodiversity comes with missing your neurotypical social cues. Or wanting to express her excitement around her achievements.

Sometimes it could also be visible in the way they spoke about clients, or how i had clients explaining to me that they dont always feel like they are being taken serious.

There was also a client who told me i was the first one to even aknowledge them that day.

Healthcare needs its improvements,

feel free to share your own experiences direct or as a worker!

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came to DBT for bpd/bipolair traits, left with an autism diagnosis and improvement of social skills