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Do we have BPD or is it just symptoms of C-PTSD hmm

One of the hardest parts of being a system for us is the dissonance between alters on our out of system relationships. A majority of our friends are well like amongst the entire system (we have some really cool friends) but there have been the few...not so great ones. And unfortunately, it's hard to distance yourself when a handful of alters are attached to them and will try to engage with them whenever they front, which makes us look pretty shitty for being hot and cold with how we act around them, but it also makes it challenging to cut off people who aren't good for us.

I really like one of our ex-friends, I considered them to be one of my best friends. But most of the system didn't trust them, and they hurt me a lot. It's weird losing a friendship due to someone else disagreeing with you on how much you're willing to tolerate. However, if every single protector doesn't like them, and your other close friends don't like them, and your partner doesn't like them...well, I think it's probably a good sign they weren't good for us.

#-void #vent #system vent

Lots of frustration going on here. Jester is fixated on manifesting that things get better but in doing so is very adamant about not thinking about anything thats wrong because acknowledging it goes against “the mindset”. At the same time I’m here with the prior wisdom that letting Mold do their thing and channel our everyday load into venting for a bit is EXACTLY what gave Jester the lee way to front recently. I try to explain to Jester that whatever we want to be true, is, and that letting ourselves feel our negative feelings isnt setting us back but well. Very stubborn.

#out of fear I know #well more like out of the desire to better our overall situation #but its not gonna get us anywhere but burn out #-Void #gonna add the others sign offs since the post is mainly about them #im just playing mediator. on the account of coming back to front more and being the most. objective #-Jester #-Mold #system #system stuff #sysblr #plural system #osdd system #plurality #plural stuff #pluralblr

As much as I, being in a human vessel, enjoy the human urge to sort myself and other things into boxes and labels, it does hit me that like. As much as we like and feel that we reflect certain Dread Powers it’s really the concepts behind them that we actually embody. The very fact of being an avatar of a dread power is that they feed on the FEAR of that thing. And I don’t want that at all. I want to embody the endless opportunities that The Vast holds, the freedom. And that intersection of freedom between that and The Dark. How one can be anything in the dark, unperceivable, undefined. Can it be a little maddening? Of course. But it’s the kind of madness that empowers. That frees you. Become untethered