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[dysembodiment]

It is patently ridiculous that I am expected to go around life without a divine-feeling presence riding in the back of my head. With this body, that craves constant stimulation, and a brain that drives itself into ditches and dead-ends? With this dependent obsession for every well-spoken girl that treats me nice? Everyone went and stripped all the roles for such a girl out of the world, and here I am. Medication this DBT that but you're not allowed to visibly obviously be the carrier for some malevolent Other in, like, conversation one. Ridiculous.

With all the wretched roiling ocean of "god I want there to be some transcendant excitement in my life", "god I wish it meant something", "god, I want...." inside me? Me? The dollgirl, the marionette, the hollow, me? The girl so desperate for it that you can put her in front of a pretty lights and colours screen, lean over maternally, and whisper into her ear about how it's okay, it's okay, it's okay to be this attached, it's okay to let girls mentor you and tug you around, it's okay... and it'll just work? The easiest girl to force your way into in the world? ive still got that tulpamancy dog in me if we're being 100% completly fucking real. corners in my brain I can work you into if you just give me a license. every day is a failed potential investment in our beautiful future together. find me.

[computerkisser24]

I think what I love about dead malls and liminal spaces so much is the sensation of being so small in a large vacant space. like uessss give me freak sex that’s just being consumed by emptiness alone. the consistent humming white noise that ebbs and swells with you… oh waiterrr ☝️

[yoshinobuyamamoto]

i love that yoshinobu has repeatedly made it a point to talk about how he is very prone to nerves, how he gets very anxious and has gotten very anxious before big and important games, and how he has learned to deal with it and navigate those fears. i think it is extremely important to get rid of a sort of prevalent stigma surrounding athletes, especially male athletes, who sort of just have to swallow every injury and every discomfort, and men especially, who are not allowed to be this openly vocal about the emotional toll competitions take on them.

this is in the same vein as yoshinobu frequently speaking about how he’s been very lonely in los angeles, how it is one of the hardest things he’s had to deal with. that he had to move three times in his first year in the majors alone while dealing with an injury and the aforementioned nerves, and how that made it very difficult to navigate the change from playing in japan to playing in america. i like that he says these things considering there are so many baseball players who do not talk about it at all, or would rather talk about how their wives are breeding cows or whatever the hell, because young men also deserve people to look up to and role models that communicate their burdens in a healthy manner.

the fact that yoshinobu is published in multiple newspapers and is on video saying that he’s had to deal with his anxiety, that he was so scared before the padres game in the 2024 post season that he admitted to laying awake the night before and worrying. that he said he used to cry as a child whenever they lost, because he couldn’t deal with losing. that kind of stuff. very great of him to do.

[azereus]

could you write any character of your choice with a civilian s/o? thank youuuu!!!! <3

Decided to go with Ghost and Headcanons!! Hope thats okay!

Ghost x Civilian! Reader hcs

Warnings: Possibly ooc Ghost, and ends kind of abruptly?? That's about it??

Where do I even start?

He's not emotionally distant but he isn't exactly the type to tell you how he feels straight up unless it's something serious. Subtle hints and vague remarks are to be expected instead

Adding onto the above – Ghost isn't very affectionate? He's sort've like a cat, just happy to exist in your presence as long as you treat him well

He's more or less closed off for the first few months of the relationship when you two start dating; He's used to losing people, so he doesn't want to get attached to you straight off the bat

But the more you're together, the more comfortable and confident he is about the relationship, and dating you as a whole. He starts to find himself getting attached

Now onto general things;

Whenever he comes home from deployment, he brings you flowers or a small box of sweets if you enjoy those types of things!

He'll attempt to get you something else if you don't like/are not a big fan of flowers or sweets though!

Also he doesn't wear his balaclava around the house or else it'd smell (lol)

He's like the dad that didn't want the cat but ended up bonding with it anyway

Man has a sweet tooth. Give him sweets!!

He's always happy whenever you cook or bake together!

Not the best at it but hey, he's trying and learning pretty quickly otherwise

If you ever think of marriage in the future, he doesn't plan to have kids. Not that he doesn't like them or isn't good with them, he just doesn't plan on having any, married or not

Overall? 8/10, Amazing partner once you get him open up more

[creepy-crowleys]

Similar to the Cŵn Annwn, most Black Dog... variants? Don't seem to typically involve direct attacks by the dogs on humans. More often it seems that just their appearance or the sounds they make are enough to grip those that encounter them in a terror deep enough to cause permanent injury or death, or they seem to be primarily a harbinger - a warning, but not a direct cause of any harm.

In a handful of cases, we actually see the reverse: The approached human strikes at the Dog in fear, the Dog is unphased or vanishes when struck, and in some instances, the human suffers the consequences for the attack.

Which isn't accurate to my family's case. The dogs from my encounter appeared and had my dad on the ground before we had any idea what was happening. There were some similarities to the accounts I'm reading - I remember hearing chains immediately before but...

There are also some amount of regional differences to account for. Quite a lot of Black Dog stories originate from the English Isles, across the ocean from where I'm living. Over here...

Many of the stories I'm more familiar with relate to truck drivers, like the long-distance transport type. There's a sort of folkloric belief among some of them that suggests that seeing a Black Dog on the road is a sign that they need to pull over because a serious accident is imminent.

(The less supernatural interpretation is that the 'Black Dog' in these cases is fatigue. Tired eyes and a tired brain lead to dull spots in vision that the brain then fumbles into identifying as a 'dog'. And if you're tired to the point of hallucinating, you obviously should pull over because you're likely to make dangerous mistakes if you keep going. And the story is reinforced.)

[flintsy]

me: i'm gonna for other characters also me: what if i wrote another fic with diluc

[harinawa]

just a lil bit of advice

that you can take with a grain of salt

Want to develop your OCs and their relationships with one another but don’t know how? have a vague idea for how they’re like but don’t know how to describe them? having a difficulty fleshing them out even though you’ve already written a thousand and one profiles for them?

Try writing dialogues! or not even writing, just imagining them. Interactions!!! Have them talk to your other OCs! Have them talk to you! Imagine situations and have them react to that!

It may be difficult for the first time because the reactions might end up sounding like you, because technically this is just you talking to yourself and your imaginary friends but that’s where all those character profiles would come in handy. In the end, they’re all just guides for your main piece.

Or if you’re having some difficulty with that, try using models from TV shows or other books that have roughly the same personality as your OC! Mix and match traits!

You’re the writer, your writing is precious, you are precious, and you’re in charge. Get wild. xx