top 10 songs for the month in which we all get doomed (feb)
1. Balenciaga by Paulz
this song... I saw a tiktok dance and I fell in love with it. I love the rythm, I can listen to it all day on repeat. if I have to walk a bit faster, this is what I use and it will get me everywhere, lol.
2. Oblivion by Halfy & Winks
I spent a lifetime looking for this song. I think it started playing in my head in like november but I couldn't find it until february. I love it, even though it has sadder vibes. they are super talented!! this & people like them are the reason I still love the dsmp fandom.
3. Angels Don't Fuck by Insincere
I actually started listening to this song when I was having the biggest mental breakdown. this stupid war & facing some past trauma made my last weekend the worst thing this year. it was so rough and even though I got help from a friend, this song was the thing I needed to get me out of the worst part of it.
4. Queerball by McCafferty
sadly I am having a rough time, these last couple of weeks took a huge toll on me. to try and help with that, I am trying new ways to fall asleep and the best option for now is: listening to music on my phone while the tv is muted so there isn't darkness in the room. this song helped me through so much, it's my go-to if I struggle with falling asleep.
countless early mornings have passed by me while I was listening to this masterpiece on repeat. I love that it's an instrumental song, sometimes that's all my brain needs to function and to get inspiration and my creativity flowing.
6. Dreamland by Glass Animals
my wilbur soot fanfic is still in the making, causing me many headaches (and heartbreaks). this song always helps me to calm down and it cheers me up. funfact: it'll be in my next chapter as well, so yeah.
7. Everywhere I Go by Hollywood Undead
this is a fun little song I put into the playlist as a joke. it always made me smile and it actually makes me laugh a lot as well, so I decided that it needs to stay in there.
8. Notion by The Rare Occasions
it's just to help me get through the rough parts of life. this song is radiating happiness and fun, at least the melody does. I love it.
9. Softcore by The Neighbourhood
"are we too young for this?"
meanwhile I'm vibing online, writing fun fanfic's and spending hours watching streams, I am working on myself as well.
trying to get the right form of therapy & specialist seems impossible, so I'm trying to figure out what are the things that I really need to focus on. I am digging deep into my (sometimes non-existent) childhood memories for help and with every day passing by I feel more and more anger and pain. it was way too obvious that something isn't right with me and people should have noticed. I get real disturbed by it so the process is a bit slow. this song reminds me of it and makes it a tiny bit easier to cope with these huge feelings.
10. After Dark by Mr.Kitty
still on my list. this month I made 4 different playlists because I couldn't find any song that I truly enjoyed for so long (it's usually a sign of my depression getting a bit better). this was the only song I kept on adding to the newer lists because I love it so much!
+1 Fentanyl by McCafferty
I love love love this one!!!! spoken word poetry is always a win in my books but the talent these guys have... relevant topics, heavy lyrics but it doesn't make me mad. I just enjoy it so much.