#actually addicted

[puppytweaker]

can drugblr / fellow users and addicts tell me your favourite fictional drug users / addicts ? boo movie tv show whatever bonus points if they use meth or heroin 💯💯💯

[mental-ch-illness]

pro tip for recovering addicts

TW: Addiction, Alcohol dependency

as someone currently working through a moderate addiction to alcohol, there is something that actually really has helped me recently: replacement and going nuclear.

i would like to say that this method is not fool proof, and it will not work for people who have not completely accepted their addiction or have severe addiction. also, i am only dealing with alcohol dependency, so this may not work for others. even if you are struggling with alcohol, this might not work for you, but here's something that has helped me.

going nuclear, so don't even bother with trying to convince yourself it's going to be just one sip or one night. if you didn't trust yourself earlier that day, you probably shouldn't trust yourself now. so i've been doing the Most™ and simply applying brute force against myself. here's what i've been doing.

bought myself a timer lock. i put my alcohol in a cabinet and then use the lock on the cabinet. that way i have to wait to get to it. i can have a drink and then put it back and reset the lock. this prevents me from going back for more before the effects actually kick in. usually i make it a few hours. this method is great if you have a problems with delayed gratification because you can watch the numbers go down. also, you can set it to a longer periods of time to prevent day drinking. it's pretty easy, so you can set it up during those periods of clarity and yet it still holds up once the urges start up again.

i now leave my driver's license in the lock box of my car whenever i go to the store. this helps as i typically go to the store telling myself i won't buy alcohol. then when i'm actually passing by that aisle i find myself picking up some bottles and convincing myself it will be fine. it's not fine. just like above, take advantage of those moments of clarity and lock up your ID.

i've been deliberately diluting my alcohol by making premade mixed drinks. a go too of mine is measuring out three parts fruit juice and one part vodka (so it should be... like... 8% ABV, but don't quote me on that). i typically just mix it into an already emptied bottle of fruit juice. that way, instead of just doing shots of straight vodka, i am forced to actually drink a whole cocktail. there's only so much my stomach can hold, so it forces me to slow down.

i started taking medication to help curb addiction urges. currently, i am on a daily dose of naltrexone (as a pill) to help curb the urge to drink. it's not a cure all, but it does provide a sort of speed bump. not just with alcohol. i've sometimes found myself questioning impulse purchases and the like much more often. there are other medications that can help, so it might help to talk to your doctor.

here's another thing that isn't really 'nuclear', but has helped: i got a snow cone machine... just a tiny one i found on clearance. whenever i got the urge to drink, i'd make a snow cone. i didn't think it would work as well as it has, but i think the dopamine hit from that does help to curb things.

not everyone can quit cold turkey, but everyone should do their best to outsmart their addiction when they can. you'll fuck up, but that doesn't mean that you are a fuck up. it's gonna be okay. maybe not today, or tomorrow, or the next day, but it will be one day.

[hrd-haze]

[the-complicity-system]

Taps the sign

Please help I just made almost 4pm coffee even though I was having heart issues last night :(

[recoveringwfeminism]

12 Steps claim to be just spiritual, not Christian. Notice the Christian talk.

[Image ID: The twelve steps of Alcoholics Anonymous on a white graphic with orange details]

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[drugsneko]

[nameanot]

The more I grow up, the more I realize that boomers are right about smartphones

[gor3sigil]

Sometimes, I wish that my therapist understood that no, I don't need to learn how to "sit with the feelings."

If I started drinking and getting high, it was precisely because I sat with them for so long it started eating me alive.

Like doctor, I'm traumatized and autistic, you can't just tell me to sit with the feelings. IT. WON'T. WORK.

My glass of emotions doesn't empty itself every night. It stays half full. If I keep pouring and pouring, it overflows, and the relapses are so worse than what I would've done if I didn't just try to go through the feelings instead of making it more bearable.

That's the issue I have with most addiction therapy. They think all you ever do is run away. It's like they do see that substance abuse, self-harm, or any form of harmful addiction we pick up to stay the fuck alive. My brain is a hornet nest that everything, every second of every day, pokes with a stick. So excuse me if sometimes I need a time out from it. It's not always "the easy way out". At times, it's the only one that doesn't mean disappearing.

And if it's the thing that keeps my heart beating for a few more hours, it'll have to do.

I tried breathing exercises, medication for anxiety AND cravings, AND neuroleptics that turned my mind into mush, meditation, exercise, going out to walk, vitamin supplements, yoga, stretching, hypnosis, cardiac coherence. Nothing works.

At the end of the day this shit became a full time job I kid you not. How can I live if I spend hours everyday to JUST function ? What if I funtion better while using ?

But there's no options in my case, you're just seen as a lost cause and left to rot because everyone think that you, inevitably, will.

I have to do harm reduction unsupervised on myself to keep goin. That's not fun nor living. I'm exhausted.