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honestly, i've been struggling a lot the past couple of weeks or so. my mood has taken a complete nosedive, my sleep schedule's really messed up, my appetite is non-existent, i had my first panic attack in a while earlier and all i really want to do is lay in my bed. i tend to use the phq-9 questionnaire as a kind of gauge of my mood - i know it's not meant to be a diagnostic tool, but i already have diagnosed clinical depression so i use it as more of a warning sign for when things are getting bad again and uh. turns out i might be depressed besties. who'd have thunk it. <3 idk it sucks because usually i'm quite good at spotting things getting bad before they get bad but for some reason this time it just. yeah. it didn't work. it sucks. there's no beating around the bush.
