#arquaticautistic

[arquaticdreamer]

Cloud so happy got new communication cards with sharks on it

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1. Shark communication Cards light blue card background with great white sharks in ocean. Words say "Communication cards"

2. "Please be patient I'm autistic"

3. "Please communicate for me" with great white next to diver

4. Whale shark on the phone with meme captions "hello? Yes. This is whale shark" words "my name is Julian"

5. Great white shark plushie with words "my pronouns are He/Him"

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[arquaticdreamer]

Istg if I hear one more parent or person online calling the parents/caregivers of their autistic child angels or literal angels from heaven I'm gonna scream! Yes there are moments where my caregiver looks visibly exhausted. But it doenst help knowing our landlady telling my caregiver "omg God bless you i couldn't do the work you do" like damn I'm just trying to live my life. I get it I'm annoying when I have screaming meltdowns but I'm also annoyed by them as well for having them having full blown screaming meltdowns is exhausting for the person having it too not just the caregiver/parent. Parents and caregivers for doing the basic bare minimum and sticking with their kids caring for them full time are still not angels from heaven. I hate the idea of someone telling my caregiver out in public "Oh god bless you" and other bulls**t like even as someone who believes in God i wouldn't do that to another disabled family

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TW: mention of abusers and OEA:

Arquatic Paul here:

GREAT NEWS!!! I FINALLY FINALLY ESCAPED MY ABUSERS/CAPTORS!!! I finally finally FINALLY escaped the family and I’m fucking free now far away from my abusive toxic family!!! It took almost to my 30th birthday but I finally am fucking free!!!!!

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Arquatic cries:

we have finally counted our head count at 1,080 alters so far holy crap!!! As complex polyfragmented C-DID system this is immense our head hurts from counting

[arquaticdreamer]

What does “complex” high support needs mean? How is it different from just saying high support needs? (/genuine question)

Complex support needs is needing 24/7 on the clock hour care by a caregiver usually someone who possibly lives in a facility or hospital hospice care abd cannot be alone for any amount of time. Has extremely hard time communicating and cannot do any or all ADLs BADLS like any bathing ambulating toileting without assistance basically those who are high support needs already and above those who have multiple disabilities on top of other chronic illnesses this again is just my own personal experiences. Those who need feeding tubes or are needing an in home nurse care and or huge health care team of nurses. Im someone who is consistently in and out of the ER and needing IV Ativan and fluids for my severe autistic catatonia and dystonia I need lots of help with motor stuff and even assistance with AAC .most of us are totally nonverbal or can use moderate to minimal "home signs" or modified ASL sign language or for the UK version BSL modified signs some of us use eye gaze AAC power chairs. Etc. It depends from complex needs supports person i am very severely cognitively disabled I'm not intellectually disabled but I am very cognitively dusabled due to many untreated traumatic brain injuries (TBI's) and multiple concussions. Ive got other forms of communications outside of AAC tablet and homesign like I can write to an extent pen and paper. But very hard. High Support needs can be a wide spectrum from MSN-HSN lots of HSN autistics can be speaking or minimally to unreliably speaking. Or semiverbal. Depends i myself am totally nonspeaking (nonverbal) I have severe aggresive meltdowns that require intense help to calm down from and it can be so exhausting and mentally draining. Sorry if this isnt very well put out I just got back out off the ER for a concussion from a major meltdown I had three days ago and severe pneumonia. Hope some of this helps

[arquaticdreamer]

Silence is the loudest longest way to scream...and even though we may never speak again my silence is a conversation that will never end. Whether you listen or not

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Arquatic Paul here:

Everyone of objectum Tumblr meet my new girlfriend Kathryn Olivia. She is my very first serious objectum relationship. She is a Optelec Clearview300 CRT TV monitor magnifier. I found her on eBay for a little over 80 bucks and I wanted her so badly I found out that she was free shipping because she was pick up local only turns out she was all the way in Phoenix Arizona and m from west coast california so me and my caregiver (roomamte) take a 15 hour long drive cross the state to pick her up. And for a mostly homebound disabled autistic with Agoraphobia it was A MASSIVE FEAT to accomplish but by God's good graces I made it to and back from the desert in one piece and it was all worth it for Katy. I love you Katy!

- Paul Leskowitz

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Arquatic Autistic:

Being nonverbal is an odd experience I keep finding more people out what kind of people they truly are based on just how they treat me once they realize I cannot speak and it’s like I’m an external mirror to public society and other neurotypicals like the moment they realize I’m unable to express myself verbally via mouth speak their actions reveal a sort of truth serum about who they are as people if they’re a good person with kindness and empathy or just another ableist pretentious snobby person. It’s sorta dehumanizing how I’m just used as an object this external mirror and it says way more about them than it ever says about me and having them never know a single true detail about who I am as a person inside and that really hurts. For those of you who become nonspeaking later in life be prepared for that kind of widespread rejection from outward society every time you go out in public. Those of you who are experiencing severe speech loss to the point where you lose all functional speech you’re not alone and I see you you are never alone. And you will get through this. Being nonverbal isn’t a bad thing or tragic thing it just weeds out the vast majority of those who you don’t need in your life.