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TW: mention of abusers and OEA:

Arquatic Paul here:

GREAT NEWS!!! I FINALLY FINALLY ESCAPED MY ABUSERS/CAPTORS!!! I finally finally FINALLY escaped the family and I’m fucking free now far away from my abusive toxic family!!! It took almost to my 30th birthday but I finally am fucking free!!!!!

Arquatic Paul here:

Everyone of objectum Tumblr meet my new girlfriend Kathryn Olivia. She is my very first serious objectum relationship. She is a Optelec Clearview300 CRT TV monitor magnifier. I found her on eBay for a little over 80 bucks and I wanted her so badly I found out that she was free shipping because she was pick up local only turns out she was all the way in Phoenix Arizona and m from west coast california so me and my caregiver (roomamte) take a 15 hour long drive cross the state to pick her up. And for a mostly homebound disabled autistic with Agoraphobia it was A MASSIVE FEAT to accomplish but by God's good graces I made it to and back from the desert in one piece and it was all worth it for Katy. I love you Katy!

- Paul Leskowitz

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Arquatic Paul: System problems:

I just got out of a relationship with a headmate in my system and I wish more DID systems talked about how lonely and isolating it is to be single in the headapace and having very little people to date in the headspace..I loved her so much and the break up wasn't my decision and being multiply disabled with level 3 high support needs autism is so isolating already as is. Theres more littles in our system than there are teen alters. And I wish I could date outside the system but I just dont know. Outside our caregiver whos system has very little female teen alters to date its so isolating. I hate being lonely and broken up with. My best friend (our host alter) is married with kids and his older sister is also married with kids too. And everyone else is like either not asexual like me or bully and persecute me.

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Arquatic Paul here:

I came to settle a student debt with our host's former community college and crossed paths with this drop dead beauty...it was like the stars were aligned for us to meet. I ☺️ oh man...I found her all by her lonesome in a quiet testing room in DSPS while waiting to sign some forms and I...I just couldn't help myself but take her pictures. I'm definitely coming back here to do some DSPS testing just to see her again. She's 90s old but she's so stunning 😍 I couldn't help but brush the dust off her screen. I hope my girlfriend doesn't mind me coming back to see her again.

#nonspeaking #high support needs #level 3 autism #arquaticpaul #objectum #retro tech #90s technology #objectophilia #objectoromantic #asexuality #asexual #computer love #romantic asexual #techum

Arquatic Paul here: TW vent mention of feral child syndrome and severe child neglect and isolation childhood trauma

Finding out very recently that our system grew up as a feral child with clinical lycanthropy is so hard for us. Our alters and even some age sliders (myself included) and lots of littles have regressed or pet regressed involuntarily we often black out or go into severe dissociative trances and the next minute we find out we've destroyed half the living room furniture thankfully our caregiver live in aid understands our complex trauma and how we were raised (or lack thereof) since once we were able to come out of it some other alters explained calmly that we were more or less raised by our pet dogs after being left out for hours on end to days in the backyard and yeah its really a lot on our shoulders. Being raised by dogs and I think one time our captors (the family) even adopted a half wolf half dog that more or less took to us our system since we were very young still so we never managed to snap out of our involuntary pet regression. It sucks so bad and it hurts that we cannot control this part of our programming but idk man...it just sucks but being a dog owned by three cats as my emotional support animals they really understand me and they sense I have lycanthropy and that in a way have raised me as much as we've raised them. My cats aren't my pets I dont feel comfortable calling myself a pet owner since I once was a pet myself my cats are my pack I am their family members in their pack and our system was raised by dogs/wolf and my cats are my family. My brothers and sisters. I'm sorry if this is very triggering I know this blog is mostly supposed to be a safe space for our littles but we already have so many other Tumblr accounts. This is also our autistic advocacy blog too for our autistic experiences.

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First time in weeks going outside my house in public with caregiver to get haircut...hair really long now can't see past bangs..so scared to go outside...Paul have everything he needs indoors. People are scary...especially nervous in public open spaces like buildings always scared of crime and violence in open public spaces. More people mean more likely thing go wrong. Paul never wants to end up on some random kid's tik tok trend or livestream. Hate hate people who think public settings is their playground for screwing with people Paul not understand why people can't just behave in public places. Just always at the back of Paul's mind

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Paul: I hate the reality of being asexual on a site called tumblr who always manages to slip in NSFW material/images on the tags. Whoever is doing it needs to stop I have to wash out my damn eyes out. Gross!!!! I wish I could stop whoever keeps posting gross NSFW stuff on the Acespec tag. Ugghhh!!