i fucking hate when i mention the chronic boredom to people i know and they all go like "LMAO me too" bro. i dont mean i get restless and bored frequently, i dont mean i skip task to task looking for stimulation, i dont mean any of this adhd ass bullshit
i mean if i don't do anything, i lose the fucking life in me. i mean i search task to task searching for a purpose to being alive. i mean i feel lifeless without anything worth dedicating myself to.
being idle feels like being a taxidermied fucking corpse. relate to that, jackass
i have aspd and npd. i think arguing online is the best way to gain supply. i don't have to rely on other people complimenting me for ego boosts, i don't have to go out and permanently borrow things from stores, and i can be as petty, condescending, and rude as i want to in arguments. its amazing
I'm re-thinking wanting to get a diagnosis. I dont care to have my family ever know, and I dont want to be barred from insurance due to "pre-existing conditions." I'm worried about any permanent damage it could cause, but I also really really need to satisfy my curiosity as to whether or not I actually have aspd. Signs point to yes but I just doubt myself
Sorry if this has already been asked before but you could you explain what an exception person is? I'm a little confused.
An exception person is kind of like the ASPD version of a favorite person in BPD. They're the one or maybe few people someone with ASPD actually cares about, maybe protects, might even empathize with despite generally feeling detached/indifferent towards others.
I'm sure it's different for everyone, but for me, my exception person is the one person I trust and respect, genuinely want to protect, feel a larger range of emotion towards, and treat with loyalty, care, and affection.
aspd culture is literally only caring about saying insensitive things around your exception because they're the only person whose feelings you care about
what do psychopath/sociopath mean? are they actual terms? i always thought that "psychopath" meant "doesn't care + actively enjoys hurting people" and "sociopath" meant "not necessarily sadistic but they don't care" but i don't think that's quite accurate
Not sure if you wanted the short answer or long answer but I'll go with long because it's pretty interesting to me.
So socio/psychopath are used in colloquial speak but they're not formal diagnoses in the DSM or ICD.
"Psychopathy" is more of a research term/construct, mostly measured by the Hare PCL-R (psychopathy checklist), though there is no single test that is a "gold standard" for assessing psychopathy and scores do not predict the future.
"Sociopathy" isn't really used in clinical settings or research, it's more of a cultural term.
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There is no 100% agreed on definition, but broadly:
• Psychopathy: research wise, it usually refers to people who show
- High emotional detachment
- More affect-level differences (blunted/flat/labile affect, no/low empathy)
- Blunted fear and anxiety responses
- More calculated behaviors
- Viewed as neurologically shaped
It's conceptualized as "built-in" or neurological. Not "enjoys hurting people", that's a myth (sadism ≠ psychopathy).
• Sociopathy: usually used to describe people who
- Are more impulsive, reactive, inconsistent
- Have lower empathy (often still experience some)
- Are prone to anger and are "chaotic" or lower masking ASPD
- Viewed as environmentally shaped
So sociopathy is like "ASPD but learned" (trauma, instability, lack of socialization), and psychopathy is "ASPD but with strong neurological traits" in the way people describe it online, not official offline criteria.
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Enjoying hurting people is not part of socio/psychopathy or ASPD. Sadism is its own thing that can appear in people with and without ASPD/traits. We aren't driven by harm necessarily, it's more:
Something I find rather odd about the more palatable psychopaths(the types who go onto interviews or tiktoks for fame and attention) claim to need to intentionally control their blink rate to blend in with NTs...? Feigning affect is reasonable enough and something I do myself. But blinking is an automated reflex done the cerebral cortex, by an area of the brain decently far from the amygdala(emotional center/things pwASPD have atypical developments in). So what is that whole shtick about?
Controlling your blink rate sounds like way too much effort and unless I'm sitting in an interrogation room I do not care that much.
"I'm sorry" is just a tool to me. I never feel remorse for what I did. But I understand that an apology makes the other person feel better, and it makes the problem go away most of the time. Plus the demonstrated humility saves face and makes me more trustworthy in others' eyes.
I kinda wish I did feel remorse, or that I meant or felt it when I apologize. But I don't. And I'm not entirely sure why I wish that.
