#attachmentdisorder

[vulgarstem]

i give too much i give too much of myself to everyone i overthink i overgive i over love and i wake up feeling like in order for anyone to stay in my life i have to be strong i have be perfect i have to comfort i have to satisfy them otherwise theyll leave me and what a terrible thing for someone to walk out of your life because the little girl inside of you screams why am i not enough. what is so wrong with me that you can’t stand to stick around. tell me please and i’ll fix it. tell me what to be in order for you to stay and i’ll be that for you. ok? okay.. please just tell me how. and i wake from another nightmare about you. open my eyes and realize ive betrayed myself for someone who only wants me for one thing and sees me as nothing else. i should’ve never done that to myself. it’s not worth it. it’s not worth hurting yourself. you make me nauseous. violate me you make me sick. youre sorry you didn’t mean to. but i just wonder

what’s wrong with me? why didn’t you just listen when i told you not to. when i asked you to stop you did it anyways. it didn’t matter that i didnt want it. and because you felt guilty and because you were sorry thats supposed to be enough? it’ll never be enough. i would never do that to you. that’s one of the many differences between us. sometimes you’re just lesser than. you’re immature. you don’t know.

[hollymarlow]

Mothers' Day has been a tough one so far (Jake's quite dysregulated, because I left him yesterday to go to an escape room with some friends), but this drawing on the envelope of my card from Zoe put a smile on my face. 🥰 Hope Mothers' Day is kind to you all! . #mothersday #parenting #adoption #attachment #attachmentdisorder #parentingrealities #honestparenthood #honestparenting #dysregulation #dysregulated #wearefamily https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp96n9usJTZ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[hollymarlow]

These two were so adorable watching the squirrels in the garden together this morning 😍 (before Zoe went and got changed because we remembered it was a non-uniform day 😂🙈) . #siblings #wearefamily #attachment #attachmentbuilding #attachmentdisorder #wecouldhavemissedthis #adoptionbuiltus #lovemakesafamily https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp5LFBsswRI/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[hollymarlow]

Jake just wanted to check if his hands are as big as mine yet 😍 . #wholesome #buildingattachments #attachment #attachmentbuilding #attachmentdisorder #attachement #adoption #adoptionbuiltus #love #adoptionawareness #therapeuticparenting #connectedparenting https://www.instagram.com/p/CpsWiYnsqOW/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[hollymarlow]

Bedtime cuddles! 🥰 My husband's been away for a few days and found it hard to peel himself away from the children at bedtime. Had to tell him to stop being so fun, so they will go to sleep! Jake was in fits of giggles when I took this photo!! 🤣 . #attachment #attachmentbuilding #attachmentdisorder #attachement #adoption #adoptionbuiltus #love #adoptionawareness #therapeuticparenting #connectedparenting #bedtime https://www.instagram.com/p/CpTHxP8MrlB/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[hollymarlow]

At forest school today (I was a parent volunteer, if you missed my previous post), one of Jake's little friends wasn't feeling it. He was really quiet and didn't want to do any of the activities. I chatted to him for a bit, and he explained that he had woken up very early and he was tired. He walked around with me and Jake for a bit, but still didn't want to join in, and eventually announced that he was too tired to walk, and sat down on a log. Jake went over and sat next to him, and asked "Are you sad? Do you want my Mummy to sit next to you?" I thought that was such a sweet thing! He thinks that sitting next to me makes people feel better! 🥰 Well, that's how I'm interpreting that anyway. I did sit with his friend for a while and he told me a very long story, that I struggled to follow, but he seemed to enjoy telling it, so that's the main thing! And Jake happily wandered off, leaving me to chat to his friend. I'm happy that he's secure enough in our attachment and the knowledge that I'm HIS Mummy, that he could offer my listening ear to his friend, and not feel threatened. . #attachment #attachmentbuilding #attachmentdisorder #attachmentparenting #buildingattachments #therapeuticparenting #connectedparenting #connection #parenting #adoption #wholesome https://www.instagram.com/p/CpQKpb-owX9/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[hollymarlow]

Watching the Feelings song by @mooseclumps on @youtube and when it got to the bit about feeling scared, little J leapt into his sister's arms! 😍 . #siblingbond #siblings #attachment #attachmentbuilding #attachmentdisorder #adoptsiblings #siblinglove #adoptionbuiltus #adoption #adoptionuk #adoptivefamily #wecouldhavemissedthis #wearefamily #thisisus #livingourbestlives #wholesome #bettertogether #parenting #parentingmoments #family #famille #familledacceuil #familleadoptive #familie #familieleben #familienleben #wirsindfamilie #familia #familiacogida #parenthood https://www.instagram.com/p/Cl4Qc4us3n7/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[hollymarlow]

Tree went up today and I let the children have complete artistic freedom. They mostly put the baubles up IN PAIRS. How utterly adorable is that?!?! They are such a sweet little pair. I hope they always want to do everything together. 🥰 . #siblingbond #siblings #attachment #attachmentbuilding #attachmentdisorder #bonding #adoptsiblings #siblingbesties #siblinglove #adoptionbuiltus #adoption #adoptionuk #adoptivefamily #adoptivesiblings #wecouldhavemissedthis #wearefamily #thisisus #livingourbestlives #wholesome #bettertogether #feelingfestive #itsbeginningtolookalotlikechristmas https://www.instagram.com/p/ClpFgFiMUy8/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=