Last Christmas, I got this lighter from my late Babci (grandmother) and it was the last present she had a chance to give me.
I’ve spent the last year trying to find a place that sells zippo lighter fluid. I could have bought it online, or asked my folks to buy some from a smoke shop. But for some reason those option’s didn’t feel right. I needed to do it on my own. I can’t explain why, but I did.
Today, I finally found it.
I miss my Babci. But it feels a bit better to finally be able to use her gift. I don’t know if it a was coincident, or if she did it on purpose, but it feels appropriate. My last year of childhood, and it’s been stressful, full of grief and worry for my family, my education, my future. It felt dark.
But now I have a light.
I love you Babci.
