#biomorpher

[autumn-coins]

Intrashifter symbols

[Pt: Intrashifer symbols, end pt.]

🌑Sooo I didn't really see any general intrashifter symbol so thought I'd male one myself! Going to post my personal biomorpher symbol soon as well :> 🌕 An intrashifter is someone who can metaphysically and or physically transform internally in some sense. This may refer to literal internal change, like hormones, bones or organs, or non-literal changes like headspace and behaviour. (Source)(Link) 🌗 You may write it as; ◇↺✶ 🌓 I'm aware not all intrashifters nor shifters in general consider themselves alterhuman or their experiences as alterhumanity. But as it may be experienced as such, and is by me I've tagged it as such. 🍁 Its meaning: First the "diamond" is the general shapeshifter symbol, mentioned here(Link), as intrashifters are shapeshifters and a rather large part of the mythical-shifter community. The arrows pointing inward represents the internal transformation and the star represents literal physical changes that may occur internally. A part of this(Link) pshifter symbol.

🐾🍄 Symbol and devider ID in alt text ^ ^

🪵 Tags: @radiomogai

🦴 Please do not interact if you're against personal beliefs and subjective reality, if you don't harass those who believe in souls or past lives harrasing those who believe in some form of shapeshifting is hyppocritical. Please educate yourself before hating experiences :>

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🍄‍🟫 Plain IDs below cut

Symbol ID left:

A wide horisontal diamond, on each side of the rhombus there's a soft/ arrow pointing inward. The arrows begin in around the middle of each side. In the middle there's a 6 pointed star. It is all coloured black.

Symbol ID right:

A wide horisontal diamond, on each side of the rhombus there's a soft/ arrow pointing inward. In the middle there's a 6 pointed star. The arrows begin close to the top and bottom "point" and almost touch the star. It is all coloured black.

Devider ID:

A devider of autumn leaves and dots, varying from maple to oak leaves in a light yellowish orange and a brownish red

[autumnishere1107]

Hewwlo critters, beings, things and humans alike, it is I your distant alterhumanity enthusiast!!

☽⋆ ࣪.📜 This is a remake of my intro, here (link) you can find the old one ^^

☽⋆ ࣪.🍂 I'm Autumn, but I also go by Lycan or Carag. Along with Alex for friends. My primary pronouns are He/It/Thing/Yip

↠ More about my pronouns, names and queerness here (pronouns.cc link)

☽⋆ ࣪.🍁 I'm entirely nonhuman, for me that's psychologically, emotionally, biologically and physically. Please refer to me with masculine/male or nonhuman terms. Specifically feline, canine and equine vivterms :3

☽⋆ ࣪.🌕 Werewolf otherkin, autumn concept + cirkukin and nonhuman conceptkin

☽⋆ ࣪.🌖 Cladofelidae, red fox and friesian therian, Jorvik Wild Horse fictotherian

☽⋆ ࣪.🌗 Aideen (sso) fictionkin, Light Yagami (death note) flicker, harbour seal something (therian, othermarrowed or smth similiar)

☽⋆ ࣪.🌘 Beast and monster archetrope, Jorvik hearthome with an extra strong connection to Wildwoods

☽⋆ ࣪.🌑 I'm also a Dhole and Melon (Beastars) funlink, sso-franchise amolink, Bee rorlink

☽⋆ ࣪.🌒 Horse and beehearted

☽⋆ ࣪.🌓 Questioning faunahearted, pegasus otherkin,

☽⋆ ࣪.🌙 I'm physically nonhuman in many ways, a holothere, greithere, transspecies, intrashifter, biomorpher and potentially pshifter

☽⋆ ࣪.🪵 I'm Swedish, and speak Swedish and English fluently, I'm also currently studying German. Please use tone tags or other form of tone clarification when interacting with me. I often add r's to my words to simulate meowing/purring because it's species affirming, sooo don't correct me when I write "Mre" instead of "me" :> /nm /ndir

☽⋆ ࣪.🪶 I have diagnosed ptsd and am currently working through an autism + adhd diagnosis. I thus say I likely have a special interest in sso (star stable online)/general jorvikverse and alterhumanity. :3

☽⋆ ࣪. 🐾 This intro will be updated from time to time and thus is almost constantly a wip, last change occured: 2025-August-22

☽⋆ ࣪. 🍄‍🟫My tag directory can be found here (Link) :>

☽⋆ ࣪. 🍄 The vast majority of my posts will be sfw and non-triggering, if anything cw worthy is mentioned, it will always be mentioned in the tags. I'm doing this to not limit discussion of my own experiences while still leaving my other content available for those who could be hurt from it <:3

🦋⋆ ࣪.☾ Examples of things you may want to block for comfort:

#🌑 Nocturnal post - Post where I discuss nsfw urges and (sexual) pet play.

#🦴 Scavenger critter - Posts where I share my vulture culture interest, including taxidermy, real fur, bones, horns etc.

Whispers from the past (tbm) - Posts where I mention trauma and by extension ptsd, however don't go in depth about it.

🌙 Howls from the past - Posts where I discuss my trauma and by extension ptsd more in depth and detailed.

#cw: physical shift mention - Posts where I mention physical shifting

[TBA] - Posts that are more focused on physical shifting/experiences of it

☽⋆ ࣪.🌿My DNI is listed in my user box ^ ^

☽⋆ ࣪.🍃 Clarification; I am pro non-harmful transids, and transspecies isn't radqueer.

[autumnishere1107]

Traumatic nonhumanity & fictionity; causation, revelation and reclaimation.

[Pt: TRaumatic nonhumanity and fictionity; causation, revalation and reclaimation. End PT.]

Cw for talks of trauma: abuse (physical & emotional), being followed,

Recently I've been pondering on how my nonhumanity is greatly influenced by my trauma. While the majority of my nonhumanity aren't caused by it, most aspects are affected or where revealed because of it. While I am nonhuman and "fauxly" human in many ways, in this ramble-post/wannabe-essay I'll delve into how my trauma is related to my werewolfhood, my kirahood (Light Yagami) and my autumnhood.

Causation; To be Kira

[Pt: Causation; To be Kira, end PT.]

While I may not have watched Death Note during my abuse, nor even known what it was, I am extremely sure that my deepfelt relation to Light Yagami is caused by it. The emotional, manipulatory nature of my abuse consisted largely of being told I was inherently immoral and weak. I could see the mistreatment to those around me, I could and can see the large issues of the world- yet dare not do anything. I believe and feel I should be good, most people tell me I am a kind, good person, yet the told evil I have done plagues my mind. The wrong of simply existing. This is what i feel in Light Yagami. Doing wrong in the desperate grasp to do right. I feel the veil, a veil of trying to justify my existence and harmful nature by making up for it. But even when I try to do right, to not be confrontational, to apologize for my mere existence, to hide away,- I am still wrong, still evil. To not act is wrong, and to act is wrong.

At the end of the day, I feel like I will fail- at least to an extent. I am inhuman in the eyes of others, not because of my species- and species traits, but because of my past and mind. While being viewed as inhuman is honestly a nice thing to me. It is me being recognized. I wish to be divine, a god of the new world, but I am subhuman.

Revelation; To be a werewolf

[Pt: Revelation; To be a werewolf, end PT.]

My werewolfhood is most definitely the identity I discuss the most on this blog, and with friends. I'd say it's because there *is* a lot to say. Not only is it an identity inherent to me, it has the unique experience of being revealed and supported by my abuse. My abuser agreed and supported my pshifting belief, and we tried shifting together- waiting for the time we could take our wolf forms. As I've discussed prior, in hindsight the support may have been misleading on purpose. Or misleading on non-purpose. She did use various abuse tactics that I cannot be sure where calculated, at the end of the day we where two kids.

I am hunted, followed by people both known and unknown. A creature not considered to belong. My nonhumanity is a way I should fight back, I should bite, I should claw, I should growl. Yet I don't. I've been held down, choked, pushed to the ground, had my limbs bent backwards and had things thrown at me. But I was told my werewolf body was weak, and going against other's wishes is evil; so I didn't. I could've shifted.

Reclaimation; To be the season of autumn

[Pt: Reclaimation; To be the season of autumn, end PT.]

Autumnhood to me is change. It is transformation, the contrast between vibrancy and dark muted colours. It is rain, it is wind, it is cold sunlight. I am the leaves that grow bright and warm before falling and crumbling on the ground. Now considered mere sound-makers to be walked over. But I wish to show this vibrancy through the art I create, to my style. I'm different and trans in all ways I can imagine. I am the change from life to death, from a perceived good to a perceived bad, I am nonhumanity. An object and concept.

I am reclaiming the season I was born, the season I embody. Rather than it being gloomy, dark and cold. A waiting period for a greater season- for winter. I am the in between. I transform, just like my werewolfhood. The month I was born is just as I was treated during my abuse. Repressed, just a passerby wishing to be missused.

[autumnishere1107]

I think some beings need to be reminded of the definition of alterhuman, we are a community based in experiencing life in a different, unusual or even weird/scary way compared to the social norm. No matter if you're differently human, partially human, entirely nonhuman, neither human or nonhuman, both human and nonhuman etc. You are valid and welcome in this community. If your experience is psychological, mental, emotional, behavioural, spiritual, metaphorical, biological, physical etc. you are valid, If you identify with, as, somehwere in the middle or both you are valid. If your identity doesn't relate to identifying with or as at all, such as hearthomes, desidanima, transhumanists, vammpyres etc. you're also valid. If your identity is voluntary, involuntary or qouiluntary you are valid. If the voluntarity of you identity changes with time that's also valid. Wether you shift or not, shift little or constantly you're valid If your identity has no cause or is rooted in multiple, whether it may be based in delusion, caused by neurodivergence, by mental illness, disability, spiritual phenomenon, past lives etc. You are valid. If you see an identity or experience you haven't seen before, learn about it, ask about it before disregarding it as "weird". You may find a part of yourself you didn't have a name for or even know about. Thamk you for reading my ted-text, made by your distant weird alterhuman enthusiast You know we're all in this together /silly I had no clue this post was gonna get this long hkkh

[autumnishere1107]

Anyone else with the experience of always being nonhuman, however that it was uncovered (and or) changed by trauma? Cw for mentions of past abuse below. Any interactions appreciated/gen /nf

Like I was always a werewolf, before, during, and after my abuse. But my trauma made me peel back the perfomative humanity I'd had.

I was always a werewolf, but I believe my trauma particularly made me a werewolf with little control of its shifts (due to stress and as a safety mechanism), a werewolf who can stand bipedally but prefers being quadrupedal, a werewolf filled with guilt, repressed ferocity and feral anger. But it's self inflicted anger.

My "performance" made me careful, trodding, never angry, never ferosious, never engaging in conflict or debate. I repressed my emotions yes, but I also repressed my instincts, my behaviours and what I am. To clrify, I don't think I would not have been different morally, but I most definelty would have fought back, or better sought help.

The times I've been pushed, restrained, choked, twisted and touched. (The unvoluntaey bodily violent tickling-trauma is included/srs it truly sucks to have such a "funny" trigger.Man)

All these times I should have bitten, frowled, hissed, claed, I should have shifted and resisted. But I couldn't. The fear to be me, and to be wrong.

To be the monster I was always told to and implied to be. Turns out I am a monster, but not one in naturey but by perception. I'm odd, I'm not human, I'm queer.- Being a werewolf makes me monstorous in a sense, but it is not an evil monster. It is misunderstood. Attempts made to hide its animality away, to be dubbed "acceptable". But I never fully will, and that is okay. It is the fault of societys norms, bigotry and human supremacy, not my "defectness".

May add on more yappage later...

[studiozjd]

Experimenting with attractor based densities in grasshopper with outputs then taken from biomorpher. Next step is applying this to our generated site boundary.

[mcm-architecture]

Iterative design with Biomorpher. The performance metric we are selecting for is the ‘difference’ rating in the Biomorpher panel. It refers to the contrast of spaces along a given sequential route in each pavilion. The 262 shown in there panel is the average score, and we can interrogate the iterations to find the highest performing parents for the next generation.