I’m the real Mr. Worldwide and by that I mean look at my watchlist:
Wednesday: Burnout Syndrome (Thailand)
(Dew you’ve been HAUNTING me since F4 Thailand, why are you so HOT 🥵)
Thursday: Thundercloud Rainstorm (South Korea)
(Now, THIS will get its own weekly post shortly.. because I JUST CAN’T WITH THEM. I just love my BLs as TOXIC AS POSSIBLE and JEONGHAN IS ANOTHER PERFECT RED FLAG🥰)
Friday: Love Begins in the World of If (Japan) AND Heated Rivalry (Canada)
(Ok, ngl, I might wait for this one to finish airing - it feels too teeth-rottingly sweet compared to its toxic little siblings on my screen right now. I simply do not have the emotional stamina for a weekly wait when everything else I’m watching is pure chaos and black-flagged insanity. This one can simmer until it’s ready to be binged)
(NOW THIS? I cannot WAIT for next Friday — my lovely little closeted, crossed-starred lovers 😭)
Saturday & Sunday: TO MY SHORE 😍 (China)
(THE OG. The most toxic of all. WDYM “you were born to be under a man - no one is sluttier than you” FAN XIAO YOU CRAZY BASTARD I LOVE YOU)
Rivals blowing the competition away when turning to lovers.
This one is the rarest of beasts, a romance built on a solid foundation of mutual admiration disguised as rivalry that not only delves into the initial flurry of passion but also highlights why the protagonists love each other.
Ryo and Zen are one of the most solid duos of the season (perhaps of all recent JBLs), with a script that seems to be in love with them just as much as the actors, because both Hori Kaito (strong candidate for the JBL king’s throne) and Sato Yusuke (Mr. Unlucky Has no Choice but to Kiss!) are made for these roles. If their characters are dueling in the most ridiculous ways, the interpreters are in perfect sync with one another, this chemistry is no joke.
Kaito is the standout of series, his Ryo feels real in ways very few characters do, the array of emotions he displays is unmatched and all come with an earnestness that only an actor dedicated body and soul could deliver. It’s nearly impossible not to empathize with this poor bastard that nurtures a deep affection for his high school frenemy. Bonus points for what is the most immaculate casting of a younger counterpart in recent times, the similarities between Kaito and Fujii Ren – Kaito actually explained that him and Yusuke observed the young actors playing their roles in the flashbacks before developing the body language for the characters.
One of the strengths of the series lies in the balance between humor and melancholy presented in this story, Ryo and Zen bring out the competitive side in each other and not for the best reasons with Ryo’s family background casting a shadow over him and Zen’s own insecurities getting the best of him more often than not.
Also playing in their favor is that instead of spending the entire season focusing on them getting together, the show combines both volumes of the manga and splits the episode count in half to adapt each, which means we get them as a de facto couple halfway through and spend the remainder of the season with them dealing with the adjustments in their relationship.
And is not the domesticity so familiar in JBLs, these two are horny for each other in ways we rarely see in Japan. The competition element also makes their more heated moments sizzle on screen and their approach to sex is reminiscent of personal favorite Perfect Propose with both Ryo and Zen being nonchalant when initiating sex, at least in the surface (Ryo is always freaking out when near Zen).
Adding to all of that is the supporting cast which is quite colorful but not disruptive – the show even goes out of it's way to make sure there won't be any woman being villainized here – well, there is one exception: Hirai Amon's Futami is a devilish menace.
He is the instigator that gets things moving in the second half of the show, but it's never mean spirited just a little inconvenient, but it's the curveballs he throws at the couples way that get them back on the right track. Hirai makes a very compelling case for himself here; until now he'd only played support and guest roles on television and with such striking performance he might soon being fronting his own BL show.
On the technical side this show does a lot, some of it sticks, some of it don’t. It is a little bit inconsistent with some of it’s visual tricks, there is quite a good amount of dolly/tracking shots, some pan and zoom for dramatic effect as well as more stylized visuals for the nc scenes with purple lighting overtaking the scenery, but those feel a bit too sparse overall. A fun resource they use is the good old music cut in some scenes, this running gag happens quite often and usually hits the mark.
It was also a nice choice to have the leads singing the ending theme, both Kaito and Yusuke are former idols with vocal training to pull this off quite nicely. The acoustic rendition of ‘Kaminari’ during the special episode was also a very nice touch.
The inaugural title of the new Tunku is a certified hoot, and fingers crossed the next shows will follow in it’s footsteps.
Because my brain is pudding, and yours should be, too.
Content warnings: discussion of genre typical sexual assault, teacher/student stuff
Right now, I’m resisting the urge to say sorry for not writing a blog post since March. I feel like I’m a kid again, starting a diary entry with an apology for not writing for long stretches of time, weeks and months sometimes passing between entries. Anthropomorphizing my diary, I worried that I’d hurt its feelings by leaving its pages unattended for too long. Maybe that’s just how I write, since I still take long periods away from writing as an adult. Maybe I just went through a breakup and then work got crazy! And maybe you’re going through a hard time, too, because summer can be tough for us introverts: there’s too much pressure to enjoy yourself.
So, if you’re like me, and you want to beat the heat by staring at a screen or a book all day, here are some of my recommendations for getting through the popular danmei series, The Husky and His White Cat Shizunby Rou Bao Bu Chi Rou, a smooth-brained story if there ever was one.
Credit: Seven Seas Entertainment
Seasoned danmei fans should feel free to scroll past this prologue to the fic recommendations below! Newbs, gather round, it’s time to learn you about some Chinese boys love novels.
According to Wikipedia, danmei literally translates to something like ‘addicted to beauty’ (hell yeah), but it’s basically the Chinese term for Boys Love, or BL (yaoi, in Japan). Most of the danmei that have gained popularity in the West are web novels, meaning they’re self published online, one chapter at a time. They often include elements of xianxia, or Chinese historical fantasy that usually takes the form of billowing robes and martial arts fighters flying through the air. Picture something out of a wuxiamovie, but with more beautiful wizards kissing each other.
Before we move on to more silly, smoochy fun, though, I need to acknowledge the harsh political reality of making gay erotica in China today. In 2025, at least 30 authors were arrested for writing danmei, with at least 10 people receiving prison sentences and many others being heavily fined for profiting off their writing. Despite the huge popularity (and presumably, profits) that a show and book series like The Untamedcan garner, anti-porn, anti-LGBTQ censorship and criminalization is having a materially harmful impact on our fellow fangirls in China. I’m honestly not sure if there’s any political action Americans can take to support these specific writers, but let me just say this: sex workers in the U.S. have been warning us about SESTA/FOSTA for years, and if you think the censors aren’t coming for us, too, think again. Read your porn, and fucking VOTE.
Mo Ran is emotionally tormented by the sins of his past life, but Chu Wanning loves him unconditionally anyways. Don’t we all desire the warm embrace of forgiveness from our mommy/teacher/daddy/lover? Credit: Tanox
Since I mentioned The Untamed, I also want to include a very important disclaimer before I launch into describing Husky: it is NOT the best danmeiout there, and probably not a great entry point for the genre, in my opinion! It’s super long, very confusing, and frequently uh… bad. It’s kind of like, really bad? But the characters are great, the sexual dynamic is super hot and problematic in all the best ways, and it’s got a wonderfully active fan community creating wonderfully horny fan works.
So, if you’ve never read a danmei novel before and want some advice on where to begin, I would recommend you start with Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu (abbreviation: MXTX), of which the TV show The Untamed is an adaptation. I haven’t read much danmei beyond MXTX’s works, but I’ve got a sneaking suspicion that Grandmaster is some of the best the genre has to offer. It’s got everything you want from a romance novel: love, death, reincarnation, a perfect enemies to lovers dynamic, size difference nonsense, sword fights, and sword fights (wink). But I digress.
You’re here because you want SMUT. You want a surly, scowling, older bottom to be absolutely destroyed by a cheerfully stupid fuck boy top (said fuck boy’s name is literally “Mo Ran,” as in a homonym for “moron.” It’s… not subtle). The series’s English title is a play on the trope of a “black cat / golden retriever relationship,” except the cat is white and the dog is black because of good vs. evil color symbolism (just try not to be overwhelmed by the literary sophistication). Or, maybe you’re here because you’re a sick freak who’s in it for the teacher/student dynamic (I certainly am - my other favorite MXTX novel, The Scum Villain’s Self-Saving System, also features this dynamic and I am unabashedly Hot For Teacher). You might want to read the Husky books before diving into the fan fiction, or at least some of them? There are so many, and I gotta be honest, I tapped out by book 9 and just started skimming for the sex scenes. This is, for better and for worse, a story crafted by and for fangirls, and uploaded online in serial without much (if any) editorial assistance. There are whole books that could be cut from the narrative, and frankly, the ending just kind of… peters off? It’s drowning in genre tropes and hackneyed clichés that can either feel like the nourishing mental meal you’ve been craving, or sickly sweet candy rotting your brain-teeth. Just remember, most treats are best in moderation.
Before sharing my fanfic recs, here is a brief spoiler-lite summary of the Husky series. And some excellent gender-swap fan art from the artist Vivernt.
Credit: vivernt.tumblr.com
Let’s start with the TLDR: you can probably just read books 1 through 6 of the series, and maybe books 8 and 10. Maybe. 1 - 6 contain the main romance arc, and then we get sucked into a 5-book battle saga that I simply did not enjoy. The later books have some fun plot twists (villains! spirits! demons! daddy issues!) but in my opinion, you could easily read the fun romantic books, and then skim through an online plot summary of the rest.
Husky (also called Erha, or 2HA) is a transmigration novel, meaning the drama begins when the evil emperor Taxian-jun dies, and then wakes up reborn in the body of his teenage self, Mo Ran, a disciple of the cold but beautiful teacher (“shizun” in Chinese), Chu Wanning. Mo Ran is initially defined by his stupidity, since he refuses to see that the teacher he hates so much is actually always looking out for him. He’s arrogant, cocksure, hung like a horse, and always causing trouble. Chu Wanning is his polar opposite in every way: he’s insecure, quiet, temperamental, and sharp-tongued. If Mo Ran is a big dumb dog, tail wagging happily as he follows his master, then Chu Wanning is a shrewd little cat, swiping his claws at anyone who gets too close. They’re both stubborn as hell and secretly obsessed with each other, but of course it takes ages for Mo Ran to discover that he’s been given a second chance at life to make things right with Chu Wanning. If you enjoy the tag “idiots in love” on AO3, then this story is for you.
There is some grade-A pining in this book, let me tell you. Highlights include: an accidental encounter in a hot spring (classic), and jerking off on either side of the same wall, Pyramus and Thisbe style (noice). The sexiest bits are often in allusions to Mo Ran’s past life via flashbacks or dream sequences, in which Taxian-jun holds Chu Wanning captive in his castle and torments him with lots of deliciously deviant, pseudo-BDSM sex. It’s a lot of CNC (consensual non-consent), since the novel’s gimmick is that Chu Wanning is too stubborn and repressed to admit his own desires, so the “evil” emperor Taxian-jun has to “force” him. In contrast, the reincarnated Mo Ran learns to love Chu Wanning as an equal, and insists on treating his teacher-lover with the utmost respect. This way, you get both horny ravishment and tender lovemaking, depending on which timeline you’re in — it’s the best of both worlds! The downside of this approach is that Mo Ran and Chu Wanning never have sex that is both emotionally open and rough and horny. That’s where the fan fiction comes in handy.
Chu Wanning as a ravished concubine. Aww, look at the baby, he’s so sad, he hates it. That’s why he’s hard, because he hates it! Come on, who wouldn’t want to torture this belligerently bratty bottom? Credit: snackage.tumblr.com
Without further ado, here is my current fan fiction ranking list from least-to-most beloved. All of these are rated Explicit because I don’t fuck around with stories about fucking around.
wicked games by tagteamme - Mei Hanxue bets Mo Ran major ca$h to ask out the next person who walks through the bar door, and who should it be but Mo Ran’s horrible, grumpy boss from the office, Chu Wanning? This one has lots of jealousy and lying and hurt feelings, and it takes like, 4 or 5 chapters for Mo Ran and Chu Wanning to get back together once the truth is revealed. The sex is solidly explicit, but it’s not the most dynamic or original on the list. Still, it’s a very popular read! 11 chapters.
Every Step You Take by glacierdust - Yes, I read stalker fics, fine, okay, you got me. I just love somnophilia, okay? Basically, Chu Wanning gets to live out the fantasy of being the ultimate pillow princess, because his lover is content to remain an anonymous (if deeply eerie) force of one-sided kink and care in his life. It makes no logical sense, but it sure is steamy! 1 chapter, but there’s a part 2 if you like it.
荷官牌型 ♠️ The Croupier’s Hand by bloodsongs - Chu Wanning is a washed up former school teacher working as a croupier at a casino. Mo Ran is the flashy new manager looking to turn the place around, but as Chu Wanning’s former student, he’s bitter, angry, and obviously super horny about encountering his once-belovèd, now-loathèd teacher. Enemies-to-lovers angry sex, with a sordid teacher-student past. The best part is a sex scene which includes Song Qiutong, who normally gets done dirty both in the novel, and in too many fan fics, in my opinion. (Side note: a lot of danmei is disappointingly super sexist!) 4 chapters.
Hard to Love The Lonely Night by bloodsongs - Set in the world of the original novel, Mo Ran and Chu Wanning have to go undercover as a newlywed husband and wife in order to catch a monster terrorizing a country town. Of COURSE they have to sleep together in the same bed when they check into a hotel for their monster fighting — otherwise they would blow their cover! Sleep groping and wet dreams ensue. 1 chapter.
a pseudonym to fool him (he couldn’t have made a worse move) by sweetsweetdays - "Mo Ran is an idiot” is an underutilized trope in this fandom, but luckily this fic takes full advantage of his stupid-sweet puppy love. It’s a modern AU in which Chu Wanning and Mo Ran are married, and Mo Ran decides to “test” his husband’s loyalty by making a fake Instagram account, pretending to be a stranger hitting on him. When Chu Wanning reciprocates (because it is obviously his husband playing some sort of sex game), Mo Ran unknowingly becomes jealous of himself. 1 chapter.
the place you belong by orphan_account - Why are people deleting their AO3 accounts? Don’t they know we want to keep reading their beautiful spanking fics until the inevitable heat death of the universe? I want to read about Mo Ran sleepily groping Chu Wanning in their shared kitchen and saying, “Be a good boy or Daddy will have to spank you,” until the earth crashes into the goddamn sun! Anyway, you can still read this one, you just have to be logged into your AO3 to do so. 1 chapter.
Let’s Fall in Love for the Night by purloinedinpetrograd - Purloined, if you’re out there reading this, I just want to know why? Why did you delete your beautiful, horny, perfectly kink-and-plot-balanced AO3 account? You have a gift, you should share this with the world! Anyway, some scoundrel saved all your fics and uploaded them to this Google drive, so me and my fellow perverts can keep jackin’ it to your wonderful words. Hope you’re doing okay. As for this fic: sex pollen! Enough said. 1 chapter.
Mutual Agreement by tagteamme - Mo Ran and Chu Wanning are office nemeses who start an enemies-with-benefits arrangement, and naturally fall deeply in love. Office sex, gym sex, bed sex… it’s got it all. It’s simple, but that’s what makes it work so well. 1 chapter, but it’s really long!
Sweet Talk by purloinedinpetrograd - Mo Ran is a grad student moonlighting as a camboy, and Chu Wanning is an ashamed, horny professor who stumbles upon his favorite student’s OnlyFans account. Chu Wanning signs up for Mo Ran’s live stream, and when he admits to cumming too soon in the video chat, something about his username catches Mo Ran’s eye. Insisting upon a two-way video stream for the first time in his camming career, Mo Ran seeks out more and more information about this anonymous client who reminds him so much of his beloved professor. Very kinky, very fun. 5 chapters.
Clocking Overtime by Anonymous - This time, Chu Wanning is the camboy! Even though he’s really bad at things like lighting, and camera angles, and touching himself, Chu Wanning still manages to captivate Mo Ran’s attention. Naturally, Mo Ran stumbles upon the livestream one night while fantasizing about his handsome supervisor at work. It’s a slow burn where they’re jerking off on screen together the whole time. Chu Wanning gets his ear pierced in a horny fugue state, Mo Ran cooks for him in a fit of domestic bliss, and both of them are idiots the whole way through. I squeal every time I read the final identity reveal. 10 chapters.
Risk and Restraint by purloinedinpetrograd - This is the kind of fan fiction that inspires me to write my own. This story is so perfectly plotted, so humorous yet horny, so kinky and creative — I simply cannot praise it highly enough. If you read one fic on this list, it should be this one, and honestly? You don’t have to read the books to understand what’s going on here — it’s that good. This story blends the curmudgeonly characters of Husky with the premise of a Korean manhwa called, “A Man of Virtue,” in which two office enemies are thrust together by a horny curse that makes one of them vividly hallucinate the other one’s sexual fantasies. Remember when everyone got really into “Cherry Magic” like two years ago? This is like that story, but with incredibly explicit BDSM. Highlights include cum play in a public restroom, all the exhibitionism and voyeurism your little perverted hearts desire, and choking with black leather gloves. Sigh. I’ve died and gone to horny heaven! Purloined, I hope you’re out there writing the next great American erotic novel. You’re a genius. 8 chapters.
BONUS CONTENT: The wonderful BL artist, Lucid, is currently working on a Husky office doujinshi, because there is still some good left in this world. If you want to read it as it comes out (along with her other horny vampire and werewolf comics), you can subscribe to her Patreon here! If you want to wait until the finished book is ready for purchase, check back in a few months; she said it’s going to be a longer fan comic, but she’ll probably post a Kickstarter to fund the print comics sometime this fall.
Sometimes, there’s someone out there, somewhere in the world, who just sees right into your soul’s deepest desires, you know? This image makes my heart bark like a dog. Credit: Lucid
If you have your own Husky fan fiction recommendations, or other danmei novels you think people should be talking about, please leave them in the comments! I am always looking for more BL nonsense to fill my squishy little brain.
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"Love that transcends all; regardless of time, regardless of boundaries, regardless of circumstance."
[Images from the webnovel and manhwa respectively]
[Note: I am currently not caught up with the webnovel, but since this is such an engrossing story, I've been itching to make a review of this sooooo HERE WE ARE. Spoiler warnings up to chapter 1224.]
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[Summary]:
Yudrain Aile is a force of nature both commended and highly feared within the Orr Empire; an Omega Awakaner who is the Commander of the Cavalry, leading forces of individuals with special powers under the command of the Emperor.
But when foreboding calamity appears to bring impending doom to the world, Yudrain's efforts to save everyone is met with vitriol and finally, death. Just when he thought he would leave the world in peace, he awakens in a time before he joined the Cavalry. With this miraculous second chance in life, Yudrain, or by his real name Yuder, will stop at nothing to prevent the end of the world. All of this will begin with the most important change of all; keep the former Commander of the Cavalry, Kishiar La Orr, safe and alive.
OKAY SO I DIDNT PAY TOO MUCH ATTENTION TO THE SUMMARY UPON READING THIS.
When I first read Turning, I was curious if I could find a BL omegaverse that won't make me turn up and move on from. So when I opened up the first chapter, I was pleasantly surprised with the tone set for it. Strap in, because this is gonna one hell of a lengthy review.
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Story
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1.) Worldbuilding
Turning establishes a groundwork that keeps the readers afloat in the story; this groundwork is Turning's worldbuilding.
So you got your standard set kingdom or empire the main character will mainly operate in, sprinkle in ducal houses, nobles, the Emperor, mages, and you have yourself a fantasy setting. Turning takes the fantasy elements and uses them HOW it wants to; because of this, I must give props to the author in how they handled the world of Turning cuz it has aspects unique to it.
You're given a world that is both wide and unknown to you as a reader and to our main character, Yuder. Yuder, who once lived in the mountains and lived in his own world before he entered TL2 (timeline 2) is the same, where he doesn't bother with affairs he isn't meant to meddle in and merely does what he's told as the Commander of the Cavalry in TL1 (timeline 1). It's only when he is taken back in time that he does give us the exposition of how this world works.
One interesting note to understand about the inner workings of the world of Turning are the Awakeners themselves.
After a mysterious red stone crashed into the Orr Empire, suddenly a select hundreds or thousands of humans began to exhibit strange powers that is neither divine nor magical in nature; in essence, it's a completely new power introduced into the world. These people are called Awakeners. How people reacted to Awakeners vary, with nobles becoming wary of them, normal people fearing them, and mages disliking them. Needless to say, the vitriol shown towards Awakeners wouldn't change much UNTIL the recruitment of the Cavalry came about.
Oh, the formation of the Cavalry itself isn't what shifted the perception toward Awakeners. Nah nah, the reason was that the Commander of this newly formed Cavalry happened to be the only Awakener among the nobility; Kishiar La Orr, our male lead and other main character (as much as Yuder is our beloved protagonist, Kishiar has much of a big, if not equally important role as Yuder).
Now see, it's this kind of subtle change in perspective in how Awakeners are seen is important in Turning and its world. To everyone, a new and unknown power means many things, it could mean something fearful, or even something to take advantage of. Either way, the emergence of humans who can wield abilities that are neither divine or magical caused a ripple in the status quo. And it's fascinating to see the change affect our main character and the rest of the cast. The reclusive Yuder, who wouldn't have made the decision to leave his home in the mountains, suddenly acquired abilities AND a new unit made entirely of people with those new abilities are being recruited. The world influenced Yuder to make move, even if he had thoughts of exploring the world before.
You gotta pay attention to how Turning's world and societal rules work, unless you miss something crucial. THAT is fascinating to me, since they can be SO subtle that you might not get it until you either deeply think about it or do a reread. To me at least, it's rare for me to want to glean as much information of the lore of Turning in order to understand the direction of the story. Like, Pruelle wouldn't have considered joining the Cavalry if it weren't for Revlin's decision to rebel against his own family and joined the Cavalry, albeit as a temporary member.
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2.) Storytelling
This is a slow burn. It has smut, sure, but it's a slow burn. Seriously, we don't even get a kiss until 200 chapters in the story bruh– (but that's one of the reasons why I love this story)
The majority of Turning is told through the eyes of our main protagonist, Yuder, who – as we all know as I'm assuming the people reading this review are Turning fans – is SUCH an unreliable narrator most of the time that we didn't even know that he had a sexual relationship with Kishiar until PLENTY of chapters ahead. (Like bro, we know you ain't right in the head, but c'mon, you don't think THAT was significant enough to account for when one of your main goals was to get close to Kishiar?)
But the storytelling DOES hinge on Yuder's skewed point of view.
This is because if you're going to tell a story, you need to control what and how the reader gains information and understanding in order to ensure a sense of suspense, unease, or make important points in the story end up satisfying. It wouldn't be a great and satisfying reveal if Yuder had revealed to us from the first chapter that he and Kishiar fucked before; it also wouldn't match Yuder's trait of prioritizing the bigger issue if he had focused so intently on his intimate relationship with Kishiar from the beginning, AND the purpose of the late reveal, from what I could tell, is both to emphasize how much Yuder suppressed his memories and emotions concerning Kishiar in the past and to give the shock of our lives that YES, THEY WERE INDEED FUCKING AND THIS MAN DID NOT THINK OF IT UNTIL THE RED STONE RETRIEVAL ARC. HE IS NOT RIGHT IN THE HEAD.
If your main character is gonna be factual all the time, it's gonna be boring and stale. It's why main protagonists such as Kim Dokja from 'Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint' or Cale Henituse from 'Lout of the Count's Family' are such a blast to follow and read about, because they have SO much going with them that their narration doesn't corroborate some of the things they say or do which leads to important story beats and plot points deliberately being shrouded in mystery with us as readers to pick apart and understand. It's that trope of the unreliable narrator that helps with the story, elevated with the worldbuilding, characters, and the plot itself. Yuder's POV is both marvelous and irritating cuz bro, you are SO loved, you're just too emotionally awkward to realize it until now (affectionate).
Of course, Turning doesn't only concern Yuder's point of view, it also shows us Kishiar's as well. His POV is a lot more objective and factual than Yuder's but he's been established as a character who is ESSENTIAL to Yuder's goal of saving the world and changing things for the better.
We were given this perspective of Kishiar as the male lead who the main protagonist killed off in his previous life and now resolved to protect him – the thing is, we're just getting to learn who Kishiar is as a person as much as Yuder is, which enables change in Yuder's perception of Kishiar as well as ours. Kishiar went from the male lead who Yuder needs to protect to save the world, to the man who is so deeply complex and tragic that his end would have been a painful and slow death to his spirit and himself until Yuder put a stop to that, albeit inadvertently. So even if Kishiar's POV is not as unreliable as Yuder's, his character is so deeply dimensional and fascinating that it's interesting to see his thought process, especially when it concerns Yuder.
Other aspects of Turning's storytelling is its incorporation and handling of lore. The lore of Turning is amazing, it's fascinating! It has lore concerning the four ducal houses whose ties date back to the first Emperor of the Empire, Messenger Ohre who represent the Sun God, the major religion in Turning, or the progenitor of magic itself, Archmage Luma – all of these have a role to play in Turning, which is bonkers, especially when they have ties to the Awakeners. But we don't get any of this information solely from our two main characters, most of them originate from other characters within the story. Two examples are that we didn't know initially that Luma was interested in reversing time until Enon brought it up, or that the first Duke of Tain was a mage was information revealed by Pruelle or his other family members. By itself, small lore drops by other characters don't do much, but the direction of the story proves the information valuable, as well as the characters expositing on it.
Another thing I like about Turning's storytelling is how they incorporate Yuder's past into TL2 cuz TL1 is an important part of Yuder's motivation to change the devastations that occured then as well as a huge chunk of information that even Kishiar normally wouldn't have had that will serve to benefit them and the betterment of the world. But it also gives us a glimpse of the Yuder and Kishiar of before, in addition to everything else ranging from the inception and development of the Cavalry, the rise and fall of Katchian as Emperor, the calamities the Orr Empire endured, and many others including the events leading up to Yuder's death. Funny thing is, most of these flashbacks involve Kishiar. You'd seldom see Yuder remembering a memory as detailed as his memories of Kishiar, it's insane lol. Goes to show that as much as his feelings and opinions toward Kishiar are so hard to understand for him, his bond with the man is strong enough for him to remember him.
But the thing I'm impressed about the storytelling? The fact that it doesn't focus on one genre. Turning is a BL fantasy omegaverse, but it's also mystery, political intrigue, drama, and even tragedy if we're referring to TL1.
Romance is an important part to Turning, but so does the rest of the story, such as Yuder's goal to save the world, Kishiar overturning the nobility, or uncovering the mysteries of the era before the Great Destruction. The worldbuilding sold us on an intriguing history of this world that immerses you in an empire that has more to it than meets the eye, from important figures like Archmage Luma or the First Emperor, to important events that occured before the main story like how the Imperial family became as fragile as they are now or the underground magic research that Luma and Blake Van Tain had been working on. The love story between Yuder and Kishiar is undoubtedly the centerpiece, but they are not the only important parts of the plot, thus it's such a great read since we're learning so many interesting things about the Orr Empire and the characters we meet.
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3.) Omegaverse
Of course, this isn't gonna be a Turning review if I didn't tackle the omegaverse aspect of it. I must say, I'm DEEPLY impressed.
For starters, the omegaverse in question is NEW to everybody in Turning. Which means concepts that are common knowledge about omegaverse such as second genders like Alphas and Omegas, scents, bonding, heats and ruts – all of that is unknown to the characters in Turning until now, which is something I personally have not seen done. I'm sure there are other pieces of fiction out there that has done it before, but it's rare, I must say.
The newly introduced second genders that comes alongside with being Awakened is met with mixed views, which led to various misunderstandings and prejudices against them, especially in TL1. Yuder in particular, as an Omega Commander with no scent, he's ripe for the picking. This, along with simply vowing to pursue better equality for Omegas, advised Kishiar to set better rules for second gendered Awakeners and even opening up a medical bay. This proves helpful when Jimmy showed signs of manifesting into an Alpha, as well as Pruelle later on.
I have to admit, my jaw dropped at the plot points of them making heat suppressants and scent blockers cuz OMG I've read enough omegaverse for it to feel normal to me when these characters only just started to feel the brunt of heat and rut cycles. Seeing how two fundamental aspects of omegaverse emerge as the story unfolds was genuinely the experience of all time lol, I was genuinely shocked but pleasantly so.
Can I also say I LOVE the female Alpha-male Omega couple? Ever and Pruelle pull it off so nicely and because they're great characters individually, they're able to have sufficient relevance to plot points and are likable for a lot of readers.
But as a final piece for this part of Turning, the omegaverse is both part of the story and IS the story. It is an integral component of Turning yet is mostly subdued compared to other BL omegaverse stories. It's relevant in the way that it changes the world in a fundamental level and with how a deeper connection between Kishiar and Yuder formed because of them having mated – yet the aspects of omegaverse isn't blatantly told as if it were the centermost piece of the story, as it's one of many parts of Turning.
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4.) Characters
This section won't be including our two main leads as they will be getting their own separate column lol.
The characters in Turning are amazing, not just because they're an intriguing and amusing bunch to read, but also because of how important they are to the story and to Yuder and Kishiar. All of them could fall into your typical tropes, like the smurfette trope for Kanna with her trio of Gakane and Yuder, or Nathan being the loyal and stoic attendant. But tropey as those are, it doesn't undermine how lovable they are. Kanna is a genuinely kind person who cherishes her friendship with Gakane and Yuder, Nathan's loyalty to Kishiar started when they were children and their friendship grew from there – these characters could have stayed one-note, but there is an added layer of complexity to them. Like Gakane who fits the thorny rose-like character who has a lot to hide but has grew a resolve to defend and protect those he loves and cherishes, or even our resident clown Kiolle, who despite his haughty behavior and pride for his family holds a deeper desire to be a knight and a hero to the Empire.
Speaking of Kiolle, can I say for most people that nobody expected to like him as time goes on? Lol at first Nahan was quite interesting, but damn for Kiolle to steal the show simply because he's such a dumbass is priceless. I swear, every time he shows up in a chapter, I know something funny is gonna happen. Yes, even in that tense situation between the Sage, Duke Diarca, and Ever and her squad. Everybody says forced character development and I agree. It's not the biggest character development, but he's getting there lol, and he seems to value Yuder's advise more than anyone else at the moment.
The antagonists are also thoughtfully written with a lot of intrigue, especially when it works in tandem with how Turning's world works. Nahan is a great example. The worse aspects of society deeply affected him, giving him a skewed view on 'family' and driving him to the point of insanity and suicide. Seeing the scene of him killing his biological father was both horrifying to read as well as satisfying. Nahan as a character overall is mired in tragedy, and unlike Kishiar who at least has people he could trust, Nahan literally only had Hosanna, and even then he came to distrust him. He's been used and brainwashed by someone he already didn't trust, was led on to believe that the Star of Nagran would leave the Empire to start anew, only to face the ugly truth that his 'paradise' is built on lies and pain. He's also a pretty good foil to both Yuder and Kishiar.
Like Kishiar, they suffered so much wrongdoings at the hands of nobles and even nearly died because of them (Kishiar being assassinated a lot, Nahan being trapped in a burning building alive as punishment). But unlike Kishiar, who used everything in his power to establish an organization of marginalized people in the name of peace, Nahan's own group, the Star of Nagran, is wrought with distrust against each other and everyone is constantly on guard and wary. Despite Nahan's efforts, the methods that he personally employs to keep the Star of Nagran intact as an organization falls short compared to the Cavalry's strong sense of comraderie and deeper relations with their higher-ups of Kishiar and Yuder. He uses intimidation meant to strike fear when it comes to dealing with anyone, be it enemy or ally, whereas Kishiar is encouraging and thoughtful, always willing to lend an ear to his subordinates who he extends his trust to.
But I'd say Nahan is a much direct foil to Yuder than to Kishiar. Yuder also suffered under the scrutiny and machinations of the nobility, and not just from them, but from his comrades in TL1. When Nahan confronted Yuder on this, on why he doesn't seek revenge on everyone who wronged him compared to Nahan's desire to exact revenge himself, Yuder's response greatly contrasts and even challenges Nahan's point of view. Yuder's desire for peace and the betterment of his and everyone else's lives ultimately outweighs the want for revenge. This purer view on such a heavy topic even left Nahan speechless. But with their differences, of course there's also their similarities. Both are self-sacrifical, not bothering with self-preservation if it means fulfilling their goals. They also care greatly for their organizations and do everything they can to ensure their safety. And if Yuder was free to do so, he would have personally given a good beating to any nobles who wronged Kishiar (has he even thought to beat up a noble because they slighted him? Nah, said beating has better chances of happening if the one being slandered here was Kishiar lol), and we see from the two of them that they especially despise dealing with nobles, although for two completely different reasons from each other.
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Main Characters
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1.) Yuder Aile
Aaaah, Yuder, Yuder, Yuder.
SO. On a previous post, I mentioned that I will be HEAVILY glazing the hell out of the characters – in particular, Yuder, as well as Kishiar cuz let's be real, they're the stars of Turning. But I wouldn't have loved the characters if they aren't the most flawed motherfuckers ever. To start this off, we got our lovely main protagonist and emotionally constipated assistant, Yuder Aile!
I have to say, he's a main protagonist who wouldn't strike you as unique in personality from the get-go, especially with how he's presented at first. The first chapter of the manhwa tells us that he is this omega who rose up in fame (for worse, to be truthful) as the Commander of the Cavalry and are then informed of his desire to save the world from some kind of apocalypse just bound to happen.
AND THEN WE SEE HIS TRIAL AND EXECUTION.
Now, to put things in perspective, so far his introduction went from 0 to 100 real quick, starting with his fucking death. Then of course, Yuder regressed to an earlier point in time, some time before he applied for the Cavalry. But the thing I want to point out here is that his introduction, death, and subsequent regression overshadowed his personality until later on in the story. So we don't know Yuder completely as a person as a result, all we know is that he has a goal of preventing the world from plundering to its doom and is attempting to change many aspects of his previous life in this one to achieve that. This caused us to focus a lot on the variables that would affect the timeline, from Gakane's introduction to Kanna's, and at this point Yuder has resolved to improve these two people's chances in life, especially Kanna. But it's not until Yuder encounters Kishiar again in this life that we get a better glimpse into Yuder as a person.
As we all know, Yuder is not just a tight-lipped person, he outright refuses to give in to pressure that proves detrimental to what he either believes is right or compromises his duties. Bro would literally go through excruciating torture and he still wouldn't budge – this, of course, is also due to his numbness to all manners of pain but we'll get to that, I promise. This trait of not divulging into information that doesn't seem to apply to an important situation to Yuder doesn't only mean that it prevents others from knowing what he's thinking, he himself is also susceptible to this trait of his. This trait not only prevented him from forming connections with his fellow Cavalry members in his previous life, it also made him easy to use by Katchian when he became Emperor, among other things that went wrong that could have been easily prevented if Yuder had formed meaningful connections with others. Of course, it wouldn't be Yuder if he wasn't so obsessed with getting stronger, so that is what he focuses on the most before he became the Commander.
He also has nigh zero self-preservation. It would take an entire squad of the Cavalry, and EVEN MORE members to convince Yuder to take a break, rest, maybe eat – even Emperor Keilusa jumped into the fray forcing bro the take two weeks of vacation on top of a month break. This man only knows work and training, he's insane. You know what's more insane though? His tolerance to ANY AND ALL SORTS OF PAIN. Brother... Yuder, you're not well in the head my guy, maybe Kishiar should put you on mandatory bed rest during the weekends or something cuz this is crazy.
Speaking of that crazy pain tolerance, this can be attributed to many things. One of them being his immunity to all manners of poison, which he manifested when he became an Awakener. It's pretty useful when some idiot (cough cough, Baron Durmand, cough cough) would try to poison him as a form of humiliation, which predictably didn't work cuz of Yuder's immunity to most poisons, but of course you'd need to have some kind of weakness for an OP character, that weakness being monsters and any by-product from them.
SO. So with that information of, y'know, Yuder being weak to monsters and all, what did Yuder do in his previous life with this information? Get absolutely plastered. I mean I get that not being able to get drunk sucks for you, but according to Kishiar, it only gives Yuder the sensation of drunkenness, it's not actually making him drunk 💀 If I gotta compare it to something, I'd compare it to Koalas and their 'very brilliant' diet of solely eucalyptus leaves – which are highly toxic btw – and they filter those toxins out by sleeping. TELL ME THAT AINT SIMILAR. The only different is that Yuder doesn't have a smooth brain and he doesn't have to sleep off the poison for nearly a whole day lol
Anyway, moving on.
Yuder's character development comes through as he attempts to change the tragedies that occured in his previous life, to getting to know his allies better, changing his enemies for the better, or simply preparing for the disasters to come. As a result, he's come to see something worth fighting and protecting for – his Cavalry comrades, his allies from different places like the Southern Army or the Emperor and the Empress. As time goes on, Yuder began to understand what exactly he'll be losing/never have if he doesn't change the direction of his past tragedies. This opened his eyes to a more beautiful world where people could be free and where Yuder himself can truly open up and be free with them.
If my love for Yuder isn't apparent enough, nearly everyone in Turning has a soft spot for Yuder, especially Kishiar (get you a man who bought you a shit ton of flowers it nearly filled up your whole dorm room).
Yuder didn't appreciate kindness or the comraderie between his fellow Cavalry members before in his previous life, but he slowly begins to learn how to trust and form meaningful relationships with them – He and Ever before weren't close and at best were the dutiful Commander and Deputy Commander respectively, but now Ever can go up to Yuder without much issue and even taught him precise control over his abilities. When we first met him, he was a cold and calculated person whose decisions in the beginning stemmed from a desire to avoid an impending disaster in the future (he didn't even consider how his complicated relationship with Kishiar would affect his relationship with the current Kishiar, bro was that emotionally constipated 😭).
Yuder is a straightforward person who prefers to do things upfront. If he wants to intimidate someone, he would rather use his powers instead of clever words to put his point across. When he, Kishiar, and Nathan went to the south for the second Cavalry recruitment, he was thinking about what to do about the protestors (or was it the spies sent to recruitment, I can't remember) and his solution was violence or just physical force 💀. He's also quite simplistic that extends to his approach to life, usually letting things happen without being proactive. He's still willful and makes decisions that lead to changes, but most of the time he prefers to stay in the background. In a perfect world, he'd just be busy training in the training grounds and spend time with Kishiar lol.
Anyway time for positively charged gushing.
Bro's so awkward in private social circles, especially when it comes to being casual. He's not the type to take things literally, but his replies are honest and stiff-sounding. It's not even because he's trying to think of the right thing to say most of the time, Yuder's just being bluntly honest. To him, there's no point in holding back his thoughts but because of his delivery, a lot of people think he's emotionally unfeeling. Thankfully some people know he's a good person deep down and that's just how he is.
He's also not as stoic as he initially passes himself off. It's been remarked multiple times in the story that if Yuder truly was 20 years old, he would have let insults and petty emotions get to him. It's only through age, experience, and tolerance to that type of bullshit that we have the stoic Yuder we have now. Deep down, he's action-oriented, reckless, and somewhat impulsive. It's why in TL1 he's prone to getting into fights with his fellow Cavalry members, or why he has premature thoughts about Kishiar's character (not helped by the fact that Kishiar put in the extra effort of keeping up that image).
Also can I say how cute his conversations with the Emperor and Empress are? To Yuder, on one hand they're the rulers of the Empire who should be treated closer to that of a God, but on the other they're Kishiar's beloved family. He's not even married to Kishiar and he's already being treated like he's Keilusa's brother-in-law, it's adorable.
Tldr; Yuder is both simple yet complex. He's someone who would be quick to jump into the fray and ask questions later, but is riddled with age down to his very soul. His experiences sharpened his simplistic nature and added to it a ruthless side and maturity he originally didn't have. His mask of stoicness, intense self-worth and lack of the need of social interaction ostracized others from him, as well as ostracized Yuder from forming meaning connections with people who could have easily been allies or friends with. Before, he could only ever see the awful sides of everyone he knew – from Kishiar, to his fellow Cavalry members, and even Enon. Yuder's whole life in TL1 was a 'too little, too late' from my point of view due to his narrow mindset that ultimately led to disasters and his demise, yet his soul is withered from tragedies that came before.
Yuder's desire to simply improve his skills and abilities as a regular Cavalry member was sidelined the moment he and Kishiar met eyes in the training grounds. Yuder's future in TL1 was frankly heading toward rock bottom when he met Kishiar, many of his current problems could be traced back to his actions and to the previous Kishiar. Yuder's emotions and feelings toward the man who is both his physically intimate partner, commander, mentor, and the one he despises the most is so complex because he couldn't understand such complexity, he just couldn't get why Kishiar did the things he did or said the things he said.
But the same straightforwardness that led to his downfall and his wrecked view of Kishiar in TL1 both helped him truly see through his skewed memories of who Kishiar truly is and change for the betterment of himself and everyone he cares for in TL2. He understood where he went wrong and now in the main story, he's done big strides to make changes. Kishiar is that steady rock Yuder needed, but ultimately Yuder is the one who had to make that leap. The thing is, he was already making those leaps the moment he regressed. This, by itself, makes him compelling because he casted aside petty revenge or easy living to chase for a better future that only he could change. The first big change he did? It's his decision to save Kishiar, the person who by all means Yuder could have easily not helped or even bothered to talk to.
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2.) Kishiar La Orr
SPEAKING OF WHICH.
Our walking sunshine mastermind everyone! Who's also a simp to the apparently unassuming but expressionless assistant, we love to see it.
Kishiar is one of the most well-written and compelling characters I've read, mostly because of the tragedies he's suffered in both TL1 and TL2, but especially because of the efforts he did to achieve his goals for the well-being of those he cares about.
If we're talking how good he is as a BL male lead, he's more than good. But if someone were to ask me if he's a green flag, or if his relationship with our main lead is healthy, or any of that stuff that pertains to his moral standing as a character, I THROW THAT ALL THE WINDOW. WHY???
Because it's difficult to evaluate and appreciate Kishiar's character if I limit myself to stuff like "OH IS HE A GREEN FLAG?!?!". What I'm writing here Kishiar as a character, not if he's a green flag BL male lead. Go read Jinx or smth. We're here to appreciate Kishiar La Orr, not downgrade him to questions of how good of a male lead he is.
ANYWAY WITH THAT OUT OF THE WAY.
Kishiar is a man who is as noble as you can get, and this is a person who suffered greatly as a child.
As much as he had positive moments in his childhood, most of it is wrought with health issues, succession problems that normally wouldn't be a big deal, then his 'exile' from the Imperial Family by being delegated the title of Duke Peletta and given a nigh desolate land to rule over. Not only that, he had to face countless enemies from the noble faction led by the four ducal houses, primarily the Diarcas. Did I mention he had to go through most of this with dead parents and an older brother whose hands are tied in trying to help him because of pressure from the nobles? Dude, I'm surprised he didn't become terrible growing up. Instead, he embraced kindness and trust and cultivated this among his subordinates, starting from the Imperial Palace with the librarian and even the Deputy Chief of the Imperial Mage Office to his people in Peletta and now with our Cavalry.
Anyway, among the mountain of problems Kishiar had to endure, one of them is the matter of his powers. Out of the four of them, Awakener power, mana, Aura as a swordsmaster, and divine power – three of them contributed to the cracking of Kishiar's vessel, making him dangerous to be around when those powers overflow in him. Dude tried to commit suicide when it was at it's worse. But when he awakened, the power of an Awakener from the Red Stone essentially served as a stabilizer, saving Kishiar and making him feel better than before. Then of course, we find out he deteriorated in TL1 when he got pierced by the Red Stone's power and was inadvertently saved from this fate in TL2 when Yuder took the hit instead. Man when finding out all of that, it makes me infinitely glad that Kishiar didn't get hit because it really was a close call.
With all of this suffering, all these problems he has to endure, one of Kishiar's strengths that helped him overcome this is his cunning, a trait he shares with his brother Keilusa. The two of them know how to analyze a situation and make plans accordingly – where Keilusa is a mental mastermind, Kishiar is more of a tactical genius in a battlefield, whether that battlefield is in actual combat or in the political scene.
He's incredibly adept at tactical games, having beaten Yuder more than once from both TL1 and TL2, and even then the times that Yuder had won was because Kishiar let him win. That's how much a genius tactician Kishiar is when he, who couldn't hold a candle to Yuder in terms of experience in being a Commander, won against the man who has been a Commander longer than he has. And he uses those smarts to manipulate the battlefield of politics and aristocratic intrigue among the nobility. We see this even further with how he elevates the Cavalry's importance and reputation across the Empire and even from abroad, as Prince Ejain plans to make a Cavalry of his own in Nelarn.
That said, despite his brilliance and achievements throughout the story, Kishiar is still someone who has doubts. Sometimes he thinks he's reaching too much, or his plan might not be foolproof enough. Honestly, he doesn't view himself quite highly, quick to cite his own flaws much more seriously than his positive traits. This flawed self-esteem is something that surprises me cuz bro, I share Yuder's sentiment that everything just goes well as long as Kishiar is around. Whenever he beats himself down, I'm like 'BRO YOURE DOING SO WELL, YOURE OKAY'. That said, his insecurity encompasses his feelings for Yuder as well, seeing them as too much and restrains himself for Yuder's sake. It's not even an isolated incident.
Kishiar, like Yuder, neglects his well-being for the sake of others, as much as he says so otherwise. We see this in TL1, getting a better understanding of it as the story goes on. In particular, Kishiar's relationship with his people in Peletta is a good example. In both timelines, he prioritized their safety over himself; in TL2 for instance, we learn that the day he awakened, as he was deteriorating, he ordered for everyone to evacuate the castle. It even shook Nathan, who's usually unflappable.
An aspect I appreciate about Kishiar is his casualness when it comes to social classes. He personally doesn't concern himself over it. He'd go out in the streets in disguise to eat in diners, drink at taverns, and even chat with people who are leagues below him in status. All this to say it's because he doesn't raise himself above others just off of who he is and what his status means. In the end, he treats everyone as a normal human being, it makes him an excellent judge of character. So far, Kishiar is the only one who ever clocked in Yuder's straightforward and simplistic nature. Describing it both in TL1 and TL2 that Yuder doesn't let outside factors disrupt his way of thinking and keeps his eye on the prize. People judge Yuder mostly because of his expressions, which is expressionless almost all the time, but not Kishiar. He managed to understand something fundamental about Yuder after meeting a couple of times.
Heavy stuff aside, he's also quite cheeky. Facade or not, cheekiness gives way to willfulness and a carefree nature. Kishiar likes to go all out or just do whatever he wants, he doesn't like being bounded. This was something that's been a part of him since he was a child, and sure, one could argue that children grow out of it but Kishiar still feels that frustration of not being able to unleash his true power or reveal who he truly is as a person. But because of the things he has to endure and the adversaries he has to go up against, Kishiar had to learn self-control, which cultivated his cheery, almost sunny persona in order to both hide his capabilities and control himself in any situation. Like Yuder, however, Kishiar likes to go all-out.
Long story short, Kishiar's story and character tells of someone who values patience, steadfastness, and self-control to aim for a future that is within reach. Circumstances depend so deeply on his actions for that future seeing as there's a sharp difference between TL1 and TL2. That said, it's still Kishiar at the end of the day – the man who is humble, mischievous, cunning, and overall well-meaning who is gunning for a future that he envisioned with his brother since he cares for the people of the Empire and understands his duty perfectly well.
His journey with Yuder further reveals parts of himself that is deeply and utterly human, from his previous self in TL1 to his imperfections he desperately wanted to hide from Yuder in TL2 – to save the one he loves the trouble of concerning over something Kishiar viewed as trivial. It's through learning together with Yuder that he comes to understand that losing control – especially with someone he trusts to catch him when he falls is a lesson that Kishiar couldn't possibly come to understand unless he's truly being honest with himself, which we all know he'd much rather belittle and undersell his well-being and worth than truly say that he deserves to let go of himself once in a while.
All this to say that Kishiar is what happens when the most brilliant man you could possibly think of could so easily fall apart with just the wrong move or circumstance. He's quite literally fragile and he's in a role where he is both in power to make big changes as well as vulnerable to the machinations of the people who have been hurting him for a long time. It's why he views his allies and loved ones as more important than himself since they're the ones who he believes are worth more, as they are keeping him afloat with what power they have such as the Emperor, his brother, as well as holding a place in the future he wants to make. He's a selfish man to his core who wants to make a world where everyone he cares about could be free, yet is selfless that he couldn't possibly blame anyone for his failures and tragedies but himself. But hey, he's making strides in trying to change that, since for his loved ones and the people who believe in him, there's no future without Kishiar La Orr.
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Romance
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This is a whole ass column dedicated to reviewing (and just gushing) over the romance. It's just MWAH. CHEFS KISS
The romance between Yuder and Kishiar started off on the wrong foot. And I mean WAY WRONG. TL1 shows us a relationship that's filled with strife, misunderstandings and pain built on an underlying attraction to each other. This, as well as Kishiar's actions of subtly pushing him away gave Yuder the wrong impression of Kishiar being a confusing, frustrating person to work with who seems too uncaring and nonchalant toward Yuder despite the truth being the complete opposite. This confusing dichotomy that Kishiar has shown him just downright frustrated Yuder a lot, and yet despite it all, he held a deep emotional connection with Kishiar, something so complex that he can't even quite pin down how he felt about Kishiar of TL1. The glimpses we get of them in TL1 is just hammer in that in this lifetime, they were doomed the moment they met, it's a tragic love story that couldn't be salvaged (potentially not so since we now know Yuder wants to save White Gloves/TL1 Kishiar).
TL2, the main story, is different in which circumstances has changed, leading to a much more different experience with Kishiar for Yuder that he previously didn't know or didn't remember. He already understood that Kishiar is an excellent leader and makes better decisions for the Cavalry than Yuder, but throughout the beginning chapters he sees Kishiar as a confusing and overly complicated man. This greatly contrasts Yuder's simplistic and straightforward personality.
Their romance is built through patience and faith, something that Yuder never experienced in outright during TL1 due to unforseen circumstances, as we're witnessing who Kishiar La Orr truly is as a person alongside Yuder. We see him first as a handsome, cunning, albeit slightly suspicious man who can' be easily trusted, not helped with the fact that at first it seemed as if Yuder's personal experience with Kishiar isn't pleasant at all.
But then we get to see more of who Kishiar is and what makes up his character, making us realize that Yuder's preconceptions of Kishiar from his past life isn't enough to measure the person he (as well as us, the readers) sees now. An act that one upholds till the very end is nearly foolproof, especially for a master actor like Kishiar. It's why the slow build-up of trust, faith, steadiness and small actions led to a completely different perspective for Yuder on Kishiar, a complete turnaround from before in his previous life. It's a satisfying journey to say the least. Ultimately, Yuder acknowledged that he cared about Kishiar in a way he never could have realized if he had stuck to pushing the current Kishiar away and let his preconceptions about the man take over his reasoning, which thankfully wasn't the case.
Where Yuder hesitates when it comes to Kishiar, Kishiar waited for Yuder and held his ground, becoming that steady rock for Yuder whenever the person he loves is ready – this is evident in how he was patient in waiting for Yuder to reveal the truth of why he's so mature, why he knows the things he does. That patience, as we see, pays off when Yuder abandons his need for evidence, an almost unnecessary decision to prove that Kishiar's patience isn't for naught and just goes for it. He, for once, took a leap of faith cuz Kishiar is steadfast in his trust in Yuder; that no matter what, the things that Yuder chose to show and his genuine feelings and concerns for Kishiar and what he stands for are enough to convince Kishiar that Yuder is worth believing in. That in of itself is so, SO heartwarming and beautiful cuz Yuder couldn't afford to show this level of trust in anyone until Kishiar showed him that it was alright, that he's here to support and believe in him.
It's not even just how the romance developed, it's also how they spend their time together that makes them so cute. In later chapters, Yuder and Kishiar spent a long time (in bed lol) just discussing fighting tactics and battling. This shared interest was hinted during the arc where they were 'pretending' to be lovers in the west, when Yuder offhandedly remarked Kishiar practicing his swordsmanship as well as his own, then being referenced again later on. There's also them playing strategy games, in which Yuder is not overly fond of but learned how to play through Kishiar, and so they use the game to talk intimately with each other or discuss important matters.
These similarities don't stop at their interests, as some parts of their behavior are the same, like their self-sacrifical tendencies or habit of shouldering burdens on their own to spare their loved ones from the pain of doing so. They also overly worry over others without accounting for their own well-being, preferring to focus on anyone but themselves. These similarities make it obvious that these two, when their worries are directed at each other, are very much alike. It takes someone who knows you well and cares about you to give you a wake-up call that you're pushing yourself too far.
The two of them have very notable parallels and contrasts with each other too. To name a few, there's their designs and color schemes, Kishiar's usual design using warm or bright colors and clothing that is eye-catching and is made to draw your attention to, while Yuder's design consist of mostly black with a bit of purple and gold (his golden eye being a stark contrast to his color scheme) – literally they embody the sun x moon with their designs, this including with their personalities.
As I kept reading, honest to God I did not expect some jealousy going on because the story is sooo dense in plot that I forget that this is a live story lmao. Kishiar's subtle hints of jealousy toward Ejain's apparent closeness with Yuder is made apparent because of the set-up, but I certainly didn't expect it when it came to Enon and Gakane. Gakane, sure, yeah I get, but Enon? Ofc not to mention Mr. White Gloves...
What's even crazier is that Yuder himself has a scene of subtle jealousy (no stoic can escape jealousy when you're in a romance story, especially in a bl) with Lady Justin, who has been referenced WAY BACK (can't remember which chapter, this novel's big, sue me) when Yuder smelled her perfume from Kishiar. Man imagine being jealous of a woman stealing your man but had no clue said man had been cautiously jealous of several guys hanging around you. To be fair, Yuder is surrounded by pretty looking dudes, Kishiar isn't wrong to see them as potential competition (especially since Yuder is an Omega, that makes it two potential Alphas who might gun for him).
Before they really started getting serious about their relationship though, or even after they began their relationship, it's the small acts of service or love that helped the build-up to their romance. I mean, we didn't even know for sure that Yuder liked sweets until you read in-between the lines of Yuder's inner dialogue and Kishiar's own observations that Yuder LOVES sweets. Not only that, it's the subtle displays of trust from Kishiar that Yuder begins to see the man in a different light, as well as beginning to trust him to. We know Yuder doesn't have much qualms hiding minute hints that there's more to him than he lets on, but the fact that Kishiar puts his faith into Yuder's information and conjectures purely because he trusts in Yuder's character means a lot to a man who had been ostracized and distrusted by so many people when all he wanted was to save them. All of that started from those small acts of trust, love, and service that made what their relationship and dynamic what it is now.
Overall, Kishiyu is a play on the sunshine x stoic and is given so much depth that makes them feel alive. Both are not perfect beings and their start was just as worse as the end in their first life. But as we see, inherently they are kind people who are not cruel for the sake of cruelty, and the start to their tumultuous relationship in TL1 proves that since Kishiar distanced himself from Yuder to protect him and the Cavalry, while Yuder, deep down truly did care about Kishiar despite his hatred toward his commander/situationship. That kindness and love would both ruin them and elevate them. TL1 is something Yuder never wants to repeat ever – in the process, he began to see Kishiar in a different light. After a culmination of respect, trust, and affection, the two of them began to want each other for the sake of love.
Let's be honest, these two make us sick but we love them for that cuz UGH, where have they been all my life...
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Personal Thoughts
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This section will primarily have random thoughts of mine about Turning! Feel free to skip this one, just wanna give my two cents on this story.
Believe it or not, this is the first ever original BL omegaverse I've ever read in full (somewhat, I say in full because the other omegaverse I read, I half-assed it since the plot wasn't interesting to me), or the first omegaverse I've ever liked and kept reading.
As much as I love mlm stories, I don't actually read that much BL. It's cuz I'm always bored from plots I find too generic, or tropes that are either used badly or not executed in an interesting way. At best I've read and fairly liked 'Smyrna and Capri', something I considered the only interesting omegaverse story. Turning though actively made me interested in ways that I like – such as worldbuilding, storytelling, a unique take on omegaverse, and more. (Don't get me wrong though, Smyrna and Capri did incredibly well with its own story. I just personally believe that Turning turned it up to 11 and has a more intricate story).
I found Yuder as an interesting protagonist since he appeared incredibly selfless yet never loses sight of the important matter at hand, or someone who's lauded and feared by everyone around him but turns out he's quite the simplistic man who doesn't beat around the bush. He's not overcomplicated and doesn't aim to make himself to be a mysterious, suave, or cool person.
Yuder is just straightforward and simple. In my opinion, I find that fascinating since 'straightforward and simple' is a trait mostly seen in shounen protagonists or characters with shounen-like characteristics to them. But Yuder is different in the way in that where he lives in a world where nobles wreak havoc on ordinary people's lives or just being in a formal setting would make commoners go weak on the knees, Yuder doesn't buckle down because he doesn't see the significance of the things or people higher that him, it's because he sees far beyond what the nobility or the royalty are. Like I said previously, he is just someone who doesn't let anything cloud his decision on what he finds important. It's this part of himself that got him executed in TL1. He disregards societal pretenses and roles in favor of looking ahead to achieve a goal far more important than the pride of haughty nobles or ignorant bystanders.
The same goes for Kishiar, I find him rather interesting as a love interest and as a BL male lead. As many have said before, he's the greenest flag ever, but his positive traits shouldn't overshadow his many flaws. But in the end, everything he ever did was to protect the people he cared about.
For better or worse, you could say he succeeded with those goals, considering in TL1 Yuder did indeed win Katchian's favor and prevented the dissolvement of the Cavalry with his death. Not only that, he fulfilled his promise to Yuder to separate the connection that bound them together. Even if those efforts were all in vain, it doesn't change two facts – his goals did indeed keep Yuder and everyone he cares for safe, and that he did it out of love and responsibility. It's a noble thing for someone to do, and coming from a BL male lead? Exceedingly rare lol. By all means, he's the greenest flag ML I've ever read from a BL, and that's considering his flaws, most of which are directed towards himself rather than Yuder.
Anyway, that aside, so far my favorite characters are as follows:
1.) Yuder
2.) Kishiar
3.) Enon
4.) Nathan
5.) Kanna
My favorite villain has to be Nahan. He is a great multilayered villain/antagonist that not only has a complex past and relationship toward nobles and even the people he should have seen as his allies, but has deep parallels with not only Yuder, but also Kishiar, our two main characters. So far in the story I haven't seen what he'll do in the precarious situation he's in right now, but I am interested what will happen to him moving forward.
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Conclusion
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Basically an omegaverse fantasy with a unique take on the omegaverse genre. It has a deep and interesting plot, worldbuilding that immerses you in the Empire of Orr, a great cast of characters with varying personalities and motivations, and overall, a romance that encompasses hope, faith, and a whirlwind love between two different yet similar people.
Yuder is a great protagonist who doesn't follow conventional tropes of a character he appears to be (the stoic, no nonsense character who is overpowered) and shows complex depth to his characterization and personal story. Kishiar too is a male lead who is both a mystery intriguing enough to keep an eye on in the first couple of chapters and is as green of a flag as you can get from a ML. Personally saying that seeing him in the capacity of a main character shows immense complexity to him that shows us a man who, even if he's in pain or can't find himself standing up, never once stopped to save and protect the people he loves.
It was only the first episode & I’m already smitten by Jira as a character. I loved his interaction with Pheem when they met at the Burnout Bar. The way Jira was flirting with him, saying that he kinda likes red flags & Pheem being like “So you’re into bad boys, huh?”.. Damn, okay!👀
But I did cringe a little at Pheems line ngl..
Also, Koh & Jira’s first time meeting & Jira just screaming in his face after Koh ordered a well done steak for him has me in tears!! Like, Koh was just staring at him with a straight face while he’s screaming at him lmao!!😭😭
This was so funny to me but I also understand that the creep from before kinda soured Jira’s mood for the night.
My favorite scene from episode one is when Koh & Jira have a little "get to know each other" talk in Koh’s bathroom.
Koh: “What is your social media presence?”
Jira: “Hey, are you trying to murder me? I have told my friend that I’m with you.”
Koh: “Don’t be silly.”
Like Bestie, you’re not supposed to be in a strangers apartment in the first place!💀
Long story short, I loved episode one!! I’m looking forward to episode two & until then, I’ll try & catch up with a few dramas that I’ve been neglecting for a few weeks lol. Starting with "That Summer"!💀
tw: nsfw, lots of blood, gore, mentions of suicide
I literally couldn't stop reading this shit. I loved how the author has written the characters and showed how the apocaliptic, extreme times can make people do crazy shit. Its truly one of the kind in the manhwa genre.
The only unrealistic thing was that the mc and lm seemed to be getting to horny stuff only while the mc was injured (at first at least) but it didn't make mc's injuries go worse??? Idk if i fucked like a rabbit while i was hurt i think my physical health wouldn't been better afterwards ;-;
Also, i think the main character was a little slow onto the secret that ml holds, which was not annoying as such, but, again, kinda... weird? Like dude, its not that hard XD
But those are some minor flaws, i can't WAIT for the season 2 to come out!!!!
— Overall Thought: PER AND TAR PER AND TAR PER AND TAR PER AND TAR PER AND TAR PER AND TAR PER AND TAR—
So, I realize that I haven't done epusode 6 and 7 (will eventually get to it), but I need to rant about this episode more. This has been SUCH a perfect episode, and I feel like I say that often, but this was just like... *chef's kiss*.
ep. 8 ratings 𓄷 9 - The best mix of each couple and their personal conflict. Nut and Tan were probably the least we saw, but they still felt very integral to the plot this episode.
spotlight couple of the week 𓄷 Shane and Kit. It was very difficult cause I want to chose Per and Tar, but Shane and kit have finally hit a level in their relationship that is so endearing to me, that they win this week's couple of the episode.
spotlight actor of the week 𓄷 Ken (Per) -- Okay, so where has this acting been the entire fucking series?! Mostly due to them not having much screen time before this episode in the first place, but Jesus, he really REALLY surprised me.
*✦ review:
Okay, it has to be said; I am fully sold on Kit and Shane now. I fear that they might be my favorite couple. I think this episode might have sufficed that more for me.
Shane as a character is like the cherry on top of this series for me. He is so complex on the inside with very little details that he's slowly allowing to be shown on the outside, and it's everything. In this episode, we dived a bit more into their relationship with the new topic of intimacy. I honestly wasn't expecting this from GMMTV, seeing as the last two high school BLs we've received (Only Boo, My School President. I think those were the last two?) have been pretty surface level intimacy. I LOVE THIS. I love that we get to see all the scary things about feelings and moving further into territories one might not be ready for over the other. Kit has always had an easier time with being lovey-dovey and physical than Shane has, even though Shane wants it too, but then he panics and overthinks and has to stop cause it's too much. But, here's what's really important to me... after they kiss a little with a shirtless Kit, Shane stops it then goes to feed his cat while looking utterly distracted by what has happened. Kit comes out and is the best boyfriend literally ever stating that he's going home when he obviously didn't want to go home but can see how Shane might not be ready for something like spending the night. You can physically see how upset Shane looks when Kit says he's going home, but you don't see him say it. Then to reach the last episode where he asks him to stay and he does. URGH IT'S TOO GOOD.
Okay, so moving on from there, Per and Tar. My slow burn friends to lovers has officially begun YES. This is quite literally the best way that their first kiss could've happened, hands down. Quick, urgent, and in the midst of a quarrel. This series wants to see me die. Now, I feel a certain way with Tar telling everybody at school about their kiss, cause... like why did he do that, but it's resolved pretty quickly, so okay, whatever. I think, more than ever, in these next couple of episodes I need to physically see that switch they have from having been good friends to now being in a territory very unknown, cause they're friends, but something much more special than that too. SO excited to see where we go from from here.
Nut and Tan, my fucking parents. YAY BOYFRIENDS. I genuinely never expected for them to not have kissed before Per and Tar, NEVER. So, we can basically guess that they've kissed since having gotten together, so I need to see yearning in the one that we finally get to see.
Honestly, Kim and Mon are cute, but it's getting a little stagnant. I think some things are happening between Kim trying to be a good boyfriend and impress Mon's mom, but outside of that, there's not much going for them. I honestly wouldn't mind seeing something further in their relationship either since they were comfortable being themselves from the get-go, so they're in completely opposite directions than Kit and Shane and Per and Tar. But I need more, sadly. But Aston's dimples keep me sane, don't worry.
Weekly Gripe:
Nothing *✦
*✦ Moment of the week
I squealed very very loudly. I was expecting it, but wasn't and then it happened, and I just *explodes*. Again, the best kisses are the ones that come out of the blue during drunken almost kisses with a stranger. omg I love these two.
Be back next week to squeal about them some more.
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I wasn’t expecting a movie I had seen the trailer to once years ago to be so freaking good. I adored the comedy parody of the cop movie. The editing was great music really got me hyped every scene. Then there is the understated BL and grief. Idk movie had me laughing and crying. So let me give my review
No Spicy but lots of butts
Do you like comedy yes? Do you enjoy character growth? Wonderful. Marry my dead body is a surprising comfort film. I was glued to the screen and remembering how much I love hot fuzz. I was scared I’d be rolling my eyes at the end with what ever emotional pull you know you will go into. However the emotional build up is 100% worth it. I won’t change a thing.
