Shoutout to my fellow Median and Blurian systems, those brothers and sisters where the lines between alters begin to blur. I know your pain. And I know how hard it is to fight the self-doubt and fakeclaiming that comes with it...
To the Blurians: your lack of amnesia barriers does not disqualify you as a system. And no matter what anyone tells you, amnesia barriers are not origin dependent; you can be traumagenic without amnesia, and you can have amnesia as an endo. Everyone's mind handles plurality differently, and you are allowed to be the system nobody expected.
Blurian systems come with just as many challenges as benefits. I know how you feel; It's not just the privilege of remembering and the ease of communication, its also the burden of confusion and lack of quiet. Not knowing who's memories are whos, struggling to keep straight who likes what, frequent switching, inconsistencies, and constantly blurry front. Ignorance really is bliss, but unfortunately, you don't have such luxuries. And when you try to get some alone time to think, but you have to question which thoughts are even yours... I know your pain, and you are not suffering alone.
We see you. You are real. You are loved.
To the Medians: All the things your headmates have in common do not disqualify you as a system. And no matter what anyone tells you, they do not disqualify you from your origin. There is no requirement that traumagenic or fictive-heavy systems be a random assortment of characters. Nor is there any requirement that endogenic systems have any sort of deliberate order to them. Whether you have a host identity or not, your origin is still valid regardless. Everyone's mind handles plurality differently, and you are allowed to be the system nobody expected.
Median systems come with just as many challenges as benefits. I know how you feel; It's not just the unity and connection with the rest of the system, it's also the confused/unknown front, struggling to find your individual identity, trying to force individuality on yourself just to feel like you're real... Frequent switching can also be a problem here, as the lines between the alters are thinner. Doing things the same way as your headmates, sharing common interests, having the same opinions and emotions... These are all very human things to do, especially with people you hold so close. And still, it becomes so easy to doubt yourself, so hard to find yourself, and in the end they will claim that you are just pretending to suffer through these confusing feelings... I know your pain, and you are not suffering alone.
We see you. You are real. You are loved.
That's all. I hope you have a wonderful day 💖
