#bosacius

[megwillart]

Gathering to remember the Pervases🍃🕊️

One of my full artworks done for the @ immortalszine of all the Yakshas and Xiao

[daily-yaksha-doodle]

Day 134 - Happy birthday, Xiao !!

[iratempestatis]

I just found this on pinterest (had to reverse search it so I could find the artist) AND it made me think about the post you made yesterday about having a child with xiao. So IMAGINE having a son that looks exactly like xiao (your genes didn’t even TRY) and you actually love it so much that your son is literally just a mini copy of your husband, and xiao watching you being so happy slowly understands why you love him, and slowly starts being a little easier on himself too cause he just looks at this precious child, the result of your love, and he looks like him, he looks exactly like him, and xiao starts believing that maybe there isn’t just irredeemable evil to him (crying over xiao accepting who he is through seeing you love your son and loving his son so much and so deeply that now he understands all your talks of loving him and him being worthy of everything good life has to offer). Screaming, crying, throwing up, this is all so extremely all over the place and usually I really don’t give a fuck about children with the blorbos and that whole spiel— but the idea of a child that looks exactly like him sksksk he’s so cute and pretty and maybe it’s a way for xiao to reconcile with his younger self too cause your son is just like xiao was, so sweet and gentle and kind, he just wants to dance in the grass and pick flowers, and he cries easily and rn I’m crying too bro TF have you done to me user iratempestatis???

+ bonus points after the angst I will put yall through with my previous artist recommendation, in this specific AU the other yakshas are still alive and they babysit your child very often cause ofc they do, they are the best uncles and aunties (bosacious is getting too old for this skskksksks and indarias is always up for shenanigans and xiao really wants to be angry but he really can’t bring himself to be).

Okay I’m done, I say, as they drag me back in my padded cell.

-Hecate

Hecate the more I read the more terrified I got because it's like you gently cut my brain open and went "hm I see I see" and dug my selfship out and slapped it on a photocopier and read this out to me as I'm sweating bullets and sitting across you at a table with a wide brimmed hanging bulb that emits a faint yellow light that flickers ever so slightly at random intervals

AND YES THIS?? Some of my childhood pains definitely bled into this aspect of the selfship because like I've mentioned, although I wouldn't really want a child it would sure be something to see a creature receive the love and attention it deserved. I also think it would be something emotional for Xiao because his youth would be a very stark contrast to that of his child's- he was starved and neglected and abused. He was taught to abhor love and respect only power. To rule by fear. But the tiny person before him is not stripped of their personhood. Their naivete is protected, not exploited. Their wails are met with "what is the matter?" and "oh, there, there," and an embrace and a kiss. They never eat as though it may be their last meal. When Xiao reaches to stroke their cheek with a clawed, calloused finger, they do not flinch, but grab it instead, because he's their father. So much trust in those little hands because unlike him all they've ever known is love.

It's even more emotional if the child is his exact copy because it would make him wonder- what did he ever do to deserve the pain he suffered? Why did his god, the only parent he knew, relish in teaching him the wrong things and hurting him and starving him? I think for the first time he would fully comprehend that he did not deserve it.

I think that would put a quiet but firm end to the voices that told him he was difficult to love. Because if he was just like the little creature before him, how could it ever have been difficult? When all Xiao felt when he saw the child was love?

And a child is never just yours. Especially if there's so many people whose lives are entwined with your own. He'd see the child throw a fit at Yelan and he'd instinctively feel sick to his stomach for a moment before he sees she's not mad at all, she's laughing and she thinks it's adorable and now they're both happily babbling at one another, one more coherent than the other. He'd see the way they play with Qiqi and tug at Yaoyao's hair and feel such fondness because there's someone younger than even her now. He'd see Yanfei talk to them as though they were a grown up and the baby answers very very seriously, but completely incoherently. Yanfei goes "hm, good point, but by all means that was what I said earlier. You contradict yourself." And watches as Itto laughs and laughs. He'd see sweet Verr Goldet and Huai'an bring them presents and glance away because she's always been good at reading him and he's never going to let her catch him crying. He watches Zhongli bring forth a cup of water to the little one's lips and a cup of tea to his own and they both let out an identical "ah." He'd see the sheer delight in Xianyun's eyes as she proudly beams at the child and looks for a resemblance. He'd see Shenhe adorably tilt her head and ask her mother master if she was similar when she was young. He and Ganyu would playfully sigh at one another as Carver, Shaper and Retainer all launched into a tirade about how sweet and small Shenhe was, and raise their eyebrows at the trio for extolling Shenhe's false virtues. He'd see Hu Tao beam and try to teach the kid to beatbox and watch as all the child can do is splutter. Xingqiu would chide Hu Tao for expecting too much and Chongyun would gaze on in wonder. Maybe Diona would meet the child too, and they'd be besotted with her tail. She'd be old enough to not bite the child in annoyance but young enough to hiss and startle them regardless. He'd let Ping show them the inside of a teapot and fondly watch you giggle as the child excitedly checks the inside of every teapot they come across henceforth for the next few days. He'd one day see the infant reach for Shinobu's knives as she's cleaning them and for once she loses composure and shrieks, yanking them away.

If the child is too young for weapons, why did his god make him sharpen his talons to rip out the sweet dreams of the innocents with? Fight a war with wings that haven't even fully grown yet?

If he really is similar to the child he begot- he wasn't difficult to love at all. And I think he would feel a lot of peace knowing that history won't repeat itself, not when the child is surrounded by so much love- love found through his bonds with the people around him, a community forged by his love for the world. And since he knows now that there is some truth to that- perhaps he isn't so broken and undeserving after all.

AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE YAKSHAS BEING ALIVE. HECATE YOU'RE EVIL!! EVIL I SAY, EVIL.

I feel like Bonanus would make the cuddliest, most loving aunt. She'd let the little mf play with her jewellery and yoink at her horns all day. She'd also be the sort to always, always defend them from trouble. They tracked mud indoors? That's okay, she's not the hydro yaksha for nothing. Lost her jewellery? Who cares, they're the most precious treasure of all.

Here's a slightly personal tidbit- when I was a toddler, one of my uncles, who could tailor clothes, would make me all sorts of traditional outfits and dress me in them. He'd spend hours staging elaborate photoshoots and bribe me with sweet treats and flowers. I still have all those pictures. I can imagine Menogias doing the exact same.

Maybe Indarius would be the person who would be the most excited to show them the world. Carry them in her arms with a grin brighter than the sun could ever be. Show them dogs and cats and sunsets and shops and adventurers and the sea. Smoosh her face against that of the creature that made her an aunt- she's an auntie!- and smile as the ocean throws dappled rays of light upon the both of them.

And Bosacius?? He'd be the proudest, most protective uncle, and I think he'd be the most emotional about his littlest brother having a child. Little Alatus with an even littler Alatus? He'd lose it. He'd carry the tiny one on his shoulders, hold them up in just one hand as the creature cackles in delight, indulge their every whim- within reason. (He leaves the spoiling to Bonanus). THEY'D BE SO CUTE TOGETHER. He'd come home and immediately yoink the child up. Be their biggest supporter if a bully ever fucks with them. Listen to everything they had to say, give the best advice and remember every tiny, touching detail, every date and cause for celebration. ASGJWSHSJ I'M LOSING IT

[quietplace26]

When ghost Kaeya!Mc and Traveler + Paimon reach Liyue they’ve met Dainsleif. Dainsleif feels something hovering over the traveler and fairy’s shoulders but it’s not evil or intends any harm so he doesn’t say anything, besides it could be a blessing or something else small.

All in all, he doesn’t know, he feels something but doesn’t know.

Ok now when they reach Liyue Kaeya!Mc is panicking because he forgot about Morax’s ‘death’ and the entire situation!! Anyways that entire thing happens and Kaeya!Mc is whispering advice and little rid bits of lore/information. Anyways eventually something odd happens.

Hu Tao appeared in front of them when she wasn’t supposed to/unlike canon. She asked the Traveler with a VERY threatening smile why a ghost was following them and hadn’t moved on. Kaeya!Mc panicked and quickly said he was bound to this mortal plain. Eventually she calms down and Paimon is actually planning with Hu Tao on how to get Kaeya!Mc to smile, and what to do should someone who sees him be rude to him (they have weapons).

Then they have to go inform the Adepti of Morax’s ‘death’ and they all assume Traveler and Paimon have some kind of blessing on them and that’s why they have the feelings of protectiveness and hope/kindness (that’s Kaeya!Mc).

Then they encounter Xiao and he FEELS something is off. But he doesn’t say anything because he respects the Traveler’s privacy and surely they would tell him if it was important. So essentially he can sense Kaeya!Mc in a scale between Dainsleif and Dvalin.

Then they meet Baizhu and Qiqi. Qiqi can sorta sense him, a bit like Dvalin but lesser so. She can see a blurry figure and hears a distorted voice. She doesn’t mention it tho because the figure seems so sad and clearly Paimon and Traveler knows about the ghost. She is even taught how to weave flower crowns by the ghost and somehow she’s able to remember them perfectly.

Ok but then the entire thing with Childe happens and very briefly while in his Delusion form, he can SEE. He sees a bloodied figure, young, small, and helping Traveler, making everything cold and sharp and much more dangerous. It is very brief, a fraction of a second, but he remembers it. He subtly asks Traveler about it but he gains no useful info.

Then the entire thing with the sea god happens (forgetting his name) and Kaeya!Mc helps to there too. He makes the attacks stronger, protects the Adepti and Traveler as best he can. He’s crying while doing so, panicked and worried because he doesn’t want anyone to die and what if they do because they’ve deviated from canon because of him?!!

When it ends they meet Shenhe like in canon and she can sense Kaeya!Mc, like how Dvalin can. She bluntly asks about it and Paimon explains that Kaeya!Mc is a ghost and can’t move on but really wants to help. She feels how Kaeya!Mc’s soul is so TIRED and SAD and she doesn’t like it. Kaeya!Mc’s presence actually soothes Shenhe’s anger and Xiao’s karmic debt along with Erosion.

Ok anyways, they fight against the seas dragon god’s wife and Kaeya!Mc is sad and worried for everyone, especially when Traveler is slammed into that stone pillar/mountain thing.

Kaeya!Mc is dreading Inazuma. Also Zhongli’s story quests have Azhdaha being able to actually see Kaeya!Mc SORTA. It’s very vague and blurry. During his rampage/boss fight he’s questioning them, asking why they’re letting a child bleed out and weep. Zhongli is confused but brushed it off and forgets about it. Later Kaeya!Mc goes back to the cave thing and sees Azhdaha. He lingers and soothes the erosion and just talks. Unknown to him, Azhdaha’s head is clearer than it’s been in centuries, and the dragon is awake, listening. Kaeya!MC visits Azhdaha occasionally and Traveler knows where but is very worried, Paimon straight up says that if Azhdaha tries something she’ll stab the dragon.

Now the chasm quest with Dainsleif… it goes like canon except the Khaenrians are soothed by Kaeya!Mc’s presence and a few even move on peaceful with him nearby. They seem to recognize that the presence is a safe one, another Khaenrian… Kaeya!Mc is crying so much. Then that dude/cursed Khaenrian who sacrifices himself (I’m forgetting his name but you see him later as a ghost) can sorta see Kaeya!Mc and is even trying to PROTECT him, even when the ghost is well… dead.

Anyways the Chasm… whoo boy. That’s a thing.

Kaeya!Mc is very worried and everything feels wrong there and it feels like he’s being torn apart!!

Then he meets an odd… person. It’s Bosacius, a ghost, lingering in the chasm, sane, stuck. Bosacius at first actually assumes Kaeya!Mc is an Alice person and sorta panics because holy fuck this child (to him Kaeya!Mc is a child) is bleeding and why aren’t they panicking, until Kaeya!Mc says he’s dead and a ghost. The two talk and Bosacius basically adopts Kaeya!Mc. Traveler and Paimon can’t see Bosacius, but they can feel the Yaksha and hear him.

Anyways by the time they’re rising out of the chasm Kaeya!Mc is barely there, unable to stand/float, looking weak and pale and sick, like he’s going to die (again). Bosacius is frantic and holding Kaeya!Mc very tightly. Traveler and Paimon are VERY twitchy, which is making everyone else worried.

Then they get out and Bosacius is free of the chasm (still dead and a ghost tho), Kaeya!Mc is doing better, and everyone is safe.

Now on to Inazuma and Bosacius is following!!

List of people who sees Kaeya!Mc: Traveler, Paimon, Hu Tao (a little less/weaker than Traveler and Paimon). (And Childe but that was once and for a very brief moment, after that he can’t anymore or even see them or sense him) Along with Bosacius but that doesn’t count because the Yaksha is also a ghost

List of people who can sense him and see a blurry figure: Dvalin, Azhdaha, Shenhe.

List of people who can sorta sense him and sorta see a blurry figure: Qiqi

List of people who sorta know something is there: Xiao and the other Adepti

I think that’s everyone. I don’t think this is as angsty as the last but it’s still not that good for Kaeya!Mc (I have a screwed perspective of Angst so your own opinion would be nice)

Anyways hope you liked it (and that it also makes sense) and that it lives up to your standards!!

I still want to wrap Kaeya!MC up in a blanket and hug them, but yeah, this part wasn't quite as angsty as part one... but it still hurt. At least Kaeya!MC now has another ghost companion/dad in Bosacius...😢

Tagging: @platinumrosetail, @arn9tails, @bloodytea, @lovelyjane-stuff

[shelterofmagnolias]

this might be my niche

[magnanimously-dull]

Hey Hoyo since we’re doing timey-wimey shit now, that means you have no excuses

LET ME HAVE MY YAKSHA TEAM

[xavestory]

The ultimate sacrifice.

from my Twitter.

[ashinaisshin]

就应你说的吧。从今往后，天下英雄永不陌路。 I accept your advice. From this day on, heroes will always look out for each other.